purplekow

There is no truth in opinion. You may certainly speak what is true for your taste. Assuming yours is the quintessential standard for taste is...well...in bad taste in my opinion.

My comrade in Forum, please start getting some. It does not get easier to get laid as you get older unless you hit the lottery or have major plastic surgery. So start using what you got. Perhaps expand your search radius and be more outgoing about seeking out partners. Perhaps you think, sex is not that important to me. I do not have that strong a libido. I can assure you, once you start getting it regularly you will look back and think: why the fuck was I waiting. Don't fear rejection. Everyone gets turned down, some of us get turned down again and again and again and again. Just as in baseball, you are an all star if you hit 300 and 250 is not bad.

I arrived in Palm Springs in February. I had two regulars in NJ I saw before I left for a total for 4 visits. So in Palm Springs I have seen only visitors to the area. No local regular. This has been replaced by Scruff hook up which have totaled 7. Two were coffee dates that did not go any further. The other 5 were all encounters at my home totalling 8 encounters. Scruff guys seem to be one and done type guys but two of them I have seen more than once but it takes a lot of effort to get them to come over. As far as hires go Two hot Columbians in their late 20s early thirties. Great fun. Total of 8 2 hour encounters which stretched out to more like 4 as they are not clock watchers. Usually have a meal afterwards which stretches the entire encounter to 6 hours or so. One was at my home for 5 visits including three days in a row and the other I meet at his hotel. for three visits. One muscle guy from San Diego who was okay but would not see again. Similar to the others, 2 hours planned stretching out further. Porn actor from LA. Saw him twice. Very hot muscle guy. Vers. He was two hours on the dot both times. Porn Actor Landon Conrad. Great first encounter. Tried to repeat but he cancelled trips to PS Would definitely hire again but only once he was actually in town. Traveller in from the east coast. Only saw once. His hotel. Usual 2 hours. Pictures were more favorable than real life but the sex was fun. Date with escort from the Pool Party went well. Too bad he went back to UK but I am hoping to have him for a longer visit if he returns. This was a good experience with someone I met in DC at a forum event but did not get to see. So it was unfinished business. We both finished. And the ever popular Tristan Baldwin spent a few days in my guest room, as did I. So in 10 months. 8 men hired for a total of 16 encounters. 8 men from Scruff 2 of those no goes and 2 of them multiple times to total 8. One pick up at the grocery story. 4 NJ visits. Averaging out to one encounter every 10 days but in reality there were weeks with 8 encounters and two months when I had friends and family visiting where there was nothing. Considering my senior status, think this is not bad but I definitely could have used more.

I kind of like it when a bottom is hard to pin down.

That is unfortunate. Take home lessons to be learned from this but it does not make you feel any better about it happening at all. Sort of like when people tell you you are lucky to have survived an accident. Lucky is when you do not have the accident at all.

Were you cheated or were the requirements of the meeting poorly realized or not made clear. If you were cheated, there would have been intent to give an unsatisfactory encounter. Miscommunication from provider to client or vice versa is not cheating. Not to say that kind of experience is acceptable, but if there is no intent, then both parties ought to examine how they are interacting. Now if you were mislead about the providers capabilities to satisfactorily relay the desired service or he did not do what he promised with intent, then indeed you were cheated. Feeling cheated and being cheated are not always equivalent.

Another thought about this, should you not wish to actually tell your partner directly. For the next significant occasion you have together, hire a bodybuilder stripper for his and your entertainment. If things go well, you can discuss that stripper specifically and then broaden the conversation. If it goes really well, you both will be enjoying a strip steak.

To paraphrase Lauren Bacall: You know how to get a hard on don't you, you just get your partner to put together his lips and blow.

Truth is I had never learned the term Villanelle nor knew of its strange rhythm and rhyme scheme. I gave myself an hour to write one and while it does not come near the power of Dylan Thomas and "The Dying of the Light" which was written to encourage his ailing father to fight on to live, it is not bad for a Forum populated by aging men looking to hold onto a shred of the sexuality they had in their youth and by the younger men who help them to do that. If you care to try to write a Villanelle, post your efforts.

Villanelle said in the Company of Men Life's greatest gift from shave to grave Unabiding zestful carnality Never to be lost to an indifferent wave. Imprisoned desire as a lustful knave Wastefully misunderstanding life's cruel reality Life's greatest gift from shave to grave Believing to be granted all he may crave Suffusing the present with indiscriminate banality Never to be lost to an indifferent wave. With maturity one may opt to behave Or bestow a unique open mentality Life's greatest gift from shave to grave Senescence demands each to be brave To live fully and appreciate inevitable mortality Never to be lost to an indifferent wave. Visit me buried and read the engraved Words said just before my finality Life's greatest gift from shave to grave Never to be lost to an indifferent wave.

I would like to add a positive note to the sturm and drang and reminiscences of glory days. This year has been a great year for sex for me, both bought and paid for and offered as a mutual benefit. I have relaxed and taken an active role in pursuing and that has worked surprisingly well. I have been active in working out and in losing some weight but most importantly, I have been more confident in my approach to sex and in my willingness to face inevitable rejections. Just the other day in the gym a very well built, late 30s year old man walked in to the steam room and basically scouted out the area and turned and left. Rather than looking upon this as a nice distraction and basically a fantasy, I walked out and in the locker room, struck up a conversation with him. We spoke for a few minutes and so ended that encounter. Several days later, our paths at the gym crossed again and as he was leaving the locker room he stopped to speak with me. When I finished dressing, I found him hanging around in the lounge area. We talked again and I invited him for dinner and so we are to have dinner next week. Now this dinner may or may not happen and it may or may not go further, but there is a much better chance of something happening then there would have been if I was just another old man sitting and recalling what used to be. As I have aged, my libido and my imagination are just as active as they have ever been. In this year, and for 2026 and beyond, I intend to allow my actions to be just as active. I do not expect to have young studs falling at my feet or to be having all night sessions with a variety of dashing gentlemen, but I have decided not to go quietly into that gentle good night. I intend to rage against the dying of light, hopefully with the occasional raging hard on to satisfy, both my partner's and my own.

If you cannot speak honestly with your partner about your desires and needs, then perhaps you need to either find a new partner or have more faith in the one you have. You might open the conversation by saying you have certain turn ons that you would like to discuss and ask him if he is willing to speak to yours and tell you his. If either of these answers are no, you have bigger problems than his acceptance of your bodybuilding desire. If he says yes, then you have taken a giant step into coming to a place where you have a more open and trusting relationship and perhaps closer to rubbing your body against a hard muscular body/.

It is a nice idea to hire someone for an hour just to meet. For me though, I would hire for an hour, talk for 30 minutes and if there is no connection, call it a day and if there was a connection, I would pin him up against a wall and ravage him for 30 minutes.

I have several regulars who are never on time. However, they are traveling and as long as they put forward an effort when we are together, I am fine with the delay. I have come to expect it and plan accordingly. AS they are coming to my home. I always have other things I can do while waiting. I have one regular who cancels at the last minute more than half the time but more than makes up for it the other half. I just have back up plans for any time I have an appointment with him and I long ago stopped getting upset about it. Yes I am disappointed when it happens, but I also know that it is like being edged, eventually the frustration I feel now will result in a bigger explosion of joy later on. In this case, pay for the time you spend together and enjoy that. Disappointment can be washed away with a great orgasm. If you have already paid him, on the way out, I would mention that the session was great but you are disappointed that it was less time than you had originally planned and any lost time from your time together makes the difference between a memorable session and one, like today's, merely great. Big kiss on the way out and perhaps something like: See what you missed out on.

Could it be that Jace Starr did not like the direction it took as my interaction with him might suggest that could be the case.

It was indeed a book Little Timmy Thomas in the land of the Hairy Giants. As it is obvious from the photo, it Timmy had a good end and the Giants, a happy ending.

First variation could be Bear Durham where the older career minor leaguer has an ongoing relationship with the minor league male groupie. The rising star is elevated to Triple A and immediately has feeling for the career Triple A player and also hooks up with the team groupie. Of course the career minor leaguer is a pitcher and the upcoming star is a switch hitting power catcher. Ultimately the pitcher and the catcher get together only to have the catcher brought up to the major leagues. The story writes itself based on the movie. The pitcher of course as in the movie has to wear the underwear of the groupie which allows him to relax and achieve his potential. Based on a fellow I have knowledge of who was a gay professinal umpire who was umpiring in the major leagues, the minor league version could cast the umpire in a more negative role as his long time crush on the career minor leaguer is thwarted by the upcoming star. Hell I could write six episodes this week without ever mentioning the words balls.

Some posts are low quality and that is my snobbish opinion.

This is a genre I find enjoyable and as a result I am probably enjoying this show a bit more than others. The set up is that four strangers in NY meet at a local bar and become friends without realizing how intertwined each life has been with the others prior to their meeting and how unknown connections continue to manifest. To start for example, a rock is knocked off the top of a building and strikes a man in the head. In reality, the rock would have done much more damage than it does in this show but that is not really the point. That rock is eventually on a path in Central park and tripped on by a woman running who has just lost her job as a record producer who removes her headphones and hears a woman singing and playing guitar. The guitar was found by the player after it was left in the park by an singer who decided to give up singing and pursue another occupation and decided to give up music. This person, was scouted by the record producer who tripped on the stone and was interested in signing him before she lost her job. She did not get to speak to him before he left and that night left the guitar. The web gets more and more involved with the coincidences and close encounters and unknown 6 degrees of separation. The characters are interesting. The sorries are a bit mundane but the conceit of the premise makes it interesting, much the way the characters in Lost had connections they did not know they had. Long intro to a short premise. Season 1 8 40 minute episodes. Not much in the way of sex or beefcake.

Feliz Navidad (Merry Christmas) that is just to cover the guideline that we do not post in a language other than English. Errymay Masxmay as the pork in ancient Rome used to say.

I guess in the age of full disclosure such information might have some point but ultimately, even if your blood was totally normal, there is some risk of multiple myeloma or myelodysplasia. An elevated MCV has very few causes the most come far and away is idiopathic, essentially you just have it. Folate deficiency especially in heavy alcohol users, B12 deficiency, folate inhibitory drugs, and very rare blood cancers are other causes. Unless your doctor was Dr. Google, I am hard pressed as to why this very very very tiny nugget, though true, was slipped in to annoy your consciousness.

That man is cute but that woman is exquisite.

This degree of anemia is inconsequential for the most part as long as there are no related symptoms. It may be related to drugs or simply a result of aging process, chronic disease or mild bone marrow suppression from other causes. As long as you are not symptomatic and as long as this is not worsening, this is not anything to get concerned about unduly. Have your blood count checked regularly and perhaps a reticulocyte count to make sure your body is producing enough new red blood cells. An MCV value may shed some light as to the cause and it is usually reported with the complete blood count. Should the count continue to fall significantly or if symptoms appear, then a full evaluation would be warranted. It does not seem as though your physician felt too much concern but perhaps you should have a brief discussion with your provider as to the nature of your concern. As SirBillybob suggested, stopping the drug might give you an answer as to whether it is the cause of this mild anemia, but the risk of that is certainly greater than the mild degree of anemia you now have.

While I can understand that you do not want to cause a stir while alive by informing friends and family of your inclinations, I wonder what your rationale is for keeping that secret to the grave. I think that most closeted men have friends and family who have some idea that there are additional aspects to the life that those men have presented to the world. Do you believe that the truth of those details would tarnish your post mortem image? Do you think that they would wonder why you were not honest about it? Do you feel that those you leave behind will be shocked or angry or feel betrayed? As for me, I have not made any arrangements for my computers, telephone or other devices. While I would not invite my friends and family to come and read my posts here while I am alive, I think they might gather insight into me reading those posts after I am gone. I doubt anyone would be interested in all 15000 or so postings. I must admit however, I have stumbled across posts fromyears priors and some of them are almost like reading something someone else wrote. I have considered getting them all printed out and making an erotic autobiography for my enjoy and hopefully for the enjoyment of others. After all, many people enjoy a scandalous recount of the exploits of the recently departed.

So instead of just haunting us the old fashioned way, you will be texting and posting from beyond?