Things that Awakened or Re-Affirmed That I Am Gay...

[+ MysticMenace]

Dragon Ball - Trunks and Android 17

[+ MysticMenace]

Street Fighter - Ryu and Ken

[+ MysticMenace]

Matt Camden on 7th Heaven

[CheckCar]

Late 70s, pre-surgeries MJ. This man was so gorgeous. Shame he couldn’t see his beauty.

 

[+ WilliamM]

@Benjamin_Nicholas

 

Had my first dream about him last night

[+ MysticMenace]

1 minute ago, WilliamM said:

@Benjamin_Nicholas

 

Had my first dream about him last night

sounds like this deserves its own post - what happened in that dream, @WilliamM?

[+ WilliamM]

2 hours ago, JoeMendoza said:

sounds like this deserves its own post - what happened in that dream, @WilliamM?

Wasn't sexual. I remember liking him  

[+ BenjaminNicholas]

2 hours ago, WilliamM said:

@Benjamin_Nicholas

 

Had my first dream about him last night

There better have been a musical number involved....  With a decent fucking strings and brass section.

And you bet your ass we had a whole soft-shoe interlude.

[jjkrkwood]

11 hours ago, Benjamin_Nicholas said:

There better have been a musical number involved....  With a decent fucking strings and brass section.

And you bet your ass we had a whole soft-shoe interlude.

Perhaps Sir @Benjamin_Nicholascan make an appearance on Zoeys Extraordinary Playlist, but in a jockstrap and workboots ?    Wait a minute, that's MY dream.... 🤪

[Rod Hagen]

On 7/8/2021 at 6:44 PM, JoeMendoza said:

Dragon Ball - Trunks and Android 17

 

Somewhere along the line I lost the story.  I thought Cell ate Android 17 and the Dragon said he couldn't bring him back, but now in SuperDragonBall A17's alive and taking care of Animals in a sanctuary.  At what point were they able to resurrect him and how?

[+ MysticMenace]

2 hours ago, Rod Hagen said:

Somewhere along the line I lost the story.  I thought Cell ate Android 17 and the Dragon said he couldn't bring him back, but now in SuperDragonBall A17's alive and taking care of Animals in a sanctuary.  At what point were they able to resurrect him and how?

oh gosh, it's been forever since I watched the DB / DBZ / DB GT series...but I thought he was resurrected twice - I think the time with Cell, he essentially blew up when Cell decided to self-destruct at King Kai's planet, but I thought the Dragon was able to resurrect everybody that was killed by Cell. And I think the second time he was resurrected was something similar but for those who was killed by Buu. but idk, I could be  conflating all those dragon ball wishes.

[BonVivant]

Mark Wahlberg Calvin Klein ad. Couldn’t get enough of it. It worked. Went and bought some Calvin Klein underwear. 😝 

 

[Luv2play]

Two things I remember vividly back when I was around 8 yo. The pictures of naked natives in the National Geographic magazines in my older brother's bedroom. The men's photos with tight butts turned me on and the pictures of women with pendulous breasts turned me off.

The second was an incident when a man in a dark overcoat opened his fly to piss behind a column in front of the museum entrance where I was waiting for my mother to pick me up. He had an enormous schlong and didn't see me peering at him from behind another column. I was mesmerized by his cock.

[Cure69]

I found this discussion online in search of some guidance, please. I'm straight (and having a midlife crisis), but today, I had my first experience as a bottom with a trans woman. I enjoyed a lot but I keep wishing it was with a man. I can't stop thinking about the experience. I want to say: "What does this mean?" But I really don't think I'm gay ... I'm in a crisis, please help.

[CuriousByNature]

1 hour ago, Cure69 said:

I found this discussion online in search of some guidance, please. I'm straight (and having a midlife crisis), but today, I had my first experience as a bottom with a trans woman. I enjoyed a lot but I keep wishing it was with a man. I can't stop thinking about the experience. I want to say: "What does this mean?" But I really don't think I'm gay ... I'm in a crisis, please help.

I'm certainly not an expert in the ways of romance myself, by anyone's definition.  Nor do I know what your current life situation may be and how this might affect others around you - so what I offer is just some general ideas for what they might be worth.  I would strongly suggest taking a deep breath and do not let your anxiety get the better of you by trying to figure out what it all means right away.  Take the time that you need to understand more clearly what it is that you are seeking, without necessarily putting a label (straight, gay, bisexual) on it, and proceed in a way and at a pace that is within your comfort zone.  Be mindful of risks and safety, conduct yourself respectfully and honourably, and remember that while your own journey is unique, many others have likely been in similar situations and have come through with flying colours.  Peace.

[Cure69]

6 hours ago, CuriousByNature said:

I'm certainly not an expert in the ways of romance myself, by anyone's definition.  Nor do I know what your current life situation may be and how this might affect others around you - so what I offer is just some general ideas for what they might be worth.  I would strongly suggest taking a deep breath and do not let your anxiety get the better of you by trying to figure out what it all means right away.  Take the time that you need to understand more clearly what it is that you are seeking, without necessarily putting a label (straight, gay, bisexual) on it, and proceed in a way and at a pace that is within your comfort zone.  Be mindful of risks and safety, conduct yourself respectfully and honourably, and remember that while your own journey is unique, many others have likely been in similar situations and have come through with flying colours.  Peace.

This was an incredibly helpful response, thank you so much 😌

I appreciate how you called this a personal journey and I've been on this journey for many years, only until yesterday have I been able to make physical contact with someone I felt comfortable enough to explore.

I also appreciate you mentioning the use of labels such as straight, gay, bi, etc., that's very helpful for me to just go with what I'm feeling inside but of course in a responsible way.

Thanks again for the response, it was more helpful than you might think.

[CuriousByNature]

13 minutes ago, Cure69 said:

This was an incredibly helpful response, thank you so much 😌

I appreciate how you called this a personal journey and I've been on this journey for many years, only until yesterday have I been able to make physical contact with someone I felt comfortable enough to explore.

I also appreciate you mentioning the use of labels such as straight, gay, bi, etc., that's very helpful for me to just go with what I'm feeling inside but of course in a responsible way.

Thanks again for the response, it was more helpful than you might think.

I'm thankful my words were helpful... take care and keep us posted on your journey if you are comfortable doing so. 

[Cure69]

2 minutes ago, CuriousByNature said:

I'm thankful my words were helpful... take care and keep us posted on your journey if you are comfortable doing so. 

Absolutely, I will stay in touch. I'm glad I found this forum, one day in and I don't feel as "burdened" as I did yesterday. My first physical experience yesterday is still heavy on my mind (in a positive way) and so I think I'll be moving forward on this journey (just don't know how), organically, I guess.

I've decided to explore more on this forum, I'm surprised at how informative it is!

[+ Charlie]

6 hours ago, Cure69 said:

Absolutely, I will stay in touch. I'm glad I found this forum, one day in and I don't feel as "burdened" as I did yesterday. My first physical experience yesterday is still heavy on my mind (in a positive way) and so I think I'll be moving forward on this journey (just don't know how), organically, I guess.

I've decided to explore more on this forum, I'm surprised at how informative it is!

In the early years of this website (at the beginning of the century) I became good friends with a man who had recently started posting here. He was in his early 60s, happily married, with grown children and grandchildren, and had never had sex with another man, but he knew there was something about that possibility which intrigued him. He met an escort who posted on this site, who was kind and sensitive as well as young and attractive, with whom he had his first male-with-male sexual experience. Unfortunately, he was still trying to figure out what to make of this experience, when his wife found out about it and forced the issue, to the point that he and his wife separated, and his family knew why. He left the town in which he had been a pillar of the community, and began a new life; some of the changes were desired, and others were not.

I don't know what your situation is, but wherever your journey takes you, you should be prepared for the likelihood that your life will probably change, positively and negatively, in ways that you may not anticipate. Be ready to ride the wave.

[Cure69]

6 hours ago, Charlie said:

In the early years of this website (at the beginning of the century) I became good friends with a man who had recently started posting here. He was in his early 60s, happily married, with grown children and grandchildren, and had never had sex with another man, but he knew there was something about that possibility which intrigued him. He met an escort who posted on this site, who was kind and sensitive as well as young and attractive, with whom he had his first male-with-male sexual experience. Unfortunately, he was still trying to figure out what to make of this experience, when his wife found out about it and forced the issue, to the point that he and his wife separated, and his family knew why. He left the town in which he had been a pillar of the community, and began a new life; some of the changes were desired, and others were not.

I don't know what your situation is, but wherever your journey takes you, you should be prepared for the likelihood that your life will probably change, positively and negatively, in ways that you may not anticipate. Be ready to ride the wave.

This forum was well worth signing up for, my word!

Thank you for sharing this experience. It's been a couple days now and all I can do is think about my [bottom] experience; I enjoyed it so much and I'm already trying to have another (feeling desperate at times thinking about how and what I could have done better).

That said, I've taken pause for the reality that things in my life have certainly changed. I'm in a married man to my wife of 15 years and have one daughter. I honestly don't know how my life will now develop but it has certainly taken a quick turn.

The experience you've shared, I'm sure is a reality for most, I dream about keeping my life the way it is but I also dream about a life of more exploration (preferably with a gay man (or a man only interested in having relationships with other men [sounds the same, I know, but I'm still trying to figure this all out]).

I'm hoping for the best, expecting a bumpy ride, wishing to make connections here and possibly link up with someone in the NY/NJ area interested in mentoring a 40 something year old who sometimes feel entirely lost.

Thanks again @Charlie
 Your contribution is very much appreciated, sincerely.

[+ Charlie]

I think it is human nature to assume that we all think and feel the same way, and everyone fits into neat categories. The reality is rather different. I understood who I was and what I wanted from the time I was in my teens; other people's experience obviously differs. Most people are uncomfortable when they can't firmly label themselves, or when the labels they have chosen don't stick. If you can, try to relax and explore first.

 

BTW, those who are close to you, especially your wife and child, have labels for you, too, and they will be confused and upset when theirs don't stick to you either.  Be gentle with them.

Edited July 15, 2021 by Charlie

[+ WilliamM]

Back to subject, as the hall monitor would say.

 

I saw Judy Garland at Boston Garden in October 1961. My fate was sealed as an 18 year old 

No opening act

[Gadfly22]

 

Awakened:

On 5/30/2021 at 1:29 PM, JEC said:

• James at 15

I had such a crush on Lance Kerwin. Didn't they show him taking a shower in the opening credits? That's what did it for me!

Affirmed:

This crazy Russian flick:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Student_(2016_film)

Lots of gratuitous nudity and a gay subplot.

 

[Gadfly22]

On 5/28/2021 at 10:13 PM, JoeMendoza said:

• Shirtless neighbors playing basketball in my subdivision

Love this. I've been going for pandemic walks with my neighbor since last August and at some point we happened on a local park with a basketball court. When the weather warmed up we started seeing young guys shooting hoops. Around May there was one guy in particular I was drawn to. That day I only saw his arms and the back of his head but I was still smitten. Since then I've seen him there many times (he's really cute) but never shirtless. This past Saturday I went for a bike ride and as I rode through the park I saw him there by himself shooting baskets. It had been a hot day but it was late afternoon and the sky was darkening like it was going to rain so I decided to finish my ride and come back to the park and see if he was still there. About 5 minutes after I left the park it started raining lightly so I turned around and came back. He was still there but everyone else had left so it was just me and him. I felt silly just watching him so I started to bike home. As I did the rain started to lighten up and I thought I must be crazy. This may be the only chance I get to be alone with him so I went back to the park entrance; he was still there. I hung out there for about 5 minutes wondering what, if anything I could do and finally decided to bike the oval around the perimeter of the park. Halfway around I had to decide if I wanted to take the shortcut through the center or continue around. The shortcut goes right to the basketball court so rather than be too obvious I kept going around. By the time I completed the loop and was back at the basketball court he was gone. I stopped and looked around - he was walking down the shortcut that I had declined to take. If I had we would definitely made eye contact. But what made it more excruciating was he had taken his shirt off and draped it around his neck. Is it possible he did this just for me? He must have seen me biking the loop and knew I would be coming around and I had never seen him go shirtless even on much hotter days. I thought momentarily about following him but that would have been uber creepy so I just went home. Not even a minute later it started pouring rain. Apropos. Anyway I'll be going for a bike ride in a little while and I'll probably pass through the park. If anyone has any advice on how to proceed I'd appreciate it. Wow this is a long post I'm sure no one will read it but I just had to tell someone.

[mkm556]

I for one enjoyed reading this and await your next move 😉