SeattleWorkingMan

My worst experience turned into my best. One of my favorite providers (who I hadn't seen for years) came to town. I scheduled him two days out (giving myself time to totally get over a cold). The day before, he texted to cancel--he had decided to leave town early. The man that I scheduled instead was incredible, and I've seen him two other times. 2025 was a good year.

I was on my back. He really knows what he's doing, only minor discomfort and then pure bliss! He is low key, made me feel safe so I trusted him and was able to relax and enjoy the ride

He scares the fuck out of me. And turns me on something fierce.

Adding to the list here of porn stars I’ve met. TBH a lot of them were pricey but 100000% worth it.
 
- Cade Maddox, sweet and kind in person and definitely performed. Would do this again… and again. 
 
- Axel Rockham, loved him. Sweet, sexy. Not the most hung but damn. That man is massive. 
 
- Cutler X, loved him, too. Huge and sweet in person. 
 
overall I have had pretty good experiences with most porn stars. 

My worst experience turned into my best. One of my favorite providers (who I hadn't seen for years) came to town. I scheduled him two days out (giving myself time to totally get over a cold). The day before, he texted to cancel--he had decided to leave town early. The man that I scheduled instead was incredible, and I've seen him two other times. 2025 was a good year.

2025 was a pretty good year for me regarding providers. Most of my sessions were excellent. They were a mix of ones I had seen previously and a few new ones, maybe 5 or so. 
One was  a regular and we did mostly overnights. He is great and I will continue to see him. One I was ultimately disappointed in but maybe we weren’t a good fit so no recriminations. 
Of the newbies, they were all good but one I wouldn’t repeat. Just not a good fit.
In all I had a great year for a 77/78 yo. 

Thank you for saying that to all of us.  I don't think the world would be a worse place if we all thought we were more loved that we initially realized and more lovable than we initially believed. You are sweet to remind us of our own beauty.

As a 2-decade niceGuy escort, I can tell you your thinking is wrong.  We are paid, and it's not an act.  Both are true. 
 
It's genuine fun and passion that just happens to be paid.  (Ok, those providers who say "I love you" without being asked to, that's laying it on thick) What is getting in the way of it being a long term thing is not that we were/are acting, it's that we aren't an option because of our work and most of the time neither are you because "fill in the blank".
Don't "move on" by telling yourself it was an act.  What a horrible thing to do to yourself, and horrible way to think of him.  Rather, remind yourself that it was good, it is good, and it can not be for many very real reasons.  All those things are true and unchangeable.

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

This is the answer 😍

If you are a fan, you may be interested.
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Not quite always the case though. There's a guy who goes by https://rentmen.eu/Xandre and he's from Brazil. a client booked us both for a session. I won't kiss and tell but, let's just say I was still horny for days after I bust 🤣 . So, even though I know there may be some merit in the stereotype, it may not apply to all
Exactly. In fact, I actually find many clients are POPULAR and either have partners or wives, kids, grandkids, etc. etc. Sometimes I wish I could model the lifestyle my clients have, but I also realize it's different levels of spectrum. What may seem like an ideal lifestyle during the day, may not be so
Wait.
wait.
Stop.
Back up.
Rewind. 
 
Let's just start here: having a workout routine is no guarantee of "free" companionship. First off. Secondly, there's still no guarantee you would have met any of those guys you mentioned, "for free" even if you were Brad Pitt, Arnold in the 80s, or Bradley Cooper WITH the dick of Cutler X combined...I am in shape, have done lots of work on my body, dental, personality, money/cars, you name it: and I STILL have a hard time finding the relationship I want. The only difference is, I get guys easier than I used to. However, most of the guys are in just for sex or "what can you do for me" bullshit...which is why I stay escorting. I already know most gay guys out there either want sex or someone to use. The people who manage to stay in relationships, usually have found a way to either tolerate it, or incorporate that into something meaningful.  
I also don't "hookup" just to hookup. I have so many guys hitting me up on the apps. Some of them have hit me up on RentMen and been a client. Even one the other day, cute face, body was not impeccable but not out of shape, early 30s. Not bad by any means. But I wouldn't of met him "for free" because I was traveling and I came for the purpose of meeting clients. So, he wouldn't of met me for free, because I wasn't offering that to begin with. And if I wasn't an escort, he'd of never met me because I wouldn't of traveled there for any other reason except at the invention of me being a traveling escort.
Some things in life: are on a biblical level of understanding. It involves a degree of cause and effect 😆
I have to say, for your benefit: there's nothing you need to regret. You did it, and now you don't. That's the challenge in life, decisions. I make them all the time, and regret them...all the time. But at the end of the day, you decided what you decide based on the best knowledge you have of the situation at the time. In your case, your decisions were based on WHICH and HOW to find the best escorts, not IF you should be hiring in the first place. 
 
I'll also say where you might have gone wrong: 100+ guys in your 30s is an exorbitant number of escort hires. Some of my best and longest clients were those who had only hired once or twice previously. If you're hiring 100s and hadn't stuck to a regular, there's certainly something blocking you. And in my opinion, a person like that (not saying you, but in general) would likely be a problem client: likely to flake or be disrespectful because, it's a numbers game. It's like the shitty clients who say, "I'll call someone else" when I tell them my rates or that I'm not available until a certain time. Well fucking call someone else, good luck with that, and you're now blocked 😄 
 
It's okay to have variety, but similar to the Grindr circuit: if you're just hooking up with new guys (even if it's for free)  every day/week...you're going to burn out and your experiences won't be fulfilling. So handle that. Maybe down the line (and this is not being funny, because I'm in counseling also and it's not a bad thing), perhaps you can take sessions with someone who can direct you in the right direction. You can stop seeing providers, but it may still help to read self help books and see a counselor on certain issues. 

CutlerX, no doubts. Would give anything to meet him.

You asked, "how often." For the seven times that I've been with my amazing 11+ guy, it happened once. We met out-of-town when our schedules happened to overlap, and I didn't have my routine douche equipment with me. He was a total pro and since the excess-water-too-much-too-deep spilled onto the floor and not onto him or me, he kept going; we were having a hot time. 
Thankfully, I know my guts and my routine works--once he used a 14-to-16-inch toy on me and I was proud to say that it remained squeaky clean. 
A suggestion: take along your enema kit. Once, as we fucked, he paused to say, "You feel a bit gritty. How about another douche?" It was a quick follow-up to my regular routine, and we were back at it comfortably for a couple more hours. 
Thank you, skilled tops for understanding!

It happens quite often. I’m hung, which seems to cause messiness sometimes. It’s cool, just stop, clean off and then carry on. I won’t rim after an accident down there though. 

When I film porn with guys who bottom regularly sometimes there’s an accident just the same as when I see clients who might be inexperienced bottoms so there’s no need to be embarrassed about it. 
I remember I saw a client one time at his hotel. We’d massaged etc and he wanted to fuck me (all this had been agreed previously so I was ready). I don’t usually bottom but if it’s arranged beforehand and agreed as part of the massage it’s all good. At this point in the story I’ll warn you to not be eating as you read my post, whether that’s eating food or ass….Oh and I’ll add at this point too that I was wearing a new pair or white adidas socks which I was really attached to. The socks are important. 
Anyway… the client (I’d seen him before)  wanted to try various positions in this session on the bed which was all fine. I think he wanted to re-enact scenes he’d seen in porn. I’m flexible and did my bit getting into some quite impractical positions but hey, it’s a job….
Then he wanted to do me doggy as I leant over the end of the bed. As I’m  bent over looking at the headboard he’s pumping away behind me when all of a sudden I feel a bit different and uncomfortable. He senses this and stops thrusting, then he pulls out quickly (not a good idea). Instantly there’s a cascade of dirty water from my ass all over the carpet, and my socks which bore the brunt of it. The client has jumped back and is now panicking about the mess. I’m standing in a brown mess, my socks ruined, the carpet, previously a nice cream colour is now muddy brown, and I sense that the session is probably now over….and so are my socks. 
I tell my client to go and get some towels from the bathroom and as he’s in there I’m peeling off my socks and have grabbed a towel off the massage table to wipe my bum. Anyway, we clean up as best we can and fortunately most of the stain comes out of the carpet. The client is staying in that room overnight so he’s anxious it’s all cleaned up ok. 

Fortunately after we’ve tidied up he can now see the funny side and we spend a while chatting on the bed, both naked but somehow the horn has gone. I didn’t like to check with him whether he’d cum or not but he seemed satisfied and paid etc. I dumped my socks and the brown stained towels in the bin as I left the hotel.
I think the douche (which was done at least 4 hours earlier, and which had been clear) had probably resulted in some water getting trapped in my passage and it was disturbed by the regular changes of position. I’d used a shower attachment to douche and had probably used too high pressure (you learn…). It’s usually best if you’re anxious about making a mess to avoid too many different positions and avoid keep pulling out. Once it’s in, keep it in, if possible, and if there’s a risk of mess don’t wear new socks. 

Some reasons off the top of my head: 
- awareness. Many may not know about It. 
- benefit. There really isn’t any. You can run a successful business and not participate. 
- this forum really isn’t for us. Even the “ask a provider” section. We get talked over (“not a provider, but…”) talked about by people that hide behind screen names and profile pics, and the questions asked either force us to frame ourselves in negative light, or are just someone looking to validate something they’re already gonna do.
- anything you say, can and will be held against you. Sometimes it’s best for us to just be quiet. That’s why I participate much less than I used to, and often just lurk to keep up. 
 
hope that helps!

Another interesting question. 
 
originally I wanted to go by my pen name that I (used to) write for gay.fleshbot.com, and my own blog under, which was Garridan P. Faxton. 

garridan translates to “you hid” and I like names with x In them. It was the perfect pen name that coincided with the original name of my porn blog. I also wanted it for brand building when people googled that name. 
 
but my BFF Jeremy Davis (some of y’all know him) veto’s it. 

so when we were setting up my profiles I had to brainstorm. 
 
shawn is part of my middle name. Monroe comes from a boy I used to talk to online that I was rather smitten with. Not his real last name, but kind of a symbolism that has stood behind standing behind a name for a better part of my life. 

Also… my profile has traveled with me in the past as I normally spend 6 months or better outside of the country working abroad~ In 2017, I had to create a European profile on RM because the site would not let me bring my profile back into the states after traveling abroad for two months~ They locked my profile in Croatia and it was “a process” moving back to the states~ They made me create a second profile that is euro based~ So, I have two profiles on RM~ Tygerscent and AAAtygerscentxxx

Consider that if you offer your emotions and feelings to another, (regardless of who they are), do so without attachment~ Give it freely without expectation of return~ If it is returned you can be appreciative and grateful... if not returned you have neither exceeded your expectations nor missed something you didn’t have to begin with~ Either way, the result is that you will have both loved and lived, (Lovingly)~
~Tyger~

Hopefully that guy's ready for more.

Can attest to having felt like my face was being eaten off.
 
One of the best ways to describe the behavior from the other end, at least in my experience, is that they feel that kissing is just putting their tongue in someone else’s mouth and moving it around vigorously. Or just licking anything it comes in contact with.
 
Many times you just get your nose, teeth, face forehead licked, or they lunge at you tongue-already-out, and it can be hard to meet them halfway.
 
Don’t get me wrong though - many clients are great kissers.
 
One thing I try to keep in mind is to lead with the lips, not the tongue; the tongue will eventually follow.

Ask a good mate you trust and smack a good one on them, they’ll tell you. If someone has never told you you’re a phenomenal kisser, you probably are not.
 
Truthfully, I loveee a transparent and honest client. Clients are so afraid to say I’m not good at x, y, z to an escort. You’re not getting paid to be good at anything you do, we are. I would much rather a client say, “how’s my kissing?” Or “how was that?” Or “I’m not sure I’m the best kisser” and I aid you in your “technique” rather than aggressively having my face eaten and being turned off. Really. Speak up.

I've had powerful connections with escorts without either of us cumming (or not him or not me). It is possible to experience the joy without the juice! Being a bottom who loves passionate foreplay and a powerful fuck, I sometimes experience anal orgasm without ejaculation. When a man makes me feel special by exploring me inside and varying the ways he stimulates my prostrate, I'm happy.

Me too. I've always enjoyed the handsfree orgasm from anal sex, both in porn and the few times it's happened to me in real life.

Both have their perks.
I enjoy my regulars that I get to see when our travel schedules align. The familiarity in another setting makes for something special.
 
But there will always exist the allure of a new connection.