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As others have intimated, Gman, you are not the problem. The "problem" is that you have not yet found the right therapist. Also, you may be misunderstanding the purpose of therapy. "Insight" into your problems might be helpful, but I've never found insight to be very therapeutic. A person may know that he is unhappy b/c his mom never gave him much love, but how does that knowledge improve his life? Therapy is actually about one thing: CHANGE. If you're not changing things about yourself (how you think, how you act, how you live your daily life), nothing's gonna happen. And, most people (myself included) don't want to change. Even if our lives are miserable, better the devil we know. But, IMHO, if you really want to get better, you're gonna have to start changing some things. I'm not sure what those changes are -- but that is what you and your therapist need to find out. It's not a cliché - if nothing changes, nothing changes. True story: as a therapist, I worked with a middle-aged man years ago who was horribly depressed - he had been laid off from his job and had no family support. He lost his will to live. He said he had no purpose in life. I was pretty sure he was going to end it all. At the end of one session, I asked him to "do something different this week" - I don't care what it is, just do something different." Lo and behold, he went to the community center where he sat and watched others play ping-pong. Then, someone challenged him to a game. Next thing you know he's going every day to play ping-pong. He started making a few friends. He started to gain weight. And for the first time, I saw him smile. He still had his "down periods" but they were fewer and further apart. Small changes sometimes make a big difference.

Psychotropic meds should be prescribed by a Board Certified psychiatrist. However, meds which are Rx for depression, after a patient has been stable on anti-depressants for at least 6-12 months, can generally be Rx by a family doc - it usually saves $$$ for the patient and it frees up time for the psychiatrist to see patients with more complicated Dx. Patients with Bipolar D/O should always be seen by a psychiatrist since Bipolar meds often require blood level checks - and b/c patients with Bipolar are notorious for going off their meds (although these patients don't like the depressive side of their illness, they often look forward to the manic episode which gives them a sense of power, creativity, and increased energy - it's also the time when they often end up in the psych ward or police station. Also, Bipolar meds often produce "emotional flattening or emotional numbness" and often have some nasty side-effects). As far as talk therapy, it would be wise to ask around for recommendations. However, a particular therapist may be excellent for client X but not client Y. Some therapists specialize in certain therapeutic perspectives and interventions (e.g. CBT, DBT, Rogerian, Solution-Focused, etc.) that may be efficacious for Depressive disorders but not for Personality disorders (e.g. you wouldn't go to an Orthopedist for an ear infection). There are various stages of the therapeutic process, so give your therapist time to establish a therapeutic relationship and to implement and monitor various interventions. Unless you find your therapist totally repugnant or off-putting (and doesn't actually take time to "hear" you), give him/her at least several sessions before you jump ship. Remember that the best predictor of a positive therapeutic outcome is the therapeutic relationship - if people like and trust their therapist, they generally get better (over time). However, if you're not making any progress after 8-12 sessions, please discuss this lack of progress with your therapist for either a change in interventions, or perhaps a referral to another therapist. A competent therapist will not take this as a personal rejection and will welcome a patient's desire to "get better." Finally, most talk therapy is paid for by insurance. These insurance companies meticulously read the scientific outcome studies about which therapeutic interventions are most effective. And many outcome studies indicate that time-limited, cognitive-behavioral interventions are the most cost-effective. Therefore, most insurance will authorize 12-16 sessions but require documentation of progress or change in treatment goals after the initial approval. Unless you are willing to pay out-of-pocket, keep in mind that spending years in therapy (and sometimes clients/therapists get stuck in "problem-of-the-day" sessions instead of working on treatment goals) are a thing of the past.

Happened to me recently in ATL - just as we were face-to-nuts he whips out a papa-stopper and wraps his dong. A total turn-off. Like munching on a candy bar with the wrapper still on.

I'm not sure if Chaturbate is amongst the sites to which you are referring, but it seems like I read that "models" on that site get 5 cents for each credit you donate. So, if 200 credits are $21 on Chaturbate, it's about a 50/50 split between "model" and owner of web site. I suspect (and I certainly don't know for sure) that a 30/70 or 50/50 split is probably close to the norm for these types of enterprises. And, I agree that that Latinos, especially Columbians, seem to be over-represented, at least on Chaturbate - and they are some of the hottest 'Baters on the site.

Maybe she thought you had a vocation to the clergy?

How can you videotape someone visiting porn sites on a computer? Ridiculous.

Now this is "over the top"

And yet, when humans kill other species for "sport" no one ever suggests that they be "put down." http://www.animalideology.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/06/donaldtrumpjr.jpg

ABC News Correspondent Gio Benitez and husband Tommy DiDario - not sure about "Best Gay Couple" but one of the hottest

"Maggie Mae the fox, Elmo the emu and four alpacas -- Noel, Micia, Alexandria, and Lil Melody -- did not survive their encounter with Valerio. Three other animals were hurt -- an alpaca named Daisy and two foxes, Copper and Rusty." --- The Times Picayune Zookeepers (and visitors) get to where these "animals" are like family members. Sad. Very sad.

I wouldn't mind being a slut. I'm just lacking the opportunities.

The Courier-Journal in Louisville is $28 a month (daily home delivery). Not bad except for one fact: half its news comes from other Gannett sources such as The Cincinnati Enquirer and The Indianapolis Star. I really don't care to read about a new dorm opening at the University of Cincinnati or that there was a traffic wreck on 465 in Castleton, Indy. The Sunday "Entertainment Section" now consists of four pages, half of which are ads. Being Louisville, the "Sports Section' is usually substantial, but you can get the scores off the Internet. Having canceled my subscription a few months ago, the only part of the Courier that I miss is Rex Morgan, MD, which I have read for years.

Don't they indicate that there's two of them? "Hot Jocks." Each genetically built and equipped to satiate any whim or craving. Titulating experiences, reviewed! We are “hott little muscle numbers”

I had the Ancestry.com DNA test done. Having worked on my pedigree for many years, it was amazingly accurate and provided the names of living relatives including my niece who the test described as "either family or first cousin." It also identified the granddaughter of my grandfather's girlfriend (yes, grandpa was a runaround) - this granddaughter had always wondered why her grandmother was not buried alongside her "husband" as she thought they were married. Whenever you did genealogical research, and especially when doing DNA research, you may come across some family secrets.

Just don't party too much. Remember what Confucius say: "He who drink Fifth on Fourth, may not live to come Forth on Fifth."

Having lived in Westchester (LAX) area, I will say that I used to travel to the WeHo area about 4 x per week. It took about 25 minutes - but I always took backroads (La Tijera to La Cienega all the way into "the Boulevard"). (NEVER take the 405!) I am sure that a smart escort could find his way from WeHo to LAX in about the same time. I am not sure where "most" escorts live but I'd bet most of them live somewhere on the West side, including Santa Monica and WeHo. As mentioned, there's prolly a lot of escorts living in the Valley, too. I have been back visiting LA since moving away but always found a reasonably nice hotel in the Hollywood area to stay in (e.g. Holiday Inn).

As I mentioned in a previous comment, I still say that the best view of Philly is from the rear-view mirror.

From my experience of having lived in south Jersey many years ago, it seemed to me that the area around Rittenhouse Square was gay friendly and relatively safe (though a friend got mugged in the park there late one night). Not sure if that is true today. I worked in North Philly (north of Temple U.) and would not recommend that to anyone, unless they have bulldozed it and started over.

Countries "hating gay people" is somewhat akin to areas in the US "hating gay people." I lived at one point in a county deep in the heart of redneck Appalachia and, if you publicly flaunted your gayness, you would be beat up and probably have gunshots through your windows at night. However, I can most definitely tell you that there was a helluva lot of gay shit going on between rednecks down in the "hollers" and backroads that most everybody knew about but nobody talked about. There's just as many gay people in Iran, Nigeria, Singapore, and Harlan County, Kentucky, as there is in most other areas of the US (not counting gay meccas like NYC and SF) - they just don't talk about it openly. I have a friend who visited Egypt not many years ago who said the level of "down low" gay opportunities in Cairo (including bell hops, taxi drivers, waiters) was amazing. Just had to be careful about flaunting it.

“Didn’t you guys burn down the White House?” -- Revisionist historian Donald Trump to Canadian Prime Minister Trudeau, May 25 phone call, alluding to the War of 1812 against the British

I love Dannon's Light & Fit Greek "Strawberry Cheesecake." It has 80 calories. I frequently have it for dessert.

De gustibus non est disputandum is a Latin maxim meaning "You can't argue over tastes." I would say that I don't find attractive about half the escorts that are reviewed. Having said that, I would say that most "sexiness" is in the escort's persona, presentation, and character, not in his body - which is why the old adage "beauty is only skin deep" should actually be "beauty if MORE THAN skin deep."

And I have a dyslexic friend who is an agnostic and has a sleeping disorder. He tosses and turns at night wondering if there really is a DOG.

The average yearly salary in 1965 was $6,450. So, yes, $200 per week ($10,400 a year) was darn good.

It's not just the ignorance of youth - just about any generation has its share of nincompoops. Did you ever watch Jay Leno's Jaywalking segments? Typical questions and answers (questions were taken from the test for those seeking American citizenship): 1. Who did we fight in the Revolutionary War? Answer: France. 2. When was the Declaration of Independence adopted? Woman had no answer. 3. Who elects Congress? Answer: the President. 4. How many stars on the flag? Answer: 32. 5. Where does Congress meet? Answer: The Pentagon. I sometimes wonder how 35-45% of Americans can continue to support this con-man/moron Trump. Then I watch of segment of Jaywalking and I have my answer.