HisMascot

You aren't in the relationship at all. You're a paying customer. Period.
Sounds like you enjoy the fantasy of the potential for a provider to pick you as his favorite hang n bang. or maybe even leave the business for you, because you're just so perfect. That's all well&good but an emotional slippery slope if you struggle (as you most certainly are) separating your fun-fantasy from reality.

Remember, remember! The fifth of November,
The Gunpowder treason and plot;
I know of no reason, why the Gunpowder treason
Should ever be forgot!

Not an expert, but in my case, when I've found myself doing too much of anything to the point that it becomes a concern, I seek professional help. People recommend things that work for themselves, from password-protecting things so you can't access them, to 12-step programs (seems like there is one of those for every bad habit that there is).
The thing is that what works for me might not work for you. I know things can get out of hand, and some people (like me) structure things to ensure that doesn't happen. I have a budget and specific instances for hiring, and set boundaries about where and when are the right circumstances to hire. I also made sure that my life doesn't revolve around things that can get out of hand.
Best wishes, and thanks for sharing this. You never know who relates to things that people post.

Your entire profession is to deceive.  

If you've been quoted an hourly rate tell them you expect them to stay for an hour.  

If you've been quoted an hourly rate tell them you expect them to stay for an hour.  

If I could I would hire daily. Why not? Unfortunately is not on my budget. 

I have a premium account so I thought I'd check.  I signed out to have a look and yes, all the dicks are gone.  The profile pics are now dickless 😞.
A dumb change in my mind but it's their call.

I say it's the provider's job to keep track of time.  He's the professional in the room.  Your only job is to relax and have fun.
Kevin Slater

On occasion I have employed escorts with whom I had a long acquaintance as my driver, nothing "mundane" such as housecleaning, painting or running errands. 

Rather than asking what the escort is willing to do, it seems more efficient is the client say something to the effect: I really love ass play, nip torture, cock and ball torture, restraints and food. Anything there you can't provide? Oh yes, I always ask about kissing because I love to kiss and even if the guy will let me strap him down and fuck his face with a cucumber, if he doesn't kiss we don't connect

I think it's normal and fine for attachments to develop both ways between clients and escorts. Human beings naturally seek companionship and as we get to know each other, of course bonds will form. I have genuinely become friends with a few guys I have hired. One of them I consider a good friend and he no longer escorts and we still hang out (non-sexually) from time to time.
What is tricky is expecting the business side of the relationship to change at all. I always think of it as if the escort had another job. If I had a friend who was an artist, I support my friend by buying their art, not expecting it for free. Ultimately, the same is true even if you do have a genuine friendship with an escort. Companionship and sex is his job and you should not expect that to be free. Maybe because he likes you, he'll give you a bit of extra time or something, but that should be completely at his suggestion and never expected by the client.

I'm such a lonely person with no one in my life. I've once paid someone $100/wk to text every day. Someone I wouldn't normally get to talk to me.  

Note there is a setting that turns that off. Also, it's not just providers but any RM users including clients that get "who saw me".

It has been ages since I have posted here and I'm not sure if I should even get involved in this discussion, but it is a lively discussion.
OK.
9 in 10 posters here will give you the same basic line of advice:
"Fall in love with The Experience, but not with The Provider".
Write that line down and keep it on the back burner, "logically speaking", so that you don't over-analyze what can't always be analyzed so easily.
Now... I will play the 10th poster and throw you a curve-ball.
Life can be complicated. Human relationships can be complicated. I developed feelings for a masseur who doesn't just do "hands only" work with clients and, over years of contact with him (and I am talking seven years now), we have developed a relationship that has gotten much closer with feelings that have become mutual. Yes, there has been much activity occurring "off working hours". Of course, you can not be the jealous type in this kind of relationship because people must make a living at what they do best in a world where many need special tender loving care. In addition, you yourself may need to help out at times too as you would in ANY kind of relationship, especially during bad times like nationwide pandemics when clients become fewer in number and the rent needs covered. 
Think of "The Provider" in much the same way you would a physical therapist or psychiatrist addressing your needs and improving your life for the better. Sadly, the United States is still a very backward country in accepting all of this as it should be accepted. Then again, just being gay in the United States was considered a "mental disorder" as late as 1973, doing "gay" activities could get you in jail in multiple states as late as 2006 and same gender marriage (as well as so many other relationships of this kind) was strictly out of the question prior to 2015. Since you say you are still in your twenties, two of these events only happened in your own lifetime and, yes, much more progress needs to made. Most of us posting here have had to get over a great many, many family and environmental issues just to address our own needs.
But... pardon me for getting off topic here.
Back to you.
If this fellow put you at ease and allowed you to experience things without judgement, then definitely revisit him again when you physically and financially can. Become a repeat client and view him as a potential friend first and foremost. You have already read some posts here mentioning wonderful friendships that have developed from these experiences and that is something that should never be overlooked.
Don't fuss too much about the feelings part. After all, you only spent ONE visit with him! That is like having a blind date with a perfect stranger whom you know virtually nothing about outside those two hours or so. Maybe on that second visit a.k.a. "date", your feelings will change. Something that happens may change your perspective of him altogether. Again, go up to the line quoted above as a possible rule of thumb. Yet don't overlook what possibilities could happen in the future. Just take one day... and visit... at a time. View your developing emotions and relationships as a good thing and not a bad thing to be afraid of... and remember that there are many kinds to experience in life.

Wow, he sounds like a very thoughtful and considerate person. I would have compensated him for the hour, but maybe try hiring him again in the future to see if things go better? I feel like a lot of escorts would have demanded the full payment even if they didn't deliver so kudos to him for not doing so.

Toronto the going rate is $300 to $350.  A deal for visiting Americans after exchange ($225 to $265 $USD).