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Xanax, like any CNS depressant, can interfere with the formation of memory. Well-intentioned people, using Benzos (like Xanax) often develop what's called "Inter-dose anxiety" - i.e. they develop some tolerance to the meds and are strongly tempted to increase either their dosage or the frequency of the dosage, or both. It usually sneaks up on you and can take over your life - like any addiction there is an increasing preoccupation with protecting your "stash" and, because of taking more meds than prescribed, or starting to "doctor shop" or lie to your MD (I can't count the number of times patients have reported that "somebody stole my Xanax"). It can happen to the best of us.

What the OP described sounds more like a Panic Attack than an "Anxiety Attack." It is caused by a sudden dump of adrenaline into the system - the fight-or-flight mechanism - even though there is no imminent danger - thus the racing heart, pressured breathing, feelings of impending death, disorientation, dissociation. Research seems to link Panic Attacks to the buildup of stress in one's life but may have a genetic component since it seems to run in families, and is much more prevalent in females. Since everyone seems to know the risks of getting addicted to a Benzo (e.g. Xanax) - (and more people die from Benzo withdrawal than from opioid withdrawal) - most users of Benzos will swear to the efficacy and safety of Benzos (I had patients when I worked in the clinic who would literally fight you for their Xanax), I will say that many (most?) psychiatrists today will Rx a script for an SSRI (Paxil, Prozac) first, though most sufferers of Panic Attacks will say that SSRI's help "only a little bit." If indeed the precipitator of Panic Attack is the buildup of stress, learning (and more importantly, practicing) better coping skills (deep breathing techniques, positive visualization, exercise, massage) would be recommended. Generalized Anxiety, as many are reporting here, is more like a "slow dump" of adrenaline into the system, but has similar features and treatment.

I had somewhat the same pleasant surprise a couple of years ago when I went to the "MissingMoney" website that tells you if you have any money that a state is holding for you. Sometimes a state or corporation (or even a small company) owes you money and is unable to find out where you live - usually cause you've moved - they are required by law to keep it in a special account. My sister told me about the site and, sure enough, I discovered that the state of New Jersey had several thousand dollars of mine due to some stock buy-back and, instead of sending it to my brokerage house, they sent it to my address in NJ - but I had moved. All I had to do was send copies of my drivers license and SS card and they send me a check + ten years interest! The website is easy to use - just pop in your first and last name and find out if you've got money. http://www.missingmoney.com/

Most states require that the "mandated reporter" make a report. The victim can refuse to cooperate.

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Miguelmaster was listed as a "Pro" on A4A in Chicago a month or so ago. I sent him a couple of messages and his replies were very accommodating, articulate, and civil. Unfortunately, various circumstances (on my part) prohibited our meeting. I see that he now advertises on Rentmen in Atlanta and has added a pic or two. Does anyone have any experience with this incredibly sexy man, or any comments on the veracity of his photos? Thanks. https://rentmen.eu/Miguelmaster

Rationalization is arguing with yourself...… and losing.

I liked George Hamilton's pickup line: "Wanna get a drink? Or would you rather just have the money?"

To Tarte's excellent guidelines I might also add: do the pics pass the "smell test" i.e. are they so impressive (e.g. muscular, handsome, ENDOWED, "model-like") that someone might be tempted to steal them? In the example cited, though Tristan is a nice-looking guy, I doubt that anyone would want to steal them. Sometimes you can also smell a rat when the photos don't correlate with the escort's description of himself (this is a notorious giveaway on A4A) - for example, the pics look like a bodybuilder and then the escort describes himself as having an "Average" body. Or, he says he is slim and then he describes himself as being 5'7" and 210 lbs. (and is not a bodybuilder). Finally, I immediately lose interest if the escort has an attitude, has a problem with answering relevant questions that reveal the scope of his services, or seems reluctant to offer any kind of verification. In the end, skepticism is a virtue in the escort-hiring world.

Ah, Charm City. Eastern Avenue (Patterson Park). The memories.

Oh! Calcutta! (1972). I don't remember exactly what was so offending but I do remember that I had gone with my parents and, after about ten minutes, mom whispered "Meet you in the car" as she got up and left. Pops and I followed. I think my parents thought it was going to be a travelogue about India.

I saw an article in The Advocate ( https://www.advocate.com/ ) titled "15 Old-Timey Names for 'Gay.' Some of these epithets I never heard of: 1. Mary 2. Friend of Dorothy 3. Light in the Loafers 4. Bent 5. Poof 6. Flit 7. Bugger 8. Fairy 9. Pansy 10. Fruit/Fruitcake 11. Uranian 12. Nancy boy 13. Pillow biter 14. Shirt lifter 15. Invert

Didn't RM offer the word "Escorting" as one of its Users' "Available Services" in ads? If so, was the word recently removed?

Diversity is beautiful.

It amazes me that so many people, even today, still find it difficult to believe that gay men and women don't fit their stereotypes.

Vintage: Jeff Stryker Chad Douglas Jack Wrangler Rick Donovan Marc Williams Francois Sagat Up-and-Cumming: Jovonnie Antonio Biaggi Rafael Alencar Brent Everett Adam Killian Brent Corrigan Armond Rizzo Trenton Ducati

Sometimes the hesitancy to "show the goods" depends on the competition. When I was in college I worked in a chemical factory where everyone was required to shower together at the end of the shift - usually about 30 guys at one time. I'm telling you, some of those guys would make anybody feel inadequate. Being a wimpy little college guy I felt like the appetizer at a bratwurst festival.

Since https://www.recon.com/en/ is a site for those interested in gay fetish sex, I think you are correct. Never heard of it before now.

Texan Dan Rather used to have some dillies: "Election results were "scary enough to make the Democrats' fingernails sweat." "This race is hotter than a Times Square Rolex." "Don't taunt the alligator until after you've crossed the creek." "You'd have to say this thing is tight as the rusted lug nuts on a '55 Ford."

Not every veteran of the military ended his service to country as uninhibited. I just completed Ron Chernow's book on Grant. Ulysses S. Grant, West Point graduate and General of the Army was so shy that he wouldn't change his clothes or shower in front of his men. And if you're thinking that you don't particularly like showing your junk to other dudes either, remember that they were at war. Officers bathed by stripping and having their men pour water on them. It was the same for everybody -- there is no privacy in a huge camp with thousands of men. Everybody except for Grant, who hid in his tent and bathed alone. In his 60's he boasted that no one had seen him naked since he was a child. Since he was married and fathered five children we presume that his wife was an exception to the no-nudity rule.

As I used to tell my supervisees in clinical social work: there is no such thing as Bipolar Disorder or Schizophrenia - they are merely groups of behavioral signs (what the clinician observes) and symptoms (what the client reports) that occur with enough frequency together to put them in a discernable class - and, for the sake of treatment and communication among professionals (and for billing!) we give them a label (that is why the DSM is constantly being revised - our knowledge of these disorders is constantly changing). In your particular case, it does appear to me that you have more than sufficient signs/symptoms to justify a Dx of Bipolar Disorder (possibly Bipolar II since it appears that you are able to function without major problems). I suspect you already know this, as you reported, and perhaps you have been on mood stabilizers previously. Many people with Bipolar go off their meds because of the possible side effects (including pancreatic shutdown and metabolic syndrome) - and they usually cause a "flattening of affect" (emotional numbness) that cause some clients to say that the cure is worse than the disease! Similarly, many clients with Bipolar go off their meds because, although they don't like the depression part of the illness, they do like the increased energy, "creativity," and elevated mood of the manic stage. I strongly suspect that you were in a manic (or hypomanic) state for a couple of years and now you find yourself quickly crashing into a depressive stage. I would strongly encourage you to see a board-certified psychiatrist for an evaluation and possible meds along with talk therapy that will help you monitor your moods and devise strategies to deal with the highs and lows of Bipolar. Otherwise, you may end up in the same place as many people with Bipolar Disorder who go off their meds - either in the psych ward or the local jail. Good luck.

I know it sounds sorta perverted, but if it weren't for Hitler I wouldn't be here - my dad who was from Illinois was drafted and ended up at the end of the war at Fort Knox; my mom who was from NJ joined the WAC and ended up at Fort Knox, where she met my dad. So, if it weren't for Hitler and the war, neither one would have left their native state and I would never exist. Weird thought.

Chicago was settled by people who wanted a city like New York but in a really, really cold place.

I lived in both Bulletmore, Murderland (Charm City) and Filthadelphia. I loved Baltimore even though Philly has a lot more going for it gay-wise and culturally. Baltimore folk are much more southern in their manners (it is actually south of the Mason-Dixon line) and much more laid back, in my opinion. I suspect that the cost-of-living is about the same in most mid-Atlantic & northeastern states though NJ and NY are probably heavy tax states. Actually, any place along the I-95 corridor is fine if your main criteria is access to gay activities. Every city has its safe and dangerous areas. When I worked in Philly I lived across the river in south Jersey - the rents were much cheaper and I took the Trailways out of Mt. Laurel (it was $20 round trip) to NYC just about every weekend.