GordyLex

After reading the last few replies and having to delete them for violations, I’m locking this thread. It is not to be continued in a new thread. 

This is my last response: I am sick of the baseless assumptions by @savantsav about my intent or capacity to reach out. 
 
“He could’ve done it before.” Seriously? You have no idea what I was going through. Don’t assume mal intent or willful, purposeful neglect. Don’t pretend as if you know what I was dealing with that day and that I was intentionally cavalier. 
I don’t have to specify what emergency prevented me from reaching out, why I was unavailable by phone for a majority of the day, but there’s a reason you didn’t hear back from me until over 12 hrs from your initial 8 AM inquiry. And as to why you didn’t hear from me before 8 AM? Well, @GLEE actually was pretty close to guessing what transpired: next time my nurse starts rapidly pushing midazolam in my IV in the ER I’m going to say “wait, stop! I need to message @savantsav first!!!” 
i am saddened that after my heartfelt and genuine messages to you, you continue to believe and assume I was operating from a place of ill will or intentional carelessness and malice. 
Don’t assume the worst in people. It’s a heavy and draining way to operate in life. Give people the benefit of the doubt and I think you’ll find life is a bit sweeter, richer, and full of joy and levity. 
to all the outsiders looking in at this thread who showed support and understanding, thank you. It means a lot to have your support while someone assumed the worst in me while I was undergoing one of the scariest things of my life. 

I took the time to sincerely express my regret and shame, and offer to right a wrong. I was empathetic to your feelings and really made an effort to understand how you were feeling.
 
I explained to you clearly why there was radio silence on my end — I wish you could’ve been empathetic to what I was dealing with (I don’t owe anyone any detailed explanation, but a medical emergency). Clearly something serious happened given the months of planning and sudden radio silence. 
 
I wholeheartedly agree with you reporting on what happened. I don’t dispute that at all. Don’t kid anyone: you didn’t tag me to get a fair and balanced report. You wanted to put me on blast. 

I don’t understand why after you and I spoke you felt the need to then tag me in your post as if to summon me to defend myself. 

I am actually quite sick and did not have the physical or mental capacity to attend to a lot of things in my life, including confirming plans.
 
once I was able to attend to messages, I realized that in delaying my travel to LA so that I could be evaluated by a doctor and receive treatment, I also missed my first scheduled appointment.
 
once savantsav spoke to me, I profusely apologized, acknowledged that I could have done better, said I would take this as a learning opportunity, and also think of a way to correct a misdeed.
 
you can see the attached text messages. 
 
sometimes people make mistakes/accidents happen. I didn’t ask for forgiveness, I took full responsibility for the failure to communicate, I expressed shame, I did not make excuses but explained that because of a pressing health issue I was extremely preoccupied and unwell so that Savantsav could at least understand why this happened.
 
i respected Savantsav’s pain, acknowledged it, and wished him well.
 
Savantsav was justified in writing his post regarding a failure to communicate. What I did not appreciate was being publicly shamed on the thread and called out after you and I spoke privately by text… totally unnecessary and inflammatory. Consequently I blocked all communication to prevent any further adversarial interactions.

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

This is my last response: I am sick of the baseless assumptions by @savantsav about my intent or capacity to reach out. 
 
“He could’ve done it before.” Seriously? You have no idea what I was going through. Don’t assume mal intent or willful, purposeful neglect. Don’t pretend as if you know what I was dealing with that day and that I was intentionally cavalier. 
I don’t have to specify what emergency prevented me from reaching out, why I was unavailable by phone for a majority of the day, but there’s a reason you didn’t hear back from me until over 12 hrs from your initial 8 AM inquiry. And as to why you didn’t hear from me before 8 AM? Well, @GLEE actually was pretty close to guessing what transpired: next time my nurse starts rapidly pushing midazolam in my IV in the ER I’m going to say “wait, stop! I need to message @savantsav first!!!” 
i am saddened that after my heartfelt and genuine messages to you, you continue to believe and assume I was operating from a place of ill will or intentional carelessness and malice. 
Don’t assume the worst in people. It’s a heavy and draining way to operate in life. Give people the benefit of the doubt and I think you’ll find life is a bit sweeter, richer, and full of joy and levity. 
to all the outsiders looking in at this thread who showed support and understanding, thank you. It means a lot to have your support while someone assumed the worst in me while I was undergoing one of the scariest things of my life. 

I am extremely appreciative of your compassion, thoughtfulness, and rationality. ❤️❤️❤️

I am actually quite sick and did not have the physical or mental capacity to attend to a lot of things in my life, including confirming plans.
 
once I was able to attend to messages, I realized that in delaying my travel to LA so that I could be evaluated by a doctor and receive treatment, I also missed my first scheduled appointment.
 
once savantsav spoke to me, I profusely apologized, acknowledged that I could have done better, said I would take this as a learning opportunity, and also think of a way to correct a misdeed.
 
you can see the attached text messages. 
 
sometimes people make mistakes/accidents happen. I didn’t ask for forgiveness, I took full responsibility for the failure to communicate, I expressed shame, I did not make excuses but explained that because of a pressing health issue I was extremely preoccupied and unwell so that Savantsav could at least understand why this happened.
 
i respected Savantsav’s pain, acknowledged it, and wished him well.
 
Savantsav was justified in writing his post regarding a failure to communicate. What I did not appreciate was being publicly shamed on the thread and called out after you and I spoke privately by text… totally unnecessary and inflammatory. Consequently I blocked all communication to prevent any further adversarial interactions.

We had so much fun 🤩😈

This is my last response: I am sick of the baseless assumptions by @savantsav about my intent or capacity to reach out. 
 
“He could’ve done it before.” Seriously? You have no idea what I was going through. Don’t assume mal intent or willful, purposeful neglect. Don’t pretend as if you know what I was dealing with that day and that I was intentionally cavalier. 
I don’t have to specify what emergency prevented me from reaching out, why I was unavailable by phone for a majority of the day, but there’s a reason you didn’t hear back from me until over 12 hrs from your initial 8 AM inquiry. And as to why you didn’t hear from me before 8 AM? Well, @GLEE actually was pretty close to guessing what transpired: next time my nurse starts rapidly pushing midazolam in my IV in the ER I’m going to say “wait, stop! I need to message @savantsav first!!!” 
i am saddened that after my heartfelt and genuine messages to you, you continue to believe and assume I was operating from a place of ill will or intentional carelessness and malice. 
Don’t assume the worst in people. It’s a heavy and draining way to operate in life. Give people the benefit of the doubt and I think you’ll find life is a bit sweeter, richer, and full of joy and levity. 
to all the outsiders looking in at this thread who showed support and understanding, thank you. It means a lot to have your support while someone assumed the worst in me while I was undergoing one of the scariest things of my life. 

I am extremely appreciative of your compassion, thoughtfulness, and rationality. ❤️❤️❤️

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

@savantsavI never asked for a deposit from you and I never ask clients for deposits!?!? What happened to me wasn’t my fault, but it was my responsibility to rectify how it impacted you. The record shows my good faith efforts. The record shows your assumptions and choice to see ill intent where it doesn’t exist. 

This is my last response: I am sick of the baseless assumptions by @savantsav about my intent or capacity to reach out. 
 
“He could’ve done it before.” Seriously? You have no idea what I was going through. Don’t assume mal intent or willful, purposeful neglect. Don’t pretend as if you know what I was dealing with that day and that I was intentionally cavalier. 
I don’t have to specify what emergency prevented me from reaching out, why I was unavailable by phone for a majority of the day, but there’s a reason you didn’t hear back from me until over 12 hrs from your initial 8 AM inquiry. And as to why you didn’t hear from me before 8 AM? Well, @GLEE actually was pretty close to guessing what transpired: next time my nurse starts rapidly pushing midazolam in my IV in the ER I’m going to say “wait, stop! I need to message @savantsav first!!!” 
i am saddened that after my heartfelt and genuine messages to you, you continue to believe and assume I was operating from a place of ill will or intentional carelessness and malice. 
Don’t assume the worst in people. It’s a heavy and draining way to operate in life. Give people the benefit of the doubt and I think you’ll find life is a bit sweeter, richer, and full of joy and levity. 
to all the outsiders looking in at this thread who showed support and understanding, thank you. It means a lot to have your support while someone assumed the worst in me while I was undergoing one of the scariest things of my life. 

As with all human endeavors, grace, empathy, and compassion are requisites for true connection.
Lex has shown grace in his responses and frankly I would feel even better about hiring him based on his responses here.
I can empathize with being in a situation without the capacity or ability to proactively follow up on engagements, even with access to my phone, as I have been in that situation myself recently for the first time ever. It happens and if it hasn't happened to you yet, it will. Privacy should be respected without demanding and judging all the granular details.

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

@savantsavI never asked for a deposit from you and I never ask clients for deposits!?!? What happened to me wasn’t my fault, but it was my responsibility to rectify how it impacted you. The record shows my good faith efforts. The record shows your assumptions and choice to see ill intent where it doesn’t exist. 

This is my last response: I am sick of the baseless assumptions by @savantsav about my intent or capacity to reach out. 
 
“He could’ve done it before.” Seriously? You have no idea what I was going through. Don’t assume mal intent or willful, purposeful neglect. Don’t pretend as if you know what I was dealing with that day and that I was intentionally cavalier. 
I don’t have to specify what emergency prevented me from reaching out, why I was unavailable by phone for a majority of the day, but there’s a reason you didn’t hear back from me until over 12 hrs from your initial 8 AM inquiry. And as to why you didn’t hear from me before 8 AM? Well, @GLEE actually was pretty close to guessing what transpired: next time my nurse starts rapidly pushing midazolam in my IV in the ER I’m going to say “wait, stop! I need to message @savantsav first!!!” 
i am saddened that after my heartfelt and genuine messages to you, you continue to believe and assume I was operating from a place of ill will or intentional carelessness and malice. 
Don’t assume the worst in people. It’s a heavy and draining way to operate in life. Give people the benefit of the doubt and I think you’ll find life is a bit sweeter, richer, and full of joy and levity. 
to all the outsiders looking in at this thread who showed support and understanding, thank you. It means a lot to have your support while someone assumed the worst in me while I was undergoing one of the scariest things of my life. 

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

Also to everyone that reached out to me privately here, by text, by RM messenger, and to those that came to my aid I am so overwhelmed by the love and support especially while I’m still healing.
 
If we ever meet as client and provider I will show you just how grateful I am 😈🤤🥵 . 

You started this by tagging the provider after you guys spoke off-site, no? 
 
By that action alone you were provoking drama and confrontation in this thread. Can’t throw rocks and now retreat when the heat is on lol. 

I didn’t say you asked me for one, I said to people in the future to not give you one because you might flake on them. 
 
Again, I’m sorry about what happened to you, but I do not believe you had no way to reply for over 12hrs and it was only when I texted again late in the evening when conveniently you were waking up from your IV and was able to reply. You were not going to reach out on your own.  
 
There’s nothing at this point you can say that’ll make me believe you couldn’t so we’ll agree to disagree on that. 
 
That’s it, stop tagging me. I’m moving on.