LuckyLechon

He does have an ad on rentmasseur however he is definitely open to more than just massage when I was chatting with him.
I reached out to book him a month or so ago but decided not to because he doesn’t have a place to host (dealbreaker for me personally). Also, he had a weird affect via text which is a turn off for me - like dodging quarstions about rates and wanting pictures from me (I don’t mind sending pictures but coupled with the other things, it was too much). 

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

I get what you mean. Sometimes things feel a little more human than expected.

I never really lost sight of the fact that I was paying for a service. I was paying to have a good time, like I’ve done several times in the past. I don’t think I ever alluded to it being a charity.
Maybe it doesn’t come across well enough in my original post but I was surprised that I got a fantasy I never discussed or expected. That’s why it is a bit of a shock. It was nice and it was a deeper connection than I intended. 

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

Right, I guess I’ve not been with a provider who’s done that before - at least to that extent. 

I always ask because sometimes the information posted is not accurate nor does it  encompass all options available.
Isnt it better for everyone to be on the same page rather than surprises or miscommunication happening later?
 

You’ve got to find another horse and get on.  The elixir to infatuation is multiple regular providers.  If all your focus is on one, it will turn into more than infatuation. 

I get what you mean. Sometimes things feel a little more human than expected.

Frankly, this. 

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

I never really lost sight of the fact that I was paying for a service. I was paying to have a good time, like I’ve done several times in the past. I don’t think I ever alluded to it being a charity.
Maybe it doesn’t come across well enough in my original post but I was surprised that I got a fantasy I never discussed or expected. That’s why it is a bit of a shock. It was nice and it was a deeper connection than I intended. 

I always ask because sometimes the information posted is not accurate nor does it  encompass all options available.
Isnt it better for everyone to be on the same page rather than surprises or miscommunication happening later?
 

Frankly, this. 

Something that’s contributing to the lost feeling is the idea that I will look for that in future bookings. And it likely won’t be like that.

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

However bitter the taste, swallow a dose of reality. You paid for a fantasy, your fantasy and not that of the escort. Escorting is a business enterprise, not a charity; a escort is a provider, not a social worker. The only escorts with whom I have enjoyed long friendships of some mutual affection are those who were not a hire with me. 

A little clickbaity and I know it has been discussed prior but it is my first time ever having met a provider where I felt "swept away" in a sense after meeting them.
I have had meetings where I had a really good time etc and I am able to acknowledge that and move on - taking it for what it was. However, recently I felt a really nice connection and just feel a little bit lost afterward. 
Truthfully I am surprised I can still feel this way after meeting a guy (hired or not), first time butterflies and all that, so it also kind of excites me too. 
I am sure others have felt this way but how do you ya'll move on? It almost makes me no longer want to hire for fear or being this caught up again. Almost.

Frankly, this. 

I’ve had a similar experience in the past. Chalk it up to a great experience, it was fun, it felt good - it probably was a genuine connection. But it doesn’t have to be more than that. Don’t keep thinking in a loop, do something to break it up. 

You can have a connection with your provider. You are human after all. But don’t mistake it for what it is not. 

Click on some ads and find someone new to be infatuated with 🥰

How do you "move on" from an infatuation? Not easily. From my experience, unless you use STRONG and EMPHATIC self-talk that this is JUST an infatuation and that you are a A CLIENT (not a lover), you will be held hostage to your feelings, not your common sense.  But...reason and logic rarely win these internal dialogues. We've all been there - and only time and the thinning of our wallets convince us that maybe this "love connection" is not mutual. Enjoy your "butterfly-inducing" friend, but just realize that, in the end, it's a business transaction - and when the money ends, so will the return messages. 

Something that’s contributing to the lost feeling is the idea that I will look for that in future bookings. And it likely won’t be like that.

Jeezus.