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Just wondering if anybody else does this dumb thing or if it’s just me.  I only started hiring about 3 years ago, but I can see a pattern. (Okay, only twice, but still…). When I hire a man repeatedly because there’s great intimacy (at least from my perspective, I start to lose my grip on the reality and develop feelings.  I misread cues and think there’s a mutual thing developing.  Then the reality has to hit home that I’m not a romantic interest or even a hookup interest and I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t paying. The man I currently see regularly - he pushes all my buttons physically and emotionally, and I could fall head over heels for him.  But I see him in rooms with guys who are hookups, not clients, and he talks about trips in which he meets someone in a room, they chat and are hot for each other, and travel to meet.  And it has to hit me then that I’m not one of those guys he met because he was attracted to them.  Big blow on both my ego and my heart.  Anybody else? Thoughts? Suggestions? And you don’t need to tell me it’s all my own fault - I already own that.  

Just wondering if anybody else does this dumb thing or if it’s just me.  I only started hiring about 3 years ago, but I can see a pattern. (Okay, only twice, but still…). When I hire a man repeatedly because there’s great intimacy (at least from my perspective, I start to lose my grip on the reality and develop feelings.  I misread cues and think there’s a mutual thing developing.  Then the reality has to hit home that I’m not a romantic interest or even a hookup interest and I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t paying. The man I currently see regularly - he pushes all my buttons physically and emotionally, and I could fall head over heels for him.  But I see him in rooms with guys who are hookups, not clients, and he talks about trips in which he meets someone in a room, they chat and are hot for each other, and travel to meet.  And it has to hit me then that I’m not one of those guys he met because he was attracted to them.  Big blow on both my ego and my heart.  Anybody else? Thoughts? Suggestions? And you don’t need to tell me it’s all my own fault - I already own that.  

Hey it's me 😀. I tend to pleasure myself and I must say I am amazing 😍. Send me a text and we can chat there 😁 
 
Thanks for the kind words 🙏 

You might get more response if you put his profile name in the headline of your post.  Can you change that or ask an admin to?  Also makes it easier to search past postings. 
That said, both of those threads are closed so want a more recent comment?  
He must have relocated to DC since those were written, and I’ve seen him a handful of times over the last few years.  Every time has been great! Very easy communication (and I think a couple of my inquiries were last-minute, late at night, and you never know if someone’s going to respond).  He seems to keep his Available Now status very accurate, and any time it says he’s available and I’ve messaged he has responded.  Very easy to set up appointments.  He’s interesting and personable, very comfortable to be around to talk to, and I’ve had lots of fun every time I’ve seen him. I just went back and looked at his profile pics, and they don’t do him justice - he’s way cute but also smokin hot! 
I’d definitely recommend him!

That seems to be his m.o.  
 

When he first came on the porn scene, I was wowed by him.  Smokin hot! But he started having issues almost right away. Clear case of unbridled roid rage. Actors said it was impossible to work with him because he was so short-tempered and volatile.  He bullied people who worked with him until they all said they wouldn’t.  
 
Then there was the episode with the female porn actor.  She said she wouldn’t work without condoms with men who also did gay porn because of HIV risk (a stupid thing to say, but this was before PreP was widespread).  He went off on her publicly and then wouldn’t let up on her.  He bullied her endlessly, and even told her in a public forum that she should kill herself.  Which she then DID.  And that was it for porn.  He’s blacklisted by all the major studios.  
 
So several years go by.  Then a few years ago, I was shuffling through Chaturbate streamers one day and there he was.  I stopped and watched for A few minutes, but only a few.  He had his sound on and was half shouting this long tirade against anybody and everybody. For nothing, really.  One guy asked something he didn’t like, and it was scary.  
 
This guy is big, heavily roided up, angry and violent.  So you want to ignore his lunatic politics and support for people who’d just as soon have us in the camps with our Hispanic and Middle Eastern friends, put that aside and say it doesn’t matter?  I suppose I can sort of understand that.  What then, I have to wonder, are you going to do when this guy loses his temper with you?

I just had very much the same experience.  

He was one of my first hires years ago and it was the furry chest pics that caught me! He’s so much fun!

Some overnights but not many. Usually 2-3, sometimes 4 hours.  But I keep going back when I like it - that’s probably accomplishing what you’re talking about.  I don’t want to be a one-and-done client, or a rushed 1 hour client either.  If it’s not obvious, I want all the pieces of this pie! lol

Sorry, can’t figure out how to quote the part I want.
Re: rooms.  Actually I’m trying not to see him.  We both frequent the same chat rooms, telegram, etc.  (which I did before we met). 
Re: fishing.  I didn’t set out looking for it, but I didn’t stop it from happening either.  
Re: disclosure. I did tell them pretty quickly.  Ruined the whole thing for the first one because he read it as “meal ticket,” and it crashed after that.  This one, he’s clearly trying hard not to hurt my feelings (because he is a nice guy), but he’s also trying to be very direct about not having the same attraction or affection   
 
 

Just wondering if anybody else does this dumb thing or if it’s just me.  I only started hiring about 3 years ago, but I can see a pattern. (Okay, only twice, but still…). When I hire a man repeatedly because there’s great intimacy (at least from my perspective, I start to lose my grip on the reality and develop feelings.  I misread cues and think there’s a mutual thing developing.  Then the reality has to hit home that I’m not a romantic interest or even a hookup interest and I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t paying. The man I currently see regularly - he pushes all my buttons physically and emotionally, and I could fall head over heels for him.  But I see him in rooms with guys who are hookups, not clients, and he talks about trips in which he meets someone in a room, they chat and are hot for each other, and travel to meet.  And it has to hit me then that I’m not one of those guys he met because he was attracted to them.  Big blow on both my ego and my heart.  Anybody else? Thoughts? Suggestions? And you don’t need to tell me it’s all my own fault - I already own that.  

When he first came on the porn scene, I was wowed by him.  Smokin hot! But he started having issues almost right away. Clear case of unbridled roid rage. Actors said it was impossible to work with him because he was so short-tempered and volatile.  He bullied people who worked with him until they all said they wouldn’t.  
 
Then there was the episode with the female porn actor.  She said she wouldn’t work without condoms with men who also did gay porn because of HIV risk (a stupid thing to say, but this was before PreP was widespread).  He went off on her publicly and then wouldn’t let up on her.  He bullied her endlessly, and even told her in a public forum that she should kill herself.  Which she then DID.  And that was it for porn.  He’s blacklisted by all the major studios.  
 
So several years go by.  Then a few years ago, I was shuffling through Chaturbate streamers one day and there he was.  I stopped and watched for A few minutes, but only a few.  He had his sound on and was half shouting this long tirade against anybody and everybody. For nothing, really.  One guy asked something he didn’t like, and it was scary.  
 
This guy is big, heavily roided up, angry and violent.  So you want to ignore his lunatic politics and support for people who’d just as soon have us in the camps with our Hispanic and Middle Eastern friends, put that aside and say it doesn’t matter?  I suppose I can sort of understand that.  What then, I have to wonder, are you going to do when this guy loses his temper with you?

When he first came on the porn scene, I was wowed by him.  Smokin hot! But he started having issues almost right away. Clear case of unbridled roid rage. Actors said it was impossible to work with him because he was so short-tempered and volatile.  He bullied people who worked with him until they all said they wouldn’t.  
 
Then there was the episode with the female porn actor.  She said she wouldn’t work without condoms with men who also did gay porn because of HIV risk (a stupid thing to say, but this was before PreP was widespread).  He went off on her publicly and then wouldn’t let up on her.  He bullied her endlessly, and even told her in a public forum that she should kill herself.  Which she then DID.  And that was it for porn.  He’s blacklisted by all the major studios.  
 
So several years go by.  Then a few years ago, I was shuffling through Chaturbate streamers one day and there he was.  I stopped and watched for A few minutes, but only a few.  He had his sound on and was half shouting this long tirade against anybody and everybody. For nothing, really.  One guy asked something he didn’t like, and it was scary.  
 
This guy is big, heavily roided up, angry and violent.  So you want to ignore his lunatic politics and support for people who’d just as soon have us in the camps with our Hispanic and Middle Eastern friends, put that aside and say it doesn’t matter?  I suppose I can sort of understand that.  What then, I have to wonder, are you going to do when this guy loses his temper with you?

When he first came on the porn scene, I was wowed by him.  Smokin hot! But he started having issues almost right away. Clear case of unbridled roid rage. Actors said it was impossible to work with him because he was so short-tempered and volatile.  He bullied people who worked with him until they all said they wouldn’t.  
 
Then there was the episode with the female porn actor.  She said she wouldn’t work without condoms with men who also did gay porn because of HIV risk (a stupid thing to say, but this was before PreP was widespread).  He went off on her publicly and then wouldn’t let up on her.  He bullied her endlessly, and even told her in a public forum that she should kill herself.  Which she then DID.  And that was it for porn.  He’s blacklisted by all the major studios.  
 
So several years go by.  Then a few years ago, I was shuffling through Chaturbate streamers one day and there he was.  I stopped and watched for A few minutes, but only a few.  He had his sound on and was half shouting this long tirade against anybody and everybody. For nothing, really.  One guy asked something he didn’t like, and it was scary.  
 
This guy is big, heavily roided up, angry and violent.  So you want to ignore his lunatic politics and support for people who’d just as soon have us in the camps with our Hispanic and Middle Eastern friends, put that aside and say it doesn’t matter?  I suppose I can sort of understand that.  What then, I have to wonder, are you going to do when this guy loses his temper with you?

Now THESE are things worth knowing and that do make a difference! I never knew about any of these things you mentioned. I couldn't care less about a person's personal views or politics, but their behavior is important! Now these are bona fide reasons not to hire a particular person in my view! Thanks for sharing!  

When he first came on the porn scene, I was wowed by him.  Smokin hot! But he started having issues almost right away. Clear case of unbridled roid rage. Actors said it was impossible to work with him because he was so short-tempered and volatile.  He bullied people who worked with him until they all said they wouldn’t.  
 
Then there was the episode with the female porn actor.  She said she wouldn’t work without condoms with men who also did gay porn because of HIV risk (a stupid thing to say, but this was before PreP was widespread).  He went off on her publicly and then wouldn’t let up on her.  He bullied her endlessly, and even told her in a public forum that she should kill herself.  Which she then DID.  And that was it for porn.  He’s blacklisted by all the major studios.  
 
So several years go by.  Then a few years ago, I was shuffling through Chaturbate streamers one day and there he was.  I stopped and watched for A few minutes, but only a few.  He had his sound on and was half shouting this long tirade against anybody and everybody. For nothing, really.  One guy asked something he didn’t like, and it was scary.  
 
This guy is big, heavily roided up, angry and violent.  So you want to ignore his lunatic politics and support for people who’d just as soon have us in the camps with our Hispanic and Middle Eastern friends, put that aside and say it doesn’t matter?  I suppose I can sort of understand that.  What then, I have to wonder, are you going to do when this guy loses his temper with you?

Met him yesterday. Great time. Definitely recommend him!

Met him about a month ago and definitely recommend!

I met him this summer in DC.  So awesome, erotic and sexy af.  And…um…huge.  Very comfortable to be around.  And the massage after was great too.  

I met him this summer in DC.  So awesome, erotic and sexy af.  And…um…huge.  Very comfortable to be around.  And the massage after was great too.  

Just wondering if anybody else does this dumb thing or if it’s just me.  I only started hiring about 3 years ago, but I can see a pattern. (Okay, only twice, but still…). When I hire a man repeatedly because there’s great intimacy (at least from my perspective, I start to lose my grip on the reality and develop feelings.  I misread cues and think there’s a mutual thing developing.  Then the reality has to hit home that I’m not a romantic interest or even a hookup interest and I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t paying. The man I currently see regularly - he pushes all my buttons physically and emotionally, and I could fall head over heels for him.  But I see him in rooms with guys who are hookups, not clients, and he talks about trips in which he meets someone in a room, they chat and are hot for each other, and travel to meet.  And it has to hit me then that I’m not one of those guys he met because he was attracted to them.  Big blow on both my ego and my heart.  Anybody else? Thoughts? Suggestions? And you don’t need to tell me it’s all my own fault - I already own that.  

Just wondering if anybody else does this dumb thing or if it’s just me.  I only started hiring about 3 years ago, but I can see a pattern. (Okay, only twice, but still…). When I hire a man repeatedly because there’s great intimacy (at least from my perspective, I start to lose my grip on the reality and develop feelings.  I misread cues and think there’s a mutual thing developing.  Then the reality has to hit home that I’m not a romantic interest or even a hookup interest and I wouldn’t be there if I wasn’t paying. The man I currently see regularly - he pushes all my buttons physically and emotionally, and I could fall head over heels for him.  But I see him in rooms with guys who are hookups, not clients, and he talks about trips in which he meets someone in a room, they chat and are hot for each other, and travel to meet.  And it has to hit me then that I’m not one of those guys he met because he was attracted to them.  Big blow on both my ego and my heart.  Anybody else? Thoughts? Suggestions? And you don’t need to tell me it’s all my own fault - I already own that.  

Spent some time with him today. He is a very nice guy to talk to, but was pretty uninterested in me.  Hardly any contact at all.  That was a lot of money for the pleasure of conversation.  

Same interest - and I’ve asked if they have differing pics.  So far nobody has been bothered by the question.  Seems perfectly reasonable to me.  

Same interest - and I’ve asked if they have differing pics.  So far nobody has been bothered by the question.  Seems perfectly reasonable to me.