Merboy

I think the escorting world died out five years ago actually.  It's just not the same as it was 10 years ago in 2011 and by 2016, you start to see it just decline altogether.  When they shut down Rentboy, that did a lot of harm to this industry.  The stigma associated with it and the decline in Sex in general in America, but also COVID did a number on everything.  It's hard selling your body during a Plague... and maybe this is the new normal, that the escorts are subpar, there isn't a lot of demand from younger generations for sex workers, and it's just too damn fucking expensive for everyday people.  You've literally got to be making at least $100,000 to hire these men.  That $300 hourly rate's going to go up too - up to $500 or $1,000 for just one hour.  Gay guys have it easy.  It's a lot more expensive in the straight world.  I just don't see muscular hunks on Rentmen that much anymore - all the old ones retired and they have not been replaced with a new stable of studmuffins... they're either at home playing video games, at their gyms working out to tease us and make us feel sad because we can't get fucked by them, or they're in the Middle East of all places (which I'm sorry but sucks and I don't think any American should go to any country in the ME that is not Israel).

He was one I was with, but only one hour.  I sucked him off, swallowed his cum, and walked around Manhattan to my bus with that cum taste in my mouth until I made it to a BK in Connecticut and got rid of it.  He was indeed hot and sexy and that body was unbelievably buff, but he lacked any personality that made me want to do anything but just suck him off and bolt out the door.  He had an air about him that was kinda idk not that great.  I guess you could say he was "nice enough".  The body was what brought me though.  I never got the impression he was really that invested in the clients' companionship.  He did have a nice dick though - or maybe I was just really horny.  I didn't even bother to take my jacket off, I just batted my eyelashes, sat by his feet, and then just swallowed him whole... Overall I'd give it a 5/10 though even with a 10/10 body, the whole experience was probably just not worth $300.

I think the escorting world died out five years ago actually.  It's just not the same as it was 10 years ago in 2011 and by 2016, you start to see it just decline altogether.  When they shut down Rentboy, that did a lot of harm to this industry.  The stigma associated with it and the decline in Sex in general in America, but also COVID did a number on everything.  It's hard selling your body during a Plague... and maybe this is the new normal, that the escorts are subpar, there isn't a lot of demand from younger generations for sex workers, and it's just too damn fucking expensive for everyday people.  You've literally got to be making at least $100,000 to hire these men.  That $300 hourly rate's going to go up too - up to $500 or $1,000 for just one hour.  Gay guys have it easy.  It's a lot more expensive in the straight world.  I just don't see muscular hunks on Rentmen that much anymore - all the old ones retired and they have not been replaced with a new stable of studmuffins... they're either at home playing video games, at their gyms working out to tease us and make us feel sad because we can't get fucked by them, or they're in the Middle East of all places (which I'm sorry but sucks and I don't think any American should go to any country in the ME that is not Israel).

Thank you so much lonely_john -  i know i need help, i am already in therapy so i find it so helpful too.... and I just want to thank you all for being so kind here, this forum is a truly great place to form a community!

Is it just me or all the gays really bitchy as fuck today?  On that dopey DataLounge, the Queens are throwing fits and slapping each other silly... Nellies. 😄

awww Rest in peace, he was a big child star for Disney and was so cruelly tossed aside for being who he was, which in pre-Stonewall America (and even in post-Stonewall America) meant him getting fired.  His modern counterparts are still being harassed for their gayness and told to butch it up and pretend to be straight or no roles.... Garrett Clayton is a modern day Tommy Kirk in a way... he was cast as a very heterosexual, but very homosexual boy in "Teen Beach Movie" and Disney milked him as the new Zac Efron, but he quickly was phased out because he was clearly not going to be Prince Charming to Cinderella.
Tommy Kirk was a wonderful actor and really the epitome of the wholesome American boy next door.... what a shame he had to live the way he did, but then again you can say that about all gay boys in the 1950s and 1960s.

Is it just me or all the gays really bitchy as fuck today?  On that dopey DataLounge, the Queens are throwing fits and slapping each other silly... Nellies. 😄

You are an essential part of our community, my friend.

Thank you so much lonely_john -  i know i need help, i am already in therapy so i find it so helpful too.... and I just want to thank you all for being so kind here, this forum is a truly great place to form a community!

Hi @Merboy Been there done that. I've read many of your posts on this forum and at risk of sounding rude I must strongly recommend you to look for therapy and counselling. I've frequently sensed a subtle but creepy depression in many of your vents here and it's just not healthy. We can give you as much advice as we can in here but every person is a different world that needs tailored assistance in this kind of situations. I went through the same problem long time ago and it was only through therapy that I could understand why I felt the way I felt and what to do about it. I think the best advice on this thread was given to you by @Rudynatebut it's not a matter of just receiving the advice. You have to find your own way to internalize it and incorporate it in your mind, as mindsets don't change overnight. It takes time, patience and effort. One must learn to accept rejection, as it's part of life, and know that what others think about you does not define your worth. And please, oh please, stop looking for a partner ONLY on Grindr or other gay hookup apps, or gay bars, which have become their physical replica. They're the worst for your current state of mind. I truthfully wish that you find happiness and content with yourself and hopefully, one day, a partner. It's possible. Don't give up.

Yeah, it's confusing for me too.  And Good Lord knows I need a fuck for the ages.  Alas, I am just as dry as Joan Rivers' old coochie was.  I mean there are like cobwebs up into my crackhole.  Be careful if you're ever walking or jogging behind me at the park - you never know, a dizzying plethora of little baby bats may fly outta my ass...
My G spot is like Amelia Earhart.  No one's ever found it, and no one's ever gone looking for it ever since...
Today's a Joan Rivers day.  But what days aren't?  Anyway, I digress...
Picture it.  Sicily, 1903... I set sail for the New World... wait, uhhh, wrong story.  Scratch that.
Picture it.  The Divided States of America: 2021, a nation of gay heroes, overly spray tanned villains, Instahoes, Instabros, and Friends of Dorothy - and that, kids, over there is the wholesome little town of West Hollywood, hahahahahaha...
ok, so where am I going w/ this?  i dunno really, but I just want to appreciate each and every one of you for making this forum SO MUCH MORE than a site for Cum Guzzling and Butt Pirate Plunging.... you make coming here a real treat.
Just a round of appreciation for y'all:
You are STRONG.  You are GORGEOUS.  You are FIERCE.  And you can BE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO BE...
Be you, boo.  ❤️
That's all...
 
Oh and this - just cuz:

ya know's what i means, jelly beans?!  eww.. ronald reagan.  lol.

Yeah, it's confusing for me too.  And Good Lord knows I need a fuck for the ages.  Alas, I am just as dry as Joan Rivers' old coochie was.  I mean there are like cobwebs up into my crackhole.  Be careful if you're ever walking or jogging behind me at the park - you never know, a dizzying plethora of little baby bats may fly outta my ass...
My G spot is like Amelia Earhart.  No one's ever found it, and no one's ever gone looking for it ever since...
Today's a Joan Rivers day.  But what days aren't?  Anyway, I digress...
Picture it.  Sicily, 1903... I set sail for the New World... wait, uhhh, wrong story.  Scratch that.
Picture it.  The Divided States of America: 2021, a nation of gay heroes, overly spray tanned villains, Instahoes, Instabros, and Friends of Dorothy - and that, kids, over there is the wholesome little town of West Hollywood, hahahahahaha...
ok, so where am I going w/ this?  i dunno really, but I just want to appreciate each and every one of you for making this forum SO MUCH MORE than a site for Cum Guzzling and Butt Pirate Plunging.... you make coming here a real treat.
Just a round of appreciation for y'all:
You are STRONG.  You are GORGEOUS.  You are FIERCE.  And you can BE ANYTHING YOU WANT TO BE...
Be you, boo.  ❤️
That's all...
 
Oh and this - just cuz:

ya know's what i means, jelly beans?!  eww.. ronald reagan.  lol.

Just stash the money away in an envelope so when you are in the mood you'll be ready. 

Found him. 
Looks like a guy I made out with in a junkyard behind a Chinese food restaurant.

He has such a feminine energy and I guess he's a bottom, but he's very very attractive.

I mean if you're paying thousands of dollars for one night then is a tip really necessary? Just hand over $3,000 lol.

"scented" with mosquito repellent, I hope.

I always tip.  Always.  Even if the service is terrible I'll give the waitress $5.
If the guy is super hot, super nice, and flexes his biceps for me, I'll give him $25 - and all I ordered was a glass of water 🙂

I always tip.  Always.  Even if the service is terrible I'll give the waitress $5.
If the guy is super hot, super nice, and flexes his biceps for me, I'll give him $25 - and all I ordered was a glass of water 🙂

Only Senatrix Lindsey Graham.

Only Senatrix Lindsey Graham.

Gee I'd love to go there but being a third class passenger, I'm not allowed up to A Deck.  Just the poop deck, and dang don't it just smell like shit.

I think gays and - really all men that enjoy the company of a handsome gentleman caller from time to time, are doing a tremendous job of dealing with what has got to be a ton of sexual repression right now....
All of you have done beautifully through this entire hell of COVID that never seems to ever end..
One day the masks and the shirts and the undies will all come off, and places like Fire Island, Key West, West Hollywood, Palm Springs, Rehoboth Beach, and P-town will be full of sweaty, shirtless beefcake running around trying to take your digits for a midnight rendezvous... oh yea, it's gonna be Party on like DOnkey kong!!!!

It's an excellent show but its been on since Cher was a fetus... seriously, and it's on every other channel on cable TV nowadays, the remote controls now should have the button "SVU" on them so you can get right to the next episode fast!  Chris Meloni and Mariska Hargitay (have they both won Emmys for their performances?) are marvelous.

It turns out he was using me.... but he was my friend 😪