What's Your Earliest "I'm Queer" memory?

[thickornotatall]

We had just finished reading Fanny Hill...and were starting The Carpetbaggers....with my across the street neighbor "horsemeat" Jakimow....that's when he said...even though it's called a blowjob...you are supposed to suck!...He was 12 and I was 10....we spent every afternoon possible in his families Rec room....just a reading and a sucking....Labor Day ended our affair...on to middle school....

[gilbert]

I can remember somewhere between 8 and 12 years old taking special notice of the muscular physiques of a few adult male friends of the family. At the middle school age I would get together with one of my friends and look at musclemen magazines and I remember him telling me how looking at the guys made him feel funny. Through high school I liked to watch pro wrestling on TV, and wrestling with some of my friends who had muscular legs. Through all of this I was very naive, and didn't think once about being gay. This is a little embarrassing to say, but my first real jack off session didn't happen until I was well into college. I was watching pro-wrestling and a wrestler had Jack Brisco on the mat in a headlock. I reached down and started stroking away, because I felt I just had to do it...and it felt so good. Then BLEWIE!

[+ nycman]

Mid-1970's

 

I was about 6 years old

 

Mr. Olympia Competition.

 

I licked the TV....

 

My father was not amused

[Rudynate]

However, I didn't wait as long as he did, I only held out until I was 22, lol!

 

By about 14, I had decided I was going to try male-male sex as soon as I got the chance. I reasoned that, if I didn't like it, I didn't need to keep doing it. Looking back, I realize I had opportunities galore that I was too dumb to recognize at the time. Finally did it for the first time at 17 with a tennis pro at a local country club who started chatting me up when he came into the place where I worked after school.

[+ Gar1eth]

 

In grade school, when we first started dealing with being naked and showering along with gym class (4th grade, I think),

 

Wow, that's early. We didn't have formal same sex PE classes until grade 7 in junior high. I was 12, and I dreaded every Tues, Thu, and every other Friday because I was a fat kid. I was weak, inept at sports, and while there were cute guys in my class, I hated showering around the pole.

 

Gman

[+ Gar1eth]

By about 14, I had decided I was going to try male-male sex as soon as I got the chance. I reasoned that, if I didn't like it, I didn't need to keep doing it

Had you tried male-female sex at that point or before your 1st male-male experience?

 

Gman

[Steven_Draker]

My earliest memory was some TV program with underwater male swimmers.

 

http://fringefamily.typepad.com/.a/6a0105364a8fba970c016768e681f3970b-800wi

 

I immediately got a hard-on. My very first hard-on ... :-)

[Guest]

In the 2nd, 3rd and 4th grades, I always seemed to pick the best looking kid in my class as a friend. True, one student became a real friend, nick named Bimbo (not kidding). But, I did not understand it. And then I saw the film "Tea and Sympathy" on TV, and totally understood from then on.

 

I had to look that movie up, because it was way before my time, but it stars John Kerr, whom I found very handsome in South Pacific. I looked up Tea & Sympathy on Netflix, and unfortunately they don't carry it, because otherwise I would have loved to watch it. Things haven't changed in 60 years. I guess he was a 25 year-old playing a 17 year-old. We're still doing that today, with actors in their mid 20s playing high school students in most high school TV shows (Teen Wolf, The OC, Glee, and too many others to mention). As for myself, I guess I was a late-bloomer compared to most of you horny guys. My first sexual thought came when I was a 7th grader. In our junior high school (grades 7-9), they had 9th graders act as assistants to the gym teachers. The 9th grader who led us in warm-up calisthenics was one of the most athletic students our junior high school had ever seen. At the time, we wore gym shorts color-coded to our athletic ability--there were six levels. He was the only student during my 3 years at that junior high school who ever wore the highest level: black satin shorts. Of course, he had to lead us in calisthenics with his shirt off. The instant I saw his rippled muscles, jet-black hair, and green eyes, I got an instant hard-on, and knew immediately that this is exactly what attracted me. It was the least subtle moment possible. That was the exact second I hit puberty. I'll never forget it.

Unfortunately, I soon discovered that he was not the only guy who gave me a hard-on. Showers were required, and, unfortunately, I had absolutely no control over my massive, raging hard-ons. I would run into the shower as fast as I could, looking only at the floor, and quickly turn on the cold water. The jocks would taunt me to try to make me look at them. They knew that one glance would make my dick stick out like a unicorn's horn (in which case I would get whacked with a wet towel). I guess this is why I have no understanding of men who claim that they have no understanding of their sexual preference. It should be plainly visible, in my view...

[+ WilliamM]

had to look that movie up, because it was way before my time, but it stars John Kerr, whom I found very handsome in South Pacific. I looked up Tea & Sympathy on Netflix, and unfortunately they don't carry it, because otherwise I would have loved to watch it

 

John Kerr also starred in the play on Broadway, which may explain why he's way too old in the film. I watched it again recently on Turner Classic Movie; it's really dated now. Now you could not play up a gay plot, and suddenly change gears near the end.

 

I should read the play to understand if the ending was changed for Hollywood. "Tea and Sympathy" is available to purchase at Amazon. I suggest we both read the play instead, although I totally agree about John Kerr in the film version of "South Pacific."

[+ Gar1eth]

John Kerr also starred in the play on Broadway, which may explain why he's way too old in the film. I watched it again recently on Turner Classic Movie; it's really dated now. Now you could not play up a gay plot, and suddenly change gears near the end.

 

I should read the play to understand if the ending was changed for Hollywood. "Tea and Sympathy" is available to purchase at Amazon. I suggest we both read the play instead, although I totally agree about John Kerr in the film version of "South Pacific."

 

I just looked up the play and movie on Wikipedia. I'm surprised it was made at the time considering the subject was potential homosexuality. I guess if Tom had actually been gay, it wouldn't have ever made it on the screen back then. I'm also shocked by The Children's Hour. The play was 1st written and produced in the 1930's with the movie produced in the 1961.

 

Gman

Edited July 19, 2015 by Gar1eth

[bostonman]

Wow, that's early. We didn't have formal same sex PE classes until grade 7 in junior high. I was 12, and I dreaded every Tues, Thu, and every other Friday because I was a fat kid. I was weak, inept at sports, and while there were cute guys in my class, I hated showering around the pole.

 

I'm pretty sure it was 4th grade, might have been 5th. And I don't ever remember same sex classes per se, though I could be wrong about that. (But obviously the locker rooms were separate lol). This would have been the early-mid 1970's, when ironically I think things were a bit more progressive than they are now. I remember we started sex ed (and discussions about other issues such as drug use, etc) in early grades.

 

One of the first boys I actually did fool around with (just a little, and looking back on things, we really missed the opportunity for more) was named Tim. Tim was hung for his age, and as I think he had stayed back a grade (before moving to our town), he was a year older - so when we met in 6th grade, he was maturing ahead of the rest of us. Anyway - whether he was gay, bi, or just curious I'll never know for sure - but I do remember him once getting a hard-on in the boy's shower...and some of the kids razzed him of course, but I was in love, lol. And yes, one time when we were hanging out I did get to touch it, and even tried to suck it (I can still remember Tim saying "blow me" as part of his sneaky little "truth or dare" game we played lol) - but as I said, we never really went very far with things. To this day I regret not realizing what could have been...

Edited July 19, 2015 by bostonman

[Zman]

It's not my earliest memory but I can still recall watching a really athletic guy in high school changing into a jockstrap before gym class. Nobody wore jockstraps in my high school except the athletes. Now, the jockstrap's day has completely passed (except in gay porn). But I have fond memories....

[sincitymix]

I'm pretty sure it was 4th grade, might have been 5th. And I don't ever remember same sex classes per se, though I could be wrong about that. (But obviously the locker rooms were separate lol). This would have been the early-mid 1970's, when ironically I think things were a bit more progressive than they are now. I remember we started sex ed (and discussions about other issues such as drug use, etc) in early grades.

 

One of the first boys I actually did fool around with (just a little, and looking back on things, we really missed the opportunity for more) was named Tim. Tim was hung for his age, and as I think he had stayed back a grade (before moving to our town), he was a year older - so when we met in 6th grade, he was maturing ahead of the rest of us. Anyway - whether he was gay, bi, or just curious I'll never know for sure - but I do remember him once getting a hard-on in the boy's shower...and some of the kids razzed him of course, but I was in love, lol. And yes, one time when we were hanging out I did get to touch it, and even tried to suck it (I can still remember Tim saying "blow me" as part of his sneaky little "truth or dare" game we played lol) - but as I said, we never really went very far with things. To this day I regret not realizing what could have been...

 

I remember playing a "game" with a boy in high school. I was a freshman, he was a junior. Im not exactly sure how it started.. a game of tickle tag wrestling oh look his dick is being shoved down my throat.

Shame he moved a few months later.. but he told me I sucked better than his girlfriends... first time sucking dick too! :P

 

makes me think a lot of straight boys aren't as straight as they claim to be.

[bostonman]

It's not my earliest memory but I can still recall watching a really athletic guy in high school changing into a jockstrap before gym class. Nobody wore jockstraps in my high school except the athletes. Now, the jockstrap's day has completely passed (except in gay porn). But I have fond memories....

 

...which just reminded me of something. Sometime in my early teens my parents bought me a jockstrap - I wasn't any kind of athlete but I think they thought I should wear it under my swim trunks in the summer. Anyway, the package it came in had a hot model on the front, wearing nothing but the jock, and I remember looking at it and jerking off to it. (I also seem to remember that a few days later I found the box in the trash - my mom probably had no reason to think we needed it - but I took it back lol.)

[sincitymix]

...which just reminded me of something. Sometime in my early teens my parents bought me a jockstrap - I wasn't any kind of athlete but I think they thought I should wear it under my swim trunks in the summer. Anyway, the package it came in had a hot model on the front, wearing nothing but the jock, and I remember looking at it and jerking off to it. (I also seem to remember that a few days later I found the box in the trash - my mom probably had no reason to think we needed it - but I took it back lol.)

 

Ooh brings back memories of all the hot jockey models

[BabyBoomer]

Ooh brings back memories of all the hot jockey models

 

Jim Palmer

 

~Boomer ~

[+ azdr0710]

the package it came in had a hot model on the front, wearing nothing but the jock

 

 

this just reminded me of the legendary mid-1970s Sears catalog that had an underwear model who, reputedly, wasn't fully tucked in.....

 

http://www.snopes.com/business/hidden/sears.asp

 

and did anybody peruse the Penney's and Sears catalogs, by the way??!!....that dude at far right seemed to be in every other underwear ad picture in the 70s....

 

http://tyflyguy.files.wordpress.com/2009/10/underwear.jpg

[sincitymix]

Jim Palmer

 

~Boomer ~

 

YES! LOL I used to have his jockey picture and some other blonde guy. My parents kept trying to throw them away.. but oddly enough they kept coming back lol.. I normally don't like body hair, but jim palmer had a hairy chest that I was in love with as a boy

[BabyBoomer]

YES! LOL I used to have his jockey picture and some other blonde guy. My parents kept trying to throw them away.. but oddly enough they kept coming back lol.. I normally don't like body hair, but jim palmer had a hairy chest that I was in love with as a boy

 

Yes. There was another model, but I can't remember his name. Where is Gman? He might remember.

 

~Boomer ~

[bostonman]

Jim Palmer

 

Ah, yes...I remember him well.

[bostonman]

I remember playing a "game" with a boy in high school. I was a freshman, he was a junior. Im not exactly sure how it started.. a game of tickle tag wrestling oh look his dick is being shoved down my throat.

Shame he moved a few months later.. but he told me I sucked better than his girlfriends... first time sucking dick too! :p

 

I wish I could say the same for the first time with Tim, but if we had had more time or if we had pursued things more, I think Tim would have turned me into an expert, lol.

 

I remember this like it was yesterday...

 

The "truth or dare" game started with daring each other to strip (we were in my bedroom, with my parents and younger brother home, so there was always the risk of being caught lol) - I went first, and then he took his clothes off. That's when I really got a chance to see and touch that big boner in person, lol. Actually, I remember him sitting on the edge of the bed stroking himself a little, then he dared - "blow me." I actually had to ask him what that was, though I kind of knew. I remember he stood up against the closed door (it didn't lock, maybe he was worried someone might try to come in) and I instinctively knelt down. I held his cock with fingers of both hands. It was so warm. I remember commenting on how big it was, and he urged me to put my mouth on it.

 

My problem was - I *didn't* get the concept that you weren't supposed to literally suck on it lol. But I guess whatever I was doing felt good because he let me do it for what seemed like a minute or so. Then suddenly he stopped me. (I was a late bloomer at 13 and wasn't shooting off yet - but did I get him close, or did he just feel we should stop before being found out? I don't know.) Then of course I asked him to blow me.

 

I didn't want to stand at the door - instead, even at this early point I kind of knew I wanted to be on the bed for sex lol. So I sat on the bed and he kneeled in front of me. And THAT'S when I learned how you were supposed to give a blow job - he did the classic up-and-down the shaft motion with his mouth. (Where did he learn that, lol?) And then, probably after a minute or so (with me in heaven, lol), he pulled off and we got dressed.

 

Later, I remember being outside, with him and both families (as his parents had come to pick him up.) I remember standing by the car, with only one thought on my mind. I desperately wanted to ask Tim if we could do all of that again sometime. But I was too hesitant - was I afraid he'd say no, or was I too ashamed of what we had done, etc? I don't know. And although I don't remember breaking the friendship off at any point, I also don't seem to remember getting together with him again. Or maybe we did - but the opportunity to fool around wasn't there. Not sure.

 

But I'll never forget that first naive attempt at sucking Tim's dick - and his subsequent showing me how it's really supposed to be done, lol.

[gallahadesquire]

I was in summer "Day camp" -- we'd leave the YMCA at about 8:00 and return about 5:00. I did this for about three years, and I know it was before 1961 [i was ten then], because I would go over to my aunt's house after camp. She died in 1961.

 

Anyway: I want to say third grade (it just seems right) and there was some guy, probably between junior and senior years of high school, who was probably one of the lifeguards. I remember being just about eye level with his crotch, and seeing pubic hair, a particularly V-shaped full Monty [to this day, I LOVE good obliques on a guy], and a bigger-than-mine penis.

 

I remember one day, when his red Speedo was hanging up to dry. There was something about a red Speedo that imprinted on my mind. To this day, there's a bit of a fetish there.

 

Later, of course, there were the chance sightings--the big (for a high school junior) blond jock who was taking Gym instead of a sport. 5'10", about 185, defined, built, cute face, long hair ... this is 1968. My personal trainer kinda reminds me of him, which is not an entirely good thing.

 

I still have about 40% of my pre-Stonewall gay hangups, but even those are becoming fewer as life goes on.

[+ Charlie]

I just looked up the play and movie on Wikipedia. I'm surprised it was made at the time considering the subject was potential homosexuality. I guess if Tom had actually been gay. It wouldn't have ever made it on the screen back then. I'm also shocked by The Children's Hour. The play was 1st written and produced in the 1930's with the movie produced in the 1961.

 

Gman

The early 1930s were actually more relaxed and open about homosexuality in plays and movies than they were after WW2. Censorship of the movies only started in the mid-1930s. I remember when the movie version of The Children's Hour was made in 1961, the subject matter was considered so daring that it could only be suggested obliquely, and of course the lesbian character played by Sandy Dennis had to be killed at the end. I took a girlfriend at the time to see it, and I actually had to explain to her what was going on in the plot, because she didn't get it.

[+ Gar1eth]

The early 1930s were actually more relaxed and open about homosexuality in plays and movies than they were after WW2. Censorship of the movies only started in the mid-1930s. I remember when the movie version of The Children's Hour was made in 1961, the subject matter was considered so daring that it could only be suggested obliquely, and of course the lesbian character played by Sandy Dennis had to be killed at the end. I took a girlfriend at the time to see it, and I actually had to explain to her what was going on in the plot, because she didn't get it.

I think you mean Shirley MacLaine and not Sandy Denis.

 

Gman

[Irtwo]

The early 1930s were actually more relaxed and open about homosexuality in plays and movies than they were after WW2.

 

Very true. A perfect example is the movie Crossfire, in 1947. The original novel it's based on was about a homophobic killer, but when they made the movie it became about an antisemitic killer instead (played by Robert Ryan) as no one wanted to touch the subject of homophobia.