I'm certainly not an expert in the ways of romance myself, by anyone's definition. Nor do I know what your current life situation may be and how this might affect others around you - so what I offer is just some general ideas for what they might be worth. I would strongly suggest taking a deep breath and do not let your anxiety get the better of you by trying to figure out what it all means right away. Take the time that you need to understand more clearly what it is that you are seeking, without necessarily putting a label (straight, gay, bisexual) on it, and proceed in a way and at a pace that is within your comfort zone. Be mindful of risks and safety, conduct yourself respectfully and honourably, and remember that while your own journey is unique, many others have likely been in similar situations and have come through with flying colours. Peace.