AntonGraza

When you mentioned CD’s,  I thought you were talking about Certificates of Deposits. When back in the days you could lock in a high rate of interest. I still remember getting 20% on a money market. Yes, those were the days! 
 

I really had a great time. He looks great. Best massage experience. PM me with any specific questions

I have been with him twice and could not agree with you MORE.  Great guy, super nice, Handsome, Massage was good and WOW what a body on him

I just had a 2 hour session with Jake.   I enjoyed every aspect of the massage (deep tissue, stretching, relaxing, sensual, playful). Great conversation, too.  The man has a great attitude, and is a great find.

A co-worker did this only in a speedo and tennis shoes.  He removed a large patch of poison oak, which was shredded by the weed whip and stuck all over is sweaty exposed body.  OMG, from the neck down he was in various stages of red blotches and fist sized rashes.  It took weeks to heal.  Gorgeous guy, tall, furry and ripped, but not to bright.

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

I have hired Jake and all my experience with him were outstanding. What sets him apart and what I enjoyed is his personality-“aura” just a really nice guy to be around.  
From what I read about Leo from others and his review comments, his personality best matched Jake’s name on the list you were provided.  
PM and I may be able to answer any questions. 

A co-worker did this only in a speedo and tennis shoes.  He removed a large patch of poison oak, which was shredded by the weed whip and stuck all over is sweaty exposed body.  OMG, from the neck down he was in various stages of red blotches and fist sized rashes.  It took weeks to heal.  Gorgeous guy, tall, furry and ripped, but not to bright.

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

If you enjoyed a massage by Leo, out of the above mentioned, you would enjoy Jake.  

A co-worker did this only in a speedo and tennis shoes.  He removed a large patch of poison oak, which was shredded by the weed whip and stuck all over is sweaty exposed body.  OMG, from the neck down he was in various stages of red blotches and fist sized rashes.  It took weeks to heal.  Gorgeous guy, tall, furry and ripped, but not to bright.

A co-worker did this only in a speedo and tennis shoes.  He removed a large patch of poison oak, which was shredded by the weed whip and stuck all over is sweaty exposed body.  OMG, from the neck down he was in various stages of red blotches and fist sized rashes.  It took weeks to heal.  Gorgeous guy, tall, furry and ripped, but not to bright.

A co-worker did this only in a speedo and tennis shoes.  He removed a large patch of poison oak, which was shredded by the weed whip and stuck all over is sweaty exposed body.  OMG, from the neck down he was in various stages of red blotches and fist sized rashes.  It took weeks to heal.  Gorgeous guy, tall, furry and ripped, but not to bright.

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

I put in a large 4'x6' shower room with two separate shower heads at my house in Hyannis, and always offer my massage clients a shower after the massage if they would like,   Often the massage session continues in the shower where I offer a body scrub.

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

Hey Cure69: 
I am in the same situation, with a few years on you - 57 and have not taken the plunge, but I have my providers for my first time to bottom selected, when it is time.  So far I have been exploring with masseur's and becoming "comfortable" exploring this aspect of my life.
I would second Charlie's suggestion and consider professional counseling if your situation allows.   Two years ago, I was miserable, depressed and fighting the dark blackness that can over-whelm a person.  I was actively making plans for my suicide to look like an accident so my family could get my insurance money.   Emotionally I could not put my wife and kids through that pain due to my selfishness and knew something major had to be done, and went to therapy.   I don't want to see anyone else have to go through that and I should have gotten help much earlier in my life.
I have been in therapy for about 2 years now and  it has really helped to identify what I needed to do.   I have made changes and it has not been easy mentally, but worth every penny I have spent.  My therapist and I know the best option for me is to end the marriage and start over, but that is another issue for another time.
One of the best things I have done in my life is being a dad and raising my children with my wife to be wonderful, loving people.   If I decided in my 20's to come out, not to get married and have kids, I would not have had this experience.  So, don't look at what could have been and what was lost, work with what you have now and take it one step at a time.   Your 40's, at least in my life, was one of the most stressful and confusing, so be kind to yourself.
Feel free to PM me, I don't have all the answers and everyone's situation is different, but I can be a sympathetic ear.
Take care.   Anton

The solution to the problem has a good ending.
A man and his wife came by my house this morning to take the dog.  
They seem like caring people. 
Even though this was a stressful situation seeing the dog pushed out of a car, I cannot help but think of William Shakespeare when he wrote:
"All is well that ends well."
 
Thanks for all the suggestions
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OMG. He started playing music…..from the 80’s!    
Based on the previous comments, I had this on in the background as I folded laundry. When I was done, I glanced in the mirror and said, “You are the biggest, baddest daddy ever” and took a pile of clothes.  😉

OMG. He started playing music…..from the 80’s!    
Based on the previous comments, I had this on in the background as I folded laundry. When I was done, I glanced in the mirror and said, “You are the biggest, baddest daddy ever” and took a pile of clothes.  😉

Is that Boris Johnson on the left?

Yeah, I got one of those "newbie" badges today too.... Have no idea WTF it is, or why I even got it...  but old Queens cant be ungrateful when they receive shit, so THANK YOU to the Academy that made this possible !  👸
And while I was posting THIS, I also just got some posting badge award for my 500th post...HUH ?

@JeffThom - With other things in life, do you jump into the deep end right away, or do you tend to take small steps?  I tend to be risk adverse.
When I decided to act on my attraction to men (at age 44), I started with an erotic massage as it felt that it would not be a big risk.  Back then advertisements on the massage sites were less restricted, and the guy I hired listed his services as 45 minutes of massage followed by 15 minutes of oral play.  I decided that was enough to dip my toe in the water.  For me, just having another naked man in the room who was touching me was wonderful.  And the oral play made it even better.
After that massage I was comfortable taking the next steps.