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Apparently someone else (could it be Vin_Marco) likes that scene too!! ..."They was plumb unattractive, but by gum, they was active, so I beg you kindly 'cause, put 'em back the way they wuz!"... Gman

As a youngster of 5 or so, this was my favorite scene from the movie "Li'l Abner." Actually it's probably still my favorite scene Some people's heroes may have always been cowboys. Mine have always been men ( or Cowboys) with Greek G-d physiques.

Sometimes yes-sometimes no. I was just so shocked when I found the obituary. I mean obviously I've encountered death at my age. But he was younger than I am. I just need to do better. I mean last night I was tearing up when a character died on Poldark. That happens a lot. TV and movie deaths affect me -I'm a sap but I guess it is a tribute to the production. But I need to make sure I carry over those kind of feelings to real people. This man and I had a relationship. It was a limited one. But it was a relationship nonetheless. I should have inquired-not been so caught up in my own mishegoss. But thank you for the kind words @MikeBiDude I actually have another situation to tell. It's from several years ago. I almost wrote about it then. But I was really emotional about it. I could never quite put it completely into words. Now the emotion is not as intense-and my memory of it not as acute (or accurate). I may post about it in a few months. It's more of tribute piece-along with some regrets-of a man I wasn't able to really publicly mourn. Well I could mourn him-just it was by myself. Because of the situation I wasn't able to share how much over the years he had meant to me (platonically only) with his family. Gman

   Ok I apologize in advance as this may be rather long. Reddit has a feature where people present an incident in their life that seems to be controversial for the people involved, and people respond back to how they view the incident. The person presenting it is either unsure of whether they acted correctly or is looking for validation when acquaintances are negative over whatever the presenter did. Here's my story: I met a guy about a year after I moved back to Texas thru one of the hook-up apps. I was maybe mildly attracted to him but nothing major. We had probably texted on and off for a year before I decided to meet. One of the reasons I probably delayed was because he was HIV positive. Yes I know U=U. But it still gave me pause. I mean I didn't know the guy. How did I know if he took his medication regularly. And I wasn't on PrEP at the time. There were also logistic problems. I was staying with family and couldn't host. But we kept talking -and I was horny -and we finally met at his apartment. He told me his 1st name at some point (I never got his last name). I was never sure whether it was really his name or an alias. I had -sometimes still do-gave him my middle name. It's actually helpful-if I've met someone on the apps-I usually used to give my middle name. Then when we met in person, and I knew the guy wasn't crazy, I'd tell him my real name. That way if someone texted me by my middle name -I knew I probably hadn't met him in person. And if he turned out to be crazy, I hadn't given my real name Let's call the guy Harry. Harry and I did exchange phone numbers. And we continued to meet intermittently over probably 3 to 4 years. This was truly a fbud relationship. We only met at his apartment. I knew his profession but not exactly where he worked. He knew where I worked. He def was not someone I was majorly attracted to. But he was often the only guy available. I know I wasn't the only one he would see because he was into videoing encounters. (He had lots and lots of self-made videos). Plus he liked multiples, and that's not my usual cup of tea. He also liked to smoke meth. That was the main time he wanted to see me. I don't do drugs. And to tell the truth if I had had more opportunity for other fbuds, I probably wouldn't have continued to see him. But I'm a chubby bald bear. Not that many guys are interested in me. And from time to time, I needed to be with someone. But this was a casual relationship. We were definitely only fbuds. We never went out anywhere together, never had a meal, never watched TV (except a few bits of his porn videos or the videos he had recorded). Often I would text, and he wouldn't respond at all for weeks. Sometimes he'd text me, and I'd tell him I couldn't meet. Sometimes he'd disappear off the apps-often when he wasn't smoking meth as much. I don't think we met very often during Covid. But it's difficult to remember exactly. All the dates are difficult to remember at this point- I think it might have been a year since I last saw him. But I think it was last October he texted me that he had been diagnosed with cancer. I told him how sorry I was. But it was a short text conversation. I didn't hear from him after that. Starting in January because of financial problems, I've had to move in with relatives. It's not just that I can't host, but often meetings from the apps occur late at night. Apparently not only do the girls get prettier at closing time-but chubby bears often become more attractive too. However because of my living situation, I can't take off in the middle of the night. So I haven't been meeting a lot of people. I've thought about Harry from time to time. But didn't text. After I moved in with my relatives, I reduced my time on the apps for months since I couldn't often meet. When I got back on a few months ago, I didn't see him on either Growlr or Scruff which were the apps I used to see him on. Last night for some reason I was thinking about Harry, and I put his phone number in a search website-this one in case anyone is interested https://www.fastpeoplesearch.com/ I'm not sure why I had never looked him up before. The website managed to pull up his name. Turns out he did give me his real first name. I googled him-expecting to maybe find his LinkedIn profile or Facebook page. Instead I found his obituary. He had died last March. The news was quite a shock. So now I'm feeling pretty awful. I feel like I should have checked in on him at some point. While we were only non-exclusive fbuds, it seems to me that if I had been a more decent person, I would have gotten back in touch with him. I will say that it was in the back of my mind that he'd contact me again to let me know how he was doing. But when he didn't, I should have checked in on him. I can't help thinking that I'm an esshole for not checking in to see how Harry was doing. I only hope I take this lesson to heart and work on being a more caring person. I just thought of a quote from "A Christmas Carol." Scrooge tells Marley he was always a good businessman. Marley replies that "Mankind should have been his business." That's how I'm feeling now. Gman

It's late/or rather early. I haven't been to sleep yet, so I'm not functioning on all cylinders-come to think of it. I probably never am. But I just remembered, and need to add to my above response. During my 1st year or 2 of being diagnosed with myasthenia gravis, I did wear a medical alert object. Not liking jewelry I didn't want to wear a wrist bracelet, so I bought a neck chain. I gradually stopped wearing it -I think I misplaced it at some point. In general I'm much less symptomatic than I was. But thinking about the fact that I'm probably at least mildly immune suppressed from chronic steroids, there are medicines I shouldn't be given, and the fact that if I had a major attack of diaphragm paralysis, physicians might not consider MG because it's relatively rare, I'm considering about reactivating my Medical Alert Membership and buying a new chain. Gman

DWR? Gman PS Dallas --or at least this Plano-ite-misses you.

I'm not much into them. But I don't like jewelry in general. I don't wear any rings, back before cell phones I was probably at least 25 before I routinely wore a watch, and I'm currently "unpierced" and stud free. When I was a youngster (I'm talking really young-or at least starting young-maybe at the age of 5 or 6), I'd take notice of handsome men. And for some reason, I didn't like watches. I'd think to myself something to the effect that -that guy would be handsome if he weren't wearing a watch. Now I did for a short period of time in adolescence wear a mezuzah on a chain. It was probably somewhere around the time of my bar mitzvah when I was in 7th grade. But I had to take P.E. two to three days a week in school. We didn't have lockers for our clothes. We had metal baskets that could be locked. It seems to me I lost 2 different chains thru the holes in the basket. And that was probably the last time I really wore a chain. And even today I'm not that fond of pictures of guys with watches. I look at Rentmen ads and often think how unattractive I think those watches are-esp those guys wearing watches with overly large bands or that are plastic looking and brightly colored. I also dislike the look of Iwatches. While I've worn watches in the past, mine have usually been unobtrusive black plastic models. And occasionally I've even worn pocket watches.

In one of the stories, it mentioned that when he and the police were at the home about to enter-he had brought along a female companion with whom he was being affectionate. You have to wonder was he doing that for an alibi to proclaim his heterosexuality-as in I couldn't possibly have been having gay sex with this guy-or did he not have the self-control to control himself from canoodling even with the police present about to discover the body which he knew was there-both maybe? I mean you have to wonder about his state of mind-assuming the verdict is correct. And even if the verdict was wrong-he still knew that the guy had died and was about to be discovered. The more I think back to him-it seems to me that I thought he was ADHD-unless it was due to drugs or both. I know he told me he was on testosterone- he told me as I recall that he was hypogonadic. This case reminds me-slightly -there was that porn star years ago-killed someone with his female accomplice-I think in the Chicago region. He wasn't an extremely famous porn star. He was on Sean Cody or somewhere like that. He pretended to be British in those videos. And I think he had a DJ career pretending to be British. He was in a video with an escort who was once popular around here-versatile but mainly a bottom. I can't remember the name of the escort. He lived for years in Dallas -I think he was working on a Masters here. Then he moved to Chicago. He only did 2 or so videos for Sean Cody-or whatever site it was. I always wondered if he thought about the fact that he had had sex with someone who committed murder. Now I'm in the same boat. It's very weird. Gman

Thank you. Probably just a momentary return. But I do appreciate the sentiment. I'm actually glad I was able to find the site. It wasn't the first thing to pop up oN my google search. Gman

I'm actually very surprised. I thought it was going to turn out that they were doing drugs together and the guy accidentally overdosed. The other thing that surprises me is that if the case against Logan was so strong, why didn't he plead guilty-assuming it might have given him a lesser sentence? As it is, it looks like he'll be a minimum of 60 years old, and probably older before he's released ( I'm assuming credit for time served since he's been locked up 5 or 6 years already). I just looked up capital punishment in Alaska. It was abolished in 1957. I know I shouldn't, but I also have to wonder about his prison 'life' He's a handsome guy-and was versatile-not that it would matter most likely if he hadn't been. I'm pretty sure I remember that someone on here hired him for a scene where Logan brought along a woman, had 'intimate knowledge' of her. Then I think she left-and possible the Forum member and Logan played. But it was a long time ago that I heard the story. I might have the particulars wrong. (And if the person who told me is still a member - I've probably done wrong by relating the story here. But please, I in no way expect you to admit to it. ). I feel weird enough on an intellectual basis about having been with him. Emotionally I'm numb. Possibly I'd have more emotions if I had seen Logan more often or if it hadn't been such a long time ago. I almost never delete texts. It looks to me the last time I contacted him was 2015. There are only a few texts left -might have lost some due to actively erasing or when I switched phones. But they don't refer to actually meeting then. So I haven't seen him at least since then. Gman

Hello people. It's me Gman. Some may remember me. For those new to the site, I used to be a frequent poster. I wasn't quite sure where to post this. It's certainly a weird feeling to know I was with him several times. Several years before this, he actually said at one point he wanted to be boyfriends. I was in a bad place at the time and willing to believe him. But he always acted squirrelly. I could never count on him. We never even actually went on a date. I'm fairly sure I had stopped seeing him several years before 2017 as he had moved fairly far from Tacoma. Plus I wasn't hiring very often my last years in Washington state due to being unemployed. I also remember at least one other Forum member had been with him in a scene involving a female. Press Release - Jordan Joplin Convicted of Ketchikan Doctor’s Murder LAW.ALASKA.GOV Alaska Department of Law Hope everyone is well Gman

Is this Blu Kennedy all grown up! https://rent.men/HungGingerNY Gman

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I'm sorry for your loss. I don't know if it will help-but in the Jewish religion we say, "May their memory always be as a blessing." I had always thought it meant that it was hoped that thinking of the departed would at some point bring comfort to those who had loved and cared for her But about a year or so ago I read an article-I don't know whether it's 'official' or just this author's opinion. I'm going to quote part of the article here. It was on the passing of Ruth Bader Ginsburg. But it's obviously applicable for anyone. "When we say “may her memory be for a blessing,” the blessing we speak of is not “may we remember her fondly” or “may her memory be a blessing to us.” The blessing implied is this: May you be like Ruth. Jewish thought teaches us that when a person dies, it is up to those who bear her memory to keep her goodness alive. We do this by remembering her, we do this by speaking her name, we do this by carrying on her legacy. We do this by continuing to pursue justice, righteousness, sustainability." The full article is here for anyone who'd like to look at it. https://www.google.com/amp/s/forward.com/scribe/454812/may-ruth-bader-ginsburgs-memory-be-for-a-blessing-what-exactly-does-that/%3Fgamp Again my sincere condolences. Gman

I'm going to be watching an old movie tonight-Lovers and Other Strangers. The site I'm using to watch it, Plex, shows pictures of the cast. There's a legitimate actor named Michael Brandon in the movie. But Plex is showing a picture of the porn star. Gman

I just bought a leak proof flask, so I can drink (mainly cold drinks or tea) in my bedroom without spilling. (For newcomers -I rent a room in a house. So I'm in my bedroom a lot. And with my recent COVID diagnosis I've been taking most of my meals in my room to avoid exposing others). The flask instructs you to clean it out with a bottle brush. (The instructions also say to run the lid of the flask under warm soapy water for 10 minutes-but I'm ignoring that part of the cleaning instructions😉😉) So I just bought a brush-$1.97 at Wally World. But imagine my surprise when I found out the brush was dual purposed. Now maybe I'm just too sheltered and delicate. But I'm reluctant to try this out as I can't see any way that this wouldn't be awfully rough on your nipples. Gman

Tyger-my understanding is that Trichinosis is not a good disease to catch. The worms or larva burrow into the muscle and can't be eradicated completely. Gman

I recently received the following in an email. To paraphrase Jon Lovitz impersonating Harvey Fierstein, "They Just Want To Be Loved!!" Gman

What is the old wive's tale about pork and refrigerators? Gman

I had Covid in December 2020. I was sick for about three weeks. This was before the vaccines were available, or looking just now-right around the time the vaccines were being rolled out. As I recall, I was a bit apprehensive as I'm obese, hypertensive, prediabetic, and probably mildly immune suppressed as I'm on chronic prednisone. While it started out as more like a cold, what really worried me back then was I'd have fever for about 5 days -get better for 2 or 3-then would redevelop the fever. This happened about three times. The last time was the worst. Unknowingly with the last 5 days of fever I had developed pneumonia. Luckily it was a mild one. The worst part was that every nite for 5 or so days, the fever would spike, and I'd be in bed with shaking chills. After the fever resolved for good, I was a bit short of breath for 1 to weeks, but it gradually resolved. Since then I've been vaccinated-had my third shot this November. But I've also since December 2020 been retested for COVID probably 5 or more times due to runny nose and sore throat. I was probably tested around twice in late November because someone I was around almost daily became positive. Well now we get to December-I was tested a few times because I had a runny nose and sore throat. But I was always negative. Well I now have had a runny nose for about 2 weeks. I got tested again last Wednesday. Thursday I was out and about. My nose was dripping so much I had a wet spot on my mask. And I started sneezing. Considering all my negative tests, I thought there was a good chance it was cedar fever as there's an enormous amount of cedar pollen in the Texas air right now. Of course I'm not usually allergic. But the newspaper said there was so much pollen even people not usually affected were having symptoms. Plus Allegra seemed to help dry me up. But today the test results came back, and I'm positive. This is nothing like the first time. I am a bit tired. But aside from that, the runny nose, and the sneezing. I'm doing fine. I'm going to hope I stay that way. Thank gosh for vaccine immunity, natural immunity, and most likely omicron being less virulent in vaccinated people. Gman

If I stood in front of the TV, my father used to say, "Your father isn't a glassmaker." (In case that's obscure-the idea was that if he had been, he could install a see through window into my trunk and see the TV through my body-or at least that's what I always thought it meant.) Gman

Years ago in my mid 20's I was at a reception with hors d'oeuvre being served. There was one appetizer wrapped in bacon. I thought it was filet mignon. It was liver. 🤢🤢🤢 Gman

I don't have a career now and can't hire. But when I had a career, I was making pretty good money-and I could have afforded $400 occasionally-but I'm not sure I would have. Well actually the 1st time I hired I didn't really have a career-was in a training program and had some money saved up. But if the fee would have been $400, I might still be a virgin today. There's no way I could have afforded that. Escort rates to me seem to have increased much faster than most people's salaries. I can only be glad that my hiring days were in the early 2000's to about 2015 when fees were more reasonable. Gman

Right but on a computer or a phone? I very rarely get any hits these days using the image search on the Chrome iPhone app. Gman

And just to add fuel to the fire, I noticed two really muscular guys on this website -supposedly in Dallas-but same ad copy for both and neither of them have a Texas area code. While some of the guys on this website might be real-I think there ads some highly suspicious ads too. Gman