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This is older gay men's perpetual fantasy. Today's younger generation is very practical and money-minded. They smartly figured being attracted to a silver daddy may mean living in a beach house in their 20s or 30s.

This is older gay men's perpetual fantasy. Today's younger generation is very practical and money-minded. They smartly figured being attracted to a silver daddy may mean living in a beach house in their 20s or 30s.

This is older gay men's perpetual fantasy. Today's younger generation is very practical and money-minded. They smartly figured being attracted to a silver daddy may mean living in a beach house in their 20s or 30s.

On the contrary, that has very much been my experience.
My first boyfriend was 17 years older than I was.
Most of the men I hire are older than me (I started hiring in my 20s).
On a recent holiday, I partnered with a man 22 years my senior, and another man 22 years my junior.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

100% . When i was a 20something gay man, i remember wanting to be only with guys around my age. Older men were invisible to me. Now the tables have turned. But judging from own attitude back then I expect to be invisible to the younger gay men.
Str8/bi guys do make for a better company and i feel less judged by them. 
The 1998 film Gods and Monsters based on James Whale's life portrayed the bond between an older gay man and his str8 muse quite well.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

Correct me if I am wrong, but aren't you a US citizen? Might have something to do with it.

This law is idiotic- like the one article said, there's been only 1 conviction for sex trafficking,  while the supposedly trafficked are being punished.
Why don't they find out how many congressmen paid for sex? I remember what Larry Flint did during Clinton's impeachment,  and I loved watching a hypocritical conservative get booted from the speakership.

Yes unfortunately I agree that pretty much everyone should not share face pictures on online escort web sites. With face recognition technology, it's just too risky. Even US escorts. I mean you may not be detained from an international trip now, but that certainly could change in the future. 

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

You may be a case where some therapy might help. We are all human beings but animals too in how our bodies function. Accepting this is important to live a healthy balanced life.
I love the human body and everything that pertains to it. Nothing turns me off except neglect perhaps because I regret seeing people ignore maintaining their bodies as best they can. As we age the body starts to lose its elasticity and flexibility but even so there are ways to make yourself attractive to others if you try.

I had similar hang ups as Jesse. Then a provider told me “there’s nothing your body can do that will scare me” and it completely changed my life. Coincidentally, on topic, he’s named in my will. Lol 

By the way, this part of depending on someone scares me the most. Today, hygiene with respect to this bodily function is super important to me. I can't even properly evacuate myself if i hear people outside a toilet. I find it very difficult to share a bathroom with someone. That's probably why i have never been able to have a relationship. I always wonder how boyfriends remain attractive to each other despite sharing a bathroom and potentially hear the other person 'go' in small hotel rooms.
A guy's ass and the hole are such sensual things for me and i consider it unfortunate that its other function is to handle the most disagreeable odor and substance to come out of a human body. I think the wires in my brain that are able to handle the co-existence of the two contradictory functions haven't crossed well.
I pray to god to take me before i have to get my ass wiped by a hot str8 guy.
PS: I realize this post will come across very shallow to folks who have found their soulmates. Love, affection transcends any bodily function. So i apologize in advance, but this is the only forum where I can speak my mind about these things.

Your post made my eyes tear up.
I am probably 15-20 yrs away from this (most likely much less than that) and my situation is different. I have never been able to find a spouse, let alone a bf. I have an older brother, but i can not count on him or my niece or nephew in my old and frail days. I had a couple of gay best friends and my hope was they would be around to at least keep an eye on me even if I could not expect them to take care of me. But they too drifted apart during Covid stresses.
My only hope is with my retirement savings i will be able to afford some elder care or a nursing home. I am also researching into options to make it financially attractive to a younger gay man to keep me alive and well. Life insurance alone would make a caretaker want me to pass away sooner than later.
In my 50s itself i am feeling discarded enough to dread what life would be like when i am frail. I am also actively looking in to options to end my life on a high note before i reach a point where i am unable to physically take care of myself.
Meanwhile my gay 'community' at work is fighting with the corporate IT to allow the company chat system to display a person's preferred pronouns.

Your post made my eyes tear up.
I am probably 15-20 yrs away from this (most likely much less than that) and my situation is different. I have never been able to find a spouse, let alone a bf. I have an older brother, but i can not count on him or my niece or nephew in my old and frail days. I had a couple of gay best friends and my hope was they would be around to at least keep an eye on me even if I could not expect them to take care of me. But they too drifted apart during Covid stresses.
My only hope is with my retirement savings i will be able to afford some elder care or a nursing home. I am also researching into options to make it financially attractive to a younger gay man to keep me alive and well. Life insurance alone would make a caretaker want me to pass away sooner than later.
In my 50s itself i am feeling discarded enough to dread what life would be like when i am frail. I am also actively looking in to options to end my life on a high note before i reach a point where i am unable to physically take care of myself.
Meanwhile my gay 'community' at work is fighting with the corporate IT to allow the company chat system to display a person's preferred pronouns.

100% . When i was a 20something gay man, i remember wanting to be only with guys around my age. Older men were invisible to me. Now the tables have turned. But judging from own attitude back then I expect to be invisible to the younger gay men.
Str8/bi guys do make for a better company and i feel less judged by them. 
The 1998 film Gods and Monsters based on James Whale's life portrayed the bond between an older gay man and his str8 muse quite well.

Your post made my eyes tear up.
I am probably 15-20 yrs away from this (most likely much less than that) and my situation is different. I have never been able to find a spouse, let alone a bf. I have an older brother, but i can not count on him or my niece or nephew in my old and frail days. I had a couple of gay best friends and my hope was they would be around to at least keep an eye on me even if I could not expect them to take care of me. But they too drifted apart during Covid stresses.
My only hope is with my retirement savings i will be able to afford some elder care or a nursing home. I am also researching into options to make it financially attractive to a younger gay man to keep me alive and well. Life insurance alone would make a caretaker want me to pass away sooner than later.
In my 50s itself i am feeling discarded enough to dread what life would be like when i am frail. I am also actively looking in to options to end my life on a high note before i reach a point where i am unable to physically take care of myself.
Meanwhile my gay 'community' at work is fighting with the corporate IT to allow the company chat system to display a person's preferred pronouns.

100% . When i was a 20something gay man, i remember wanting to be only with guys around my age. Older men were invisible to me. Now the tables have turned. But judging from own attitude back then I expect to be invisible to the younger gay men.
Str8/bi guys do make for a better company and i feel less judged by them. 
The 1998 film Gods and Monsters based on James Whale's life portrayed the bond between an older gay man and his str8 muse quite well.

I am recently dealing with a situation involving an elderly gay friend.
One of my long time clients retired and moved to Florida ten years ago. He's now in his 90s' and all of his friends down there have since passed away. He moved into an elder-care facility which is lovely and well run, but he's extremely lonely. He reached out to me a couple months ago, hoping I could give him some advice. I've been back and forth a few times searching for a facility that has other gay men for him to socialize with because he is of that generation who spent so much of their time only hanging around gay bars, and gay friends that he is uncomfortable being around straight people. They show him pictures of their grandchildren and talk about their family as part of their social life.  I noticed this makes him feel inferior, no matter how much I keep telling him, that he doesn't need to be the same as everyone else, and he can share the joy without showing pictures he doesn't have. He just can't do it.  It's a missed opportunity for him to be happy in a very nice facility, but you can't change a tiger's stripes so late in life. I think perhaps he never planned to live to 90 because there seems to be little planning for who's going to manage his needs and how his social life is going to function. Hopeful, I can find a facility that is more familiar with some Appletinis in the lounge and a piano bar where everyone sings show tunes.

100% . When i was a 20something gay man, i remember wanting to be only with guys around my age. Older men were invisible to me. Now the tables have turned. But judging from own attitude back then I expect to be invisible to the younger gay men.
Str8/bi guys do make for a better company and i feel less judged by them. 
The 1998 film Gods and Monsters based on James Whale's life portrayed the bond between an older gay man and his str8 muse quite well.