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  1. That is very bizarre. So straight (guns) and so homoerotic (tight undies?).
  2. I never hired him. Tipped and chatted with him as a go-go. Very nice man.
  3. The assumption is actually that porn is evil and anyone who accesses it is addicted. This app would help keep people accountable. The actual term is accountability partner.
  4. When I attended my first event in NYC (their regular night, not a nude party), I read a review online of Adonis where someone complained about a dancer doing this. I have been very wary ever since.
  5. And to be clear, there wasn't anyone at these sex parties looking out for the entertainment. My response was to say there should have been. When people have that much money and power, they sometimes (often?) have teams in place to ensure their needs are met, which sometimes (often?) happens on the backs of people low in the food chain.
  6. If you listen to the podcast, it is clear the men didn't always feel like they could decline. Some were manipulated into having sex with the guy with no nose, who was hired in the first place because in the early parties, the guys wouldn't perform. This to me suggests 1) guys went in not knowing what was expected of them and 2) the Abercrombie guys knew not all of this was by choice. I get the feeling the well-paid recruiters obfuscated the truth to get guys to go. When you have power ("these guys might get you a job") combined with a system that prevents communication (no one will talk to you), has guards in place watching the action, people taking your passport only to return it after you comply, and forcing you to sign an NDA while you are naked, it suggests coercion, certainly systematic if not intentional on behalf of the Abercrombie guys. Further, considering at least one man passed and was raped suggests he was drugged and not consenual. Ultimately, there should have been someone in this system to say to these guys, "You are here to be sex objects. If you like unrestrained gay sex, this might be fun. But you will be meat for these guys; they don't care about who you are or what you want or need. You are here for their sexual gratification, and your needs or wants will be sublimated to that. You will never ever become a model out of this, but you will get paid well. Everyone referring you to them is getting paid a handsome referral fee, and you will be paid handsomely too. The man who is the gatekeeper to this is getting paid most of all. He is going to have sex with you before referring you to them. He dosn't have a nose, so if you are willing to have sex with him, they believe you will not balk at having sex with the Abercrombie guys. At anytime you are uncomfortable during the party, one of those guards are there to look after your needs. Talk to him, and he will escort you out our assist you in feeling more comfortable." Instead, it was a systematic approach of misinformation to trick these guys into a scenario where they would be made to feel like they couldn't back out, and sometimes, they were told blatant lies, agreed to under the guise that they might get lucrative modeling jobs that could change their lives.
  7. I haven't seen the documentary. I did just finish the podcast and am deeply saddened at all these men experienced. These men had the capacity to do so much good in the world, and instead, they created a well-oiled machine that often manipulated young men who aspired to be models. You can listen to it here: BBC - World of Secrets, Season 1 - The Abercrombie Guys, S1.1 Silenced WWW.BBC.CO.UK An aspiring male model encounters a fashion mogul, but it's far from a dream opportunity. I think you can watch the documentary on BBC Select, which you can access through Amazon Prime, Roku Channel, and AppleTV.
  8. Neither of my parents were physically affectionate once I reached 6 or so, that I remember. (My dad was never affectionate to me in my early memories.) By the time I had my first sexual experience at 32, my skin was aching to be touched. I remember laying in bed at nights thinking my skin would break if anyone ever actually touched me. My dad would every once in a while be affectionate, like in church when he felt like pretending to be a good dad. I hated that. We didn't have a good relationship, and it felt like I was part of a show. Looking back, the location might have been a reminder to him, not actually a show. My mother was half Italian and not physically affectionate. In my younger years before she had a radical religious encounter, she had a hot temper and would fly off the handle (never at me). But I always knew she loved us. She showed it every day in many ways, from feeding us, reading to us, doing nice things with us, spending time with us. My sister, however, had an opposite experience and felt loved by my dad more. Looking back, my sister must have had some undiagnosed mental health issues, which were exacerbated by my mom's ignorance in parenting and her desire to correct her own faults in her daughter. As I got older, I realized my dad wasn't malicious (to clarify, although he grew up severely abused, he never laid a hand on his own kids, which says a lot about him). He was severely depressed in the era before medications, not very smart, and extraordinarily lazy. He worked long hours to supply our needs. He loved us very much, just didn't know how (or want to put much effort) into showing us. He came home at night and vegged out on TV. I loved my mom very much. We were very close to her last day, and I miss her terribly. I became very close to my dad in his final 10 months, as my sister and brother basically disappeared once he went on hospice (in the last few months, I made them become involved because I knew I couldn't do it alone and he needed us there). My dad was the type to be cocky, to brag about his kids because it made him look good. Once he got the hospice talk from the doctor, it was very healing for him to acknowledge to me that he was a terrible father. I needed to hear that. He also explained that he did more with my siblings just because they had more in common, which I already knew. It helped heal that relationship before he died.
  9. If you welcome all body types and ages would be good to know.
  10. Oral sandwich, so that is what my dream position is called. Fun site!
  11. Not exactly what you are looking for but in the right direction. The Coop episodes are the best: https://naughtyaudioformen.simplecast.com/
  12. The CTG is not alone in its troubles. Theatres around the country have been struggling, though not all of them. After 9/11, theatres played it safe and produced known entities in their attempt to woo audiences who might otherwise have stayed away. After the pandemic, theatres decided to produce plays with a variety of topics that were often at odds with their historic show choices, like when the Oregon Shakespeare Festival stopped producing their traditional Shakespeare productions. If Disney started producing animated horror films, if McDonald's became a fast food Thai restaurant, or if Home Depot switched to selling expensove home decor, they would have to start over with a whole new customer base. Theatre is no different. Theatre thrives in an echo chamber these days, so now, all these threatres are struggling. I don't blame CTG for bringing in 1776 and Oklahoma. Both were Broadway tours. How could they have known audiences would reject them? There was an article written by an actor in the Oklahoma tour, and it sounds like all over the country, people were walking out in droves, sometimes as many as half the audience. Both shows looked awful and I would have otherwise been a prime customer. I guess I wasn't the only one not duped.
  13. When I was younger, "She's the Man" was so hot. So many scenes of Channing Tatum and other guys shirtless. Such a funny movie. It doesn't quite affect me the same way now that I am older.
  14. Back when I lived in a part of the country where GPs do outlandish things during physicals like check your reflexes, hernias, and testicular cancer, I did look forward to dropping my pants. Not for any sexual reason; I think it just felt nice to have a moment of non-sexual nudity. I never got hard. I had an incredible doctor there. One time, he knelt down to check me out, then had me drop my pants, then asked me a question about something I was working on. It took me a minute to answer before he did anything down there. It was interesting that he did that. It was just such not a big deal to him. He had done medical practice for the military, so I am sure he saw plenty of dicks on bodies much better than mine. But he was straight, so I am sure he didn't care.
  15. Thank you, everyone, for responding, and thank you, @purplekow. I was hoping you'd find this and offer some insights. I will check into that. Autoimmune disorders do run in my family, so perhaps there's something there. I will see what else I can find. That is helpful, and I really appreciate it!
  16. I've been struggling with this, and I thought I'd reach out to you all for perspective and insight. I didn't start having sex of any kind until I was 32. I didn't come out to myself until I was 40. Although I have had my share of sex, I've never had a really regular schedule of sex. I have an older partner whom I adore but takes meds that have killed his sex drive. We were never really compatible anyway (both are sides, he doesn't like to suck). I am not on prep (not really into anal very much, worried about the side effects of the drug). I am pretty conservative sexually. I like kissing, touching, and getting sucked. In the past couple years, it's been harder to vet out possible partners. Last year, I met up with a guy after a dry spell, and he wanted me to 69. He was nice, good-looking, and I obliged. I never got his cum in my mouth, but I caught oral gonorrhea. I got really sick, not realizing I caught it, and had pain in my knees until I went in for routine testing. After I was all clear for that, I thought I learned my lesson. I went to a bar in the area where they have a "play" space. I ended up making out with two guys. I had a few other vanilla partners, and I got oral gonorrhea again just from kissing. (As the health provider said, "You have to kiss pretty deep," to which my response would be, "That's when it's fun.") I am pretty sure I got it from a guy who later talked about blowing a guy on a cruise ship a couple weeks before. I am now very nervous about sex of any kind (I also got an STD about 7 years ago from a guy I should have followed my instinct in . . . his house was disgusting). My partner is understanding, but it's very embarrassing to go to a straight urgent care doctor and explain what happened, and it's embarrassing to tell my partner (who has anxiety around health issues). How do you guys, who hire and have much more active sex lives, mitigate the health risks of your hobby and sex in general when consistent sex partners is almost impossible. I am meeting up with a guy who I met in the bar above tomorrow night for some naked cuddling, and after seeing a few guys suck on his cock in the bar, I'm not comfortable going too far when I really want to. Any insight would be appreciated.
  17. So, gayporno.fm isn't working at the moment. It has always worked before; hopefully it will again.
  18. I don't hire, but some of these "tactics" that have been attacked seen more like traditional marketing (forming a relationship in order to sell a product or service . . . or in this case, earn trust to buy aservice) than predatory behavior. As long as the person is of legal age and can decline without reprimand (such as offering a subordinate or losing a tip), I don't think it is as awful as some think.
  19. I started when I was 5 or 6. I got a sore at some point and my mom took me to the doctor. That is tremendously embarrasing now, since she clearly learned what I was doing. I stopped a few years later (I felt to guilty) but resumed in 7th grade, and it started to make more sense then.
  20. His vulgar tweets from her personal account suggest either a major lack of self-control or mental health issues.
  21. I like lpsg.com as well. As with here, I enjoy reading people's candid thoughts and experiences about sex and desire.
  22. The number one thing porn actors say in articles when they give advice on doing porn is, "Your friends and family will find out."
  23. I saw Benn in LA. He was very nice, very attractive. He was new, probably gave me too long of a lap dance. But I enjoyed touching him. Very nice man
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