Brian Kevin

Writing and Sharing have great power to free the heart - process grief - and vent pain so that there is room for the joy you garnered before the loss to return and help the healing.

You have my condolences. I am sorry to hear of the stress and pain you have to go through.
 
You loved him and he loved you. Remember that, OK?

You are a precious and valuable soul.

I remember watching Bridegroom and how the family wouldn't recognize the guys lover or even let him come to the funeral. Sadly your situation isn't that unusual.
 
Sorry about your loss. My own dad died of Kidney Cancer.

Brian, you are a man worthy of the highest respect. You’ve honored your friendship with Greg in a very humble and respectful way. You had to say “I” because you are the testifier to this awesome relationship you shared.

Thanks for sharing this Brian. A beautiful, heartfelt tribute to this man you shared some of your life with. I'm so sorry to hear how it ended.

A beautiful tribute to a man who sounds like he lived
an amazing and complicated life.
 
Thank you for sharing this and I’m sorry for your loss.

To paraphrase Robert Woodruff Anderson, "Death ends a life, but it doesn't end a relationship ..." You honor us by sharing your thoughts and memories of two very honest and beautiful personal relationships (your grandmother and Greg). As therapy, writing has comforted me a number of times as I grapple with painful and perplexing transitions. Relying on faith (ie: trusting in a spirituality beyond myself), family, and friends sustain me through happy and sad times. May you take comfort in knowing you have plenty of each, and I hope that your wonderful memories will soon eclipse your current heartache. Again, thank you for such a pensive and heartfelt post.

Do not be a bitch. I know it is questionable so much unconditional love coming from a provider, but that does not mean it is not true. When in doubt, I would choose to be more empathetic, or at least just shut up. Why do you need to make that remark?
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Brian, I'm sad for you and for Greg's family. Your account of Greg's last weeks is really moving. It sounds like you really brought cheer and hope to him in the last years of his life.
 
Try to see it from the wife's perspective though. She had been with him for many years, and after he dies, she suddenly learns that he's sending money to several men. That has to be really hard.

Brian,
We've never met but I feel compelled to tell you this: as a client who has experienced beautiful loving emotions myself from an escort, I want you to know that I'm sure Gregory indeed loved you very much and that you helped make life worth living for him.
Bless you for making him happy!

It’s just scary becUse eventually memories are exactly that, you’re no longer remembering the event or time, you’re remembering memories. Yet— id rather have that then nothing at all. After 20 years I finally forgot my Grandmothers voice, then I herd a lady with the similar pitch and it triggered a memory and well as I can’t rmenwber her voice still, I have an idea of what it sounded like. These people work magic after they’re gone though. I will tell you that. Maybe not even a religious was, but everyone’s energy goes somewhere after you leave this life you know.

About all one has in life are memories and you had some good ones. Cherish those.

Try leafedin.org. You get your weed delivered at your door if your address is in dc. I am paying 260 for one ounce, right now I am smoking Platinum OG.

This whole thread is like living in an After School Special.
 

What is going on in Massachusetts????!!!!!

 
I just got this picture for a place in Massachusetts, infused pizza. I am moving.

I like granddaddy purple. It puts me in a very toppish mood that my partner just loves.

One time at Syracuse at the Ramanda 3 years ago I went to get food and a cocktail for my night cap, the bartender gave me this weird look and acted very shy. I get back to my room (I had just joined rentmen) and it starts barking at me email, email, email, email then a text.
 
It was the bartender! He seen me on rentmen, adam4adam AND Grindr I was scared he was gonna snitch on me! But guess what! He hired me instead

@Brian Kevin I know you are a reputable escort, and the scamming allegations are just people being upset they are not getting anything for free. They are the scammers. An escort's time is valuable. I try to take up as little of my escorts time planning sessions as I can. I want to get the details set, and a few confirmations, and I'm good.
 
As for how real it is. I think it is real. I think there are people out there who are into it. I don't think there are a lot of them to be honest.
 
I don't think it's an extremely exotic thing within a subset of the community. Within the fetish community, I would guess people into scat would be a small minority, but even people who weren't into it wouldn't be shocked by it.

Perhaps this will yield a higher response rate in the Ask An Escort forum.
 
Unrelated to rentguys entirely.... fakes, scams, and what seems like just plain "too much time on their hands coupled with disregard for others' time" seems to be increasing. I say that based upon my personal experiences with online selling, employment recruiting, and some internet-dependent volunteer work.

I've only been asked a handful of times, and each client was genuine.

As a client, I love texting the hot guys I hire. It's always a bit of a thrill to exchange non-session talk. In the vast majority of cases (for me) these are started by the escort. These don't get into sexting or anything, but it is great for me to be chatting with a really hot guy, even over electronic media. It's similar to when I get private time with a dancer - I'm getting the attention of a really hot man.
 
As part of the business, an escort needs to respond to some graphic messages (@Brian Kevin I know I'm not telling you anything you don't already know - I'm just covering the basics). Properly, these are part of being sure the match will work. If I want to cover you in chocolate and lick it off, I need to be sure you're OK with that.
 
Knowing that, there are guys who dangle out the possibility of a session just so they can get to dirty talk someone, and even better it's someone hot. You're doing this to get business. They are doing it to get their rocks off since they either can't afford a session like they are describing (I would think that some of this would command a premium), or are in the wrong place for the guy they want, or it's something they would just never actually _do_. I admit to having a few fantasies that I wouldn't actually want to do: I fantasize about them a bit, but as they are impersonal, and I really like the connection I can get with an escort, I don't want to mess that connection up. And if I've seen and like the guy, I don't want to get impersonal.
 
I feel for the escorts who get messages that never go anywhere. But in reality it's like shopping. We can look at the pictures, but messaging the escort is like trying on clothes - seeing if they fit. Even if they don't it's something the shop has to allow.
 
Scat is a fetish I have zero interest in personally. I would suspect that a number of the people who contact you about it are fantasizing about it, but when the time comes to actually do it, they get a lot of doubt in their mind, and that pushes the over the edge of not going through with it.
 
I'm sure you have had a lot of first-timers who chickened out at the last minute. For whatever reason, when the time came, it was too much for them. They had never been with a man, or never done it deliberately (i.e. just drunk stuff) or whatever. Unfortunately, it's part of doing business. Edge stuff is even more so, even if it's with a client who has done stuff before.
 
For a much milder example, I'll use me. I contacted my regular before an overnight and told him I wanted to do the whipped-cream thing. You know, putting it on his dick and balls and lapping it up. He agreed, after all that request isn't so off the wall as to cause pause. When we were in bed that night and I got the whipped cream out he mentioned that of all the people who had asked to do it, I was the first to actually go through with it. I thought it was odd, since I didn't make the request until I was sure I wanted to try it. If a request as simple as that gets people to back-out, I can only image how often harder requests get backed out from. Incidentally, where it was OK, I didn't find it mind-blowing. It seems to be one of those things more suited for porn than real life.
 
There is another thread somewhere about escorts offering non-sexual cuddling time. Since (again, I'm not an escort, never will be [i'd starve to death], this is completely a client opinion) sexy/fetish messages could be a service you offer, you might want to find and publish a rate plan. "I'll spend an hour total messaging you on any sexy subject for $XX. So I agree completely with your effort to get something out of these people. But I think publishing it _might_ reduce the scammer allegations. And provide you with what I think of as fairly easy money.
 
@Brian Kevin I know you are a reputable escort, and the scamming allegations are just people being upset they are not getting anything for free. They are the scammers. An escort's time is valuable. I try to take up as little of my escorts time planning sessions as I can. I want to get the details set, and a few confirmations, and I'm good.
 
As for how real it is. I think it is real. I think there are people out there who are into it. I don't think there are a lot of them to be honest. I don't get into it, so I don't know for sure, but it has always struck me as something that appears more in written porn than anything else. There are some videos, but like a lot of the more edge fetishes, not a lot. The fact there is not a lot of video reads to me that there isn't really a market for it ( I don't think there is a lot on pornhub or the like - and not because of the content, because of the market). Since it's so edge, it's much harder to find a partner to engage in it than even just man-on-man sex. An escort, any escort, is more likely to be open to it than any regular gay man. (That's a statement about percentages, not desire. A number of escorts I know will do something they have no interest in as part of the session because it's their business. And my general experience is their willingness is wider than most guys you would pick up in an average gay bar).
 
Vent away, man. I'd rather forum-reply to a hot guy like you than a lot of things. It means I'm chatting with a hot guy for free

A client's time is already a gift
*Queue audience "Awe"
 
@Smurof Maribelle Plums by chance?
 

I just spit out my tea!

The gift of travel, the gift on Nyc horse and wagon through Central Park, amazing dining experiences I’ve never imagined, countless laughes, colognes, medical marijuana ♥️♥️, donations while my hands were burnt and I was unable to work for several months— had it not been for all of the care packages, cards, letters and emails, I’m not sure how I would have made it through the trauma and healing alone. I received a very special and expensive burn cream a forum member made himself, and it made the 3rd degree burns heal so quickly, I’m so thankful. So many things from such a wonderful community. The greatest gift I’ve learned, is the gift of giving. Something I’ve taken pride in the last couple months. You guys rock! Longevity all around !!!!!!!

For some reason, I can't quote when using the iPad. But to @Tarte Gogo's point of actual numbers, in slightly less than 3 years, including 2 massage guys, total of 7 guys, 14 meetings, $6,449 (I rounded).