I'm pretty much with you on this. My PCP, with whom I have entrusted my healthcare for the past 30 years, told me to not take any more Covid vaccines because they are cancer-causing for the elderly, and if I experience Covid symptoms contact him for an alternate treatment.
Now I'm emotionally between the proverbial rock and hard place. I'm very hesitant to ignore my PCP's 30-year unerring guidance, but I'm also wary of ignoring future Covid vaccines.
Thus far, my golden years have been "fools' gold," and the crap keeps coming. 😆