WmClarke

Update on Guy Fawkes: When I spoke to the LVPD on Friday they found Guy on the floor. They had no idea how long he was there. Said his condition wasn’t good but he was alive & thought he’d be ok.
 
I continued to call Guy’s cell number everyday and it always went straight to voice mail. Since the police told me what hospital he was taken to I called & was told he’s still a patient. I left him a message.
 
I could use some help here. Does anyone live in Las Vegas? If so, could you send me a PM.
 
If I hear anything else, I’ll post it.
 
Cooper

The LVPD got back to me. Guy Fawkes/daddy will be ok. ?

Thanks @purplekow. I’m trying to get his home address but no one seems to have it. The 2 that I have are for the mall where his PO Box is. And, yes, I was planning on calling the police once I get it.

Looking forward to stepping out of the shower at Inndulge next April to the realization, the whole last year has been a dream(nightmare) sequence ala "Dallas" 1986!

3. 26. 2021: Please read post # 272 for a current update on daddy’s/Guy Fawkes condition.
 
Last Friday, 2/19, Guy Fawkes/Daddy wrote on the escort reviews site:
 
“The Nurse says I have a cold, I say that I'm miserable. It was once again in the low 40s last night. I'm up for about 10 minutes at a time; I'd expect the new teasers and reviews to go up a little at a time.”
 
His last login for the message center was Saturday, 2/20.
 
I’ve sent him an email, no reply. I called & left a message, no reply, & I’ve contacted a few members but they’ve heard nothing.
 
Since it’s not like him to be away from the site for even a day, I’m obviously concerned.
 
Let’s hope & pray that wherever he is that he’s in good hands & making a good recovery. If I hear anything I’ll keep you posted.
 
Cooper

I have to share right away. I mentioned @sniper 's suggestion to OB. He looked incredulous and said "Really? That would be okay?" When I assured him I was fine with the idea, he said he'd talk to her about it. Then after a long pause, he said, "Do you think she might feel like Wendy coming to live with the Lost Boys?"
 
I love this kid.

I’m willing to bet he was abusing the TriMix. Using it for young guys with normal erections to get hard for porn performances Isn’t the way it’s prescribed.

Get a dildo the same size and practice, practice, practice.
 
Lots of saliva. Don't try to start deep throating right away. Work up to it gradually and let your saliva glands kick into overdrive.
 
Take as much as you can without gagging. Take a deep breath brought your nose since your mouth is full. Then just relax and swallow, like you are eating or drinking. It will slide right down. You will probably only be able to keep it down for a second of two. Slide it out and repeat the process. Try to keep it down longer. As you get better, try sliding it up and down an inch or two while it's in your throat for a few seconds.
 
This is what worked for me. Was able to have an escort throat fuck me with his large 9" recently. I could not have done that two years ago.

Get a dildo the same size and practice, practice, practice.
 
Lots of saliva. Don't try to start deep throating right away. Work up to it gradually and let your saliva glands kick into overdrive.
 
Take as much as you can without gagging. Take a deep breath brought your nose since your mouth is full. Then just relax and swallow, like you are eating or drinking. It will slide right down. You will probably only be able to keep it down for a second of two. Slide it out and repeat the process. Try to keep it down longer. As you get better, try sliding it up and down an inch or two while it's in your throat for a few seconds.
 
This is what worked for me. Was able to have an escort throat fuck me with his large 9" recently. I could not have done that two years ago.

I recall from reading that, when Ella Fitzgerald originally debuted at an amateur night at the Apollo theater in NYC, she intended to dance. When she got on stage, she froze, and the only thing she could think to do was sing. A blessing in disguise.
 
Edit: sp. Appolo to Apollo

Ella Fitzgerald said fairly late in life that her
only hit songs were when she forget the words [to Mack the Knife] and made the words up

Title: "Just One of Those Things"
 
Noting that Ms. Fitzgerald's improvisations always stayed harmonically sound, the music writer Will Friedman recites a lengthy list of songs during a five minute scat version of "How High the Moon."
 
Comment: Yes, Ella Fitzgerald was a gift from God, who always seemed surprised people loved her singing - even at Carnegie Hall.

Thanks to those of you who sent PM's wishing me a Happy Father's Day, and several people asked for an update. I'm so sorry to have left you hanging!
 
The day Navy Twin read me the riot act, I went to my room to lie down and think. When his brothers got home, he told them about our talk, and they were non-plussed to find he'd done it without them (I suspect so he could tell me his concern about his older brother). I could hear the shower going for a while and lots of murmuring, then a knock on my door. In came Older Brother and DePaul Twin to ask how I was doing. They had indeed all talked about it, but were planning to talk to me together. I said it was a lot to think about but I couldn't really argue against it, and told them I would talk to my buddy and see how it went.
 
He and I talk a lot, and Skype often, so the next evening I called him and asked if we could videochat. (That has usually involved some, ahem, cyber sex). But once we were online I basically told him what NT had said, leaving out the opinion that he's in love with me-- that was for him to say if he wanted to. He was quiet and asked what I thought. For the second time I described my promiscuity as a teenager when I slept around but never really had a girlfriend, never "went steady," and how the only relationship I'd ever been in was with my wife. And I said I missed seeing him, not just for the sex. So while I didn't quite know what it meant, I'm open to making this more serious. He grinned and said, "Are you asking me to go steady?" And we both laughed as I said yes, I guess I am. He said let me think and I'll get back to you.
 
In about a half an hour I heard a lot of commotion from the boys. I went to see what was up, and they were all in the den with their phones or laptops. My friend had emailed each one individually to say he appreciated their thoughts. He said, and I'm paraphrasing, that he would always be honest with me, that he would never do anything to intentionally hurt me, and that he would never do anything to come between them and me. And he ended with "So I am asking your permission to court your father." DT had responded "Go for it." OB had said, "Of course you can." NT said, "Hell yes!"
 
Back to Skype, where we said okay, let's see where this goes. One thing, we're not sure what to call "this." We're in our 40s and both feel "boyfriend" is kind of silly, but there may be nothing better for now. DePaul Twin jokingly suggested "gentlemen friends" but that's a little too Tennessee Williams for me.
 
Since then we pretty much talk every day although we haven't been physically together for months. But we are still sharing more and more of our lives, and I think this is working. There's more to tell, including an issue I alluded to in the other thread, but I'll save that, for another day.
 
It's odd living in a house as one of four celibate (for now) men. Without getting too graphic let me say the issue in the house these days is not running out of toilet paper, but running out of Kleenex. Older Brother is truly miserable and spends a lot of time in his room with his laptop. Navy Twin talks with his gf every day, and DePaul Twin has a couple of friends-who-are-girls he keeps up with in Chicago. And, well, I guess I'm in a long-distance relationship even though he's just across town. Wish us all luck.

Thanks for asking, sorry it took so long to reply. Yes, we're all home. Older Brother and I telecommuting, the twins having online classes. It's great to be together but we're all a bit bored. Older Brother is miserably pining away for his girlfriend, at home in Boston. Navy Twin's GF is here in DC but we're trying to respect self-isolation. Lots of Skyping in the house, though. One advantage, as I've mentioned before the twins like to cook, so we are eating very well as they experiment with new dishes.
 
The dynamic has changed a little. No squabbling, for one thing. The boys are men now and they're pretty mature even though there are plenty of laughs. But the clearest change is that Navy Twin is most obviously the Alpha. He was always the leader in the twins' lives, but their brother is deferring to him too, when he decides who needs to do what chore or what we're doing in the evening.
 
And it may not just be his brothers. In my other thread I told you I started seeing someone very casually last fall. (We are also Skyping some). I would describe as an FWB, buddies who hang out, and when we can, we have sex. The boys have all met him, they seem to like him, and they know we fool around, although I've never had him stay over when any of the boys were here. Yesterday DePaul Twin and Older Brother went for a bike ride. I asked Navy Twin why he didn't go to and he seriously said, "Because I want to talk to you, Dad." Uh-oh, what's this? I half expected to say he was proposing to his gf. So we sat the kitchen table and he said, "What's going on with you and this guy?" Well, I wasn't going to give gory details, but I said we share some interests and have a good time and it's nothing serious. And he gave me what my siblings and I used to call the "Naval Officer Glare" that my father gave us when we said something stupid. And he said, "Why not?" (What?) "Why isn't it serious? If you like him why hasn't it gone farther than just hanging out?" I said something about the fact that I never really thought much about it, and he said, "Well you should or you're not being fair to him." I asked what he meant, and again, The Glare." Because he's in love with you Dad. He fucking loves you." I started to sputter something and he held out his hand to stop me. "Haven't you seen the way he looks at you?" And no, I'd really never noticed that.
 
A long silence while I pondered the fact that my son was basically asking my intentions. Finally I said, the only real relationship I had was with your Mom, and I was head over heels in love with her from the moment we met. I couldn't stop thinking about her. I like my buddy but it's not like that. A somewhat softer Glare, and he said, "Don't let the perfect be the enemy of the good, Dad. You need to talk to him and let him know if you don't feel the way he does so he can move on."
 
Wow. Then something I did not expect at all. He said, "Next year I'll be gone, the Navy will send me away. DePaul Twin has another year to finish grad school, but he loves Chicago, I doubt he'll come back. But our brother won't leave unless he knows you're okay." I said he's talked about marrying his gf, and that they might move in together. "He might leave the house, but he'll never really leave. He won't. He almost dropped out of Fordham to come back and stay with you. We talked him out of it."
 
This was flabbergasting to me, I had no idea. I was quiet, and he finally got up and said, "Talk to him, okay?" I nodded. So-- I'm not sure this should be a Skype conversation but Lord knows when I'll see him in person, and I realized that I had been missing him. I'll keep you posted.

It's kind of hot. Particularly if they were more excited with you than they seem in the video.

All the time. I actually get more aroused and orgasm harder knowing I’ve been with the guy while watching their porn.

I find that the ban is somewhat arbitrary. All these 26 schengen countries lumped together. Take Portugal for example with 78 cases vs 590 for the UK. I am more concerned about developing nations whose reporting is ridiculous. India has only 74 cases with a population of 1.3 billion. Cut me a break! Meanwhile Iceland which is 3000 times smaller reports 109 cases. Banning countries should be based on medical data not politics.

I just had the greatest night. Won't go into details, because this is not a review. Give a little back story. Knew i was coming to Peoria, so emailed Andrew. I had heard he had retired but thought i had to at least try. Didn't hear anything for a week. Then 2 days before i arrived I got a response and he was available. I guess he isn't advertising and mostly just seeing repeat clients that contact him. He is definitely like a fine wine. Has gotten alot hotter since last time I was with him. Going to make more excuses to make it to Peoria

You took a drug which is highly reinforcing and pleasurable, and you liked it.
 
You are NOT suddenly “an addict.” this thread has me really fired up, so much judgment and more jumping to conclusions about what can easily be an isolated incident.
 
What you do now, and going forward, is the real decision. I don’t have the time to write more now, but there’s a lot more that I would like to say, and I’ll write tomorrow.
 
Lot of “self-destructive behaviors” in many forms on this forum, people just love to judge others for the ones they don’t have.

Gonna add a few pics to this thread to let everyone know that all is well. While I will not be posting as frequently as in the past, I will be popping in from time to time. So stay tuned!

The verboten pic of the day...

It's difficult to say from the pictures in his ad, although most FTM trans-men with vaginas (who choose not to have lower surgery to alter their genitals) usually take daily doses of testosterone and therefore develop more body hair. As noted above, if you're interested you should inquire of the escort himself. I use the male gender identifiers solely because he uses them in his ad copy.
 
For examples of trans FTM escorts who identify as male but have not had their genitals altered, check out Trip in Charlottesville, VA: https://rent.men/TripleXTransMan or Kipp Slinger in the Chicago/Milwaukee area: https://rent.men/KippSlinger. Trip lists his orientation as "transgender" and Kipp lists his as "transexual."
 
Just an FYI for those who may find FTM guys interesting.
 
TruHart1

If there is a spy among us, or he himself is spying...I hope he knows that after he blackmailed / extorted my client and friend; I went ahead and compiled everything but the kitchen sink on this guy, just in case he didn’t care for my comments. I armor up before I go to battle. ??
Now I said my peace, I’m done with it. But this is a circle that protect its own; or SHOULD.

Tristan, you are what we Jews call a "mensch". You display integrity and empathy, two attributes that are in rare supply not only in your profession but in many others. Part of that integrity is your implicit recognition that many of us clients are emotionally vulnerable and that it's just indecent to take advantage of those vulnerabilities. It may be a business transaction, but simple decency and kindness distinguish people who are merely good at what they do from those who are, as people, good. I for one feel enriched by your presence, even if so far it's only via cyberspace for me. I hope one day to remedy that.

Sister Sixto on The Flying Nun.