BasketBaller

Thank you for your kind words. And yes, he's certainly fulfilled the "in sickness and in health" thing. Even when we were quarantined away from each other I never felt as if he thought it was too much.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.

Well, hello my friends. I'm so sorry to have vanished like that, and yes, finding my "gentleman friend" was a factor. Let me start by saying the boys are well and there's a lot to tell, which I'll try to do. 
Last summer I contracted Covid and had a lengthy stay in the hospital. No ventilator, but I was on oxygen for days. This is not very characteristic of me, but I had a hard time recovering both physically and emotionally, and I'm afraid I withdrew from many things I just couldn't motivate myself. In the fall of 2020 I also began to be unsteady on my feet, and scarier still began to have trouble speaking, I just couldn't find the words I was trying to say. Eventually Older Brother took me to the emergency room, where they suspected a stroke. Another hospital stay, this time 10 days while they ruled out many causes, and by the second day I couldn't walk  at all or really even stand up unassisted. Finally they figured out I have pernicious anemia, an inability of the body to to process vitamin B12, without which you can't form red blood cells properly. So shots and physical therapy for months and dealing with many effects. I used a walker for a couple of months and now use a cane. There were two more ER visits when my blood pressure spiked, but I wasn't admitted either time. At first I couldn't get up the stairs, so I slept on an air mattress in the den. The boys were great but quite freaked out. Navy Twin is in Pensacola at flight school (he finally chose aviation). I have very little stamina and can't stand up for very long, but it's not as bad as it was.
There has been progress but it's extremely slow and sometimes discouraging. But I'm trying to be optimistic, and my friend has been a rock of support. I'll try to catch you up with that adventure, and at this point I guess I can just call him my lover.
So once again, I'm touched by your concern and I wish I had handled all of this better, but I didn't. I'll try to stick around this time.

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

I just caught sight of this thread.  What a special group of guys this community comprises.  You see how everyone thought of you while missing your posts.  Never mind that insulting comment about you just practicing your writing.  I've always sensed that you've written from the heart and so well too.  I'm glad to hear all the good news regarding your sons.  As for you taking the next step, it seems to me that your friend has already proven "for better or for worse"  so it appears that you have a solid relationship.  You have your sons' approval of him as well which is also very important.  They each love you and want you to be happy.  Keep well. All the best to you! CHEERS!!

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

Well, hello my friends. I'm so sorry to have vanished like that, and yes, finding my "gentleman friend" was a factor. Let me start by saying the boys are well and there's a lot to tell, which I'll try to do. 
Last summer I contracted Covid and had a lengthy stay in the hospital. No ventilator, but I was on oxygen for days. This is not very characteristic of me, but I had a hard time recovering both physically and emotionally, and I'm afraid I withdrew from many things I just couldn't motivate myself. In the fall of 2020 I also began to be unsteady on my feet, and scarier still began to have trouble speaking, I just couldn't find the words I was trying to say. Eventually Older Brother took me to the emergency room, where they suspected a stroke. Another hospital stay, this time 10 days while they ruled out many causes, and by the second day I couldn't walk  at all or really even stand up unassisted. Finally they figured out I have pernicious anemia, an inability of the body to to process vitamin B12, without which you can't form red blood cells properly. So shots and physical therapy for months and dealing with many effects. I used a walker for a couple of months and now use a cane. There were two more ER visits when my blood pressure spiked, but I wasn't admitted either time. At first I couldn't get up the stairs, so I slept on an air mattress in the den. The boys were great but quite freaked out. Navy Twin is in Pensacola at flight school (he finally chose aviation). I have very little stamina and can't stand up for very long, but it's not as bad as it was.
There has been progress but it's extremely slow and sometimes discouraging. But I'm trying to be optimistic, and my friend has been a rock of support. I'll try to catch you up with that adventure, and at this point I guess I can just call him my lover.
So once again, I'm touched by your concern and I wish I had handled all of this better, but I didn't. I'll try to stick around this time.

So, an update. I had already mentioned that Navy Twin will be getting married this Fall. Last evening Older Brother broke the news that he and his girlfriend are engaged, with tentative plans to marry next summer. And what's more they plan to find an apartment and move in together soon. That means that once again I'll be an empty-nester. He added, "Why don't you invite (boyfriend) to move in?" And this morning, DePaul Twin, having gotten the news, texted me basically the same thing. I think they're worried about me being alone with my current challenges-- or they just want us to be together.
To be frank, I'd been thinking that once the boys were gone from the house (I doubt any of them will truly live here again) we'd be able to explore next steps. But now I think it would be crazy not to. I'll keep you posted.

As someone who loved the comic books (although I read it all in the versions published later as collections) I pretty much adore the series. A few changes but they actually are usually improvements. And they just released a surprise 11th episode!

I don't think we're quite there yet but we are certainly closer than ever. So, who knows?

I don't think we're quite there yet but we are certainly closer than ever. So, who knows?

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.

I am very glad to read you again, @BasketBaller, and happy about the good news you give us. Keep it up! 

Hello, all. a couple of you have reached out and I realize that I again, had vanished mostly, for which I apologize. I also have noted that in another thread, someone theorized that my posts had been a "creative writing exercise," which I assure you they were not. Posting here was deeply therapeutic to me as I struggled with some personal issues, and I'm grateful for the welcome you gave me. I'm sorry if anyone didn't believe me, but I don't know what I can do about that without compromising my sons' privacy so there you are. 
Now let's see. Older Brother is still on Capitol Hill and loves it. He was not there during the 1/6 riots, I'm glad to say. His girlfriend graduated from GW law school this spring, and I think they are thick as thieves. No marriage plans yet, but I think she wants to get a career established first.
Navy Twin has graduated from flight school in Pensacola, and will be piloting Hawkeyes, a plane I had not known, but it's an "Information Gathering" vessel. As he says, "I won't be bombing anything, but I'll be choosing the targets." Okay. Despite my continued mobility issues, I was able to get to Florida for his winging, a brief but moving ceremony, and my parents came along-- so proud. He and his girlfriend will get married this fall at the Naval Academy Chapel, and I couldn't be happier, I really love her.
DePaul Twin finished his 5 year BA-MA program and is working, for now, at a tech firm in Chicago, which he loves, although I think this is a "starter job," Still happily single, and he's become the family social director, planning our regular Zoom meet-ups.
And me? Well, better, but the progress is slow. I use a cane, and have some cognitive problems, but, not as bad as at first, and improving. And my friend? (We both still resist "boyfriend" but frankly, that's what he is). That is very, very good. He was so patient with my medical issues, so attentive, and so kind. The boys and their gf's have all met him and like him a lot. 
If I were to describe my ideal man, I'd have said taller than me, on the lean side, mostly smooth, blond or redhead, blue eyes. He checks none of those boxes. He's a bit shorter than me with a solid muscular build, brown hair and eyes, and a pretty furry chest. And so that's now my ideal man. He does have the broad shoulders I used to post about as major turn-ons, though. And we're pretty sexually compatible, as I once posted, although he took some getting used to-- be's a big one downstairs! But he's sensitive and patient and we have a great time. On about our third time together, we were holding each other after sex and he murmured something I didn't catch. I asked what he had said, and he said, "I wish I didn't hurt you." I think that was the moment I fell in love. 
Anyway, hi everybody, you have meant a lot to me, and I'll try to be more present.