Regrets

[+ FreshFluff]

Where do I start?

[+ Gar1eth]

I wish I had started much earlier than I did on trying to accept being gay. For years and years I said I wanted either a pill or the wave of a magic wand to make me straight. Actually who am I kidding, I still want that. As you can see, accepting being gay is still a major work in progress for me.

 

Instead of working on it, I tried not to think about being gay even though I thought about it all the time. As a corollary, I wish if I could have done it without being one of the casualties of the 1980's and 1990's that I had had sex long before I was 41.

 

On the other hand, maybe if it meant I would have found love, being a casualty would have been better. When you are 55 and never have had a relationship, the odds don't seem very high of having one. I don't know if I was ever capable of 'falling in love', but I doubt I can now at my age.

 

Gman

[mike carey]

Like Gman, I sort of wish I had accepted or admitted earlier that I am gay. Regret? No, that would be to say that I haven't enjoyed the life and career that I led, and I have. If I had regretted I would most likely have tried to make up for lost time and I haven't done that not wished that I could. I too wonder whether I can fall in love. Again, I don't regret that I haven't, but I don't stress about whether I can in the future.

[seaboy4hire]

I wish I had started much earlier than I did on trying to accept being gay. For years and years I said I wanted either a pill or the wave of a magic wand to make me straight. Actually who am I kidding, I still want that. As you can see, accepting being gay is still a major work in progress for me.

 

Instead of working on it, I tried not to think about being gay even though I thought about it all the time. As a corollary, I wish if I could have done it without being one of the casualties of the 1980's and 1990's that I had had sex long before I was 41.

 

On the other hand, maybe if it meant I would have found love, being a casualty would have been better. When you are 55 and never have had a relationship, the odds don't seem very high of having one. I don't know if I was ever capable of 'falling in love', but I doubt I can now at my age.

 

Gman

 

Youre never too old to fall in love. You need to be at peace with yourself. One that happens your heart will open and you'll be able to love fully. At least thats what I think.

 

Hugs,

Greg

[jjkrkwood]

Youre never too old to fall in love. You need to be at peace with yourself. One that happens your heart will open and you'll be able to love fully. At least thats what I think.

 

Hugs,

Greg

 

S4H, you are right, you are Never too old to fall in love, but if you wait too long, you will be too fuckin old for someone to love you back, so what's the point ? When your manboobs and belly hang, your ass sags, your teeth and nails yellow and your dick retracts, "who's gonna love ya, Boo " ?

[AdamSmith]

and your dick retracts,

Dick Retracts sounds like the mortal disguise of some third-rate superhero -- like an even wimpier Clark Kent.

[+ Truereview]

Sigh...I already regret this conversation...

 

http://mintgraphics.tripod.com/Beauti/lipstick3.gif

[jjkrkwood]

Dick Retracts sounds like the mortal disguise of some third-rate superhero -- like an even wimpier Clark Kent.

 

 

THEN

 

http://www.advocate.com/sites/advocate.com/files/2012/04/25/Erotic-Superhero-Preppy-x390.jpg

 

NOW

 

http://community.ebay.com/ebay01/attachments/ebay01/g-300001290/50141/1/69_funny-pictures-old-superheroes-1sb.jpg

[+ Truereview]

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Green is your color, my darling @jjkrkwood

[+ friendofsheila]

I typically don't dwell on regrets, although there are two things that I would probably have done differently if I had a chance to:

 

I will borrow Sam's point of view:

 

I really wish I'd paid more attention to the fellow go-go boy contestant who kept talking to me and smiling constantly while doing so, instead of trying to figure out what was happening with my standing as a result of the last round.

 

The fellow was probably flirting with me, which is awesome because he a) looked AWESOME wearing only boots and extremely short cutoffs and b) he WON his round.

[samhexum]

[LADoug1]

escort wise my biggest regret was pretty much not saving my money when I first started. Escorting isn't really stable well at least to me. (I know some people get booked every single day multiple times but not me haha) I remember there was a point where my bank savings were in the negative and I had no money to eat and I had to meet this client all the way at his hotel near jfk airport and if he turned out to be a flake or no-show I would have no money to return home. The risk was greater as this was someone on craigslist and not something more reliable than rentmen. So I had to take something like 2 trains and a bus to get there, couldn't take taxi all I had like 2.50 on my metro card left, it took about 2 and a half 3 hours to get there. It was literally the last bus stop, its around 11/12pm at night and I'm in the middle of nowhere near a highway. I wouldn't even know how to get home. So I go to the lobby and I text/call him that Im here and he doesn't answer, 10 minutes go by nothing, 15 minutes go by no peep. 15 minutes after I call my friend about to burst in tears and thats when he finally showed up. Whew. So yea never again, now Im much smarter with my money.

I’m very touched by this post. From your other wonderful posts I am so sorry this happened to you. You’re seem so sweet.

[LADoug1]

escort wise my biggest regret was pretty much not saving my money when I first started. Escorting isn't really stable well at least to me. (I know some people get booked every single day multiple times but not me haha) I remember there was a point where my bank savings were in the negative and I had no money to eat and I had to meet this client all the way at his hotel near jfk airport and if he turned out to be a flake or no-show I would have no money to return home. The risk was greater as this was someone on craigslist and not something more reliable than rentmen. So I had to take something like 2 trains and a bus to get there, couldn't take taxi all I had like 2.50 on my metro card left, it took about 2 and a half 3 hours to get there. It was literally the last bus stop, its around 11/12pm at night and I'm in the middle of nowhere near a highway. I wouldn't even know how to get home. So I go to the lobby and I text/call him that Im here and he doesn't answer, 10 minutes go by nothing, 15 minutes go by no peep. 15 minutes after I call my friend about to burst in tears and thats when he finally showed up. Whew. So yea never again, now Im much smarter with my money.

I’m very touched by this post. From your other wonderful posts I am so sorry this happened to you. You’re seem so sweet.

[LADoug1]

I wish I had started much earlier than I did on trying to accept being gay. For years and years I said I wanted either a pill or the wave of a magic wand to make me straight. Actually who am I kidding, I still want that. As you can see, accepting being gay is still a major work in progress for me.

 

Instead of working on it, I tried not to think about being gay even though I thought about it all the time. As a corollary, I wish if I could have done it without being one of the casualties of the 1980's and 1990's that I had had sex long before I was 41.

 

On the other hand, maybe if it meant I would have found love, being a casualty would have been better. When you are 55 and never have had a relationship, the odds don't seem very high of having one. I don't know if I was ever capable of 'falling in love', but I doubt I can now at my age.

 

Gman

I’m 59 and have never truly been in love. I often despair I never will be but hold hope I will be someday. I wish the same for you.

[LADoug1]

I wish I had started much earlier than I did on trying to accept being gay. For years and years I said I wanted either a pill or the wave of a magic wand to make me straight. Actually who am I kidding, I still want that. As you can see, accepting being gay is still a major work in progress for me.

 

Instead of working on it, I tried not to think about being gay even though I thought about it all the time. As a corollary, I wish if I could have done it without being one of the casualties of the 1980's and 1990's that I had had sex long before I was 41.

 

On the other hand, maybe if it meant I would have found love, being a casualty would have been better. When you are 55 and never have had a relationship, the odds don't seem very high of having one. I don't know if I was ever capable of 'falling in love', but I doubt I can now at my age.

 

Gman

I’m 59 and have never truly been in love. I often despair I never will be but hold hope I will be someday. I wish the same for you.