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Life would be too boring unless us newbies did stupid shit for you to laugh or narrow your eyes at. Eventually, as time whittles down our newbishness we'll feel the sting of wisdom and wish to kick our former selves down the stairs. 

You're sure not the first person who got involved with the wrong guy.  Spend an evening at the Grand Ole Opry and you'll hear dozens.  Some folks seem to chase the heartache and you may be attracted to it.  It would be good to have a discussion with a therapist and figure out if you want to change and how to go about it.
This particular guy you're involved with is presenting a different problem.  You will never know whether you're talking with him or with the drugs.  My suggestion would be to ask him to get back in touch with you when he's clean and sober.  If you never hear from him again, you'll at least be free to find someone to take his place.
I admire your efforts to help him get off drugs.  Please don't beat yourself up.  You're not a professional and that's what he needs.  In my opinion, your $1500 is better spent elsewhere and losing that income and your company may help him wake up.
Best wishes to both of you!

I'd ride that, at least buy it dinner though first:
The Airlander 10 ‘flying bum’ is ready to take to the skies again after crash
WWW.CNBC.COM The world's largest aircraft, the Airlander 10 airship, is ready to fly again after its crash last summer.  

I have a landline phone and an an iPhone. My landline phone tells me the number of the person calling, and if I don't recognize it as someone I want to talk to, I just let it go automatically to voicemail after 4 rings. Almost all of the callers stop as soon as as they are directed  to leave a message. My iPhone automatically silences call which isn't in my list of contacts, but keeps a list of the phone numbers from the silenced calls.

You're sure not the first person who got involved with the wrong guy.  Spend an evening at the Grand Ole Opry and you'll hear dozens.  Some folks seem to chase the heartache and you may be attracted to it.  It would be good to have a discussion with a therapist and figure out if you want to change and how to go about it.
This particular guy you're involved with is presenting a different problem.  You will never know whether you're talking with him or with the drugs.  My suggestion would be to ask him to get back in touch with you when he's clean and sober.  If you never hear from him again, you'll at least be free to find someone to take his place.
I admire your efforts to help him get off drugs.  Please don't beat yourself up.  You're not a professional and that's what he needs.  In my opinion, your $1500 is better spent elsewhere and losing that income and your company may help him wake up.
Best wishes to both of you!

You're sure not the first person who got involved with the wrong guy.  Spend an evening at the Grand Ole Opry and you'll hear dozens.  Some folks seem to chase the heartache and you may be attracted to it.  It would be good to have a discussion with a therapist and figure out if you want to change and how to go about it.
This particular guy you're involved with is presenting a different problem.  You will never know whether you're talking with him or with the drugs.  My suggestion would be to ask him to get back in touch with you when he's clean and sober.  If you never hear from him again, you'll at least be free to find someone to take his place.
I admire your efforts to help him get off drugs.  Please don't beat yourself up.  You're not a professional and that's what he needs.  In my opinion, your $1500 is better spent elsewhere and losing that income and your company may help him wake up.
Best wishes to both of you!

Cutie, you are so correct ! Its not simple and you hit in on the head with me developing  my formative experiences. I was too closeted and only now.....so thanks  for the understanding. Im going out there in 10 days. ( I know,,,,why??) Its like I want to see what he says now...where he doesnt know Ive seen the light.........So Ill see.....funny, I am quite at peace and I am happy I was such a help to someone in need . I paid alot of stuff for him etc....some therapy, lots of "tokens of my appreciation)" but I can justify it helping someone in real severe neeed....but then the truth hurts. MAN I never in my life would have  thought I would have been  so blind.....

I have to counter that a bit by saying that (at least in my experience, and I know I’m not alone) as a gay man, I missed out on many of the formative experiences of being a teenager.  I never dated, never got to fall in love, etc.  I’m in my 30s and have still not truly had these experiences.  So while @baseball6 is not a teenager in biological/chronological age, his life experience could very well be equivalent to that of a teenager learning to cope with his emotions.  Yes, he needs counseling, but his being a grown up man is irrelevant in this context.

Falling in love with someone, anyone, can drastically change who you thought you once were. Many people complain of totally losing themselves when they fall in love.
Falling in love with someone who is bad for you, can lead you down a treacherous path, and before you know it, you find yourself in a deep pit of co-dependency with a manipulative addict, who needs you far more than you need him. Before you know it, a lot of money is gone, and you are troubled about the state of things.
Sitting with the right therapist can help you see the forest for the trees, and help you learn how to better your life and situation.

I know it's fairly easy to make calls concerning others from one's own armchair.
I say test some other waters if quitting this particular escort cold turkey is too much.  As trite as "there are other fish in the sea" may sound, it's true.
It may be less stressful than you might think to seek out and patronize a more considerate (stable) young man.
I wish you well in whatever you decide to do.  I, too, have experienced having been hugely smitten with a provider.  It was gradually pulling away that helped me.
"Keep on keeping on."

Barbara Billingsley played the filthiest mom on TV. I remember one time she said "Ward, don't you think you were a little hard on the beaver last night?"
(Yeah, I know, that's an oldie.) 

@Luv2play is correct.  For the first three seasons (1954 - 1957) Tommy Rettig played the farm boy and Jan Clayton portrayed his widowed mother. The series was revamped in 1957. Jon Provost replaced Tommy Rettig, June Lockhart replaced Jan Clayton, and a father suddenly appeared. 
Little known Lassie fact:
Although Lassie was a female TV role (hence the name Lassie), all of the dogs that portrayed Lassie were male.
"All the dogs portraying Lassie have been male. A female collie was hired to play the lead in Lassie Come Home, but when an opportunity came to film "Lassie" negotiating some rapids, the female reportedly would have nothing to do with the rushing water. Rudd Weatherwax's collie "Pal" was substituted, and not only stole the stunt but won the role. Weatherwax continued to use male collies in the role for a good reason: both sexes shed in the summer (when most movies and television shows traditionally film most of their episodes), an event called "blowing coat," but since the male has thicker fur, he wouldn't look so scrawny during filming. Also, fans tend to think of Lassie as a "big heroic dog." Female collies are usually 10-15 pounds lighter than their male counterparts, therefore a male dog playing Lassie would look more impressive. Female collies were not ignored because they are any less intelligent; in fact, some of Lassie's stunt doubles have been females."
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No offence intended, but I would think the splash from that cannonball would be about as unnoticeable as a tsunami from a western Pacific underwater earthquake.

Damn straight!  My 10-Meter Cannonball rarely gets noticed and I'm sure it's the outfit.   

Damn straight!  My 10-Meter Cannonball rarely gets noticed and I'm sure it's the outfit.   

Damn straight!  My 10-Meter Cannonball rarely gets noticed and I'm sure it's the outfit.   

Damn straight!  My 10-Meter Cannonball rarely gets noticed and I'm sure it's the outfit.   

Every other day I go to a bar downtown and have two glasses of my favorite scotch to check its quality and consistency. So far, so good.

The Olympics need to go back to being fully nude events.  This will balance the needs to put all players on an equal playing field during competition with the public's desire to admire these athletes.

Possibly, but sometimes just acknowledging a job well done can help to chase away the blues.

Here, let me lick that for you . .

Rob Basch: Champion of Long Island City parks Rob Basch is not your average volunteer. While many might shy away from the idea of picking up trash for a living, Basch embraces it wholeheartedly. As the president of the Hunters Point Park Conservancy in Long Island City, he dedicates his days to nurturing the park and transforming it into a haven for the Queens community.
With picturesque views of Manhattan and Brooklyn, Hunters Point Park South holds a special place in the hearts of locals. Basch recognizes the importance of maintaining its beauty.
“We hate litter, but someone has to get down and pick it up."

He has served in his role since 2014, ensuring his presence is felt in the park daily. Beyond his efforts in park maintenance, he spearheads fundraising initiatives to support summer programming. From outdoor movie nights to waterfront 5k runs, Basch strives to offer enriching experiences that bring the community together.
When he is not taking care of the park or holding events, he is offering environmental education to K-12 students at the newly-opened Queens Landing Boathouse and Environmental Center. With lessons on topics ranging from flood mitigation to boating, he teaches students about the beauty of taking care of nature. 
“Hopefully a kindergartner or first grader can come here and learn something and be motivated,” Basch said. “In ten years, they’ll know how to save the planet.”