MysticMenace

Before I become the next Steve Carrell and call myself another 40-year old virgin (no kiss, no sex - that I remember, with anybody), I decided in my tender age of 34 to just do it - jerking off to porn was no longer cutting it. Did my google search, stumbled upon RM and got an account during New Year's Eve in 2019. Once I saw some guys in DC, I nervously texted one of them, asking for the following:

Whether he is available for 2 hours between 1/2/2020 and 1/4/2020
What the rate is

Being the naive guy that I was, I also offered that if that weekend does not work, whether he had availability some time that month. The provider then mentioned his rate for an incall. Not knowing what an incall was, I offered to book a hotel (since I had what I thought was an irrational fear of meeting a stranger at his own place) outside of DC and would let him know where it is as soon as I booked it. Then the provider gave a different rate for an outcall, which then I had to google and figure out the difference from an incall and subsequently agreed to the outcall rate. He asked me for stats, to which I replied. And then he asked me what I wanted to do during our time together and I was taken aback. I thought I just had to reserve the appointment and the "thing" just happens. So I panicked for a good hour or so, then calmed down. I looked at the list of things he was into on RM and texted the things we had in common and what I was ready for (e.g., did not know what douching was back then so did not even bother mentioning that I might want to bottom). Confirmed the booking on 1/3/2020 for 2 hours. Man, was I relieved.
 
The day before the booking, I was already so worked up and nervous to the point of wanting to cancel the appointment. I had to reset and revisit why I made the booking to begin with. Realizing that I need to get this nervous energy out, I thought it was prudent that I probably start off with an erotic massage. So I got myself a RentMasseur account and booked one for that night. Still nervous but went through with it. Let's just say the experience was meh, but I was able to overcome my anxiety of being that close to a guy and having another man touch me. Success!
 
The night finally arrived, with wads of $20s on me (the ATM near me only dispensed cash by $20 denomination), I knocked on his door (he had issues getting to my hotel so my horny self just set aside my fear and offered to meet up at his place). He greeted me with a smile and a big hug. I felt a good chunk of my nervous energy starting to melt away. He played some soft EDM music in the background while talking and getting to know each other. I was still nervous, so I just ended up talking with him for a good hour and 15 minutes. Then he stood up and said, "I know you just did not come here to talk. I can talk through the rest of our time, but I know that is not what you came here for." Then panic started to come over me and slowly stood up and walked with him to the bedroom. He played some porn while he was undressing himself. He then started to undress me and started the rest of the time with a kiss. There were certainly lots of firsts for me during that session, and was relieved and happy I followed through with it.
 
A lot has happened in the last 10 months, experienced lots of other firsts with other providers and masseurs, and as I read one of my RM reviews that an "old timer" referenced in one of the posts in this forum, I realize that I have been pretty busy, having reviewed over 70 providers and masseurs since I started. Perhaps I am still fairly new in all of this, but I am glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and just did it.

Before I become the next Steve Carrell and call myself another 40-year old virgin (no kiss, no sex - that I remember, with anybody), I decided in my tender age of 34 to just do it - jerking off to porn was no longer cutting it. Did my google search, stumbled upon RM and got an account during New Year's Eve in 2019. Once I saw some guys in DC, I nervously texted one of them, asking for the following:

Whether he is available for 2 hours between 1/2/2020 and 1/4/2020
What the rate is

Being the naive guy that I was, I also offered that if that weekend does not work, whether he had availability some time that month. The provider then mentioned his rate for an incall. Not knowing what an incall was, I offered to book a hotel (since I had what I thought was an irrational fear of meeting a stranger at his own place) outside of DC and would let him know where it is as soon as I booked it. Then the provider gave a different rate for an outcall, which then I had to google and figure out the difference from an incall and subsequently agreed to the outcall rate. He asked me for stats, to which I replied. And then he asked me what I wanted to do during our time together and I was taken aback. I thought I just had to reserve the appointment and the "thing" just happens. So I panicked for a good hour or so, then calmed down. I looked at the list of things he was into on RM and texted the things we had in common and what I was ready for (e.g., did not know what douching was back then so did not even bother mentioning that I might want to bottom). Confirmed the booking on 1/3/2020 for 2 hours. Man, was I relieved.
 
The day before the booking, I was already so worked up and nervous to the point of wanting to cancel the appointment. I had to reset and revisit why I made the booking to begin with. Realizing that I need to get this nervous energy out, I thought it was prudent that I probably start off with an erotic massage. So I got myself a RentMasseur account and booked one for that night. Still nervous but went through with it. Let's just say the experience was meh, but I was able to overcome my anxiety of being that close to a guy and having another man touch me. Success!
 
The night finally arrived, with wads of $20s on me (the ATM near me only dispensed cash by $20 denomination), I knocked on his door (he had issues getting to my hotel so my horny self just set aside my fear and offered to meet up at his place). He greeted me with a smile and a big hug. I felt a good chunk of my nervous energy starting to melt away. He played some soft EDM music in the background while talking and getting to know each other. I was still nervous, so I just ended up talking with him for a good hour and 15 minutes. Then he stood up and said, "I know you just did not come here to talk. I can talk through the rest of our time, but I know that is not what you came here for." Then panic started to come over me and slowly stood up and walked with him to the bedroom. He played some porn while he was undressing himself. He then started to undress me and started the rest of the time with a kiss. There were certainly lots of firsts for me during that session, and was relieved and happy I followed through with it.
 
A lot has happened in the last 10 months, experienced lots of other firsts with other providers and masseurs, and as I read one of my RM reviews that an "old timer" referenced in one of the posts in this forum, I realize that I have been pretty busy, having reviewed over 70 providers and masseurs since I started. Perhaps I am still fairly new in all of this, but I am glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and just did it.

I love tennis. Probably the only sport I actually watch and attend in person (except for the friend- or work-induced invitations to baseball, basketball or football games). Out of these hot players, there has got to be at least one of them that played with other balls (of the attached kind) before. If there is would be curious to know.
 
love a throwback too - Marat Safin, anyone?

I love tennis. Probably the only sport I actually watch and attend in person (except for the friend- or work-induced invitations to baseball, basketball or football games). Out of these hot players, there has got to be at least one of them that played with other balls (of the attached kind) before. If there is would be curious to know.
 
love a throwback too - Marat Safin, anyone?

Is he the only masseur you get your "sensual" enjoyment from? Regardless, I would suggest just being upfront with him before the start of your next session. Tell him what you liked and did not like. Not saying anything the past 4 years really just reinforced the bad behaviors or the behaviors that were not aligned to your expectations. If he acknowledges them and makes those changes (or demonstrates improvement) during the session, perhaps give him a chance. If he does not or still gives a mediocre massage, then should probably just move on and try to get a different one that can offer both good massage with the sensual touches. Depending on where you live, there should be someone that is or could be better than the one you are seeing now.

Jeremy Bilding was a provider?! Damn. I am 4 years too late. And +1 on Wesley Woods and Diego Sans.

Before I become the next Steve Carrell and call myself another 40-year old virgin (no kiss, no sex - that I remember, with anybody), I decided in my tender age of 34 to just do it - jerking off to porn was no longer cutting it. Did my google search, stumbled upon RM and got an account during New Year's Eve in 2019. Once I saw some guys in DC, I nervously texted one of them, asking for the following:

Whether he is available for 2 hours between 1/2/2020 and 1/4/2020
What the rate is

Being the naive guy that I was, I also offered that if that weekend does not work, whether he had availability some time that month. The provider then mentioned his rate for an incall. Not knowing what an incall was, I offered to book a hotel (since I had what I thought was an irrational fear of meeting a stranger at his own place) outside of DC and would let him know where it is as soon as I booked it. Then the provider gave a different rate for an outcall, which then I had to google and figure out the difference from an incall and subsequently agreed to the outcall rate. He asked me for stats, to which I replied. And then he asked me what I wanted to do during our time together and I was taken aback. I thought I just had to reserve the appointment and the "thing" just happens. So I panicked for a good hour or so, then calmed down. I looked at the list of things he was into on RM and texted the things we had in common and what I was ready for (e.g., did not know what douching was back then so did not even bother mentioning that I might want to bottom). Confirmed the booking on 1/3/2020 for 2 hours. Man, was I relieved.
 
The day before the booking, I was already so worked up and nervous to the point of wanting to cancel the appointment. I had to reset and revisit why I made the booking to begin with. Realizing that I need to get this nervous energy out, I thought it was prudent that I probably start off with an erotic massage. So I got myself a RentMasseur account and booked one for that night. Still nervous but went through with it. Let's just say the experience was meh, but I was able to overcome my anxiety of being that close to a guy and having another man touch me. Success!
 
The night finally arrived, with wads of $20s on me (the ATM near me only dispensed cash by $20 denomination), I knocked on his door (he had issues getting to my hotel so my horny self just set aside my fear and offered to meet up at his place). He greeted me with a smile and a big hug. I felt a good chunk of my nervous energy starting to melt away. He played some soft EDM music in the background while talking and getting to know each other. I was still nervous, so I just ended up talking with him for a good hour and 15 minutes. Then he stood up and said, "I know you just did not come here to talk. I can talk through the rest of our time, but I know that is not what you came here for." Then panic started to come over me and slowly stood up and walked with him to the bedroom. He played some porn while he was undressing himself. He then started to undress me and started the rest of the time with a kiss. There were certainly lots of firsts for me during that session, and was relieved and happy I followed through with it.
 
A lot has happened in the last 10 months, experienced lots of other firsts with other providers and masseurs, and as I read one of my RM reviews that an "old timer" referenced in one of the posts in this forum, I realize that I have been pretty busy, having reviewed over 70 providers and masseurs since I started. Perhaps I am still fairly new in all of this, but I am glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and just did it.

One of my favorite Aaron Sorkin TV Shows...The West Wing
 
Matthew del Negro

Some NBC hunks set in the Windy City -
 
Jesse Lee Soffer - Chicago PD

 
Taylor Kinney - Chicago Fire

Nick Gehlfuss - Chicago Med

 
Colin Donnell - Chicago Med

Travis Bryant and Mario Adrion

Hahaha, I wondered what that was too, but it's not what I first expected :-D

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-v7YZh3dlygc/VgcqT_0ppaI/AAAAAAACGoc/xjk9ITN-K9s/s1600/Renato-Freitas-Homotography-Wong-Sim-08.jpg

Ooops. Now that i think about it have also met with Ash Taylor and Zane Porter as well on more than one occasion in the past.

Before I become the next Steve Carrell and call myself another 40-year old virgin (no kiss, no sex - that I remember, with anybody), I decided in my tender age of 34 to just do it - jerking off to porn was no longer cutting it. Did my google search, stumbled upon RM and got an account during New Year's Eve in 2019. Once I saw some guys in DC, I nervously texted one of them, asking for the following:

Whether he is available for 2 hours between 1/2/2020 and 1/4/2020
What the rate is

Being the naive guy that I was, I also offered that if that weekend does not work, whether he had availability some time that month. The provider then mentioned his rate for an incall. Not knowing what an incall was, I offered to book a hotel (since I had what I thought was an irrational fear of meeting a stranger at his own place) outside of DC and would let him know where it is as soon as I booked it. Then the provider gave a different rate for an outcall, which then I had to google and figure out the difference from an incall and subsequently agreed to the outcall rate. He asked me for stats, to which I replied. And then he asked me what I wanted to do during our time together and I was taken aback. I thought I just had to reserve the appointment and the "thing" just happens. So I panicked for a good hour or so, then calmed down. I looked at the list of things he was into on RM and texted the things we had in common and what I was ready for (e.g., did not know what douching was back then so did not even bother mentioning that I might want to bottom). Confirmed the booking on 1/3/2020 for 2 hours. Man, was I relieved.
 
The day before the booking, I was already so worked up and nervous to the point of wanting to cancel the appointment. I had to reset and revisit why I made the booking to begin with. Realizing that I need to get this nervous energy out, I thought it was prudent that I probably start off with an erotic massage. So I got myself a RentMasseur account and booked one for that night. Still nervous but went through with it. Let's just say the experience was meh, but I was able to overcome my anxiety of being that close to a guy and having another man touch me. Success!
 
The night finally arrived, with wads of $20s on me (the ATM near me only dispensed cash by $20 denomination), I knocked on his door (he had issues getting to my hotel so my horny self just set aside my fear and offered to meet up at his place). He greeted me with a smile and a big hug. I felt a good chunk of my nervous energy starting to melt away. He played some soft EDM music in the background while talking and getting to know each other. I was still nervous, so I just ended up talking with him for a good hour and 15 minutes. Then he stood up and said, "I know you just did not come here to talk. I can talk through the rest of our time, but I know that is not what you came here for." Then panic started to come over me and slowly stood up and walked with him to the bedroom. He played some porn while he was undressing himself. He then started to undress me and started the rest of the time with a kiss. There were certainly lots of firsts for me during that session, and was relieved and happy I followed through with it.
 
A lot has happened in the last 10 months, experienced lots of other firsts with other providers and masseurs, and as I read one of my RM reviews that an "old timer" referenced in one of the posts in this forum, I realize that I have been pretty busy, having reviewed over 70 providers and masseurs since I started. Perhaps I am still fairly new in all of this, but I am glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and just did it.

if that really was the true reason why the profile was deleted. he texted me before to ask if I could send him a review on RM for an overnight and he was saying how I could pretend to ask for one in messenger (when he was not even in my area). I told him I was more than happy to re-submit the review for the date and duration we actually met (which was not an overnight), but he said I should not do it. so idk. I do not think RM is that complex that one would not know whether they are deactivating a profile temporarily or deleting it permanently. I must also say his original venmo account looks like is being disabled as well. so definitely some red flags there.

met and submitted a review for him on RM. although I gave him a good review, I now hesitate whether I should hire him again. for a PT the massage was not memorable, though the bumping, kissing, and cuddling were great. the game changer for me was when he created a new profile and asked me to submit a new review for him - said I was happy to give him the same review for when we met but he insisted to create a new one for an overnight (which was not what I paid for then). felt very manipulative so left a bitter taste in my mouth

TBH, I am not too familiar with CP and the nuances of each type, but based on my quick read on google, it does appear that you could. In addition, there appears to be modified vehicle options available. Should probably consult, if you haven't done so already, with your physician, and if available, individuals you know with the same condition that have been driving to glean lessons from how they learned to drive. Hopefully being equipped with the knowledge will help lessen the anxiety you currently experience and will propel you to press forward.

A former masseur (since retired) did that technique where he’d gently pull/pinch the asshole hairs and then use a feathery touch to slide back and forth in my crack - used to drive me wild - first time I’ve ever seen it on video - ah, memories!

TBH, I am not too familiar with CP and the nuances of each type, but based on my quick read on google, it does appear that you could. In addition, there appears to be modified vehicle options available. Should probably consult, if you haven't done so already, with your physician, and if available, individuals you know with the same condition that have been driving to glean lessons from how they learned to drive. Hopefully being equipped with the knowledge will help lessen the anxiety you currently experience and will propel you to press forward.

Is he real? I wish he (and that cock) is - something looks out of place (aside from my mouth not being there). Anyone know who this hunk of a man is?

TBH, I am not too familiar with CP and the nuances of each type, but based on my quick read on google, it does appear that you could. In addition, there appears to be modified vehicle options available. Should probably consult, if you haven't done so already, with your physician, and if available, individuals you know with the same condition that have been driving to glean lessons from how they learned to drive. Hopefully being equipped with the knowledge will help lessen the anxiety you currently experience and will propel you to press forward.

That's @Trebor's way of saying "(F)uck (M)e ®eally ®eally (G)ood"... Hang around and you will see him using it quite often...

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