If you are seeking validation from illusionists, you need to work on you first. Your weight is not the issue.
I have had overweight clients who are confident and empowered by hiring, and I have had overweight clients who are in a spiral (because of their physical appearance) communicate these insecurities during a session and don’t really feel any better about themselves post-session. At the end of the day, I’m an escort, not a therapist. The only person who can make you feel better about you, surprise...is you. It is also imperative you are transparent and honest when hiring, and if that is fueling your anxieties, then again..you need to work on you, friend. That energy will be front & center when the session begins and while some escorts will do a phenomenal job alleviating said anxiety, most will not.