I appreciate everything that has been posted so far, not feeling any judgment whatsoever. Some may have sped up the timeline to “addiction” but that is a concern I have myself. “A journey of a thousand miles...”, right?
Some context: I experimented with weed and OTC drugs in my late teens. My parents found out and lovingly took me away from that environment. I outgrew the curiosity and moved on. I became more conscious about my health in general and refocused my life to running a good business. But now that I’m older, I’ve been noticing lapses in judgment when it comes to sex. When I hire, it’s like an entirely different identity takes over, not in the DID kind of way. I find myself wanting to try stuff. My posts and questions on this forum can attest to that. Some are rather “safe” like watersports, DP, sex dungeons, etc. But this one involving drugs is scaring the hell out of me.