My mother used to always say..."You are never the only one". So anyone criticizing your actions or saying you have no respect for money...careful those words could haunt you.Yes the amounts may seem large to some, probably of no consequence to others. Easy to throw rocks, but we all live in glass houses. So BDS..I have been there too. I haven't tallied up the total but we are probably i about the same dollar amount. Rented a new apartment in NYC (he paid some) gave him credit cards to furnish it. (Man he maxed out everyone in no time! I'd pay it, bam, maxed again) Anyway it went on for 6 months start to finish. I met him on SA. He had a job and was a really nice guy...just took me for the financial ride of my life that I agreed to. No, I'm not asking for sympathy, just letting you know you aren't the only one. I can afford it, sounds like you can as well. It happens, you and I are fortunate enough that we can afford it financially, but it isn't about the money is it? SInce then I have been a little less involved with my hires. I have a good time, enjoy myself and take them with a grain of salt. Good Luck, I know it hurts.