Aaron Hernandez Over & Out

[BasketBaller]

It's taken me a long time to respond to this thread. Aaron Hernandez was not someone I was a fan of as a player, he seemed to have the arrogant, entitled attitude too many athletes display, both pros and gifted college ones. When the murder charge and conviction happened, I was glad justice was served and had no sympathy for someone who threw away such a life, one many envy (including, perhaps, my younger self).

 

As someone whose youthful identity was tied up in being an athlete, and for whom sports has provided pride and enjoyment, I was angered by his crime. But without having a shred of sympathy for a murderer, the news that fear of being outed as a closeted bisexual may have inspired his crime resonated with me uncomfortably, and it's been on my mind a lot.

 

I was a jock in school, a varsity basketball player at a Division 1 school. I'd been a jock since childhood, on teams in school and the community. I was lucky to have been raised by parents who were tolerant and gave me a good example of how to live. But I also had a secret that I was terrified of and denied with every fiber of my being, which was that I was attracted sexually to other males. I remember suppressing idle thoughts every day, I taught myself to not look at guys in the locker room so strongly that I still don't do it. No one, as far as I know, ever suspected me of this. But I had to hide it from myself and looking back, realize how fearful I was that anyone else would know.

 

Did I murder anyone? No, of course not. And somehow, somehow, I avoided the crime of mocking or bullying others for their sexuality in order to protect my secret. (The only fist fight I ever had in my life was to defend a shy, fey kid, who may or may not have been gay, from being bullied by a bigger kid). But in HS, and my first years of college, I was a hound, I slept around with a lot of girls to prove I was "normal." And believe me, if you're a relatively prominent athlete in school, getting sex is no problem, or wasn't then anyway. I look back in sorrow at how many feelings I probably hurt, how disrespectful I was, how dishonestly I was using others, not even for pleasure, but to build a facade. Everyone knew I was a "lady killer" and my teammates admired me for it. I never had sex with anyone unwilling, I never pressured anyone, but certainly there were girls who regretted going to bed with me when I moved on immediately to the next one.

 

All that changed when I met my wife-to-be, who almost refused to date me because of my reputation. That was a wake-up call, and once we connected I never was with anyone else. And I truly loved her, which was a new thing. The years of perspective let me see that even she was part of a screen, but not such a thoughtless one as the young women I'd been using to prove I wasn't anything but straight.

 

So, that's a long way of saying that Hernandez' story makes me sadder than it did. To live in that milieu and lie every day is hard. For him to have been actively bisexual in high school, as he apparently was, is something I can't fathom, but that's my limitation. I didn't admit my bisexuality to myself until I was comfortably married with kids, and with no intention of acting on it. But I still have some insight into how much fear he might have had about being outed. I had no expectation of ever having even that tiny insight into his life and his crimes. But while my behavior wasn't criminal, maybe, it was wrong, and it was otherwise uncharacteristic of who I am. Hernandez deserved his sentence, but his suicide still makes me sad.

Edited April 27, 2017 by BasketBaller

[Mount N Do]

Well I was a huge Hernandez fan during his college days. In fact, my avatar is his actual bulge. Never did condone his behavior th0 but I loved his skill set and always thought he liked to troll the gays with his junk always on display. Just google some of his pics in uniform. Having said that, I don't know if he was bi/gay and if he was, im certain it would have been rumored as it is with Tebow. I am pretty certain he didn't off himself for fear of being "outed". I think reality and hopelessness intersected and this dude wasn't willing to spend the rest of his life in that dungeon. He proved to be a wannabe thug. In the end, he was just another suburbanite who was armed with artillery and tats to play the roll. Prison life wasn't for him. Can't say I wouldn't have done it either. The suicide that is. At 27, talented, good looking, the prospect of spending the rest of my days in jail and a wasted life? Give me the death penalty.

[+ sniper]

I think it was also an issue of being able to leave money to his daughter. If you die while appeals are pending, your convictions are vacated. Happened with Ken Lay and prevented the government from clawing back a lot of his compensation.

[Mount N Do]

I think it was also an issue of being able to leave money to his daughter. If you die while appeals are pending, your convictions are vacated. Happened with Ken Lay and prevented the government from clawing back a lot of his compensation.

Plausible. But that would indicate he had a conscience. I can't reconcile that. Nothing in his apparent makeup tells me he was able to think of anyone but himself.

[Kippy]

Well I was a huge Hernandez fan during his college days. In fact, my avatar is his actual bulge. Never did condone his behavior th0 but I loved his skill set and always thought he liked to troll the gays with his junk always on display. Just google some of his pics in uniform. Having said that, I don't know if he was bi/gay and if he was, im certain it would have been rumored as it is with Tebow. I am pretty certain he didn't off himself for fear of being "outed". I think reality and hopelessness intersected and this dude wasn't willing to spend the rest of his life in that dungeon. He proved to be a wannabe thug. In the end, he was just another suburbanite who was armed with artillery and tats to play the roll. Prison life wasn't for him. Can't say I wouldn't have done it either. The suicide that is. At 27, talented, good looking, the prospect of spending the rest of my days in jail and a wasted life? Give me the death penalty.

 

Which leads me to wonder: are there any escorts out there who have the build and look of Aaron Hernandez? His looks were exceptional. It would be a specialty niche that I and others might be interested in. For those who know the line up well any recommendations of active escorts who fit this description?

 

Kipp

[+ WilliamM]

Plausible. But that would indicate he had a conscience. I can't reconcile that. Nothing in his apparent makeup tells me he was able to think of anyone but himself.

 

 

http://www.bostonherald.com/sports/columnists/ron_borges/2017/04/borges_kyle_kennedy_s_story_adds_new_layer_to_aaron_hernandez

 

Today (April 27) the Boston Herald published Kyle Kennedy's story. Kennedy was Aaron's cellmate in prison and very close friend. It adds a new layer to Aaron Hernandez's saga.

[Mount N Do]

Which leads me to wonder: are there any escorts out there who have the build and look of Aaron Hernandez? His looks were exceptional. It would be a specialty niche that I and others might be interested in. For those who know the line up well any recommendations of active escorts who fit this description?

 

Kipp

Lol, gonna have to start perusing the whole RM site for someone I may not ever meet. I think we need a psychologist. Besides that look, what a fucking smile he had. Again... what a waste!

[Mount N Do]

http://www.bostonherald.com/sports/columnists/ron_borges/2017/04/borges_kyle_kennedy_s_story_adds_new_layer_to_aaron_hernandez

 

Today (April 27) the Boston Herald published Kyle Kennedy's story. Kennedy was Aaron's cellmate in prison and very close friend. It adds a new layer to Aaron Hernandez's saga.

Well then there's hope that a sex tape of Hernandez and Tebow may be out there? OMG!!!

[BasketBaller]

Well then there's hope that a sex tape of Hernandez and Tebow may be out there? OMG!!!

Neither one of them is quite my usual type, but I'd watch it!

[Mount N Do]

Neither one of them is quite my usual type, but I'd watch it!

I'd pay yuuuge dollars to see that.

[+ sniper]

Yeah I kinda doubt Hernandez was shitting where he ate. Also frankly while I think Tebow is a nice boy, I'm not quite sure he's figured out he's gay yet. (I'm sorry to stereotype, but every single man I've know who sounds like that turned out to be gay...)

[Mount N Do]

Oh he knows... I just wanna know how HE hasn't been outed.

[Mount N Do]

And this was a classic.

Wonder what Aaron shared? You know the Gronk had inside info.

[+ sniper]

So this got me thinking....remember how supposedly several years ago there was a group of NFL players who were all going to come out of the closet together, so nobody had the pressure of being the first, and to defuse the whole thing, but then somebody got spooked and the deal was off?(tangent: I have it on what I believe to be good authority Aaron Rodgers was one of them). Do you think Hernandez was one of them and his troubles were what busted the whole thing up?

[Good Grief]

Tebow hides behind religion but I can spot a DL man a mile away and he has every indication of one LOL. I happen to know more DL men, DL married men and bisexual men then gay men combined - these guys are out there - it's sad that gay men and str8 men have just adversity towards these groups. You don't know their situations, their stories - sometimes they can't come out without monster size losses.

 

Would you mind if I sent you pics and/or info on guys I'm interested in?

 

That said with your DL spotting ability...

[handiacefailure]

Too bad ... he looked really hot. I would have hired him.

 

+1. I'm into inked guys but he is an exception. I could get off on just feeling his biceps

[Mount N Do]

So this got me thinking....remember how supposedly several years ago there was a group of NFL players who were all going to come out of the closet together, so nobody had the pressure of being the first, and to defuse the whole thing, but then somebody got spooked and the deal was off?(tangent: I have it on what I believe to be good authority Aaron Rodgers was one of them). Do you think Hernandez was one of them and his troubles were what busted the whole thing up?

To my thinking, the Hernandez gay narrative is just salacious speculation. Much as that fantasy might move me, I don't believe he was gay. Now in prison? That's a different story. But the rumors of him having a secret boyfriend are bullshit I think.

[Mount N Do]

+1. I'm into inked guys but he is an exception. I could get off on just feeling his biceps

Lol, his bicep pales to what he carried between his thighs.

[Mount N Do]

So this got me thinking....remember how supposedly several years ago there was a group of NFL players who were all going to come out of the closet together, so nobody had the pressure of being the first, and to defuse the whole thing, but then somebody got spooked and the deal was off?(tangent: I have it on what I believe to be good authority Aaron Rodgers was one of them). Do you think Hernandez was one of them and his troubles were what busted the whole thing up?

And Aaron Rodgers, I'll bite on. Too much smoke to ignore the fire.

[+ sniper]

And Aaron Rodgers, I'll bite on. Too much smoke to ignore the fire.

I do wish he'd just come out, but he's piled up so many beards for hire now that he outs other people along with himself when he does.

[Good Grief]

To my thinking, the Hernandez gay narrative is just salacious speculation. Much as that fantasy might move me, I don't believe he was gay. Now in prison? That's a different story. But the rumors of him having a secret boyfriend are bullshit I think.

 

I definitely agree

 

Lol, his bicep pales to what he carried between his thighs.

 

And Aaron Rodgers, I'll bite on. Too much smoke to ignore the fire.

 

Maybe in a parallel world Hernandez (alive) & Tebow are partners do gay porn then do escort duos ...cmon a girl can dream

 

OMG - Get thee to a Florida Gators' locker room, boys. Shit

[+ sniper]

And this was a classic.

Wonder what Aaron shared? You know the Gronk had inside info.

 

While I believe Tebow is gay, I feel quite confident he wouldn't breathe a word of it anyone involved in football. And I really think he's so messed up from being homschooled by his batshit crazy mother he still may not have acted on it.

[Mount N Do]

OMG - Get thee to a Florida Gators' locker room boys.

Only if Tebow is lurking.

[Good Grief]

While I believe Tebow is gay, I feel quite confident he wouldn't breathe a word of it anyone involved in football. And I really think he's so messed up from being homschooled by his batshit crazy mother he still may not have acted on it.

 

Just a friendly wondering here and a bit curious....what makes you believe Tebow is gay??

[BabyBoomer]

While I believe Tebow is gay, I feel quite confident he wouldn't breathe a word of it anyone involved in football.

 

He's now a minor league baseball player.

 

~Boomer ~