Sugguestions On How To Make Right Of Questionable Misunderstandings!!

[JDXXX]

no hijacking the thread, Juan and Steven.....this thread is supposed to be all about JDD.....

 

It's funny you should say that, sweetie as at 6pm today I'm gonna post something that's WILL shock you and others on this forum as this potential post will not only be about "ME", but about others who are influential forces in my life - good and bad.

 

There will be some shock value in this upcoming post that will be released in little while to clear the air to so many accuations, and will put this "EOY/Self-promoting or being PHONY" business finally to bed. Even situations and tragedies no one knew was going on with me in my life, and will put an end to this mess about misunderstandings.

 

This post was suppose to be about misunderstandings right? Well, tonight you and others here on the forum are gonna get the a lession of how misunderstandings can be blown out of proportion and by not knowing certain facts by assuming the worse can cost one's credibility to hell, and make those who don't know you as a person, but assume negative things out of you look mighty bad in the end.

 

I think by admitting to what I'm gonna admit that Steven and a few others knew will blow you away.

 

Those who are my close friends know JD as a good person for a reason, and what will be revealed will show I'm not this "Self-promoting" maniac that people who don't know me, but accuse me of make me out to be.

 

This post will explain so much behind-the-scenes is good, sad, and horrific that no one else, but "close" friends knew which is why they stayed by my side when things got rough, and what you'll read tonight is gonna explain all of that, and may even blow your mind. . That I can guarantee beyond a shadow of a doubt.

 

Stay Tuned.

[+ stevenkesslar]

His courage to me says, he is a man of dignity, and strength as he put on a happy face enjoying the moment he had with Daddy as TOP PRIORITY,

 

Thanks, JD. Now you've really gone and blown my cover.

 

 

This should explain to everyone why I have not been in the market to get hired by new clients. I've aged a bit.

 

And please ......... no Caitlyn jokes.

 

Seriously, this is actually getting more personal than even I intended. My reasons for bringing in my family are twofold. One, as I said above, I felt like it. Two, I don't feel at liberty to talk about any other escort's private stuff. So whether you like my Mary Poppins analogy or not, about public persona and private pain, it felt like the best way to make my points was to use myself and my family as an example.

 

Since this Vegas thing was also brought up, I've said this to JD but not Daddy. Thank you both so much for something serendipitous. I knew my brother was not well, and I warned JD about it, but I didn't find out how grave his health was until JD and I walked in the door, when he was dropping me off. My brother and his wife had to take their own time to process it before telling me and others. So one "happy" thing, if you can call it that, is that the timing of this particular trip was practically perfect in every way, in a manner that was never intended. I hit Vegas just about when my brother was ready to talk about this with me.

 

With that, let me now request that we all agree to close the book on me and my family psychodrama. This thread is about JD. I've said everything I wanted to say, plus some. Thank you all for your support. It really means a lot to me.

 

Now, back to JD, who seems to have some things he wants to say ....................

[JDXXX]

Somewhere along the way things went terribly wrong, there was a derailment, a lot of people got pretty banged up, but that's the best thing that has happened to this place in a long long time.

 

Thanks for the memories....

 

 

Frank Sinatra - Thanks For The Memory

Artist: Frank Sinatra

Thanks for the memory

Of things I can't forget, journeys on a jet

Our wond'rous week in Martinique and Vegas and roulette

How lucky I was

 

And thanks for the memory

Of summers by the sea, dawn in Waikiki

We had a pad in London but we didn't stop for tea

How cozy it was

 

Now since our breakup I wake up

Alone on a gray morning-after

I long for the sound of your laughter

And then I see the laughs on me

 

But, thanks for the memory

Of every touch a thrill, I've been through the mill

I've lived a lot and learned a lot, you loved me not and still

I miss you so much

 

Thanks for the memory

 

Of how we used to jog even in a fog

That barbecue in Malibu, away from all the smog

How rainy it was

 

Thanks for the memory

Of letters I destroyed, books that we enjoyed

Tonight the way things look, I need a book by Sigmund Freud

How brainy he was

 

Gone are those evenings on Broadway

Together we'd go to a great show

But now I begin with the Late Show

And wish that you were watching, too

 

I know it's a fallacy

That grown men never cry, baby, that's a lie

We had our bed of roses, but forgot that roses die

And thank you so much

 

Not to worry, BVB - that'll all come to a close later this evening as there will be some positive closure to this. This was thought-out long and hard last night, and will finally reveal a lot of JD no one knew happened or were going on behind-the-scenes.

 

Hopefully by confessing a lot of conflictions I had to encounter and face within the past year will bring this post at an even surface for peace and not turmoil which has happened unfortunately due to a "certain" post that was made beyond my control, but that's where you become the bigger person in this instance by turning(in this case) a negative into a positive situation. .

 

It's all in a matter of how you handle obstacles, and with the love, support, and guidance of Steven Kesslar, and others is what help influence my decision to "Come Clean", and make what turned into a bad situation about my persona by a "certain" negative post about me into a good and happy ending.

[+ honcho]

Precisely for that reason, I am now going to venture off where I couldn't go yesterday when I was flying back on airplanes from Chicago. You are about to get a PhD dissertation on - can you believe it? - Mary Poppins. For those of you not interested in reading my novellas, take your umbrella and fly away.

 

Novellas generally are fiction; what Steven wrote rings too true to be fiction.

 

It is so full of real but unhappy things that I can't "Like" them, but I am entirely grateful he share that with

all of us, and stand in solidarity and admiration.

 

My own mother is hip deep in senile dementia and still in complete denial about it; I don't think my interactions

with her would have earned Steven's "Spoonful of Sugar" certification, but I'm attempting to do the right thing

and at least have the approval of my sister, uncle and his wife.

[TruHart1]

...after much explanation of Mary Poppins as a too perfect mythic construct!..

 

Probably almost as infuriating as it is to Miami Looker that JD Daniels is self promoting, and has 112 exceptional reviews, and has a whole bunch of people who respect and admire and even adore him. Including me. As Juan made clear, there is more than one version of the JD Daniels experience. Whether you view his drive as aggressive and invasive, or as a tremendous will to achieve, it's actually quite impressive. Where does it come from? I don't know. Life is complicated. Ask P.L. Travers. She could never quite explain where Mary Poppins came from.

 

Juan made a decision to refuse an offer to get to know JD as he really is. I accepted the offer, which was made at the pool party at my house last Spring. I have no regrets. And I am probably in a better position to judge JD than Juan is. Is he practically perfect in every way. No. Guess what? Who is?

 

Maybe that's a disappointment. But to go back to the documentary, "We want to believe that redemption is possible. And that is both the lie and the miracle of Hollywood films. That it can all be neat and tidy at the end. At some deep human level, it's that order we crave."

 

Actually, to be self promoting, going to see a two hour film is not unlike going to see an escort for a few hours. And that is the lie and the miracle of JD Daniels, and Steven Kesslar, and Juan Bruno. You don't believe me? Go read the reviews on the three escorts I just named, or any other one who has been Escort of the Year, or widely admired. We are all PHONY. And we are all miracles. We all know how to create magic, in our own way, when it is needed. And we are all practically perfect, except when we aren't.

 

This...

 

And Steven, I made the same choice to accept JD's offer of friendship.

 

I requested a 411 on JD from members of the forum when I first began thinking of maybe hiring him. The few public answers I received were all glowing statements about what a wonderful escort and great guy JD is. I did receive two warnings from members in Private Messages, one, a client (a very well respected poster to the forum) who did not like the way JD followed up on his first appointment with that client, and the other, an escort I know pretty well, who felt JD "might" have tried to use this particular escort's good name to build up JD's own reputation "in some way."

 

Both of these PM's were sent to me as sincere and heartfelt advice so, not discounting the possibility that JD might , in fact, be only a self-serving, self-entitled man, I decided to pursue my vetting process so as to make up my own mind about whether JD and I might be a good match. Everything in his old Rentboy ad and everything in his reviews on Daddy's indicated an experienced and exciting escort who did not disappoint anyone who hired him. After checking everything I usually do with any first time hire I am interested in, I sent JD an introductory private message, just to try to get a feel for his personality and to express my interest in perhaps meeting him in the future.

 

JD's response was quite quick and very warm and personable. We continued communicating back and forth in PM's for a while, and then JD gave me his phone number and said to feel free to call and talk with him if I wanted. I called him a day or so later and we talked. The JD I talked with that first time on the phone was (and still is) a sincere and fine human being with a heart as big as all outdoors. I then spoke with JD a number of times and indicated that the possibility of meeting him was not very likely as visiting Los Angeles was not logistically plausible right now for me.

 

Continuing to talk with each other by phone regularly, I feel that JD is the only escort I've ever become friends with before I even met him! In a couple of months, he informed me that he had decided to add my small city to his itinerary when it was "on the way" between two major cities in his travel plans. My review of him on Daddy's details our first meeting and how we clicked so well, with him going above and beyond the BFE I always want and need with an escort AND him treating me like a true VIP. JD has made it a point to visit my city each month since then and during every visit our times together are some of the very best among my entire nearly five-year hiring experience.

 

I am unapologetically a JD fan through and through. In every interaction I've experienced with the man, I have always found an open, sincere, giving human being who, perhaps, is more vulnerable to being hurt by negative criticism because he is always so open with people. I understand that those who do not know him may be put off by his friendliness and open-hearted sincerity. They may discern it as fake or even self-promotion and perhaps they would not connect with him because of their distrust of his enthusiasm and his enjoyment of his chosen field of escorting.

 

I, however, could not be happier that I chose to get to know such a beautiful human being. Thank you for everything my friend. I look forward to seeing you again soon.

 

Realizing that everyone's perceptions may differ from mine, but in all sincerity,

 

TruHart1

[+ stevenkesslar]

Not to worry, BVB - that'll all come to a close later this evening as there will be some positive closure to this. This was thought-out long and hard last night, and will finally reveal a lot of JD no one knew happened or were going on behind-the-scenes.

 

 

I got the phone ready, BVB. Do you got the signal? We may need Batman on this one.

 

[bigvalboy]

I got the phone ready, BVB. Do you got the signal? We may need Batman on this one.

 

 

 

Screw Batman, what we need is a doctor...

 

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[+ Amir]

[geminibear]

Will this thread ever end?

 

[+ stevenkesslar]

Will this thread ever end?

 

 

Not until we've dealt with the demons and witches. So would you all please be quiet now? There's magic going on here.

 

And screw Mary Poppins.

 

When things get really scary, there's really only one place Gay men can go for redemption .

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4jXcOyYy0U

[Mikegaite]

In my limited interaction with him, JD has been extremely nice to me. His reviews are stellar, and his forum postings impeccable. Truly the paragon of escorts. However, after much sleuthing, I was able to engender a piece of constructive criticism for JD. "Please only put the City, and specific Dates in the subject." JD's most recent posting on the escort travels section complies with this post, but his previous two posts fail to comply with said rule.

 

I'm available to find legitimate fault with other escorts on an as-needed basis. That is all, carry on.

[AdamSmith]

When things get really scary, there's really only one place Gay men can go for redemption .

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4jXcOyYy0U

 

...or two...

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-9Uf1SYr7E4

[gallahadesquire]

Algernon. I really don’t see anything romantic in proposing. It is very romantic to be in love. But there is nothing romantic about a definite proposal. Why, one may be accepted. One usually is, I believe. Then the excitement is all over. The very essence of romance is uncertainty. If ever I get married, I’ll certainly try to forget the fact.

 

Jack. I have no doubt about that, dear Algy. The Divorce Court was specially invented for people whose memories are so curiously constituted.

 

Algernon. Oh! there is no use speculating on that subject. Divorces are made in Heaven—[Jack puts out his hand to take a sandwich. Algernon at once interferes.] Please don’t touch the cucumber sandwiches. They are ordered specially for Aunt Augusta. [Takes one and eats it.]

 

Jack. Well, you have been eating them all the time.

 

Algernon. That is quite a different matter. She is my aunt. [Takes plate from below.] Have some bread and butter. The bread and butter is for Gwendolen. Gwendolen is devoted to bread and butter.

 

Jack. [Advancing to table and helping himself.] And very good bread and butter it is too.

 

Algernon. Well, my dear fellow, you need not eat as if you were going to eat it all. You behave as if you were married to her already. You are not married to her already, and I don’t think you ever will be.

 

***

Algernon. I am greatly distressed, Aunt Augusta, about there being no cucumbers, not even for ready money.

 

Lady Bracknell. It really makes no matter, Algernon. I had some crumpets with Lady Harbury, who seems to me to be living entirely for pleasure now.

 

Algernon. I hear her hair has turned quite gold from grief.

 

Lady Bracknell. It certainly has changed its colour. From what cause I, of course, cannot say.

 

WHY am I surprised -- I shouldn't be -- that this Forum is familiar with THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST.

When I was in 7th or 8th grade, I saw my first Restoration play ... I think it was SHE STOOPS TO CONQUER.

NO ONE that age should be subjected to some of the finest English humour of that period!

[+ WilliamM]

It is 11:45 on the east coast. I have a few fractured ribs, so I need some sleep.

 

I may be one of the few people here who saw Judy Garland perform in person in 1961, and twice in 1967.

 

So for me, the last JD post will have to wait until later. The evening ends for me with "The Wizard of Oz."

[TruHart1]

WHY am I surprised -- I shouldn't be -- that this Forum is familiar with THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING EARNEST.

When I was in 7th or 8th grade, I saw my first Restoration play ... I think it was SHE STOOPS TO CONQUER.

NO ONE that age should be subjected to some of the finest English humour of that period!

 

I first became acquainted with "The Importance of being Earnest" when I happened to see the 1952 British movie on PBS, with Michael Redgrave and the incomparable Dame Edith Evans as Lady Bracknell! I still remember how Joan Greenwood's breathy voice as Gwendolen Fairfax affected my then 16 year old self: so calm, with everything perfectly in control, but somehow still sexy to me on a level I had no concept of at that age!

 

About that time I believe I became familiar with Restoration comedy and specifically "She Stoops to Conquer," although I cannot remember how. I only remember how impressed I was at how a play could use social class and mores to create such an amusing, complicated scenario. I do know since we were taught Shakespeare in school, Romeo and Juliet, Midsummer's Nights Dream and Julius Caesar, I kind of grouped them together, even though I later realized that the Restoration plays were actually about a 150 years after Shakespeare!

 

TruHart1

[Juan Vancouver]

this thread is supposed to be all about JDD.....

\

 

Quite right. I'll just grab my coat and will leave through the back door. Have a lovely night, everyone!

[JDXXX]

Hello Juan,

 

I have to say man, you really blew me away with such a poignant post you've written here, but do admire your honesty, but at the sametime certain views or qualities about my personality you've expressed in my demeanor or so called "demands" towards you for EOY or some of the negative characteristics about me that you stated as a person were at times in your post were NOT so accurate I'm afraid to say.

 

Due to some of the commits you said about me and our uncomfortable "interactions" were maybe not so accurate in your original post, so I feel it's only in my best interest at heart of certain lacking information that need to be corrected by me, and addressed without defending myself of what "actually" happened during some of course of our "interactions" that may have been misunderstood or disturbing during the heat of the moment of the upsetting phone calls/text messages.

 

First off, Juan - I want to sincerely apologize for any misunderstandings, confusion or drama you've encountered in our past "communication/interactions" in the past back in December of last year. Never was my intention in any way to make you feel uncomfortable by reaching out getting to know you as my reaching out was ALL under good intentions that were truly sincere.

 

My God to honest truth goal at the time was to express my interest in meeting you one day, and during the conversation happen to congratulate you on winning EOY, and how I hope to be blessed enough to be where your at one day as I hope maybe to win that honor, and you Thanked me for the compliment. You did encourage me to be patient, and if it's meant to be it'll happen as your time will come.

 

Now - I want you to read what in this post on what I'm about to tell you with an open mind and please take in what I'm about to reveal to you in this post is NOT to "slam" you or ruin your credibility in any way here, but since you aired out such intense and stinky "dirty laundry" of what you thought took place last year on a public level here in the forum - it's only fair for me to NOT defend myself, but feel it's a wise decision only to "correct" what really happened during that awkward moment with you over the phone.

 

Juan, you're post was shocking, baby because I thought that for over we've year we've moved on from our disturbing disagreement over the phone, and agreed to move forward getting to know one another as time went on. You never communicated you were disturbed or were resentful toward me which to me is very misleading as you could have been more direct if you just didn't want to meet me at all in person or have further communication.

 

I have read you're past PM's to me here on the forum, and never in those e-mails did you indicate you had no desire in ever wanting to meet with me as I did mention in an e-mail(by PM here on the forum) about coming to Vancouver possibly for the first time to visit clients, and during my visit to meet you and your partner, Thor, and maybe can explore the many sites of Vancouver by hanging out, and you possibly showing me Vancouver around if you liked. You never once said, you didn't want to meet me in the future, and thought I was a nice guy, so I thought at that point we were fine, and you never indicated once to me you felt you needed to be distant of any further communication or discomfort from our social encounter over the phone back in December of last year, but from the post you created by "slamming" me like you did made me realize you haven't moved on from that experience, and does hold a little bit of a concern of why you can't just let this go as I've moved on from it and did yes, felt attacked as much as you did.

 

With that being said, you mentioned in your past post that the "JD Daniels Experience" was "unpleasant" for you. I am so sorry you feel that way, baby, but I will have say that "The Juan Vancouver Experience" wasn't pleasant for me either by being yelled at and accused of sending multiple emails, text messages, and provoking an argument by yelling at me using sharp and hurtful words of false accusations that were very demeaning, and for no reason other then me calling to let you know how I enjoy our conversation, sweetheart as I did encounter quite a hand-full from you too that was very shocking actually from that experience that was unpleasant.

 

What did those bad experiences include? Well I'll tell you: Remember when I said in my past post to how you may have "exaggerated" our first interaction or past interactions? What I can recall out of my first phone call to you was me introducing myself as JD Daniels, and we spoke on many different topics - including relating to you I was had interest in the EOY, and asked if you were voting and if so - I was in the running for it, and you said you would consider the possibility in voting, and didn't have an issue with it. Our conversations by phone didn't cover only cover EOY as you stated in your past post - it was a variety of different subjects we spoke about. Little did I know - as you've never heard of me until way later in the conversation which again was shocking because every other escort knew of me, but you didn't so - that was a first for me to hear. But, not everyone is gonna know of me based on my reviews. It's just been within the past fiscal year, more and more clients and escorts knew of me being on the forum which gained me more exposure as a up and rising escort. .

 

I thought the first initial call we had went quite well, and didn't mean no harm, by texting you the next day to Thank you for your consideration in considering me for EOY which I thought was a nice gesture to do, but instead received a nasty text from you attacking me for sending you several text messages which never happened as I only sent you one text message to Thank you, and you literally bit my head off for it. LOL.

 

That was where I was in all honesty was concerned about you, and thought I would call to see what were you implying accusing me sending these excessive amount of texts messages to you for which didn't happen on my end of the US. I called you - you answered the phone, and literally(and I swear on my grandmother's grave)chopped my head off using sharp verbal words during my conversation with a nasty demeanor over this misunderstanding.

 

Have to say more then anything - I was shocked and lost for words how you over-reacted in such a manner that was almost on the form of insanity over me calling showing you appreciation for your kind consideration, and second by me calling you was based out of concern of you accusing me of something I didn't do.

 

Never was my intention to be of this insane pest you made me out to be in your post as you were the one who was flying off the handle here at the time - not me. I did however, tried to calm you down, and may have even at one time or another during the conversation raised my voice back at you, but you calmed down, and so did I, and we came to an understanding that you made clear(which was harsh for you to say after such an intense moment such as that, but said okay to keep the peace apparently) that were not friends, and let's be distant and keep in touch here and there, and asked me does that work for me, and I said, "sure".

 

I didn't appreciate being yelled at with such aggression, and falsely accused on doing something I didn't do by calling and sending these repeated text messages. I don't know maybe you were just having a bad day or maybe a client pissed you off as it seemed very bizarre to me, and out of the norm for a high-ranking/Award-winning EOY would conduct this sort of behavior, and coming from someone who I heard nothing but good things about.

 

It's not like you said, "JD, don't ever contact me again, and lose my number". You never communicated on our last phone conversation to never contact you again - Ever.

 

After reading your original post - maybe it's best that you did communicate back a year ago that you didn't want anything to do with me for which I would have respected, but instead you waited a year later after I create a post about "misunderstandings" to express this sort of negativity as if I knew how you felt after the fact, and that my dear is unfair as I had no idea you felt this way of us not being compatible as possible friends, and how our personalities don't match.

 

Sweetheart - I know we weren't friends, and since that disturbing phone call knew it was a maybe you can say - not an instant friend - it was "a work in progress" type of situation which is fine. It's not meant for everyone to like me and be your friend as I can see maybe your one of those kind of guys who sort of play hard to get before letting the person in your life, and I get that, and that's fine as you have to be careful of who you accept in your life nowadays.

 

However Juan, Please take this into account with pure kindness is that I do experience at times enough rejection and BS as it is in the world of escorting as your gonna find out in later on in the thread, and if this here is one of those matters where I throw my hands up in the air and say - let it be.

 

If you really must know, sweetheart I was referred to you, and was encouraged to reach out to you by some very important people who know of you, and have even at one point or another has hired you in the past years. One very important individual thought you would be very influential more like an older brother type based on your wisdom, and experiences. Several clients have asked how I would feel working with you, and asked have I met you for which I had to tell them "no", but will hopefully have the privilege in meeting you in the near future.........

[JDXXX]

Never in a million years, Juan did I mean for any negativity that happened between us during those past interactions to come to devastating closure like it did as I never suspected you were dismissing me over this misunderstanding, but besides all that as time went on thought we surpassed those obstacles between us, and have moved on in a positive way by us emailing, and communicating - even considered wanting to come visit you, until you're post came out that was a little "exaggerated", but do want to clear the air as what really happened with us here on the forum.

 

Yes, we exchanged words after that traumatic experience, but just overlooked it(at least on my end), and hoped we could be friends, and get to know one another more(even though I needed to be careful to not communicate to much seeing you can have a short fuse at times)as time went on at a slower, but settled pace for which I have done I thought though-out this year, but after reading how you felt about me in your post just confirmed you never let it go, and even possibly holding it against me still to this day by saying you don't care to want to know me(which is fine as hey - if someone is blocking or keeping an open mind from getting to know me over a misunderstanding(and especially one that they may have caused) it's not worth it as I'm done with asking people for acceptance.

 

We both you can say encountered a bad experience by being attacked in some form or another from that raging phone call, but wont hold that awkward experience between us against you or think badly of you to where I don't want to get to get know you as that was my intention at first when I contacted you was to get to know - and not for just the EOY. Was I hoping for some since of support for EOY at the time to help further along or prove I am a well-respected escort who is African-American - Absolutely.

 

I appreciate you saying you think I'm a nice person, and that you wish me well in life, however need to point out that by you posting something that was of a private matter that you made public that was between us isn't somebody I can perceive of one who wishes me well as you do realize what you accused me of, and what you have implied of my persona hurts not only your creditability, but mine too as this confrontation or beef you had with me over a year ago could have been discussed in a private manner, and not in public as it did create quite a stir. That sort of negativity isn't gonna help me be successful in my career as an established escort who's looking to rise upward. By you, and Miami-looker so called "bashing" me on the forum to the gills is only gonna diminish and ruin me to move further along in my profession. Have enough BS, and obstacles working against me for reasons that's beyond my control as it is at times with people who are ANTI-JD thinking the worse out of me - I don't need for your post "slamming me" per say to impact matters worse.

 

Seriously Juan - I adore you and have always held you up on a high pedestal as one who is well-established, and very unique as a successful escort. I do wish you all the best in life as well and do hope you overcome this flaw or tiff we had in the past as we can move forward in seeing where we can go from here to being at peace with one another, and possibly be friend. Can't be friends hopefully in the future if your blocking the opportunity in getting to know me as a person...as those who know me as the kind, and warm JD......

[JDXXX]

Hello Everyone,

 

Sorry for the delayed post I've been talking about for a few hours by collecting all my thoughts together and write this the best way I can possible.

 

What I'm about to share here is very serious information here that is not meant to discredit anyone or anybody I've come into contact with in the past whether they are an escort or client, so here it goes......

 

Juan - I don't dislike you or think your a bad guy as I adore you, respect you, and wish you nothing but the best in your life as you wish upon me, and only want you to have the same respect in that order for me as well as I believe you do, but just had a funny way of showing it based on the nature of your post.

 

My phone call to you back last year was for several reasons, and one of them was for me to get to know you on a personal level and also on a progressive business level as well you as you are well appreciated, and well respected by so many clients I came into contact with who knew of you and been with you. I wasn't just "canvassing" you for EOY as you stated in the your post. I don't believe in using people for my own self-worth or gain. That was NOT my intention at all, and if it appeared that way I am terribly sorry. During the conversation it just happen to be I mentioned EOY in passing with eager sort of passion for it, but didn't mean to make it seem I was hounding you about it, and if it was I am truly sorry, baby as maybe at times in the first conversation when we spoke on it I had a passion for the award not cause I never won anything(as you stated), but because at the time for me, Juan was a sense of accomplishment to be on an elite status for once in the escorting field.

 

Yes, my work does speak for itself through the amazing, and of course(so we can get something straight here as you did commit something about my reviews that was possibly in question) "legit" reviews I have out there, but sometimes from what I have been told - isn't enough as you have to so many things to be number 1 or EOY, and for me being an African-American trying to achieve that status isn't easy as I have been told in the past I would have work harder to prove myself to be at that elite status more then any White or Latino. In certain cases, Juan those individuals were right as it's wasn't easy for me to get to where I am now, and have been dismissed from potential clients over something that is beyond my control and how God made me which is a "Man Of Color".

 

This is what you've quoted that makes me realize your talking of someone who is more "privileged" and not of one who have one point or another may have walked in my shoes as it's not as easy as it sounds for you to make this statement, and not know of that person's struggles in life. These are your words in your previous post - "The best in the biz do their promotion with their work. Not through canvassing. This is not a political campaign, this is a very private, intimate service. You don't see Andrew Justice, Steven Kesslar, Steven Draker, Tristan Baldwin, David SF, to name a few of the very successful escorts we know of, come here to talk about how wonderful people they are, how they are the best, how they deserve to win anything. You don't see them canvassing people for votes of insisting they write a review. They are the best, because they go to work, and do their best work DURING their sessions. When they use their public voice is to help people better understand sex and intimacy and general stuff. NOT to talk about how amazing they are, NOT to ask people to talk about how amazing they are."

If you think for one minute that my reviews or the people who think the world of me are "fake" in any way - your dead wrong, and I don't get others to talk about how amazing I am either( if that's what comes to mind for you (Just for FYI).

 

Yeah, that's what YOU said, and I get the message load and clear of what your trying to convey - now lemme soften you up with a dose of reality to that statement you made is that that you may or may not understand - None of these men(including yourself have been told or denied jobs because you were African-American.

 

Yeah - think about it. None of the these men you listed haven't been told because they're White or Latin or not a bodybuilder they're not as good or as privileged to be seen in public with the client on elite trips or overnighters ect.

 

Try putting yourself in my shoes for one day hearing that sort of negativity all the time like I'm a failure cause I'm not of those things, being called an "N" just by someone out of nowhere. Oh yeah - I've been called that too. I know it's not a political campaign, pal, but hey, YOU sure as hell won EOY, and am quite happy for you, but you don't have to go through half of what I go through on a continual basis because your labeled as a troublemaker due to your race. You know how many times I had other escorts refer me to clients, and that escort comes back stating "He wont see you because your black" to where I've been dismissed by those escorts out of shame. Can you imagine, Juan how hurtful and painful that is to hear that, but no I guess not because of the status your at based on this statement you made here as you quote "You are NOT any form of competition for me. It would be fucking stupid for me to try to provide the JD experience to my clients as it would be ill advised for you to try to do a Juan Bruno. We are entirely different men, different products". This is why I say to you can't imagine what it is I go through based on that that kind of statement.

 

Let me tell you something - I had another EOY winner tell me himself(after the client told him of my stellar reviews and all, and was still denied) - He couldn't imagine the pain I must go through being an escort who's African-American as he couldn't believe the terrible things the client said about black people.

 

I have been dismissed of my career going further along over so many obstacles that are NOT my fault or can't help. A particular "ex-friend" may dismissed me (as Miami-looker has indicated in a previous post) cause I'm not muscular enough, and suggest I go on Steroids to be marketable for clients or in "top rated" porn or because I'm involved with being an activist, Oh, and here's a good one(you'll love this) "You're too "exotic" looking". This so-called ex-friend Miami looker was referring to didn't quit on me cause I so-called "canvassed or harassed" them to vote for me for EOY(he knew of my interest) - Yes, his clients accused me of Self Promotion, me being an activist for the Rentboy7 cause, and another was due to what he was told by clients that I was "toxic" by being involved in the Rentboy7 rallies and possible documentary based on the Rentboy7 raid.

 

So, in order for these escorts to keep they're clients, and not deal with any drama from them by being associated with me they felt disassociating themselves is the best route to go so it would make them look bad and potentially cost them business. I guess turning they're backs on me on the count what they're clients were saying would get them ahead. It's even sad for me to hear that other people are calling my friends in the business gossiping to them forwarning them of false statements that "JD is this and that and I must warn you he's out to use you for EOY, he's out to use you". What a crock of shit. LOL.

 

Just like potential clients were saying they couldn't stand me because I was too nice? I have been informed by fellow escorts that clients they know hire other escorts didn't want to hire me because I appeared to be too clean-cut, square, and not "tough/thug" looking enough.

 

You have to be a miserable human being on the face of this planet to say such a thing as not only do these ANTI-JD clients not know me, but trying to ruin my life even more that has already happen to me by making false statements about me and cause me lose the true friendships with escorts I have developed, and grew close bonds with as they don't know me, and what I'm truly about. I am so glad the few escorts who are my friends are finding out what they're clients are telling them is not true, and have ignored such a warning as what was explained to me by these "real" friends was - they know me, and they're clients don't which is absolutely correct. The same goes for me as I have been forwarned about "certain" escorts who were bad news supposedly, but that didn't stop me in sustaining a stable friendship with them, but it's sad how some particular escorts have done such a thing to me after telling me when I first met them how they can give a shit about what people think - that right there can be viewed as a red flag on how they may treat me, but like to give people the benefit of the doubt at times, and not take such commits right away to the extreme......

[JDXXX]

These are the psychodramas, and personal demons I have to overcome, but still remain positive, and forgive those who have done me wrong as life goes on. However, can't allow such negativity get me down as I still have a life to live, and try to live it to the fullest without being negative or think negative thoughts.

 

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Another confession I would like to unravel is for awhile I wasn't a forum member due to the fact I have been told by other black escorts in the business the forum is either too racist or too negative, so stayed away until Daddy pulled me to the side, and said - you got to mingle, and get your name out there. Let people see the man behind the reviews. People only knew of me like he said of my reviews, and not of my personality, so thought I would try it out, and it turned out successful where I did get better exposure, and became an active member who joined in November of 2014.

 

Fellow escorts and clients informed me about meeting successful escorts who can be of good, and maybe give me pointers on how to be better, and even more successful to they're level. Need to meet the EOY's, and see how you can learn from them and be one day be at they're level of success. These were commits that were being passed onto me from other escorts, EOY's or clients that were in someway progressively grooming me to move up to the next level of success in escorting.

 

The reviews:

 

Are a totally different story as I was ignorant to how the reviews worked or how reviews are rated as what I have been informed is a review is a good review no matter if it's from a first timer or not. As long as you don't get no "negative or mixed" reviews - your fine. After-all, I was told for people to take you seriously as a successful escort you have to get more and more reviews out there that are spectacular which was no problem knowing I believe in giving my clients the best of my ability to "satisfy". Come to find out - that became a problem as I found out later that clients do value the escort more who has reviews from "active" posters who review quite frequently such as 5 or more reviews which was something I didn't know in the beginning when all this reviews business got started. What I have been blessed over the years is that people who were first timer reviewers would ask me if I would like a review, and would tell them yes, but only if they want to, and didn't have to.

 

I'm sorry to admit this, but those are the obstacles I have to overcome from time-to-time in order to get ahead being an African-American escort as success for me(Thus far) wasn't easy, and at times still isn't as I have been treated like dirt, and insulted in the worse ways possible because of my race. Do I hold it against anyone - NO. I'm not trying to be of a victim or play the race card to prove my point - NO. All I'm doing is share with you and others here on the forum of some of the behind-the-scene obstacles in life I have to face trying to be a successful escort in this world of escorting who happens to be(once again) African-American.

 

I apologize everyone if my "eagerness" and passion to "excel" in this profession has pushed or shunned some of you in a different direction was in any way not my intention or meant to cause any harm.

 

Please try and understand that back last year I may have pulled the lever on this EOY business too hard and was ignorant to on how it all works, but have grown and learned a lot this past year on how to handle it better as last year I was new to all of this regarding the Reviews, EOY, Establishing friendships with friends who are escorts, etc.

 

In regards to this "Escort Of The Year" business.....

 

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Look guys, all I want is to do well, be the best I can be, and be successful at what I do that'll eventually lead to greatness in the end based on what people have influenced me I needed to do in order to be a bigger success then I am now. I apologize to you Juan and those who are considered by some now considered "Anti-JD" if me wanting the EOY by so-called "canvassing or harassing" you or others turned you or others off as that was never my intention.

 

Juan - I know we didn't get off to a good start, and may have left a bad impression on one another in the end. Why don't we start over, and put everything behind us. Start over with a clean slate. I forgive you, man as let's just move forward, and not hold no sort of malice or grudges over this anything else that has to do with the past okay?

 

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Those of you who are not too fond of me, and ANTI-JD know now why I was in the past I was so eager to win this award as I was determined to overcome obstacles that were blocking me to do better in this profession as from these obstacles I was motivated in climbing to the TOP and still am to certain degree.

 

Do you think those of you who "backed off" can forgive me or still wanna keep you're distance? I think from everything I have mentioned should be enough indication of what some of the demons, and psychodramas I been facing that have been traumatic do you think we can be on good terms, and be at peace with one another? I think by you all giving me a chance in getting to know me will be will see I'm a great guy.

 

Sorry again for my many mistakes as I didn't mean for my eagerness to excel would piss some of you here on the forum off, and hope you all can forgive me, and that we can move on to greater heights here on the forum and maybe one day to meet in person. .

 

 

 

Again, I apologize for the long post as I had a lot to get off my chest, and to explain my situation a lot better by carefully thinking out what I was going to say, and how I was going to say these issues at hand with serious importance.

 

Now you all see that JD is working on some demons that need to be sorted out, and goes to show I am NOT perfect in any way. I have made some mistakes, and those mistakes is what in the end I need to fix. I see now by being too overly eager maybe to go after something that to me is of importance, but to others is not Top priority to them as it was for me at the time back last year. Maybe I pulled the lever not too a hard back last year, and maybe some this year too.

 

By gaining in a lot of constructive criticism is helping me think on how to conduct my life in a different way of life.

[JDXXX]

Screw Batman, what we need is a doctor...

 

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A doctor? For what? LOL. No one got hurt physically(or what)? Unless your referring to a head doctor?

[+ Truereview]

My 2 cents on this thread: I am of two minds about what I've read and I realize that's my work to do - to align my differing opinions. No postings, responses, words of wisdom, phone calls, buddies, etc will do that for me. I gotta do that on my own with no set timeline but what feels right to me. I also should share I don't know JD or Juan...frankly, I don't know any of the posters except for friendly banter and fun via the forum. I should also say I'm a new forum member (started this September) but a long time contributor to Daddy's reviews section. Despite not knowing Daddy I have a deep appreciation for what his vision seems to be for this forum.

 

My first reaction - personal & emotional. After reading this thread in its entirety, I felt sorry for me and all of us....why must we tear each other down when the real world can cause so much pain already? What good comes out of sharply-toned feedback and defensiveness? Could we instead possibly just try to lift each other up? Don't get me wrong, I've chosen to be nasty and I have ocassionally fallen into a negative spiral in this forum -shame on me. I've promised to myself since last week - after a particularly nasty exchange with another forum member - to be a kinder version of myself. Not fake, just better! The good thing that's so cool about the forum is the freedom to express opinions, but the bad thing is how anonymity can tap into negative behaviors that our own moral compass would never fail to filter in the real world. Anyway, I digress...my point is that maybe we should act towards each other with more kindness and when someone needs our feedback, use a PM! IMHO, one-on-one is how you make right of questionable misunderstandings.

 

My second reaction. From a client perspective . I had a thing for Juan since I saw his pix and his incredible gift for writing. I had a thing for JD since I saw his warm welcome and his unapologetic approach to just being himself. From this thread I've learned one thing: neither one of them will ever be a choice for me as a client. My loss, I'm sure. However, I rather live with my loss than give of myself to two folks who would so embarrassingly and publicly treat each other like this - despite JD's final attempts at civility in his last post. Why take such drastic measures? Bc if they can act like this with each other -strong, handsome, able-bodied, young, physically gifted and privileged men- imagine what could happen to me when I put my old, rickety self in their hands? When I hire, I hire for intimacy and I give myself completely...their exchange here decided it for me. No way ever. It also makes me pause as to whether I would ever want to hire and get to know a companion outside my portfolio. Is it worth the effort when such exchanges occur amongst colleagues? I dare say "no" - not worth venturing out.

 

Simply stated, JD & Juan...my emotional side says: cool it, make up, and stop tearing each other down. My client and logical side says: this thread may have been cathartic for you, but it was not good for you, not good for business, not good for your fellow professionals, not good emotionally, and not good for the forum that I hope I had joined.

 

With utmost respect, - TR

[Rudynate]

 

I am not the only one. In this very thread Miamilooker posted something you didn't like and you wrote something that reads as a subtle threat.

 

 

I too have been on the receiving end during some of JD's less attractive moments. An email thread that occurred between he and I only a few weeks ago would be very revealing. Had I reported it to Daddy, I suspect it might have earned him a time-out, giving him some time to reflect on his promotional methods.

[MiamiLooker]

I too have been on the receiving end during some of JD's less attractive moments. An email thread that occurred between he and I only a few weeks ago would be very revealing. Had I reported it to Daddy, I suspect it might have earned him a time-out, giving him some time to reflect on his promotional methods.

I'm sure it must have been Juan's fault, and JD has already forgiven him

[Rudynate]

I'm sure it must have been Juan's fault, and JD has already forgiven him

 

 

Juan is the original straight talker. Love that man.