Heartbreak, Falling for Straight Friend

[+ E.T.Bass]

This video below, Only Always You, is short film, but I'll post it here in The Lounge instead of under Movies.

 

It reminds me of when I was young and closeted how I had close friends that were drawn to me and were affectionate.

One in particular was a boy I knew in Georgia, a sweet, blond kid, Billy. His Georgia accent melted me. When he announced his engagement, I remember how it felt. I was shattered. That wasn't the only time I fell into such heartbreak over a friend!

 

I don't judge myself or anyone else for those situations. I don't dwell on those days but the video conjured up some memories.

 

I know some brave souls on this forum didn't let fear get in the way of connecting sexually with friends, shipmates, etc. when they were young. I'm only realizing lately how common that scenario was for a lot of young guys. I expect a lot of these straight guys already had sexual experience with guys before I did, me a full blown, gold star queer! I guess that is not a shocker.

 

[+ WilliamM]

I have a one time close friend who married young and they havr two great children. I was in the Army, and remember him sending me a strange letter focused on was I shacked up with someone.

 

When his wife died of cancer young, all of his subsequent sexual partners were men. Recently he told me how much sex he had with men in high school

 

I am not going to ask him about his marriage under any circumstances. But it must be bothering me to mention it here/

 

Added later*

 

All these years later, it is more about his lack of honesty.

Edited January 21, 2019 by WilliamM

[memphisdad]

The heartbreak is real and lasts a long time.

[+ sync]

As I matured and learned more about myself and the gay community, I have kicked myself for all of the amorous overtures that were extended to me that I ignored because I just did not recognize them.

[Rudynate]

I like straight guys. I even like becoming mildly infatuated with a straight guy. But I have never developed an emotional attachment to a straight guy that caused me any heartache.

[+ Hoover42]

I've had more straight guy crushes than I can count on two hands. Many of them actually resulted in sex. A few of them ended under difficult circumstances. One was tragic. Having said that, I can't imagine my life any other way.

[Colby G]

I can so relate to this and agree the heartbreak is real and lasts a long time. I’m now trying to resolve a straight crush on a guy I work with. I tend to develop friendships that I want to be more and just leave me frustrated. It’s a pattern that’s repeated several times over many years and still trying to figure out why.

Edited January 22, 2019 by Colby G