Merboy

From the 90s alone, between the ages of 5 and 15... The cutie pie from the Rescuers Down Under. Cody. He takes off his shirt in one scene. I must have been about 6. Good lord. Then there was Devon Sawa, a typical 90s crush - from Casper and Now and Then. A breathtaking vision. God I loved that 90s hairstyle on guys - that swooshy way the hair went, curtained I think is the word. But by the late 90s hormones were flying all over the fucking place and I was horny as shit. The first time I ejaculated and saw this icky white goo explode all over the keyboard was Eddie Cibrian in "Living Out Loud". O.M.G. I was never the same after that. But in 2000, I fell madly in love with Jesse Metcalfe, who played the dopey Miguel on the nutty soap opera Passions. I watched it only to get a glimpse of that face and that bod. I wanted nothing more as a 14 year old to feast on his magnificent pecs, just suck them all day and all night long. I didn't really get into the porn until a few years later - first it was sexy scenes in mainstream stuff like Sex and the City, then it went to those softcore Cinemax movies (Jarod Carey, drool) and then it went to really hardcore porn by the first year of college and by the second year of college I had developed a horrible addiction to porn. Wasted away, spent all night looking for hot guys to jerk off to, and then fell asleep right when class was starting. I was a very naughty dude, and I really wanted my philosophy professor to punish me. 😈

Yeah I could see that. Those two look "straight" and I hate to use that word... except there's something about the really tight shorts of the far right dude. It's too emphasized. Do any of you think any of these guys are straight because I really think they're all gay - even though they look very macho.

Yes that actually makes a lot of sense. It would seem that the least overcompensating is really the ferocious mind-blowing powerful top 🙂 I've been to Manhattan in the summer - years ago - by the Chelsea area or the West Side Highway. Up along those parks. They really do look like that - all of them. Even the ones that are not ripped beyond belief are breathtaking.

That or "Mr. Goldstone". lol. have a spare rib mr. goldstone... tell me any little thing that I can dooooo....

Saw this and had to post. Dayum that dude on the far right. Good lord he is hot. Is he a top?!? Which one is your favorite? 🏳️‍🌈

Well. I would not be kicking that out of bed.

It's absurd but it's all I want. A queer nation-state where millions and millions of people can be who they are and live in freedom... and sadly I see what's happening to our world and I know what's going to happen. We've got to create our own world. They had the right idea in the 1970s with the creation of gayborhoods. What we've become is just not happy - we need to be with our own kind, and be as welcoming to anyone else that wants to join us - every letter, and all heterosexuals too. The cities are gone - Boston, Manhattan, San Francisco - nearly dead. They've become cities of wealthy elites and to be poor in them is absolute misery. Something's got to change somewhere down the line.

The escorting business took its first huge hit with the shutting down of Rentboy which terrified people. In 2013, you could find the man of your dreams - in 2021, it's barely possible anymore. I stopped hiring altogether years ago - there just wasn't the kind of men I wanted to spend $1,000 on anymore and until there are a few good ones out there, it ain't happening. I'll save that money for things I really need (even though I really need to cuddle with a hot guy in P-town). The second hit was COVID, and we're still in that Hell and it doesn't seem to get any better with these new terrifying variants.

Very true. Chris Hayes may not be Captain America, but he might just be Captain America in the sack, so you never know 🙂

Maybe I should just join a gym to scope out the man candy, offer to buy some guy a drink, and just go for it. If I'm looking for horny bodybuilders who just want to get a nut off, then maybe I should go where guys like that are.

I thought Manhattan was the epitome of gay life - or maybe that was 15 years ago? Is Chelsea and the Meatpacking District still where all the boys are?

Found him. Looks like a guy I made out with in a junkyard behind a Chinese food restaurant.

Mitch Gaylord...so hot and also the other Soloflex dude!

He has such a feminine energy and I guess he's a bottom, but he's very very attractive.

I'm a mess but thank you all for your concern and support! Boston isn't the gayest town in the world - gay men are very hard to find here, or maybe I'm just on the margins of the gay world.

It has been six fucking years since I kissed a guy. What's weird is that my self-worth and self-esteem are so low that I feel I'm beyond hideous... but maybe it's more than that. I grew up in a really small town back in the early 2000s - there were a few gay men in town but hardly any younger than 50 and the ones that were around my age I was already friends with - nice, sweet, country boys who were struggling with dads that didn't accept them too. (Major Daddy issues in this community...maybe Freud was right?) Then I tried to kill myself...more than a few times and then life just fell apart. I gained massive weight - over 150 pounds over 9 years. Boston, the city I'm in, has become an extreme Gilded Age society where there is still no gay community center (otherwise I'd be in there all the time). It's no secret to anyone that I loathe Boston and would return to PA with my car in a heartbeat. The very few gay places I've been in I've been hit on. One guy grabbed my ass at a gay bookstore (remember those?) and another dude grabbed my crotch. After those two horrible experiences, I stopped going altogether. I've made out with a few guys, sucked off a few - not really had what I would call mind-blowing sex. Anal felt like I had to poop. And giving a man head made me bored after 3 seconds. The first time a man kissed me I was 23 and it was in a hot tub and then he told me to kiss this really old guy from Austria (?) and oh god it was an AWFUL first time. I think he was a muscle bottom because he just bolted after that and found two men in the pool to fuck him. He was also wasted. He was extremely cocky and good-looking and an elitist dick... and I guess I was turned on by that. Any alpha douchebag makes me horny. It's always the same type of guy - some Abercrombie and Bitch frat boy or a straight bodybuilder who in real life is dating a little petite blonde girl - and my heart is always broken. Now I live with a guy and he's hot and young (ish) and he gets constant Grindr hookups - 3 or 4 in a day. All he does is fuck, sleep, eat, and fuck some more. Anyway - where am I going with this? 🙄 I have no clue. I guess I just wanted to reach out to you and talk about why we want what we can't have - and why other people can stop wanting that after a while - and why other people are so hell-bent on having it that we'd walk through fire to just have sex with that one gorgeous stud.

GORGEOUS on Baywatch!

Where do I sign up?

I'd have a whole football team fuck the shit out of me if I could. I wonder how much that would cost lol

I'd love to score a touchdown with that tight end... oh yes. lol

I just discovered him on Insta but omg. He must get it like you wouldn't believe. lol https://www.instagram.com/cbhunsinger/?hl=en

Maybe some did? He was so handsome that even me and my gay friend stared at him - he was a really good-looking dude.

There was a trans guy at a college I saw once and my god did this guy have girls crawling all over him. He had this Alpha God thing going on.

And please don't say a guy with a pulse... My type is alpha beast muscle god, drenched and soaking in sweat, dripping down his pecs and his abs. Now: Where do I find this? lol Oops sorry - might be wrong board 😐

My mid-life crisis started when I was 17 tho.