Almost no one had an ideal upbringing. The number of people who say they grew up in a dysfunctional family is astonishing.
My mother was extremely narcissistic and/or may have had borderline personality disorder. I realised shortly after I left home that it was impossible to have a normal relationship with her. I completely excluded her from my life for nearly 15 years.
I eventually realized that, for my own well being and growth as a person, it was important for me to at least go through the motions of a normal relationship with her, knowing that it was likely to be frustrating and disappointing.
I started doing all the things a child would do for a mother that he really
cared about-cards, phone calls, regular visits, an occasional vacation together, sending her money regularly and so on, knowing all the while that I was doing it for myself and not for her.
She died a few years ago. Her death was mildly painful, but I was over it in a couple weeks. I don't miss her particularly, but there's nothing that I wish I would have done differenly, nothing I wish I would have said that I didn't say. The whole thing is complete for me.