It is quite amazing what a good, long cry can do for the soul. If I may speculate, it sounds like this is the first time you have been able to emote about your wife's passing, given you had to hold it all together for the boys. Good for you. Also, good for you for having the ability to acknowledge having cried a good cry. And good for us, too. Always helpful to have a reminder that it is OK to cry.
Glad to hear you are getting out there. Can't wait to hear about your travails.