Hospice

[+ José Soplanucas]

No prays from me, Kevin, but my thoughts are with you. You are doing the right thing. Warm hugs!

[Brian Kevin]

My condolences to what you and yours are going through. I witnessed a similar situation 2 years ago when my only grandmother that I ever knew (my dads parents both passed before I was born) went thru the hospice care. She didn't know I was gay, and although I came close to revealing it before she passed, I felt she either already knew (instinct and all) or it just wasn't a critical factor in our relationship. We were close, but fuck...it's like over the many years I didn't get to be with her as much as I could have. Started off seeing her once a year or twice a year for Christmas, to then as I got older it was more often...but I was the only grandson out of town who drove 1,800 miles to Miami to stay for several weeks to say my farewells...while she was still alive.

 

So at this point, what I can advise is appreciate being there while she is living. Hospice is very fluctuating. I seen my grandmother get shingles in hospice and almost pass on, even the nurse saying she was likely going to pass that day. But then she had a will to live for another 2 months. So you just have to be there and continue having faith.

 

You do massages right? If it does not interfere with her medical condition, give her one. Shoulder area. You can Transfer your energy and aura of life to her through massage, I have seen it do miracles.

 

Mocha, love ya for this but.... massage is contraindicated for anyone with cancer that is manifesting. Your basically spreading the cancer for her. All we can do is hold hands. I.didn't sleep much. I snuck away at 11 pm to go do a client. I was quick and the nurses covered for me if she had wakes up I told them to say I was showering. She goes home today, I convinced them to let her go in peace at home. We leave at 1:00.

[bostonman]

I snuck away at 11 pm to go do a client. I was quick and the nurses covered for me if she had wakes up I told them to say I was showering.

 

First, Brian - my continued encouragement, thoughts and admiration for your willingness to take this whole thing on.

 

Second - as to what I quoted above. It's just amazing to me (even with my experience as a musician, also sometimes having to muster up a sense of joy in performing during personally rough times) it's amazing to me that you (or really any good escort) can also find a way to take on clients at times like this. It must be tough to give someone the sexual attention they need while your heart and mind are so involved with your grandmother. On the other hand, maybe you see it as a needed release and a joy. I don't know. But I just wonder if I myself would be able to even function sexually at all under conditions like this - so I marvel at someone like you who can find a way to do that. I know it's a job for you - it's your income, and you need to do it - but also having first-hand knowledge of your craft, lol, I have not gotten the sense that anything you do with a client is just "going through the motions." So, my admiration to you that you can somehow do this kind of work AND deal with your Grandmother's condition at the same time. More power to you, my friend.

[Brian Kevin]

Second - as to what I quoted above. It's just amazing to me (even with my experience as a musician, also sometimes having to muster up a sense of joy in performing during personally rough times) it's amazing to me that you (or really any good escort) can also find a way to take on clients at times like this. It must be tough to give someone the sexual attention they need while your heart and mind are so involved with your grandmother

 

This just made me cry. You my friend are the best I miss you so much cannot wait to embrace you.

 

It felt good to be touched last.night. She was on my mind but I am able to multitask. I feel like I'm living dejavu in a.sense. hard to explain I feel like I've been here before in this very spot saying this to you. That's how deep down I keep going. Signs, feeling and you guys keep me going and full of spirit.

 

It flatters me beyond recognition how much you and so mAny others love my smile, heart, body and you know what.

 

Thank you for digging deeper and getting to know me personally. It makes business that much more enjoyable