What was I (were you) thinking?!

[Str8boyluvr]

Happy New Year everyone - as I was reflecting on not only this past year but the years prior, I started to recall some of the exhilarating and risky acts (not like barebacking, drugs etc) I've done or tried to (a) seduce someone or (b) just get in their pants.

 

I'll list a few of my favorite ones here (all str8 boys)....ones which gave me pause and had me asking myself, "OMG, I can't believe I actually did that! What was I thinking?!"

 

If my stories stimulate some of your own "What was I thinking?!" moments, please share them with us.

 

1. I was teaching a class at NYU in the evening and at the last class of the semester, I had ordered some food for a class party while the students presented their final group projects. The boy who delivered the food called from the lobby and I went down to meet him and bring him up to the classroom. He was a gorgeous Latin boy...and I had to have him. So I escorted him to an empty office off the lobby and handed him the cash for the food and asked him to count it to make sure it was correct (thereby occupying both his hands). I started to lift up his shirt and he pulled back a little but I kept going...and then proceeded to slip my hand under his belt. I never got past that point but it was such a turn on that I probably jacked off 4 times that night recalling it. What was I thinking?!

 

2. I was working on a longterm DoD project which required 100% travel. One of the hot young boys on my travel team wanted to check out this sports bar he had read about. Long story short, he drank a lot of beer, and I just pretended to so we could get back to the hotel safe. We were staying in different hotels so I convinced him to sleep over and I'd drive him back to his hotel in the morning. He started to crash on the pull out sofa bed and I took him by the arm and guided him to my bed. He was shit-faced and tired (and very straight with a fiance'). He wore just his boxers to bed. Shortly after he passed out I reached over and started playing with his cock, putting my fingers through the front of his boxers. Got him hard and he had a momentary reality check and asked me what I was doing....lol. I replied, "Oh nothing...you're just tired, go back to sleep." I kept playing with it. The next day he gave me strange looks and asked me about what happened the night prior. "Well we were both drunk so I doubt either of us can remember much." LOL What was I thinking?!

 

3. In high school I was a busboy in a local Italian restaurant. The guy who washed the dishes was so hot. So one night after work we were heading to our cars and I asked him if wanted to make some easy money. I wanted him to get in the back seat of my car. I thought he was gonna give me a black eye right then and there. Ha...I hadn't even told him I wanted to give him a blowjob yet....good thing!

 

4. I was on a project in Arkansas and while there had a lot of group meetings. I noticed this one really cute guy who worked in the finance office of the hospital. He was maybe 32, married with two small girls, and beautiful. We became work buddies and I invited him to dinner a couple of times - just the two of us. I tried not to let on to him or anyone how attracted to him I was. The best part was he never seemed to mind me touching him - hands on his shoulders, rubbing his back, even a hand on his leg now and then...all in his office at work. So I decided to push the envelope. I invited him to dinner at a place right by my hotel and said we could eat and then go back to my room and hang out and have some drinks - a break for him from the wife and kids if you will. He accepted the invite and when we got back from dinner I started pouring the drinks. One he seemed more relaxed I did what I always did with him, harmless touching as I mentioned above (even that gave me a huge hard on with him). But this time I went further - letting my hand rest on his thigh and keeping it there to see what he did - nothing - so as we were talking I slowly my hand closer to his crotch until it was on top of his dick. At this point I could see he was getting nervous - so got up filled his glass - sat back next to him and once he started drinking, put my hand right back on his dick. Then damn it - the phone rang and it was the wife! He excused himself - went outside to take the call, but when he came back in the vibe was lost....ugh soooo close!

[Zapped]

I don't know that you were "thinking." You like pushing the envelope, taking some risk, and, it seems, taking advantage of younger men in a vulnerable state. What you describe in your #2 scenario would be considered sexual assault or even rape by many--a drunk guy who couldn't give consent. That he couldn't remember it gets you off the hook, but doesn't change the fact that messing sexually with someone who is too drunk to consent can be a hot fantasy, perhaps, but it's illegal in real life. With the delivery guy it's more like sexual harassment, but putting your hand down his pants, if he didn't indicate some form of consent, sounds like sexual assault, too.

 

This is risky behavior, and doesn't relect much respect for yourself, and even less for the other guys. You are disappointed that you didn't manage to seduce a married guy with young kids after getting him a bit drunk? You'd risk deeply upsetting his life to fulfill your fantasy?

 

I have fantasies, too, but I've learned to act them out in role-play situations with willing partners, paid and unpaid.

[Newly]

+2

 

Zapped thank you for saying what I hope was on a lot of people's mind.

 

Everyone has fantasies but do you have any idea of the horrible harm you can do to someone when you assault them sexually? Predatory behavior is wrong on so many levels.

[maninsoma]

+2

 

Zapped thank you for saying what I hope was on a lot of people's mind.

 

Everyone has fantasies but do you have any idea of the horrible harm you can do to someone when you assault them sexually? Predatory behavior is wrong on so many levels.

 

+3. It's one thing to flirt or to make an advance to someone who has the mental and physical capacity to reject that advance if it's unwarranted. Some of these scenarios were obviously not that and I frankly found them disturbing to even read about.

[adriano46]

+4. I just looked at the author's moniker again... he is a newbie and says openly "Str8boyluvr" and while we may be accommodating and even patiently tolerant, I doubt that many here are advocating acting out unwarranted sexual assault of underage people, gay or straight. Similarly, I find the scenarios presented to be disturbing because in each case you preyed on these individuals - even those over 21. This is clearly (as others have said) bordering on sexual assault.

[whipped guy]

+5. I was on the receiving end of a similar "I'll get a few drinks in him and pull down his zipper scenario" when I was in my twenties. At that point I was still confused and questioning. It was one of the most uncomfortable episodes in my life and especially since it occured under my own roof. It also caused me to be very uncomfortable with a person who had up until then been a good friend and colleague. He pulled the same stunt with a mutual friend who was totally straight and it had the same result. We both have kept our distance ever since. Too bad as we all really had a nice mutual friendship up until that point. Reading the above scenarios gave me an uneasy feeling and rekindled discomforting memories from many years ago. Sorry.

[maninsoma]

+5. I was on the receiving end of a similar "I'll get a few drinks in him and pull down his zipper scenario" when I was in my twenties. At that point I was still confused and questioning. It was one of the most uncomfortable episodes in my life and especially since it occurred under my own roof. It also caused me to be very uncomfortable with a person who had up until then been a good friend and colleague. He pulled the same stunt with a mutual friend who was totally straight and it had the same result. We both have kept our distance ever since. Too bad as we all really had a nice mutual friendship up until that point. Reading the above scenarios gave me an uneasy feeling and rekindled discomforting memories from many years ago. Sorry.

 

An ex-friend of mine did the same thing to me...and almost every person in our circle of friends. If he didn't try to drag someone into a bathroom or bedroom at a party to cop a feel, he's "innocently" ask if he could spend the night due to commute/time issues related to work and then start groping during the night. He got fired from a good job because he had the hots for a mail delivery guy, followed him into a room, closed the door, and then accosted him. I think in his mind he was just going for what he wanted, but what he failed to realize is that most people don't want someone to grab them in a sexual way unless they're also interested. And even when there is mutual interest, there is a time, place, and manner for such things to evolve. Even in a gay club it isn't necessarily a good idea to just grab strangers' junk or attempt to kiss them with no overture, though at least in those settings most guys who aren't interested will just pull away and distance themselves.

[shadowcatzxxx]

+6

 

Seriously disturbing scenarios. I am very much relieved to see that a number of other board members have posted their disapproval already. I'll add mine.

 

This reminds me (to some extent) of the reason that I'm against BB porn.

 

I've seen virtually all of these "scenes" in at least one porn video ... some of the scenarios many times. In porn, the actors involved are (ostensibly) doing whatever they do as genuine role-playing, and (hopefully) are getting paid for it. But if watching scenes like that entices people to try to replicate them in real life (other than with an escort in a situation where both parties have worked out, and agree on, the role-play in advance) , things can get serious. I would even venture to say that that's why many of us hire in the first place ... to SAFELY live out some fantasies, without risking offending, or even psychologically harming, random hotties we bump into in real life. And putting our careers in jeopardy, and risking serious criminal assault charges, and ...

 

If these are the kinds of things the OP really wants to do, I'm sure our good comrades on the board can suggest a number of guys (of legal age) who would be happy to help him live them out. Consensually.