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Hahaha (I'm sorry this made me laugh so hard!) I honestly wish I can buy a dildo, I just don't have a place to put it (Not sure if I mentioned it in my initial post but I am married and still live with my wife). That situation aside, though, I've "shopped" for dildos here in Chelsea, NY but never found them to be as interesting as the real thing. I do, though, wish I had one!!!! 😩😭 maybe I wouldn't be so desperately seeking Adam as much!! (I'll keep silicone in mind!!!!!)

I wish!!!!!!

Uh, wow! My first had a 5-6" cock (very thick) that freaked me out when I looked at it ... this thing almost gave me a heart attack! 😂

You see? This forum is such a treasure trove!!! I never thought about this sort of an introduction with escorts. I hope I have an increasing number of great experiences, too!! 🥰🙃🤗😋

Hmm. 🤨 Maybe I am just learning about myself but, I've had a couple of opportunities to top someone I know and I was a bit "turned off" at the idea (I remember wanting to suck his cock and have him jump on top of me instead but at that time, I had not decided on allowing myself to explore my sexuality.) That said, I guess I'll allow myself some time but it sure feels like I love to make him (whoever "him/he" is) feel as good as I can possibly can. I guess I feel more submissive than anything else. (???)

I've only sucked one cock and was only able to last about 10 or so minutes (it's tiring but so enjoyable!!!!) I need to build up some stamina (LOL LOL). But yes, I agree, for me, the cock ended up inside me pretty quickly. (smh) I like!

Keep perfecting my blowjob-skills? Hahaha I'm trying!!!!! (my current rate on blowjobs is a whopping 4 times!!! I have a while to go, LOL). But yes, I really do love the idea of being a dedicated cocksucker (such an amazing feeling, I can't contain myself!) 🥰🥰🥰

This makes total sense ... I can see in the first "real world" scenario asking "are you a top/bottom" isn't so polite, makes sense and yes, there are other ways to have fun ... agreed! 🙃 Whereas if I were looking online, the more direct approach does make sense. I mean, we're all there looking for the same thing, aren't we? Thanks for the advice! 🥰

Okay, I'd like to provide some context without being too wordy: ★ This forum has been a treasure trove for me so far! ★ I'm very new to exploring my sexuality ★ I know for a certainty I'm a bottom (I've always felt that way but I only had my first bottom experience about two months ago) ★ other than trying to hire men (which I haven't done yet), I'd like to try and meet guys organically (if that's still a thing or even possible these days) ★ and so, my question is: What if the both of us are bottoms? Do I just ask him if he's top/bottom? Do I tell him I'm strictly bottom? I ask because I love being a bottom partner and I'm in ecstasy when giving a blowjob. I've never thought of topping a guy (and have no desire to do so), I may allow him to go down on me if he wanted to but that's about it (I've yet to experience this, too, though). What if he's just like me? How do I get this out of the way when I'm trying to meet guys? (making sure he knows I'm a bottom and helping him to realize that I prefer he be a top.) Help!

I was just reading some reviews on Google Maps and "Matt" seems to be well recommended. I bookmarked Utopia on my Maps and will be checking them out in short order.

I don't feel connected at all, but ... I do work in, and live near, Chelsea Manhattan (well-known gay community in NYC) and I love being here. I'm actually new to learning "who I am" and embracing my newly found identity. Gay? Bi? I don't know. I'm still married to a wonderful wife, I love watching gay porn, and I'll take any safe chance I can get bottoming or providing the next good-looking man I can get my mouth on. In a nutshell, I am who I am and I respect all identities. I just don't see myself as "connected" to any movement at all these days.

I work in the Chelsea area myself and I'm always looking for something worthwhile.

I'd like to be this patient! 😛🍆🍑

Such a hot video, when will I get my turn!!? 😭

I would love to be that bottom! Yum!!!!

Okay, I'm never letting go of this topic, wow! Loving the vids!!!!

I really appreciate your words, @IronMaus the past month or so have been some of the most eye opening weeks I've ever had in my life. I do plan on moving forward, and I'm excited to see where life takes me. I guess I've come to some terms and plan on allowing things to organically unfold.

Wow, well said. From your synopsis, I'm definitely a newly minted bottom who never (ever) liked toys. Didn't see any point in them (that's just me). Your comment is super interesting!!

I never thought of myself being bi ... Interesting. These days, I'm just going where my desire takes me and enjoying the ride (literally) along the way. 😉

Yeah, it's been totally confusing in the very beginning but I sincerely felt "liberated" during my first bottom experience. And you're actually correct, I'm still learning a lot about myself. I don't even know if I have "a type" of man I like. All I see are beautifully sculptured men in photos, porn and on Rent Men (ugh!) I'm sure it'll be more difficult for me to find "an average Joe" for me to be his butt buddy (LOL). 😩

This is all such an interesting topic. I identify as "straight", I'm married and have a daughter. I've always watched gay porn. Earlier this month I had my first bottom experience (but always dreamed of bottoming) and even now, I never perceive myself topping a guy, ever, but I'm now actively looking for more experiences as a bottom "straight" guy. I also learned I'm really into sucking cock. I agree with someone else on this topic that "straight" and/or "bi" labels are a little strange. I can't explain why I enjoy sucking a man's cock and bottoming for him but at the same I don't see myself kissing him or being interested in some relationship. Again, this is a great topic.

Wow! I'd get on my knees AND on all fours for him any day!!!!

I live in the New York City area, and work in Chelsea Manhattan, and I can say unequivocally that even with unlimited opportunities I've forgotten how to make eye contact! 😔

I'm still new to all of this and I've only hired once (but I'm definitely looking forward to the next time!!!) But I can say that I wouldn't have it any other way: me on my back, legs up in the air, making razor sharp eye contact! Bliss!!!!!!

Thanks @David1024 Reading these responses are extremely helpful to me. I've been able to gather so many different insights and they've all proved to add more light to my journey. Thanks a million for your contribution.