Gar1eth

WOWEEE!!!
 

 
Gman

I also remember something on PBS in the 70's that had to do with being gay, and my parents watching it, and me hiding in the hall behind them to watch and listen, again knowing it had something to do with me but also knowing I shouldn't tell anyone that. ALSO remember getting caught and sent back to bed.
(Oh YAH, and a realllly old monster movie that was a lot on Sat afternoons, I Was A Teenage Frankenstein, a way bad 50's teen fright flick but I watched EVERY time it was on just for the main teen guy. Again, couldn't articulate why, but in retrospect I was excited by looking at his hot face and body :-)

oh man! do I remember that; loved to see him with his shirt off!!!

I was in 7th or 8th grade, and while walking to school in the early fall or late spring when it was warm, I would pass this house where a man would be lifting weights in his garage. He was shirtless and wore shorts. His chest was massive and slightly hairy. I walked very slowly as I passed his house.

To clarify: I never said that I could not view the video on Safari on my phone, but rather Chrome was suggested (in a "hush hush" fashion) as an alternative for those times when Safari refused to do certain operations. Indeed at that point in the discussion Chrome had been suggested as an alternatives to other browsers such as IE and Firefox and I was just confirming my experiences as they applied to Safari on my iPhone and iPad.

I think it's a satire of the controversy over teaching evolution in schools.

I came across my Uncle's stash of Penthouse once when I was around 15. But I don't think I ever really looked a lot at the centerfold. Maybe I did but I don't remember doing so now. What I liked about Penthouse were the letters in their Forum. Hmm Penthouse Forum-Message Forum. I guess I was primed to read our beloved Forum from experiences years ago.
 
Most of the Forum letters started something like.....
 
Dear Penthouse,
 
I am a student at a small Midwestern university. I never really believed the letters in the Forum until one night late at work when it was just my female manager and me cleaning up.....
 
At which point the manager would step out of her clothes because they were too warm, see the student's raging erection, and she and the student would make wild passionate monkey-sex somewhere uncomfortable like on a drainboard.
 
Much like in Lake Wobegon where the women are strong, all the men are good looking, and all the children are above average, in the Penthouse Forum all female managers are incredibly good looking with a large bra size, become overheated easily and have to step out of their clothing, secretly have the hots for all male subordinates, and all male subordinates are well-hung with at least 7 inch tallywackers.
 
But occasionally the Forum would surprise you. I remember one letter from a guy with a description of a males only camp out he went on with 4 or 5 friends. They had probably been drinking when all of a sudden these normally straight (a point the letter write stressed), manly and apparently all well-hung men got horny started stroking each other and performing oral on each other.
 
I loved that that letter as I still remember it 39 years later.
 
Gman

But what's your stance on world peace?
 
Kevin Slater

Hey BVB, please don't construe this as bragging but simply an explanation: What happened in my case is that a certain very active poster here said, in answering one of my posts, (and I quote) 'You should be named "Mister Congeniality of the Realm" because you're always nice to everybody.'
 
Deej followed that with, "So it is said, so it is done. (We applaud the thoughtful effort.)"
 
...and I received the title. No one was more surprised than I was!
 
Truhart1

Daddy bestowed my title upon me after I asked him a question.....always good to have a keen sense of humor

Thank you TruHart1, I always wondered how many posts before I got to the next level, and what that level would be. Now I can set my goals...important stuff!

The only sex thing I ever found, was when my neighbors wife gave me a box of old vhs tapes she had. (I was about 13).. hidden among the various cartoons and sci fi was a blank no label tape. Of course I popped it in the VHS.. was a sex tape of her and her totally hot buff black haired blue eyed was army but transferred to AF husband. The camera angle was pretty much focused mainly on him.
I think I wore out that vhs tape lol.. and every time I walked outside and saw him, it was I know what you look like naked, and I know what you have down there
She must have realized she was missing that tape, she came knocking a few days later asking my parents if they found anything with the VHS tapes.
I of course played innocent Hmm I wonder if I still have that tape in storage with the other VHS tapes.

My parents had a copy of My Secret Life - right in the bookshelf, yet! (We had a huge collection of books in the basement recroom.) An odd book (a young British boy's very graphic coming-of-age story, written as a sort of memoir), but yeah, I was secretly reading it. They also had Naked Lunch, which wasn't really porn, but had some sex scenes in it.
 
This was around 13 or so, I think - though I was developing as one would expect, I was a late bloomer in terms of orgasm (not until the summer after I turned 14), But there was a part in My Secret Life where the (basically straight) boy describes watching a friend jerk off (the first time he saw someone cum), and later, a part where he describes his own first ejaculation. I must have read those sections millions of times lol.

Yeah - my dad had Playboys, and that was not a secret for me and my brother (I guess he didn't mind if we saw them). He did have a stash of more hard-core porn in the attic, and I discovered them by accident once when I was looking for something up there. My teen years then became a game, where my parents then put a padlock on the attic door, but I kept finding where they would hide the key...

While I've had 'feelings' for handsome, muscular guys since I was 4 or 5, my 1st encounter with gayness was a bit different.
 
My family was driving from NW Texas to Dallas to visit family. In the car were my parents, my 17 year old brother and my 15 year old sister. I was about 10 or 11. While driving on the highway off to the side we see a farm/ranch. The name of the place was Gay Acres. My brother starts laughing uproariously. I have no idea why. Now at the time I'm not even sure if I knew girls were built differently than boys and probably knew nothing about the birds and bees.
 
I ask my mother what's going on. She tells me it's the name 'Gay' in the ranch. I ask what it means. She tells me gay people are people with hormonal problems (this was 1971-72). So a few months later someone in my 5th grade class who was more advanced than I was mentions something or calls someone gay. I said, 'Oh, I know what that it is. Those are people with hormonal problems.' For some reason my definition didn't go over well.
 
Gman

A clarification-I knew I was gay for sure at 24. But I didn't want to be gay. I wanted the 'straight' fairy (yes, I realize that might be an oxymoron) to wave her wand and make me straight. And since I knew that wasn't going to happen and that I was always going to be gay, but that I didn't want to be gay, I made the vow to never act on it.
 
My thinking over the years was-I didn't want to be gay. I was afraid my family would disown me. I wasn't entirely sure. But I thought why take the risk when I didn't want to be gay either. Then of course the first known AIDS deaths occurred in 1980 when I was 19. Why should I risk family disownment and death over something I didn't want to be?
 
Unfortunately, I'd still take the straight fairy up on her offer if she ever happened to knock on my door.
 
 
Gman

Ah, yes...I remember him well.

YES! LOL I used to have his jockey picture and some other blonde guy. My parents kept trying to throw them away.. but oddly enough they kept coming back lol.. I normally don't like body hair, but jim palmer had a hairy chest that I was in love with as a boy

While I didn't know what gay was, I remember really liking Ellie Mae's boyfriends on The Beverly Hillbillies when I was 4 or 5. I also remember -but it may be a false memory - of being in the boy's bathroom in kindergarten when I was 5. One of my classmates came in. I remember thinking he was cute. Then I remember thinking-but again this might be something I dreamed years later and not a real memory-boys don't think other boys are cute.
 
Finally- this scene from L'il Abner turned it into one of my favorite movies as a 5 or 6 year old. And it wasn't due to Granny Yokum or Daisy Mae.
 
 

 
 
But when did I decide for sure I was gay? It was when I was 24 or so. And I finally came to accept that I was never going develop feelings for women. Unfortunately that acceptance of my non-feeling for women was not accompanied by an acceptance of being gay. Instead I reasoned that I didn't want to be gay, so I made a vow never to act on being gay. And I kept the vow for the most part remaining a total virgin until I had my 1st sexual experience of any type when I was 41. It was with an escort. But even then I still didn't want to be gay. While I would have sex with escorts after that, I never even really tried to meet anyone friends who were gay. I was still closeted. I wasn't brave enough to have my 1st non-escort sex until I was 50. Now it happens occasionally but not often. And today I'm still trying to accept being gay. I'm not totally in the closet. But I'm definitely nowhere near all the way out.
 
Gman

A clarification-I knew I was gay for sure at 24. But I didn't want to be gay. I wanted the 'straight' fairy (yes, I realize that might be an oxymoron) to wave her wand and make me straight. And since I knew that wasn't going to happen and that I was always going to be gay, but that I didn't want to be gay, I made the vow to never act on it.
 
My thinking over the years was-I didn't want to be gay. I was afraid my family would disown me. I wasn't entirely sure. But I thought why take the risk when I didn't want to be gay either. Then of course the first known AIDS deaths occurred in 1980 when I was 19. Why should I risk family disownment and death over something I didn't want to be?
 
Unfortunately, I'd still take the straight fairy up on her offer if she ever happened to knock on my door.
 
 
Gman

I can think of several times pre-puberty when I realized I was privately taking particular notice of a male celeb or athlete or even classmate, etc, but the earliest thing I can remember was when I was 5 or 6. I had a friend my age, Steven, who had an older brother Chris (he might have been all of 9 or 10, but when you're 5, that seems like SO grown up lol) - and I seem to think I had curious feelings about Chris. (Funny, the one memory I have is that he wore what seemed to me to be a "grown up" watch lol). In some way I must have been looking up to him, even though I didn't recognize this as anything really "romantic" or sexual. And of course Steven and I were just "little kids" to him - I don't know if he ever really took much notice of me. But I would remember going home after being at Steven's house, and somehow I'd always think about Chris.
 
In grade school, when we first started dealing with being naked and showering along with gym class (4th grade, I think), there was one boy named Joe who was uncut - and of course in that awkward time when everyone's curious about looking at everyone else (even as they try not to admit it), he got some stares and some disgusted reactions from some of the boys. I remember Joe pulling the foreskin back to show that it was otherwise the same as the rest of us - maybe he went back and forth a few times - and I was fascinated by it. I do remember hearing one of the boys saying something like "god, don't PLAY with it..." - but oh how I wanted to get up the nerve to ask Joe to show it to me privately lol.
 
As I got closer to puberty and started not only truly realizing I liked other boys but was starting to notice *what* I liked about them, I remember a rather defining incident. I might have been 12 or so - not sure - but my family went to see a local college basketball game. And I found myself not watching the game itself as much as I realized I could get hours of free peeks at college boys' armpit hair every time they raised their arms. I'm not sure I knew what a "fetish" was quite yet, but I knew that I was very drawn to those somewhat private patches of hair. And I still am, lol.

While I didn't know what gay was, I remember really liking Ellie Mae's boyfriends on The Beverly Hillbillies when I was 4 or 5. I also remember -but it may be a false memory - of being in the boy's bathroom in kindergarten when I was 5. One of my classmates came in. I remember thinking he was cute. Then I remember thinking-but again this might be something I dreamed years later and not a real memory-boys don't think other boys are cute.
 
Finally- this scene from L'il Abner turned it into one of my favorite movies as a 5 or 6 year old. And it wasn't due to Granny Yokum or Daisy Mae.
 
 

 
 
But when did I decide for sure I was gay? It was when I was 24 or so. And I finally came to accept that I was never going develop feelings for women. Unfortunately that acceptance of my non-feeling for women was not accompanied by an acceptance of being gay. Instead I reasoned that I didn't want to be gay, so I made a vow never to act on being gay. And I kept the vow for the most part remaining a total virgin until I had my 1st sexual experience of any type when I was 41. It was with an escort. But even then I still didn't want to be gay. While I would have sex with escorts after that, I never even really tried to meet anyone friends who were gay. I was still closeted. I wasn't brave enough to have my 1st non-escort sex until I was 50. Now it happens occasionally but not often. And today I'm still trying to accept being gay. I'm not totally in the closet. But I'm definitely nowhere near all the way out.
 
Gman

Hey Tru, was that YOU at the next urinal checking me out all those years ago?
 
~ Boomer ~

He should have come to Texas. Bestiality was decriminalized in 1974.
 
Gman

First high resolution image of Pluto causes concern.
 
http://pbs.twimg.com/media/CJ5Hn6BWoAUZ45f.jpg
 
Kevin Slater