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That's all fascinating. I'm going to look at all these references. But I don't think I have PTSD. And while it's nice and convenient for me to hang the majority of my problems on being gay, I honestly think I'd still have some type of problems even if I were straight. I think it's just my nature-the way my protoplasm and my environment have interacted to produce me. People aren't perfect. Not everything can be fixed. Gman

While I'm not sure your supposition about me not finding the right therapist is correct-after all since they all tell me the same type of things, and give me pretty much the same type of suggestions, then an outlier therapist with a totally different viewpoint might be suspect. Other than that your assessment of me is probably pretty spot on. Your comments about change reminded me of a character quote in the book "Prince Caspian" by CS Lewis. I had been thinking the quote was from "The Lion, Witch, and the Wardrobe, but I was wrong. The scene is the Pevenseys, who were former rulers of Narnia, have returned to Narnia after 1000's of years. Not everyone is pro-Pevensey. But they meet a badger who is a Pevensey partisan even after all this time. The badger declares, "“I’m a beast, I am, and a Badger what’s more. We don’t change. We hold on.” So it looks like I'm a beast. What kind of beast you ask? Apparently I'm a badger. And I don't really think I can change. I've never been able to fully acclimatize over going bald 27 years ago. If I can't adjust to that, I don't have much hope for overcoming more important attitudes. Gman

I'm not interested in medication. I've been tried on three different medications 4 times in the past. They had absolutely no effect on my mood for good or ill. But they all led to unpleasant side effects of one type or another. Since I was prescribed them, there have been more and more questions posed on how effective they really are. Plus, at least from a NYT article a few months back, it seems that withdrawal symptoms can be more severe than were initially recognized. https://nyti.ms/2GK795C?smid=nytcore-ios-share I can't say that the NYT article was the reason I'm not willing to try medications again. I had already decided long ago I wasn't interested in taking medications again unless there was a strong guarantee that the agent would be effective without annoying side effects. But it was nice to be able to point the article out when the subject of medications was brought up by therapists. I've read about CBT. And I think a previous therapist I had was using those techniques. I wasn't a fan. This isn't my first go around with therapy. Maybe one day I'll meet the perfect therapist for me. But I don't think this one was it. Or, as I think very likely, it's more probable that just as medications haven't worked for me counseling doesn't work either. Not everyone can be helped. I'm tired of coming out of a session either feeling it was useless or feeling more depressed than I was when I went in. Gman

In my case I'd say it's both as I've never had sex with a female. Gman

Well I quit my latest therapist on Wednesday. We hadn't actually met that many times-probably about 3 or 4 times. I just didn't feel like it was going anywhere. My family really wanted me in therapy. And not just them. For the last several years, I had been thinking it was time to try out therapy again. But it just didn't seem to be going anywhere. I haven't told my family yet. They probably aren't going to be happy. To tell you the truth, I'm not happy about it either. I was questioning myself even as I told the therapist that I didn't want to continue. But it just felt like a waste of time. And my quitting wasn't due to being on the verge of a breakthrough. It was hearing her say the same things as all my other therapists. Possibly I should have given it longer. But she said the same types of things as most of the others. I'm not saying what she said isn't true. The things she said are what they are all trained to say and believe. But while I can acknowledge that what they say may be a truth, it's not necessarily the way I believe. And while I understand that their way would probably be healthier for me, I don't seem to be able to make myself come over to their way of thinking. The whole situation reminds me of something I remember learning in beginning physics in college. For the Greeks, the natural state of an object was to be at rest. But that's kind of a dead end concept and doesn't really lead to any ideas/experimentation. Then Newton or someone came along and decided that the natural state of an object was to be in motion. And that objects are only at rest due to other forces working on them. From what I remember the book saying-both viewpoints are valid. But the second conceptualization leads to more ideas that can be tested. Well to extend the metaphor to myself, I'm more of a "natural state is to be at rest " guy. I'm not really happy about it. But it's me. It's very difficult being the type of person that neither therapy nor medication helps. I'm just glad I'm not (at this point anyway) addicted to anything because I don't think I'd do well with a 12 Step Program either. I did leave things open with the therapist. I told her I'd call her back for an appt if I changed my mind. Gman

Some character in the movie "Scenes From The Class Struggle in Beverly Hills" says something about a mouth being a mouth being a mouth. If you consider that even some straight pre-adolescent and adolescent males (supposedly) sometimes give their friends blowjobs, then unless your friend was just totally freaked out by the thought of a guy touching his privates, did he really have to be trained to enjoy being blown? I mean taking the other side, the idea of sex with a female totally turns me off. But I could see myself possibly enjoying a blowjob. Gman

As long as we are talking about Skye, I wanted to mention again as I have mentioned in the past that I have never seen anyone produce the amount of cum that man did-or if not cum then precum and ejaculation fluid. This all occurred around 2005 or 2006 when I spent a weekend with Mr. Woods. I should note that he was extremely well-endowed. Then he could edge himself for around an hour-all the while producing prodigious amounts of precum. Basically he oozed large amounts continually that in total were more than the amount of cum I could produce on ejaculation. Then when he actually orgasmed, he still produced an incredible amount of cum. I don't know if this was a natural talent of his or was somehow enhanced by bodybuilding supplements of some type. Gman

I'll happily concede that my 1st contention-that it wasn't Mr. Woods- could be totally wrong. The dark hair might have fooled me. Gman

People, people!! I "know" Skye Woods. I've been with Skye Woods (albeit years and years ago). Here is Skye Woods-- http://images.yuku.com/image/jpeg/b1a36a241f08d3504fa91653a1fded1a7f6b04b1.jpg Isn't Mr. Phatt Booty much too young to be Skye? But on second glance, maybe it is!! Gman

I'd call him 'muscular'. But then again I say "to-MAY-toe." Will we have to call the whole thing off, @alexslaveboy? Gman

I haven't read the articles yet. I'm on the edge of my seat with anticipation. Did either article mention it being due to him having a large tallywacker and being one of g-d's most handsome gifts to the gay hiring community ? Gman

I wish he hadn't gotten his nipples pierced. Gman

Either he's not advertising now or his URL has changed. Gman

' Am I the only who has never heard of this expression before and had to look it up? Gman

Could you expand on this as I have no idea what you mean? Gman

I'm wondering as a gay male who is not attracted to women whether a woman kissing me would make me hard. Gman

No wonder he is so skinny. That fat tallywacker is probably using up all his nutrients. Gman

When you really compare the two pictures from 2014 and now, they really aren't that different. John has more white in his hair/beard now, and his tattoos have expanded. I think a lot of the other 'superficial' differences that people are noticing are due to lighting. The lighting in the current picture is awful and making lots of shadows. And I think that's what people are noticing. @TylerandAce, does Tyler know anything about Alex Collack who was John's previous partner. He never escorted as far as I know. But boy did I used to wish he would. Gman

I'll admit he's looking a bit more mature these days, but he could still eat cookies in my bed. And as long as he's settled in my bed for the night, we might as well canoodle. Gman

:mad::mad: Gman

From looking at his ad right now, I would have thought he was in his base city of Dallas. Where was he supposed to be? Gman

I have a vague memory that he lived in Seattle for a while, but I think he either quit advertising or moved before I arrived in the Pacific Northwest. Also if I remember correctly, he only did porn and escorted occasionally as he had a car eer at a prominent company. But then again it was a long time ago, I may have my rememberings wrong. Here's a picture from around the year 2001. I would have posted the picture. But I'm being mindful of Daddy's Rules. I don't think his tallywacker is totally erect in it. But he's def not flaccid. I thought, "Better safe than suspension. from the Forum." https://www.thesword.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/05/jon-galt-1.jpg Here's one from 2014. And we have a more current picture. His boyfriend (I don't know if they are still together or not) was Alex Collack. I had a big crush on him. But I don't think he ever escorted. https://www.google.com/search?q=alex+collack&rlz=1CDGOYI_enUS801US801&hl=en-US&prmd=vin&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjbodnYuKbcAhVF54MKHZ5FDF4Q_AUIEigC&biw=375&bih=591#imgrc=U_zXUqjbtVOYJM: Gman PS Apparently he and Alex have broken up going by @big-n-tall's post.

If anyone is interested in him, they might think of hiring him soon. While this thread was initially started in 2014, it was revived about 6 months ago. From comments 6 months ago, Colin's age was 45. He's now advertising as 47. If this rapid aging continues, he'll be 49 next January and 51 in July 2019 followed by... well y'all can do the math yourselves. Of course he looks incredible. So I guess age for him is just number. Gman

Your pictures don't show up for me. But he's not really my type. Gman

I would ask him about kissing if you really like him. What can it hurt? Gman