SirBillybob

Delusional is you arriving at a busy sports bar with your escort for a quick brewski break before private play, the crowd spontaneously cheers at that instant at a game score on the telly that you hadn’t noticed, and you think it’s a surprise party setup for your first anniversary. It may be similar to a daydream component you had already experienced. The mix of elated and melancholic feelings of unrequited love is not delusional. Fantasies are not delusional and your recognition at junctures where you snap out of them for a minute that they are without valuable yield is very much grounded in reality. This type of psychodynamic phenomenon may be one way to satisfy that you don’t really want a boyfriend. Your limbic brain tossed a coin and chose between a binary of narcissistic rage that enables moving on (he’s just not into me and I don’t give a fig) versus heightened limerence that aims valiantly to suppress the anger at unreciprocated obsession (up all night tending the acres of a fig tree farm). That’s the differentiation and one can comprehend it more than control it. Yet why this him and not another him is complicated to figure out. It may range from all boxes ticked off to few boxes ticked off. When I find myself slipping into one or the other path I view it as a tantrum, regression potential embedded in the brain that mirrors the developmental aspects of hunger in infancy. Albeit a mature meltdown. Feed me but get lost upon satiation but don’t get lost for the next iteration. Why else is this feature among adults characterized by one singular fixation at a time, in contrast to the pathology that emerges for some when feeling alienated from broader society? I want what I want when I want it; be on call on my terms whether it’s simulated via a circumscribed date or monopolizes my thoughts in a bridging mode. What class of intimates falls the most neatly into this formula? [rhetorical] The offshoot of a human connection evolutionary imperative turns on itself because humans have logistical limits. Only enduring couples get a little close to everything everywhere all at once. Tantrums need to play out at their self-selected setting while not crossing the line into behavioural choices that exceed what might be considered conventionally socially embarrassing. Extended tantrums can feel crazy and call into question sanity due to their contrast with short and relatively painless ones. What they have in common is that they have all uniformly fizzled out for me while lacking susceptibility to the degree of intellectual intentionality and self-directed control one would prefer to have in order to optimally regulate unpleasant affect.

Piggy for eggplant but nose turned up when served cauliflower? No dessert for you.😏

Speaking of the adjacent SNL thread here did Weekend Update just lose its window for a cameo on Heated Rivalry as #1? The dig against conservatism would be fun, also given some national FIFA federations fervently protesting and going out their minds over the prospect of running into Pride events during the upcoming World Cup, when such openness at home occurs under penalty of imprisonment or worse.

The future is here. Resistance is futile.

Or pull over if horn blowing or front to back collisions are to occur on that drive.

Transmission is biologically plausible. The way I view it is that within the bounds of statistical confidence intervals, a type of math that plots probability across a range from lower to higher when true estimates not measurable in absolute and unambiguous terms, a very high seminal viral load shot against one’s oropharynx, in the absence of knowledge of inserter’s advanced disease or acute infection stage when viral load peaks, although naturally difficult to infect that specific mucosal tissue within one’s throat, gets close to the level of risk for women with respect to receptive vaginal sex with men with unsuppressed viral load but without the specification of very high seminal viral load. I do not possess a vagina but happy to compare my deep throat to one. I realize that this mashup of risk metrics is complex to follow. In my case I use HIV PrEP on-demand on those rare occasions of condomless receptive oral sex but it doubles for the inclusion of receptive anal accompanied by condom use that often joins the choreography. Two birds one stone, so spared a decision about PrEP for oral exclusively. Canadian guidelines do not distinguish risk among oral and anal or vaginal but include payment exchange as within high-risk categorization. If integrated into my complex mashup the latter furthers justification for PrEP for oral.

I think what you are trying to say is not that Doxycycline would be relatively ineffective taken infrequently, but that the infrequency of oral sex in tandem with possible clinical contraindications in your case would steer you instead to regular STI testing and standard treatment should an STI occur. If you are under the impression that DoxyPEP infrequent uptake compromises its value pharmacologically check that out with your clinical provider. It’s the infrequent use that is more in favour. DoxyPrEP (daily, not on-demand) is a thing and is being studied as a comparator to DoxyPEP in a clinical trial. It may not shed much light on the concerns related to antimicrobial resistance development with widespread Doxy use, but there are ways to pick up some knowledge assessing AMR through lab analysis of research subjects’ specimens. Finally, clinical expert panels remain divided over the language of guidance for Doxy prophylaxis and those that view it as a swing and a miss for many candidates relative to the merits of individual STI surveillance practice have steered the usage to ‘suggested’, not ‘recommended’. It’s off-label indication, an additional marker of hesitancy, and these factors will influence one’s shared decision with clinician.

Anxiety is your best friend in this context. Your little head isn’t. If your worry afterwards on any occasion exceeds the degree of worry you possessed preceding that occasion then you adjust your comprehensive prophylaxis playbook. One worry that I have is unwittingly transmitting a bacterial STI to an escort during an interval between my own standard testing iterations. Their occupational hazard and chains of disease transmission into the unknown are front of mind. I structure my sexual activity cycles in such a way as to undertake the risk of acquiring an STI, that is, one within-cycle erotic treat associated with possible STI transmission but in which the STI would be flagged prior to any potential of my passing it on to a 3rd party. Jizzmas comes a few times annually.

If you need to resort to using a “female” condom, anally inserted, for receptive anal intercourse then your paid escort’s character in the MSM context would be likely equivalent to the immature and misogynistic attitude that explains disenfranchised women’s male partners disinclination to utilize conventional condoms. Unless perhaps your aim is to cobble together a how-to video that might be applicable to vulnerable male sexual partners of male ‘assholes’ [sic; colloquial] … or the female condom is a prop within some version of submissive cosplay kink.

If he’s hot I’d consider by proxy a dollar in an available swear jar for each ‘fiddle-dee-dee”, especially if he’s adorably fumbling over a stuck zipper.

Isn’t all the math off? If one's aim is to compute a percentage of change where increase is the consistent trend it's not taken as an average of the increases because there are multiple pre denominators and variations in absolute numerical changes that are not reconciled by averaging all percentages. Composite increase is 34%. If my grocery bill across a number of stores was $2066 then subsequently $2770 taking the $300 as absolute minimum estimates then the inflation is 34%, not 29%. Any unusual outlier unduly influencing the computation of a general average change for the list of locations is nullified by the composite approach. 34% is the metric whether you divide composite post by pre or divide [post minus pre] by pre. Same arithmetic error with the Latino pool. Maybe I should commission the OP to do my taxes.

Then absorbent pads geared to breastfeeding moms it is.

Thanks for the image. I managed to stagger to my recliner before passing out. Nipple piercings on anybody also give me the heebeejeebees.

I like Nélisse in this but little does Rose know she’s crash-landed into a degree of neuroticism that far exceeds that of Yellowjackets. And there she was pregnant and they debated whether to roast her stillborn baby on a spit.

Sneaky Ilya not summering in Russia but jogging by Dundurn Castle in Hamilton Ontario.