Have my first BFE booked next week. It has consumed me with thoughts of whether I can perform, will he like me, is he even attracted to me. I am nervous about it and have considered cancelling and giving up my deposit. After reading comments throughout this site I have a lot of resolve and will continue with the meeting and am in a much better psychological space knowing I am hiring for an experience, out of reality, to satisfy my needs. My money for an experience, not a partner or emotional attachment.