Callas

Have part of my brain back today. I will confess to him in ~early April (I have major work projects in Q1 & really cannot handle a heartbreak now) I will enjoy this deadly toxic for 3 more months. Then have my heart broken, take some days off to cry, then fly to Palm Springs on the 2nd weekend of April to cry to our esteemed forum members (both clients & providers), then fly home to see my parents for a week, and back to NYC by late April and have a new life. Help keep me accountable if you are also going to Palm Springs. Give me a slap for stupidity if i have not confessed and stopped seeing the guy by the time we meet in person 🥂 After this, I will never hire the same guy within 3 months again, no matter how much I enjoy the date!

Can’t believe i missed this thread last year

https://justthegays.com/video/128336-barrett-and-josh-moore-012501/

Yes i believe i posted it 😈

I reached out to a masseur “available now” at 2 am asking if he takes appts at 1 or 2 am. He replied back in 3 mins saying it’s no problem. wow people really get a massage at 2 am? could any NYC masseurs comment on how busy after 12 am is? Another one replied at 3 am available — wow 🤯

Gotta follow this thread to receive notification when this super star is back

There’s a link on another thread (also just DM you the link) 😉 want to make you feel missed out as i do 🙂

Thank you! Hope you would be around when that day comes 🙏🏼

https://justthegays.com/video/128336-barrett-and-josh-moore-012501/ that link doesn’t work anymore, but i found this link. Could anyone pls confirm if this Barrett is Trev from this thread?

Wow i need him back to help cure my current crush on another probider 🤣

Anyone knows what happened to Steven?

wow i missed out! hope he comes back soon or another star appears 🙂

Thanks! I’m waiting for the 2nd 🥂 2 things that have kept me in check: 1. he has never kept me past the time i booked & 2. he always wears an (i think) engagement or promise ring.

I will give it a try, but the psychotherapist might not fully understand the situation without knowing every detail — and i want privacy. On my 2026 to-do list for sure.

Yeah & im still enjoying those pages every week not following y’all’s advice after intellectually agreeing 🫣 one day he will break my heart, and i will have such a rich experience to sing my favorite heart-break songs more emotionally ☺️ (current situation is i enjoy the BFE each time we meet and have only texted him about scheduling & feedback. My plan is seeing him weekly until Christmas 2025, then leave NYC for 3 weeks to think about life & what i wanna do in 2026. For now, my heart has won, and i don’t wanna think anymore)

This is the longest response i have ever read here. and i agree 100% for examples, after telling me he would be out of town next week, he asked me “will you miss me?” holding me from behind & kissing my ear. He def knew my feelings and decided to leverage it. …and my vulnerable heart won over my intellect. Now i have so much empathy for those fools in stories/films.

Yeah i did some kinky play research this week & will test the water playing with some providers. I hope they would thrill me 🫣

Ofc that why i often asked for 🍆🍑 in 3rd session or later, after i tipped them well following other asks in previous sessions. haha i just enjoy it this way in my head 🫣

And the build-up to that 60 mins — 90 mins — 2hrs… paying attention — see his mood — testing things… maybe they are just open to it in 1st meeting, but i enjoy all these strategy things going on in my head. Otherwise, even 60 min xxx could be boring.

Haha it’s like having unexpected xxx when going to see your banker/doctor/professor/etc. 🫣 guess i watched too many scenario porn

Yeah i texted him 2-3 days ago that i could reschedule if there is risk im seeing other clients. and his response was very polite. Let’s see if he can change.

I rang the door bell => door opened => if the client was not ready to leave, i waited for 2-3 mins in his bed room; if the client was ready, i saw him as the masseur opened the door. (I arrived just on time though) yes, in my case, some nyc masseurs do ofter the 🍆🍑 special for $250 or less (just their normal rate). I always see them for 1.5-3hrs. I normally just asked them directly if they could 🍆 🍑 after our 3rd appt. & i gave 20-35% bonus (because they did what i asked). I never told them in adv that i would give bonus. I just find negotiating up-charge a turn off. I find playing this game with masseurs is much more exciting than paying an escort who i know for sure can 🍆🍑.

The unexpected does happen. This falling accident hit me by surprise. The other ~20 guys i met were just pure momentary fun (there was one regular i met weekly for 4 months & i didn’t fall), just until this one who has been giving me what i didn’t know i wanted — completely recreated my imagination of an ideal partner. Even choosing him initially was an accident, as i could not schedule a same day appt with any of my regulars and buddy-list ones. Guess i’m still too young & are not as emotionally mature as more experienced clients. God wants to challenge me before another new decade of my life begins 😭

Seriously, below is more of a note to myself than a response to you 🫣 “afterwards in the several times I’ve reached out since then in a friendly manner, communication has been more distant than before the trip, with polite, but terse, and often slow responses until now no response at all.” you think it’s “friendly”, put in lots of thoughts (even your heart in), you think it’s touching but to the receiver, it may be just a waste of his time having to read and respond to maintain polite and keep the business —> after a while it would stress him out (for he mostly has no special feelings for you) leading him to respond with terse —> it may even affect the time together in person —> one day he would just like f*** it i’m done & disappear “Should my only communication with a regular escort be to arrange time together and otherwise be silent? If I had been told that, I would respect that wish, realizing he’s not “on the clock,” but I now fear I have misread his friendliness and shouldn’t have responded in kind. Was it just to get some business?” Yes and yes Only text to arrange time, give feedback, & ideas of what you wanna do during next dates (make it short and on point, minimize back and forth as much as possible) don’t waste people time — even normal non-paid friendship takes time to build — hold your urge and only text him what truly matters to make the next time together better he can’t tell you — “i don’t like you texting too often” or the like — def afraid it would hurt your feelings and end the business ofc if not for money, what is there for him to waste time texting a guy he mostly is not interested in? Normal employees want no personal texting with his boss, except for health issues, big holidays, etc. treat him professionally like how you treat your junior colleagues “Or is the distancing a signal that he does not want me to hire him again? I am now questioning my judgment in what I thought was a beautiful time together and had hoped to do again. I am combing through it looking for signs that he was having an awful time with me to explain the distance towards me now.” No He either has something going on personally and could not handle your text anymore or simply could not take it any more (if i were an escort and a client had a 5-hr appt with me each week, i wouldn’t mind responding to him 3x a day / 5 days a week / each with 1 sentence and a cute emoji 😉) Yes, it was a beautiful time together — you paid and he delivered. He owed you nothing. No need to keep looking. The vacation was good. He was just tired of your texts. Key takeaways: Choose yourself first, and let no one disturb your peace — don’t waste your time, if it means to be, it would be, things take time, enjoy the journey, don’t push, don’t rush Protect your heart 🥺 it’s easier said than done, but i find not texting him is the easiest of them all (the rest: thinking about him, wondering about him, overanalyzing, feeling hurt, feeling sad, etc. — just over my control)

I think you are over it. But reading this is sad for me. If i were you, my brain wanted to stop seeing him after the hiatus, but my feeling would tell me to keep seeing him. I gotta become Samantha in 2025—stop letting guys i paid disturb my peace!!! (Samantha does not have to pay tho 😆)