Oh man, I need some advice and don't know where else to turn. Please go easy on me but also have something to contribute and be honest. I'd love to make this short, but the background needs to be given.
About two years ago, I started hiring to fill a few needs, mainly because it involved established boundaries and I didn't want anything more. That worked and I met some excellent escorts along the way. I hired one in my home city about once a month. Last month, I was going to hire him but he had friends in from out of town and couldn't make it. He and I follow each other on Instagram and noticed that he was at dinner with a really fucking handsome guy who took my breath away. I texted him and asked who it was and if he escorted as well. He said the guy did and I jokingly said "send him over instead"
Well, he did. I met the guy, and we had a great night and I paid him and he went on his way. The next day the new escort I met texted me and said what a great time he had and that he was in town until the following week. I said come over and let's do everything again. Same price, same time.
So, he agreed and he did. This time we spent all night together. Uncluding the following morning, afternoon, and the next night. When I say spending time, I mean talking sitting on the beach, pouring our souls out to each other. He gave me 3x the amount of time and didn't want to take any money at all, but I insisted.
Fast forward a couple of days and we text 24x7. I'm completely in love with this man at this point. I know he feels the same way. He wants to take me back home to his country to meet his family, the entire nine yards.
I am going to be in his home city this coming week for work. He wants me to cancel the hotel and come stay at his place. He offered me a key to his apartment, everything. I mentioned in conversation over the past week that I could be poor one day and my company could go under and he said he could sit in a room with me eating a sandwich together and he would be the happiest man on the planet.
For some perspective, there isn't a huge disparity here. We are both mid-40's. I'm pretty sexy and handsome and genuine and accomplished. He is as well. It's not like I am 75 and he is 25, or some other huge disparity like 500 lbs of weight or anything. We are smilar.
So I am already head over heels in love with the guy. I actually see a point where we get married and have kids. Legit. He says he does as well, and we can work through that. My questions really:
Am I just fucking crazy and what am I not seeing?
How do I get over my guy core feeling that we met on RM under a client/provider relationship?
Does the "Pretty Woman" fantasy actually exist? In that movie, I keep trying to answer the question: "Who saves who?" and know it can be mutual. I think I might have that here.
I have thought about bringing this all up with him. He doesn't want money to hang out anymore. But the reality is also that I make a lot more money than him and want to provide, and travel, and "take care" of him if he will let me. What do I actually say? Like what are the words?
I really don't know who else to talk about this. Also -- I am a seasoned poster on these forums. I created this handle to be anonymous so as not to have any of my past posts linked to this one, and also so there is no talk in 'escort circles' about this.
Please throw me whatever you got.
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$400 is TOO MUCH
