Juan Vancouver, Steven Kesslar& Many Others - Thank You!!!

[JDXXX]

Greetings All,

 

Disclaimer: This thread is not only an apologetic thread, but is a special "Thank You" to a few people, and I'll explain why.......

 

Just recently got back from seeing a friend for lunch who sadly informed me as of today he's been diagnosed with leukemia, and he was sharing with me of his many lessons in life, and how proud he was to make it at 42 years old without any regrets in life.

 

He grabbed my hand knowing this year was a little bit of a rough year for me to overcome some serious obstacles that were life challenging, and even possibly to the road of emotional distress and destruction(Not by drugs or alcohol of course).

 

He knew I was fighting with some self-confidence/self esteem issues in the past which involved of trying to be "too well-liked", and did happen to share with him about a thread on the forum that may could have damaged me, but yet made me realized maybe I went too overboard to be "accepted" which probably did turn others away. However, it was created based out of good intentions.

 

My friend revealed he read the thread I was referring to, and was quite sorry he was to see in the end it did go upside down, but he did say to me "JD, you have so many people on the site who love your positive energy, and know your heart is in the right place to just be loved, accepted, and successful in life like anyone else, but sometimes we can push too hard that'll turn some people in the other direction and that's what did happen with some people. Maybe not everyone, but with some, but I know you didn't mean any harm by reaching out to others trying to get to know them, and was only wanting acceptance". Like he said which is true, my heart was in the right place.

 

All I can do at that point was burst into tears, you guys as he hit it right on the head. The reason maybe I got emotional is because it is a matter of acceptance, and trying to fit in a place where I belong in society. I think a lot of this stems from being rejected in my earlier years, and just starting to grow as an older adult of what my true abilities and self-worth is as a person.

 

We all in life go through trials and tribulations that are sometimes hard to surpass, but that doesn't mean we can't fight it and overcome it if we put our minds to defeating those obstacles into a positive light.

 

The anecdote on how to overcome this complication is: Strong love, and support from family and friends, learn to love yourself, and take pride of who you are a person, and how God made you out to be.

 

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Syy9KnJhE4g

 

The point is: As I'm getting older, I'm starting to more better understand my self-worth, and who I am as a person in this crazy world we live in. Rejection is never a good thing to experience, but it is a part of life we have to deal with, and not let it overrule or take over our self-esteem in a negative light that could destroy our self-pride or how others may view us as a strong individual they may later in life wanna get to know.

 

After thinking over what my friend has confided in me about his illness, and coming to terms with myself in realizing one's mistakes, and how those mistakes can effect one's I had to come to grips with my inner-self by being thankful to those who helped guide me on repairing those mistakes for the better.

 

I do wanna Thank those of you who gave they're advice on the "Misunderstandings" thread as it was well appreciated, and did learn a lot from it as what all was shared with me on the forum, and behind-the-scenes was fact that maybe "tough love" isn't a form of a put down, but a so called "wake up" call.

 

One person in particular I wanna Thank for his guidance and wisdom is: Mr. Juan Vancouver which I do owe a serious apology to as well as some of the other forum members who took my reaction towards his advice the wrong way or viewed it as me attacking him which wasn't my intent at all as some of you know.

 

Sincerely apologize to Juan or any of the forum members who were disturbed at me for any misunderstandings coming off trying too hard to either be one's friend possibly or be "well-liked".

 

Juan, I do value your advice, baby as well as any other individual here on the forum, and will take in seriously of some of the things you suggested that were helpful in your post along with other forum members who contributed as well.

 

I hope you can forgive me, Juan, and we can move on to be good friends in the future as you are a great guy, and sorry if I took certain things you said to heart in the wrong way for which wasn't meant to be any bad reflection on you as you were only expressing what you felt, bro, and do respect, and Thank you kindly for expressing your feelings, and input which was quite helpful along with everyone else's opinion.

 

Without a shadow of a doubt and with all sincerity apologize to those who were turned off by me reaching out or giving the wrong impression about my personality regarding self-promoting and all. That surely and clearly wasn't my intention if I came off as that at times, you guys - I am sincerely, and truly sorry as I take full responsibility if I came off that way as that is NOT me at all is to appear as a phony.

 

Steven Kesslar has been nothing but loving and supportive through my ups, and downs in life, and has many times gave me some "tough love" as trying to be "Practically Perfect In Every Little Way" isn't easy. LOL. It's virtually impossible, and exhausting. Sometimes it's just best to just kick back, and shut the fuck up. Haha.

 

Steven is someone I adore, and love dearly as he's a true, and honest friend. He's been there for me through thick and thin on so many occasions it's unreal, and am quite blessed indeed to have a wonderful, and loving friend like him in my life as he could have thrown in the towel and said, "Fuck off", LOL, but, you know something....He didn't give up on me cause he knows I'm a good person who looks out for him as he looks out for me, and we tend to be there for each other as well as others we know and love in our lives here on the forum and outside of the forum:D.

 

It's nice to have a caring friend who loves you enough to slap some sense into you at times when you may not want to hear the harsh truth, but sometimes "tough love" works when your stubborn. . Right Steven? LOL.

 

Yes Steven, I do value your advice too. Wink. I will admit, Steven is another person who is responsible in knocking some sense into me I guess you can say. LOL. He made me realize maybe backing off, and valuing others advice by giving others space and not push so hard to be one's friend is the best way to go. I couldn't agree with him more. I guess one can say - being well-liked or trying to make new friends is ALOT of work. LOL.

 

Sometimes through the bad times in life you realize who your "true" friends are, and I do Thank God everyday for Steven, and the bond we have together as friends which is priceless. We might at times tend to give each other a good swift kick in the ass now and then regarding the many facts of life or politics, but guys, he is truly an amazing human being as words can't express what a heart of gold this man has. I'm not kidding you.

 

I do sincerely from the bottom of my heart Thank those of you who may have gave some intense harsh criticism in showing me that it's okay to not be liked by everyone or feel you failed by not being well-liked.

 

I think "certain" individuals understand why I tried and pushed so hard to those who didn't like me or care for me too much on the forum was due to me feeling a sense of failure or like I let someone down in some form of way for them to not to wanna get to know me. I know it's silly, but maybe that's a form of insecurity that happens to us sometimes in life as we all would like to feel accepted or well-liked in this world without any prejudices or preferences.

 

We all in life go through trials and tribulations that are sometime hard to surpass, but that doesn't mean we can fight it and overcome it to the best of our ability. If we put our minds to defeating those obstacles into a positive light which is what I'm actually trying to accomplish step-by-step you can come out of this a winner. .

 

Most of us that goes through these issues with self-esteem should exercise these methods in order to have a healthy, stable, and growing social life in many years to come.

 

Thanks to all of you for helping me wake up to a few things that were important life lessons, and just know from this moment forward will learn from that experience and many suggestions as well as advice from the "Misunderstandings' thread and utilize it. It's very beneficial for me, and do appreciate it very much.

 

HUGS AND MANY THANK YOU'S......

[+ sync]

Most of life is a learning curve, JD. Just keep stepping.

[TruHart1]

Very well said, JD. Completely honest and sincere, as I have personally always found you to be.

 

TruHart1

[+ WilliamM]

I respect you , JD. You will get through this and be better off for it.

[+ stevenkesslar]

 

Evanora: What's the matter, Glinda, out of bubbles?

Glinda: I don't need them, bubbles are just for show!

[JDXXX]

Most of life is a learning curve, JD. Just keep stepping.

 

It's funny you said that, Sync as what you said is right on point as I am finding that out more and more as the I'm getting older, mature, and wiser in my years. One can never be too old to learn, right?

 

I have to say another person who I admire, and adore greatly in my life that I give a HUGE shout-out to is: Epigonos. . LOL Yeah.....

 

Epigonos is not only witty and sharp in getting his point across as Steven Kesslar, but is a loving and kind man who is full of words of wisdom that will stick in your brain that's believable to take in, and value.

 

I will never forget the day I met him face-to-face at the 11th Annual Palm Springs Forum Event in May of this year at the Pool Party at Steven Kesslar's home, and boy did he and SK give me a good talking to by whipping some sense into me I guess one can say(but in a kind and gentle manner of course). LOL. Epigonos, Steven Kesslar, and I got to talking at the Pool Party, and I'll never forget what such words of wisdom these two wonderful men shared with me as they both(I kid you not) literally gave such advice that stuck with me about how to love yourself. Epigonos grabbed me by the hand, and took me into Steven's bedroom(which is quite comfortable and exquisitely decorated by the way. LOL. ) and placed me in front of a standing glass mirror to point out what I see in myself that's good, and not negative.

 

When I returned back to my hotel room with no other then Miss Coco from Rentboy.com(who I love and miss dearly), I told her of my special moment with both SK and Epigonos which was meaningful, and touching to me of being proud of who I am. Miss Coco, and I were getting dressed to meet some of the forum members for the last dinner gathering of the weekend which included Oliver(Who was absolutely a pleasure to be with as well as everyone else who attended as I was quite thrilled and honored to meet this fine man who gave us all an mind-blowing weekend that was not only special to me, but to so many others as well), SK, and Epigonos I thought to show my appreciation for all the many wonderful contributions they made that made my weekend at my first forum event memorable, writing and give to each of them there Thank You cards(along with a few other people who I thought were a pleasure to be with there).

 

Why? Because they took time out from a party they were hosting to show me something about myself that was valuable to take in, and cherish about myself that can be great that they saw in me, but I couldn't. When you have people who can come into your life for the first time to show you of those qualities in yourself that you cant see, but they do - that says they accept you for being you, and that's a moment about those two I will always treasure for life as from that point on that's where my trust and friendship with them blossomed to the greatness it is today.

 

Thank you, SK, and Epigonos for the love and wisdom you gave and even showed that day that will be forever a treasure to me as I'll never forget how meaningful it was to spend those few hours with you guys.

 

Very well said, JD. Completely honest and sincere, as I have personally always found you to be.

 

TruHart1

 

Truhart1 - You're a GEM, baby as you have and always been in my corner thru thick and thin situations just as equally much as anyone else on the forum, and have gone far and beyond to demonstrate unto others of my unique qualities along with other great escorts your fond of that holds of great credibility on many positive levels. As always, I sincerely thank you for your friendship, love, and kindness to me.

 

I respect you , JD. You will get through this and be better off for it.

 

William - I respect, love and adore you, baby as you too have been incredibly awesome at being supportive, and one who's positive, and I thank you for your honesty and integrity.

 

You're the best!!!

[Mocha]

Thanks JD. I don't know what much to say as I don't want to mess up the moment...but I agree that it's hard to know who your true friends are, but you usually have an idea.

 

Over the years, when push comes to shove...in the virtual world, if it was to come down to it, the MC has been a better place to make friends than most other social media sites. I'm growing to develop a withdrawal from Facebook because I don't even know why I even waste my bandwidth and GBs on people I rarely meet and lead different lifestyles.

 

But that doesn't mean that there isn't some faux hoes on here too, who are only out for themselves. You just have to sort thru them accordingly.

[JDXXX]

 

Evanora: What's the matter, Glinda, out of bubbles?

Glinda: I don't need them, bubbles are just for show!

 

Love It, Steven. Very inspirational indeed as it's a message I can relate to!!!

 

Thank you, Steven.

[+ stevenkesslar]

I will never forget the day I met him face-to-face at the 11th Annual Palm Springs Forum Event in May of this year at the Pool Party at Steven Kesslar's home, and boy did he and SK give me a good talking to by whipping some sense into me I guess one can say(but in a kind and gentle manner of course). LOL. Epigonos, Steven Kesslar, and I got to talking at the Pool Party, and I'll never forget what such words of wisdom these two wonderful men shared with me as they both(I kid you not) literally gave such advice that stuck with me about how to love yourself... Thank you, SK, and Epigonos for the love and wisdom you gave and even showed that day that will be forever a treasure to me as I'll never forget how meaningful it was to spend those few hours with you guys.

 

It is funny how we all remember things differently. Of course, at my age, I'm lucky to remember things at all.

 

But here is my recollection of the "words of wisdom" JD is recounting.

 

I walked into the kitchen from outside and Epigonos and JD were clearly in the middle of an animated discussion

 

Epigonos (to me): "Steven, what are you?"

Steven: "Oh, that's easy! I'm a whore."

JD: (mouth drops and surprised expression)

Epigonos: "What did you say?"

Steven: "I said I'm a whore!"

Epigonos: "And what does that mean?" (Looking at JD, as if to say, "I told you so!)

Steven: "It means I am a total, complete, fucking whore."

 

My memory may not be perfect, but I think it did go something like that.

 

At any rate, I am so happy JD that we could impart such profound words of wisdom on you, and you have taken them to heart.

 

Now, please don't ask me what Mary Poppins would say about this. In truth, she is just not that kind of girl.

[JDXXX]

It is funny how we all remember things differently. Of course, at my age, I'm lucky to remember things at all.

 

But here is my recollection of the "words of wisdom" JD is recounting.

 

I walked into the kitchen from outside and Epigonos and JD were clearly in the middle of an animated discussion

 

Epigonos (to me): "Steven, what are you?"

Steven: "Oh, that's easy! I'm a whore."

JD: (mouth drops and surprised expression)

Epigonos: "What did you say?"

Steven: "I said I'm a whore!"

Epigonos: "And what does that mean?" (Looking at JD, as if to say, "I told you so!)

Steven: "It means I am a total, complete, fucking whore."

 

My memory may not be perfect, but I think it did go something like that.

 

At any rate, I am so happy JD that we could impart such profound words of wisdom on you, and you have taken them to heart.

 

Now, please don't ask me what Mary Poppins would say about this. In truth, she is just not that kind of girl.

 

Yes - I do remember that interesting and shocking conversation in the kitchen is to what led to Epigonos taking me into your bedroom after that discussion to prove that it's okay to love yourself, and be proud of who you are. I remember Epigonos telling me outside by the pool on how Steven refers to himself as a "whore" for which I thought he was joking, and boy was I wrong as he was right as it came out of the horses mouth(personally). LOL. .

[+ stevenkesslar]

it came out of the horses mouth(personally). LOL. .

 

http://morallowground.com/wp-content/uploads/horses-ass1.jpg

 

Close, JD.

 

When Epigonos describes me, it is usually not the horse's mouth he refers to.

 

It just goes to show how much he likes me.

 

As for his view of you, you can refer to what Epigonos says as straight out of the horse's mouth.

 

[Epigonos]

I take the 5th.

[+ stevenkesslar]

I take the 5th.

 

I know this will come as a shock, sweetie.

 

Horror of horrors! Turns out you have a lot in common with the Clinton gang.

 

 

http://newsblogs.chicagotribune.com/.a/6a00d8341c60fd53ef017c3817bd96970b-800wi

[JDXXX]

I know this will come as a shock, sweetie.

 

Horror of horrors! Turns out you have a lot in common with the Clinton gang.

 

 

http://newsblogs.chicagotribune.com/.a/6a00d8341c60fd53ef017c3817bd96970b-800wi

 

Very convincing, Sir Grasshopper, but will Epigonos buy it? . After-all, pleading the 5th is not easy to do.