On Tallywacker Size

[Epigonos]

I have always believed that it is far better to be able to move up on it rather than have to back away from it!!!!!!

[+ Gar1eth]

Here's a quick and easy suggestion: ban the word "tallywacker" forever from your lexicon. Coming from someone who finds older men hot—if I got a text or email about my "tallywacker," I would hit <DELETE>.

 

It's a word with no attractive or sexual quality whatsoever.

To each their own Chris. It doesn't really matter in the long run. Almost no one was interested in me before I used the word tallywacker, and it's the same now. So since there is no difference, I might as well use the word I like. But thank you for your well meant suggestion.

 

Gman

[+ Gar1eth]

One of the most enjoyable and, to me, hottest escorts I ever hired was a little Vietnamese guy who worked for several years in Portland, OR. He was not much over 4" hard, but knew how to use it. First time together, I topped him, then when I asked him to top me, he exclaimed, "Nobody ever asks me that!" Clients always assumed he was strictly a bottom, he said, or they just didn't care, wanting only to top him. Well, he was the Energizer Bunny, his energy and passion and stamina giving me a great time--and sore bottom! I always looked forward to seeing him whenever I was in Portland on business, which was about once a year over a five-year period he was working there. Alas retired now.

 

I'm glad y'all were able to give each other pleasure.

 

Gman

[+ sf westcoaster]

I am beginning to wonder if the best thing we could do for Gman is to ignore his posts. So often responses simply generate more doom and gloom from him. Wish we could find something that would enable him to lighthen-up and be happy and joyous.

[jakeleyman]

I was going to start a somewhat similar thread. I met a great looking guy on a social network and made an offer to him. He accepted, we met and had a good time. He is somewhat interested in doing some more escorting to supplement his income but asked me what I thought because he has a small to average cock - dick, tally whatever. He is a lean, defined tall masc bottom, so I think he will do fine. I hope to review him soon. From the posts, it looks like he may get some business regardless.

[Steven_Draker]

... find something that would enable him to lighthen-up and be happy and joyous.

 

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[Amoco]

G:

 

Despite my occasionally brash personality, this isn't easy for me, and will actually be a first, so please take notice as my post is in direct response to your whining and my message is as clear as it can be: Through life you will always find those with more and those with less. Your job is to find peace with what you have....

 

I was born in the 1950s and accidentally exposed to diethylstilbestrol (DES) because my father was a manufacturing chemist and wore it home on his clothing, iatrogenically exposing my pregnant mother and me. DES was essentially an estrogen based compound that was widely used by pregnant women throughout the world to assist those that had difficulties with carrying to term or having chronic miscarriages. The medical literature has extensive reports on the impact of estrogens on females in utero, but the "DES Sons" were largely ignored over many years - even now, the literature is scanty compared to the extensive research on the impact of excessive estrogens on females and mothers. Small penises, undescended testicles, testicular cancer, hypospadias, and all combinations of everything have been seen. There isis a statically higher incidence of homosexuality,transgenderism, suicide, divorce, and pretty much anything negative you can think of. no of. My parents ended up divorced from the resulting pressure.

 

Anyway, they figured this all out after I was born with ambiguous genitalia. As many of you know, the default setting for fetal development is to create females, so the differentiation into a male comes when testosterone begins to flow in the fetus and signal the development of male anatomy. Simply put, if the genetically male fetus is bombarded with both testosterone and estrogen, the body gets confused and all kinds of craziness can happen to varying degrees. I was more fortunate than most and received extraordinary medical care at Johns Hopkins and NY Hospital, but at the end of the day was left with a small cock and small undescended testicles that move fluidly in my in guitar canal. But I can pee standing up, get erections, cum, and experience intense sexual pleasure. 'M a normal girth but probably between 3-4" erect with an unusual curve downward that makes penetration a challenge.

 

I'll spare you some of the details because they're not relevant to this discussion, but suffice it to say that this single event has impacted my life in a variety of fundamental, significant ways every minute of every day that I have been alive. I recall having gay urges as an adolescent and making a conscious decision That I couldn't compete in a culture that valued big dicks and beauty above all else, so I chose the route that I could better control, had reasonable sex with girls, got married and ultimately tried to make some sense of the medical impact by becoming a doctor and doing my residency where I actually had surgery. My analyst once called that the epitome of turning "passive into active".

 

I'm in my 60s now, and though there have been ups and downs as there are for everyone, I've lived an extraordinary life with two great adopted kids, a woman who loves me deeply, and a career that brought both notoriety and riches. Almost 3 years ago I sold my business and for the first time had access to private gay porn through my iPad. That was fun for a while, but it gave way to escort sites and eventually, I took the plunge and hired a local guy for an overnight. Honestly, my greatest fear was that he'd laugh at me or that I'd be limited in what we could do. I'm technically versatile, but suspect with a normal dick I'd be more of a top. Overtime I had to decide if I was going to sit around and cry or try to figure out how to have some gay pleasure, so I took the plunge, learned a lot on this Board, found the best guys I could, and learned how to have man sex - not man sex with a small cock, but rather good, man to man sex that had to occasionally make allowances for biological limitations. I hired the best I could find and told them all the deal up front, as I still do whenever hiring or hooking up with a civilian. I hate surprises and don't want to be wondering what any of my lovers are thinking.

 

Dave, who I have actually struggled with at times, was probably the most helpful of everyone from the beginning. Not only is his knowledge base about sex unique, but he was the least uncomfortable discussing and looking at the issue. At one point I n a bright hotel room outside of Tampa, he pulled me outside and literally said he was going to examine me - I cringed, but went along with it, and lo and behold, that single act of bringing it "into the sunlight" was unbelievably therapeutic. As, of course, was the sex....the other guys that made a difference included Chris E., Nate, Kyle Vong, Tyger, Mike Cruise, Dane, and Brad in NYC. Some were more sensitive than others, some were more curious, but none, not one, acted or seemed like the sex we had was anything other than spectacular. Could they be just blowing smoke up my ass and being good escorts? Of course, but I'd suggest to you that it is essentially impossible for one party to feel intensely connected and both emotionally and sexually fulfilled unless something mutual was going on. To this day I believe that some would tell you that even though I was a pain in the ass, I was not a disappointment in bed. I believe that despite having a small cock, I'm a great, insatiable passionate lover. They taught me how, and I enthusiastically took it from there. Am I the guy they would call if they were in the mood to get stuffed and plowed? Of course not, but I guaran-damn- tee you that they'd consider me for just about anything else. And by the way, as good as that group is, they each have their own idiosyncrasies and limitations, too.

 

It hasn't all been smooth or easy...some of my hook ups with civilians have been disappointing, but jeez, isn't it that way for the 10" guys, too? I am what I am, and am trying to make lemonade. Do I wish I was normal? I confess that I do, but I no longer spend time fantasizing about what that would be like. Interestingly, I do wonder how my other gifts would have developed, if at all, if I had a normal cock. Would I be as successful, as motivated as a younger man? Would my personality be as strong? Could the sex be any better? Would I know my son and daughter?

 

So the moral of this much too long story is that your sexual future is up to you. If money is an issue, PM me and let's discuss other options, but it all is going to have to start with a decision to face the fear of rejection and deciding that you don't want to die without experiencing seriously real pleasure with men consistently over time. There's always going to be a guy with a bigger dick than yours around, and there's always going to be people like me who would gladly take an average 5 incher any day of the week. But honestly, only if it was attached to a new and improved mindset.

 

Sorry for the length of this - no pun intended. I have no idea what made me me finally share this publicly. It actually feels OK......

[Guest Starbuck]

Dear Amoco,

 

You are brash. And opinionated. And argumentative. And brave. Someone will read what you have written and be helped by it. You will probably never know who he is, but you helped him. Just as some guys you named helped you. When we can do that for one another, we are our best selves.

 

In friendship,

 

Starbuck

[+ purplekow]

G:

 

Despite my occasionally brash personality, this isn't easy for me, and will actually be a first, so please take notice as my post is in direct response to your whining and my message is as clear as it can be: Through life you will always find those with more and those with less. Your job is to find peace with what you have....

 

My analyst once called that the epitome of turning "passive into active".

 

I'm sorry for the length of this - no pun intended. I have no idea what made me me finally share this publicly. It actually feels OK......

 

Thanks for taking this time to share with us some very important information. I think this is the response that may have the best chance of shaking the OP back to reality. That said, I had the same reaction reading your response as I had when writing my previous response: It is falling on deaf ears or even worse, it is falling on ears with hands intentionally and firmly covering them.

 

An as an aside, those guys you mentioned, really a hot bunch of coconuts.

[whipped guy]

Amoco... Powerful!! Riviting! Very moving! So true! I personally know someone who was born with a very similar situation and has experienced all sorts of ramifications such as testicular cancer to name just one. I know that in spite of this he makes the most of his life and always seems to have that proverbially optimistic take on life in general. Perhaps it is a smokescreen, but if it is he has been certainly able to fool me!

 

Plus as as Starbuck says you are so very brave.

 

I also echo PK's thoughts.

 

Again Amoco, thanks for sharing...

[+ sf westcoaster]

Amoco, Thanks for sharing and reminding all of us that "it is up to each of us as individuals". I also add my praises to the group of guys you mentioned

[rvwnsd]

G:

 

Despite my occasionally brash personality, this isn't easy for me, and will actually be a first, so please take notice as my post is in direct response to your whining and my message is as clear as it can be: Through life you will always find those with more and those with less. Your job is to find peace with what you have....

 

I was born in the 1950s and accidentally exposed to diethylstilbestrol (DES) because my father was a manufacturing chemist and wore it home on his clothing, iatrogenically exposing my pregnant mother and me. DES was essentially an estrogen based compound that was widely used by pregnant women throughout the world to assist those that had difficulties with carrying to term or having chronic miscarriages. The medical literature has extensive reports on the impact of estrogens on females in utero, but the "DES Sons" were largely ignored over many years - even now, the literature is scanty compared to the extensive research on the impact of excessive estrogens on females and mothers. Small penises, undescended testicles, testicular cancer, hypospadias, and all combinations of everything have been seen. There isis a statically higher incidence of homosexuality,transgenderism, suicide, divorce, and pretty much anything negative you can think of. no of. My parents ended up divorced from the resulting pressure.

 

Anyway, they figured this all out after I was born with ambiguous genitalia. As many of you know, the default setting for fetal development is to create females, so the differentiation into a male comes when testosterone begins to flow in the fetus and signal the development of male anatomy. Simply put, if the genetically male fetus is bombarded with both testosterone and estrogen, the body gets confused and all kinds of craziness can happen to varying degrees. I was more fortunate than most and received extraordinary medical care at Johns Hopkins and NY Hospital, but at the end of the day was left with a small cock and small undescended testicles that move fluidly in my in guitar canal. But I can pee standing up, get erections, cum, and experience intense sexual pleasure. 'M a normal girth but probably between 3-4" erect with an unusual curve downward that makes penetration a challenge.

 

I'll spare you some of the details because they're not relevant to this discussion, but suffice it to say that this single event has impacted my life in a variety of fundamental, significant ways every minute of every day that I have been alive. I recall having gay urges as an adolescent and making a conscious decision That I couldn't compete in a culture that valued big dicks and beauty above all else, so I chose the route that I could better control, had reasonable sex with girls, got married and ultimately tried to make some sense of the medical impact by becoming a doctor and doing my residency where I actually had surgery. My analyst once called that the epitome of turning "passive into active".

 

I'm in my 60s now, and though there have been ups and downs as there are for everyone, I've lived an extraordinary life with two great adopted kids, a woman who loves me deeply, and a career that brought both notoriety and riches. Almost 3 years ago I sold my business and for the first time had access to private gay porn through my iPad. That was fun for a while, but it gave way to escort sites and eventually, I took the plunge and hired a local guy for an overnight. Honestly, my greatest fear was that he'd laugh at me or that I'd be limited in what we could do. I'm technically versatile, but suspect with a normal dick I'd be more of a top. Overtime I had to decide if I was going to sit around and cry or try to figure out how to have some gay pleasure, so I took the plunge, learned a lot on this Board, found the best guys I could, and learned how to have man sex - not man sex with a small cock, but rather good, man to man sex that had to occasionally make allowances for biological limitations. I hired the best I could find and told them all the deal up front, as I still do whenever hiring or hooking up with a civilian. I hate surprises and don't want to be wondering what any of my lovers are thinking.

 

Dave, who I have actually struggled with at times, was probably the most helpful of everyone from the beginning. Not only is his knowledge base about sex unique, but he was the least uncomfortable discussing and looking at the issue. At one point I n a bright hotel room outside of Tampa, he pulled me outside and literally said he was going to examine me - I cringed, but went along with it, and lo and behold, that single act of bringing it "into the sunlight" was unbelievably therapeutic. As, of course, was the sex....the other guys that made a difference included Chris E., Nate, Kyle Vong, Tyger, Mike Cruise, Dane, and Brad in NYC. Some were more sensitive than others, some were more curious, but none, not one, acted or seemed like the sex we had was anything other than spectacular. Could they be just blowing smoke up my ass and being good escorts? Of course, but I'd suggest to you that it is essentially impossible for one party to feel intensely connected and both emotionally and sexually fulfilled unless something mutual was going on. To this day I believe that some would tell you that even though I was a pain in the ass, I was not a disappointment in bed. I believe that despite having a small cock, I'm a great, insatiable passionate lover. They taught me how, and I enthusiastically took it from there. Am I the guy they would call if they were in the mood to get stuffed and plowed? Of course not, but I guaran-damn- tee you that they'd consider me for just about anything else. And by the way, as good as that group is, they each have their own idiosyncrasies and limitations, too.

 

It hasn't all been smooth or easy...some of my hook ups with civilians have been disappointing, but jeez, isn't it that way for the 10" guys, too? I am what I am, and am trying to make lemonade. Do I wish I was normal? I confess that I do, but I no longer spend time fantasizing about what that would be like. Interestingly, I do wonder how my other gifts would have developed, if at all, if I had a normal cock. Would I be as successful, as motivated as a younger man? Would my personality be as strong? Could the sex be any better? Would I know my son and daughter?

 

So the moral of this much too long story is that your sexual future is up to you. If money is an issue, PM me and let's discuss other options, but it all is going to have to start with a decision to face the fear of rejection and deciding that you don't want to die without experiencing seriously real pleasure with men consistently over time. There's always going to be a guy with a bigger dick than yours around, and there's always going to be people like me who would gladly take an average 5 incher any day of the week. But honestly, only if it was attached to a new and improved mindset.

 

Sorry for the length of this - no pun intended. I have no idea what made me me finally share this publicly. It actually feels OK......

 

Thank you for posting your story. Very powerful.

[ZhenXBear]

Here's a quick and easy suggestion: ban the word "tallywacker" forever from your lexicon. Coming from someone who finds older men hot—if I got a text or email about my "tallywacker," I would hit <DELETE>.

 

It's a word with no attractive or sexual quality whatsoever.

 

Okay, reading your post with a mouthful of Earl Grey was dangerous, lol. It nearly ended up across the monitor, bwhahahaha!!.