Jack's last adventure

[jackhammer91406]

The following is a copy of an email I just sent deej. I hope he will not be upset that I reprint it here as a way to apologize for my behavior a few days ago.

 

deej,

 

I have had two days to try to get my thoughts in some kind of perspective. I may have been sharp on the thread...maybe too sharp...What you said and did hurt me not only in that I thought we were friends (while that doesn't entitle me to any special preference) but that as friends, you would have said something to me privately instead of calling me "hun" (which kind of grated at me) and then saying I had no grace by posting the name. I had to look the name up as well, because honestly I didn't remember the kid's name either.

 

Anyway, it's a shame to flame out like this. I really had wanted to reach the 500 post plateau. But, all in all, I enjoyed the time I spent at the MC and really enjoyed the people I met (like you, and others). I'm guessing that both of us are smarting from this and have a ways to go before any kind of normalcy can return (at least it is that way for me...I shouldn't presume how you feel since I haven't heard from you).

 

You are a great guy, and I enjoyed the lunch and looked forward to more. But things being how they are, it's probably not going to happen I guess. I just didn't want to leave it the way it was and wanted some kind of closure before I moved on.

 

Take care, be well, and sorry if I dumped on you too much.. I regret it very much. I should have been able to express my feelings better without taking you to task.

 

Best

 

---(formerly jackhammer91406)

 

 

TO ALL THE MEMBERS OF THE MC,

 

I want to thank you for your friendship, advice, compassion, humor, and yes, even the slams. They have all assisted me in getting a grasp of what was referred to as "this life gay". It has been a pleasure to spend time here and learn about what I had been missing for those 18 years. There are many things that have been said in the last few days regarding what this MC is and all of them have been right. To those who offered their take on what I was doing (going through, reacting to) and how I should approach this MC, thanks, all points well taken. Flower, I especially appreciated your advice and comments. fukamarine, thank you too. Your kind words shocked me, which is a good thing. Woodlawn, thank you for the tips. I will put "you know who" to bed and begin to act like an adult without mental illness (I hope). Axebahia, someday, I'll find out what that name means. Sorry if I jumped on you, I just don't always get it when it comes to you. I wish you well.

I am confident I am not so old that I can't change, and change is sometimes a good thing. to all the guys I have had the great fun to play with, thanks a million. Wish I had a million more $$$ to spend.

I hope that guys will continue to try to meet each other when travelling in other cities (I found this one of the most remarkable gifts of this site).

I still plan to try RIO in October for my birthday and will reactivate my profile in case any who don't have my email, can get in touch if they plan to be down there then. And who knows, I may end up in NYC again sometime soon. I will never forget the welcome I had there.

Thanks Hooboy, for having this site. Hope it prospers.

 

Bye guys, enjoyed every minute. (well almost)

 

 

jack

 

 

 

[Cooper]

Jack, You're a good person, take care of yourself and keep in touch. Always remember, if it wasn't for this wonderful site, we never would have met and journeyed through that never ending "Big Apple Experience" together. What a magical and memorable time we had!

 

Your dedication and contributions to the MC will be greatly missed. Sorry to see you go. Coop

[axebahia]

Does the word "drama queen" come to mind?

[dick_nyc]

No the phrase a good man chased off by drama queens and bitches does.

[Guest jstlooknthx]

All I can say is that you get more of whatever you focus on in life. Focus on all the assholes and your worries and you will just find more if it. Focus on all the great people out there and the pleasures to be had and your supply is limitless. It's definitely all in your perspective. If you let this last incident take you away from all the fun and companionship that you seem to have found on this site, then it just seems that deep in your gut you still feel you don't deserve better. Once you develop true self esteem, self love, the annoyances in your life will be like flies you can just swat away. I've enjoyed your posts. Sorry to see you go.

[duke37]

Jack,

 

You've been a great friend. I owe you a lot. Thanks.

 

Oh yeah btw, just because you feel this way now doesn't mean you have to feel this way forever. Take a day, a week, a month away. Trust me all this will seem pretty insignificant soon enough. But when you are ready to come back don't hesitate.

 

See ya soon!

 

Jeff

[KY_TOP]

Well friend, I wish you well and many Great Adventures.

 

Hopefully you can appreciate the positive aspects of your Adventure here. You are the one person that has gotten alot more than escorts from this site. You've gotten many Friendships seperated by many miles that you would never of had. Would you have had the courage for the NYC Adventure without this site?

 

Remember Happiness is a Journey, NOT a Destination. Hope you found some happiness on this short stop on your Journey.

 

As Always, Take Care.

KY

[Paul Revere]

Jack;

 

I am sorry to see you go. I enjoyed your contribution to the board and the stories of your New York adventure. You seem like a nice guy.

 

BUT.....

 

I so can't stand good-bye messages on message boards. It is so drama queen, and such a desparate attempt for attnetion. (Oh don't go, you're such a nice guy, we're going to miss you, etc., etc.) If you are going to go away, just go away. Many posters find the need to take a break from the boards and come back later. Others move on.

 

Jack, you srike me as someone who is newly out, and maybe you are a bit immature about gay relationships, and about message boards. I wish you weel, but I jast can't stand good-bye drama on message boards.