Lonliness

[twinkboylover28]

Just wondering what some of you do to combat extreme lonliness? Sometimes it seems I wake up, get showered and dressed up all for nothing.

 

It's Saturday night and all I have is a date with the televison and an extra-value meal. This has been my life for months. I wish there was more than spending all my time online and buying love by the hour. Even that is hard-to-do living in south-east Michigan.

 

Even my so-called "friends" have been disappointing. I know I'm not a model or anything, but being gay really sucks when you're living life all alone.

[seaboy4hire]

>Just wondering what some of you do to combat extreme

>lonliness? Sometimes it seems I wake up, get showered and

>dressed up all for nothing.

>

>It's Saturday night and all I have is a date with the

>televison and an extra-value meal. This has been my life for

>months. I wish there was more than spending all my time online

>and buying love by the hour. Even that is hard-to-do living in

>south-east Michigan.

>

>Even my so-called "friends" have been disappointing. I know

>I'm not a model or anything, but being gay really sucks when

>you're living life all alone.

How about heading over to the local Starbucks or even better indie coffee place and do some people watching, catch a movie or rent one, go for a day trip to Chicago or Philly? I'm not familiar with your area but those are my small suggestions. For me I hop on the scoot head over to my favorite coffee place and go for a looooong ride all over town. Did that in fact this afternoon and it was really great. It never hurts to take an evening out for yourself and do it solo.

 

Hugs,

Greg

 

 

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[RockHard]

If this post is sincere, I strongly urge you to seek medical assistance because it sounds to me like you could be experiencing the side-effects of depression.

 

Depression is a disease that can be treated. Often, without warning, it can slowly creep up on you and sweep you away into a malaise you had not ever before imagined. And, without proper treatment, it can kill you.

 

There is little reason in this day and age, even in south-east Michigan, why gay life should really suck and living alone should remain joyless. It's important that you try to explore a deeper cause for such feelings of helplessness and dismay.

 

I've seen what treatment can do for the clinically depressed and there is hope. But, like any disease, you must take a pro-active stand and seek treatment and deal with the difficulty of doing this alone. Many people deal with illness and have little-to-no support from friends and loved ones. And many find their way to better health, nonetheless.

 

Here's wishing you good health.

[+ glutes]

TBL28, you are not alone. This happens to straight-single folk also, and I thought Seabeoys' suggestions were right on target.

Do you have access to a gay / gay friendly therapist in your area?? Can you invite some neighbors over for dinner, or ask another 'single' out for dinner or movie.

Many people I know currently in relationships consider it 'work', and most in that crowd are not happy.

I'd rather be single than miserable...

[+ deej]

In 1976, Liza Minnelli did a show at Radio City Music Hall and sang a song I just love.

 

It's about an 80-year old woman who has come to terms and is happy with living alone:

 

"I'm a single-bed, one-pillow mama."

 

"When I lock up the apartment, I've got all the keys!"

 

The song has a verse that pertains here:

 

"Say I get tired, say I get hot.

I call up some young tall dark handsome I've got.

So it costs me a 50, or a 100. So what?"

 

and later

 

"Though I may be pushing 80, I feel like ... 69!

I'm living alone, and I like it."

 

If you're really feeling depressed, I would urge you to get help just as others have.

 

I suspect, though, this is another thread like the one you started about rimming a kid with a powdery residue around his anus or any of your other threads. I think you're just baiting.

 

If you're not, please do get help. It's out there if you ask for it.

[Fit In LA]

Your main problem is probably your body and physique. Isn't 'value meal" a term for some poor nutrition quality junk food? Is this what you eat? How many timea a week do you prticipate in sustained cardio vascular and resistance exercise? Do you approve of the body you see in the mirror when you bathe? If not, get off you ass and do something about it. You would probably be a much happier person.

( regular exercise is a proven releaser of beneficial endorphins).

[+ glutes]

>

>I suspect, though, this is another thread like the one you

>started about rimming a kid with a powdery residue around his

>anus or any of your other threads. I think you're just

>baiting.

 

Wow, and I gave a heart-felt response.

Maybe tblover should go back to drug-addled youth and humping escorts in the back seat of a car...

[Lookin]

< Wow, and I gave a heart-felt response. >

 

glutes, that's why you're not lonely.

 

twinkboylover28, I believe an excellent way to avoid loneliness is to offer a hand to someone who needs it, maybe as a big brother, a kitchen helper at a homeless center, or a driver for an elderly neighbor. It's amazing how much better and more connected you'll feel after just an hour of helping someone out. You'll also be around others who have their hearts open, and are glad to see you. It sure can't hurt, and you may even find some new friends.

[jackhammer91406]

RE: Loneliness

 

If your post is genuine, expect to take some heat from those who need other's trouble exposed to make a life for themselves. (Think Rico)

As most old time posters here know, I went through exactly what you described, and yes used this site as a form of therapy. As a result of opening up, I met some great guys from here in the real world and many remain friends of mine today. I am dating more than I ever dreamed possible and haven't needed medication for over two years.

 

Life can close in on you very quickly during the throes of depression. But as others have pointed out, there are alternatives and treatments. I encourage you to explore all of them, ignore those who would try to capitalize on your condition, and reach out to others. You will find a remarkable well of support.

 

You may email me privately if you wish .

[Guest zipperzone]

>Wow, and I gave a heart-felt response.

>Maybe tblover should go back to drug-addled youth and humping

>escorts in the back seat of a car...

 

I think this is probably another post along the lines of "trick with powdery ass" as deej has pointed out. Perhaps he is so lonely that he uses this forum to get stimulated responses - who really knows? We never will.

 

I find it hard to believe that any adult who is lonely and of normal intelligence doesn't know what to do to combat it, either by medical intervention or by simply getting off one's ass and setting about building a life for themselves. It ain't rocket-science.

 

Some people like to wallow in their misery - Is that what we have here?

[jackhammer91406]

With all due respect, a person who is clinically depressed is no longer able to think or act in a rational or logical way.

 

While it is possible that this is a bogus thread, the advice offered (it seems to me) is genuine and therefore useful to anyone who may experience these kinds of feelings.

 

Perhaps a lurker or other MC member who doesn't have the courage to post will gain some help through the answers offered here. I would rather view the positive possibilities that assume the negative ones.

[Guest alanm]

Jackhammer, your comments really hit home with me. I really appreciate

your honesty and sharing.

 

I had a serious heart attack at age 43. In the next few years, I knew that perhaps something wasn't right but it did not seem like depression.

I did finally go to a very good shrink who diagnosed anxiety which was greatly helped by weekly sessions and medication. It changed my life.

 

Depression & anxiety comes gradually (or all at once, in some cases).

It isn't always easy for the person, or more importantly, friends or relatives to understand what's happening. With due respect, I am not sure that many people wallow in unhappiness on purpose as was mentioned above.

[johnnybrk25]

You might also consider getting a pet. I know a lot of people who find that their animal really helps them manage stress. Also Fit is probably right a bit of exercise and making healthier eating choices is good for your total health. It also shows other people that you care about yourself and are worth being cared for.

[twinkboylover28]

Thanks to those who have taken the time to share and submit constructive responses.

 

Just to set the record straight, every single thread I have EVER started has been 100% true, real, and genuine.

 

Obviously, like everyone else at times, some of my responses may have been blatantly sarcastic... which would be obvious to even the most infantile.

 

Some people like to get their jollies accusing me, and others, of starting "fake threads" or being "attention who-res" in their failed attempts to attack our integirty. It's character assination in one of its most vile forms without a single thread of evidence to back up their claim.

 

With that said, I think some need to review their responses in respect to this thread, and see how much of an ASS they have made of themself.

 

I have been on this board since I was 26 (I'm 32 now), and while a majority of board members (predictably) disagree with me politicaly, I have never created a fake thread or generated responses purely for attention.

 

But then again, most will dismiss my claim and throw out obligatory "token" apologies. After all, it must be my "depression" talking...

[+ glutes]

Stool on the Tool & Lonely

 

>

>Just to set the record straight, every single thread I have

>EVER started has been 100% true, real, and genuine.

>

 

 

 

#82831, "White film around escorts asshole"

 

 

 

 

Last year I went to Toronto and met this beautiful twink escort at Sneakers. To make a long story short, when it came time for me to eat his asshole out, he bent over and I saw a 'while film" surrounding his asshole.

 

I didn't want to hurt the escorts feelings, so I simply put my finger on the film and removed the film. I cut our session short without mentioning why.

 

Any ideas on what this white "film-like" substance surrounding the escorts asshole could be? I certainly didn't plan on seeing anything "white" in that area of the body.

 

 

#101350, "What's that smell?"

Fri Jun-09-06 08:05 AM by twinkboylover28

 

Has this ever happened to you?

 

I made plans to meet this "married" twink escort who claims to be in an "open relationship". I met him from gay.com where both he and his BF advertise in the chat room that they do tricks.

 

Last night was my 2nd time with this escort/hustler.

 

I was stunned that he just let me fuck him raw without a condom the first time I met him back in December.

 

Anyways, as I said, last night was my second time meeting him.

 

We agreed to meet at his apartment at 3am; however, when I got there he stated his bf had "returned home" and I would have to either get a hotel or "do it in my car".

 

I opted for my car since I didnt want to spend an extra $50 for the room.

 

I was fucking this twink "porn star" escort for about a minute when he had an "accident" and released his bowels on my dick and shirt.

 

My dick did not have a condom on it.

 

Needless to say the smell grossed me out and I had to immediately end the session.

 

I didn't know how I should react to this situation. I rarely have sex and I didn't know if this was normal for anal sex or if I should be pissed off.

 

I tried not to freak out and I acted like everything was alright. I was trying to act like a gentleman.

 

He acted like nothing was going on and everything was normal. He gave me his underwear to wipe his shit off of my dick.

 

I still payed him $100 for what turned out to be 15 minutes of driving around to find a spot and 20 minutes of actual "making out".

 

Not to mention the fact that I drove 1 hour each way just to meet him. With recent gas prices that can be expensive.

 

Anyways, 10-15 minutes after the "accident" I had a chance to wash my cock in soap and water at a gas station. My clothes was covered in shit and smelled.

 

This experience has certainly shattered my enjoyment of gay sex.

 

I had stool all over my tool.

 

I'm now freaking out that I will get herpes or some nasty STD.

 

I don't know if I will ever be able to eat ass or enjoy anal sex the same way ever again.

[twinkboylover28]

RE: Stool on the Tool & Lonely

 

All those were 100% TRUE!!!

[Guest jeffOH]

RE: The Sad, Lonely World of a Closeted Conservative

 

http://m4m.m4m-forum.org/dcboard.php?az=show_topic&forum=17&topic_id=16093&mesg_id=16093&page=

[+ glutes]

Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

Lonesome Loser - Little River Band

 

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

Beaten by the Queen of Hearts every time.

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

He's a loser but he still keeps on trying.

 

Sit down, take a look at yourself

Don't you want to be somebody?

Someday somebody's gonna see inside

You have to face up, you can't run and hide.

 

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

Beaten by the Queen of Hearts every time.

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

He's a loser but he still keeps on trying.

 

Unlucky at love at least that's what they say

He lost his head and he gambled his heart away

He still keeps searching though there's nothing left

Staked his heart and lost, now he has to pay the cost

 

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

Beaten by the Queen of Hearts every time.

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

He's a loser but he still keeps on trying.

 

"It's okay." he smiles and says

But this loneliness is driving him crazy.

He don't show what goes on in his head

But if you watch very close you'll see it all

 

Sit down, take a look at yourself

Don't you want to be somebody?

Someday somebody's gonna see inside

You have to face up, you can't run and hide.

 

Have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

Now tell me have you heard about the Lonesome Loser?

[twinkboylover28]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

I prefer "no one knows how it feels... to be the sad man...to be the bad man... behind blue eyes."

[Houston Bonfires]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

behind blue eyes is ONE SICK FUCK

 

just a reminder

 

HB

[Paul Revere]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

TB, I am one who also is suspicious of your sad story on this thread, because of the non-stop vitriol that you spread on the Politics and War forum. You must be alone and lonely if you have the time to post a response to every single person on those threads that disagress with you.

 

Do you have a job, or are you in front of the computer 24/7? That certainly would be depressing. Many folks on this thread have given very good advice. The best way to get over depression is get off your ass and do something FOR someone else. It stops your own whining and gives you some perspective and good feeling about yourself.

 

I also come from a philosophy that beleives: "You are only as sick as your secrets." My guess is that you are closeted, and from the posts on the Politics forum, it is very clear that you are a self-loathing homosexual. You need to get some couseling and get over that. If you are gay, you will never be happy trying to pretend that you are not, or trying to suck up to bigoted right wing nut jobs. It will never happen. You will be surprised how being honest with yourself helps relieve depression. You are living some sort of twisted fantasy world, thinking that you are getting true facts from Fox News. Get off the couch, smf get out into the real world. And what the fuck is a 32 year old doing eating happy meals anyway. Ditch the junk food and the self-loathing and be honest about who you are. The truth does indeed make you free.

[+ glutes]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

Interesting, we haven't heard from the Pontiac Princess...

[twinkboylover28]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

>behind blue eyes is ONE SICK FUCK

>

>just a reminder

>

>HB

 

 

 

Wow. My own personal stalker. I feel special.

 

If you can't keep your feelings about my politcal beliefs IN THE POLITICAL section, then you should be banned you ignorant sick fuck.

[twinkboylover28]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

>TB, I am one who also is suspicious of your sad story on this

>thread, because of the non-stop vitriol that you spread on the

>Politics and War forum.

 

 

 

If you have a problem with my politics I could straight give a fuck; however, keep it in the fucking POLITCS section where it belongs. It's funny how you label my post as "vitriol" because they dont concur with your far-left personal political beliefs.

 

 

 

 

You must be alone and lonely if you

>have the time to post a response to every single person on

>those threads that disagress with you.

 

 

 

I know this concept may be new to you, but confronting others and responding to some of their bullshit is called INTEGRITY. I dont let people who attack my beliefs , character, and integrity go unanswered. Your statement that I respond to "every single person" is simply false. Obviously my beliefs have touched a nerve with you, and it amuses me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

>

>Do you have a job, or are you in front of the computer 24/7?

 

 

 

 

 

I am a radio broadcaster and individual investor, not that that makes the slightest bit of difference. Are you saying unemployed people forfeit their right to expression and freedom of speach? Thanks for being so concerned about my employment. It's funny how people on a gay, male-for-male escort site feel they have the right to judge anyones personal life. HAHAHAHAHA!! Amusing!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

>That certainly would be depressing.

 

 

 

 

 

Yes it would.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

>

>I also come from a philosophy that beleives: "You are only as

>sick as your secrets." My guess is that you are closeted, and

>from the posts on the Politics forum, it is very clear that

>you are a self-loathing homosexual.

 

 

 

 

 

 

HAHAHAHA!!! Please keep your far-left politcal beliefs where they belong..in the politics forum.

NEWS FLASH.....all closeted people arent self-loathing.

All people who watch Fox News and Bill O'Reilly arent idiots.

Typical liberal talking points, straight out of the democratic handbook.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You need to get some

>couseling and get over that.

 

 

 

 

 

 

HAHHAHAA! Another fucking "online psychologist." I love it!!!

 

YOU are the one who needs some counseling if you feel that all closeted homosexuals are "self loathing."

 

Are you saying all LOG CABIN republicans are self loathing?

 

Again, your thoughts belong in the politcs forum.

 

 

 

 

 

 

If you are gay, you will never

>be happy trying to pretend that you are not, or trying to suck

>up to bigoted right wing nut jobs. It will never happen.

 

 

 

 

 

Who are these "bigoted right-wing nut jobs"? Again, this clearly belongs in the POLITICS forum.

 

 

 

 

 

You

>will be surprised how being honest with yourself helps relieve

>depression. You are living some sort of twisted fantasy

>world, thinking that you are getting true facts from Fox News.

 

 

 

 

 

 

HAHHAHAHAHHAAHAAHA!!! That's another FINE diagnosis by Online Psychologist Paul Revere.

 

"You're depressed because you watch FOX NEWS!!!!"

 

LMAO!!!!

 

Typical liberal talking points labeling all closeted homosexuals as "self-loathing" and "dishonest".

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

> Get off the couch, smf get out into the real world.

 

 

 

 

Right. Only people who stay home are depressed. LMAO

Dont give up your day job hun...unless its selling your ass.

 

 

 

 

 

 

And what

>the fuck is a 32 year old doing eating happy meals anyway.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Extra-value meals.

 

 

 

 

 

>Ditch the junk food and the self-loathing and be honest about

>who you are.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

There we go AGAIN. Typical liberal talking points which belong in the POLITICS forum.

 

Just because you like to repeat "self loathing" and ""not being honest" over-and-over-and-over again (classic liberal tactic by the way) it doesnt make it true.

 

Closeted homosexuals are not "self-loathing" or "dishonest." Log Cabin republicans AND GAYS WHO watch Fox News are just as honest, self-loving, inteligent as anyone else.

 

Depression strikes people of ALL walks of life .

 

It just kills you that there are gays who completely reject the far-left agenda, and that there's absolutely nothing you can do to take away our gay cards. LMAO!

 

 

 

>>The truth does indeed make you free.

 

 

 

Indeed it does. Maybe you should watch Fox News and Bill O'Reilly so you can stock up on some TRUTH, instead of reading all the far-left liberal websites and talking points from PFLAG.

 

Your post belongs in the POLITCS fourm.

[+ deej]

RE: Beaten by the Queen of Hearts everytime...

 

In just one post:

 

202 lines, 146 empty lines (more than half)

 

24 lines of quoted text (probably more because you're sloppy about quoting)

 

32 lines (or fewer, see above) of content.

 

You're down to 6% (or less) noise-to-signal ratio.

 

I'd recommend a hiatus.

 

You are not serving yourself well.