I have never felt good with any dildo, regardless of price/size/realness etc. I even tried the ones with self-warming function and artificial skin that supposed to feel like real. Nope, not the same. Self-administered friction adds to this awkward feelings.
The real dick feels better because it's hard and flexible at the same time, warm and smooth. Silicone creates more friction (regardless how smooth it is + lube) and it gives this artificial sensation. Plus, real dick is attached to a living, breathing, passionate person. That means more that dick itself! Waaaay more.
Go for the real thing. Start with average size (or average+) and work your way up. Don't go for monster dick as a novice. It can end up NOT the way you imagined and it'll ruin your anticipations/expectations. I noticed, you just need to find the right dick for YOU. It's hard to explain but you'll feel it that it's just the right size.
As of the feeling... it feels awesome! Absolutely f...ing awesome! There's no comparing with anything else. I have much stronger mind-blowing orgasms when I bottom. I also feel "fulfilled" in both meanings of that word 😝 (I know, sounds silly). This warm feeling, I'm in the clouds and I don't want it to stop. Ever. Or... I can take a break and go in again.
You should try.