I've got a rather unusual problem. I'd love any advice.
My hottest fantasy at this stage of my life involves giving money to a dominant lover. It's similar to "FINDOM" but without the heavy humiliation/insulting quality. I"m not into that - or sending money to strangers - no I want to have a lover and shower him with money, let him have my wallet when. we go away together and he controls the credit cards. Maybe I fall in love with this person and we get married and I share all my money with him, but we still retain the master/slave quality in our bedroom interactions.
Ive had some experiences with this in different forms, and its incredibly sexy for me in real life, and luckily I have a lot of money, but it feels incredibly perilous, mostly because it's a powerful draw for sociopaths/predators who are sometimes charming. I'm not worried about my money, im more worried about bringing bad people into my life.
Is it possible to imagine finding a person who would enjoy playing with this fantasy, who would also be a good person, honest with me, respects limits, maybe even loves me? (In one version)
Or should I just brutally suppress this fantasy, which is taking me down dangerous roads?