thanks, @jeezifonly and @Unicorn - yall so silly...hahahaha
been too busy the past few weeks to be my typical introspective self, and have revisited the sage advice I have received from one of my earlier threads below, but for some reason, I am having incoherent conversations with myself - muddled with apprehensions, anxiety, and uncertainties with work, love life (or the lack thereof), the future, and just what I need and want to legitimately feel joy, not just spurts of happiness.
thanks to some of you that have shared your own difficult conversations via PM, as I have had similar conversations myself. I guess I'll get back to this thread once I can make sense of my thoughts and get some resolution.