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@Charlie, @purplekow, @jeezifonly This thread made me realize that there’s no ❤️ reaction option on CoM threads. My blue thumbs ups are really ❤️

I saw this post making its rounds on social media and wanted to share it here. To anyone reading this who falls into this category, I thank you. 🙏 ================ The Invisible Survivors: Long-Term AIDS Crisis Veterans When we talk about the AIDS crisis today, we often frame it in past tense - a tragedy that happened, a war that was fought and, thanks to modern medicine, largely won. But for long-term survivors who lived through the darkest years of the epidemic, the war never really ended. They're still living on the battlefield, surrounded by ghosts, carrying wounds that most of us cannot see. The Lost Generation That Didn't Die These are people who came of age in the late 1970s and early 1980s, who watched as a mysterious illness began claiming their friends, lovers, and neighbors. They saw the first obituaries in 1981 and 1982. They attended funeral after funeral throughout the 1980s and 1990s. They held hands as people they loved wasted away, often rejected by their own families, sometimes dying alone in hospital corridors because healthcare workers were too afraid to touch them. Many of these survivors were diagnosed HIV-positive in an era when it was a death sentence. They were told they had months, maybe a year or two if they were lucky. They quit jobs, burned through savings, said their goodbyes, and prepared to die. They helped others die with dignity. They became experts in hospice care, funeral arrangements, and managing unbearable grief. And then, miraculously, they didn't die. The Cruel Gift of Survival The development of effective antiretroviral therapy in the mid-1990s, and later the Affordable Care Act's guarantee of coverage, gave long-term survivors something they never expected: a future. But it came at a devastating cost. While their peers were building careers, buying homes, saving for retirement, and creating stable lives, these survivors were in survival mode. They have gaps in their work history that span years or even decades. They lack the professional networks, the retirement accounts, the home equity that people their age typically rely on. At 50, 60, or 70 years old, they're starting from scratch economically - if they can start at all. Many are essentially unemployable. HR departments may not explicitly discriminate, but they notice the gaps in résumés. They see the subtle physical markers of long-term HIV infection and treatment. They calculate the cost of adding someone to the health insurance pool. Despite possessing extraordinary skills - crisis management, emotional resilience, caregiving expertise, the ability to function under unimaginable pressure - these survivors find doors closed. The Psychological Toll Beyond the economic devastation lies something even more insidious: profound psychological trauma. Imagine living for 10, 15, 20 years believing each fever might be your last, each moment of fatigue a sign that your body was finally giving up. Imagine watching everyone you loved die, often horribly, and knowing you would be next. That kind of sustained terror doesn't just disappear when the medications start working. Long-term survivors suffer from PTSD, complex PTSD, depression, and anxiety at rates comparable to combat veterans. They have survivor's guilt. They have what some researchers call "traumatic grief" - mourning not just individual losses but the wholesale destruction of their entire social world. Some lost 50, 100, or more friends. Entire circles of support simply vanished. Many never told their families what they were going through. They isolated themselves, hoping they would die quickly enough not to become a burden. They made plans for suicide as a backup, just in case their deaths weren't swift. They developed what one survivor described as "a panic which was the natural byproduct of the reign of terror this disease has been." The Community's Blind Spot Perhaps most painful is the indifference they now face from the very community they belong to. The LGBTQ+ community has, thankfully, moved forward. Younger generations grow up with PrEP, with marriage equality, with the ability to live openly in ways previous generations couldn't imagine. The nightmare is over for them. But it's not over for long-term survivors. They remain trapped in that nightmare, living reminders of a past the community wants to forget. As one survivor put it: "There's no glamour, nothing sexy, and certainly little, if any, fun in this so our issues seem to be squarely placed in the middle of a blind spot." HIV service organizations focus their resources on prevention and helping newly diagnosed people manage their health. These are crucial services, but they leave long-term survivors without support for their specific needs: economic rehabilitation, mental health treatment for AIDS-related trauma, job placement programs, and community recognition. Long-term survivors gave everything during the crisis. They cared for the dying. They fought for research funding and compassionate treatment. They kept the community together when it was being decimated. They survived when survival seemed impossible. Now they need help catching up to the lives they couldn't live while they were busy helping others die and preparing to die themselves. What They Need Long-term AIDS survivors aren't asking for pity. They're not asking to be forever dependent on public assistance. They're asking for: - Economic support programs tailored to their unique situation - job training, placement assistance, and help building the financial security their peers had decades to create - Mental health services specifically designed for AIDS trauma, provided by professionals who understand the unique nature of surviving a genocide that targeted your community - Recognition from HIV organizations and the LGBTQ+ community that the war isn't over for everyone, and that those who fought longest deserve ongoing support - A chance to remake their lives into something meaningful, to honor the friends they lost by finally being able to live fully themselves Why This Matters to All of Us The story of long-term AIDS survivors isn't just LGBTQ+ history. It's human history. It's a story about what happens when society abandons its most vulnerable people, and about the extraordinary resilience of those who survive anyway. These survivors have skills our world desperately needs. They know how to show up in a crisis. They know how to care for people without judgment. They know how to maintain hope in hopeless situations. They know how to build community when everything is falling apart. We owe them more than we can ever repay. But we can start by seeing them, hearing them, and creating the support systems they need to finally, after decades of mere survival, truly live. The AIDS crisis isn't over. It's just evolved. And its longest-serving veterans deserve better than to be forgotten in the blind spot of our collective memory. -If you are a long-term survivor reading this, please know: Your life matters. What you endured matters. What you lost matters. And what you still have to give matters. You deserve support, recognition, and the chance to build the life you couldn't build when you were too busy surviving. Edward Kimble

I bumped this thread because I have not met him, and I’m hoping to hear from someone who has.

If you end up seeing him, I’d love to hear how it goes. Thanks. 😊

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For those who’ve attended the Buff Daddy’s events at Red Eye: Around what time do most of the dancers start working at the Friday events? Which night tends to have the most dancers—Friday or Sunday? Any intel will be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

Bumping to see if anyone has had firsthand experience with him. Any insights you’re willing to share will be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

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Aggressive as in insistently trying to coax you to make an appointment, or aggressive as in hostile and belligerent toward you? I ask because the former may suggest he’s desperate for business, while the latter may suggest that he’s unsafe to be around.

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