Moe

Thank you all for the feedback and advice. I'm not sure what I'll do yet, but lots of food for thought....I'm leaning towards the low moan or some comment like that feels great (with a warning if I find myself in the same "no return" situation....he gets that I like it already as I was lightly humping the table while he was going up and down my leg. My cock was pointed down so there was no missing what was going on. Oh, forgot to mention that when he started on my legs, he was down at my feet, grabbed both ankles and spread my legs apart....nothing like being spread eagle with a hard cock dangling in the center. As the leg/butt massage progressed I'm sure he saw the pre-cum leaking out as there was a nice wet spot when I got up....

 

I think there was a lot of great advise given and I'm inclined to not be too overt as that isn't our vibe....and I have no illusions that this will turn into much more than it is, but I do like to be surprised. I really like report-ins and I'll be sure to provide an update after I go next. Thanks again. This is why I love this Forum!!

Any updates on what happened? Don't leave us hanging. At least give us another story.

 

Well, that's Thailand and this is Florida. However, we could send law enforcement over there research purposes. PURELY research.

I volunteer my services for this "research".

When I was younger, I learned how to swallow a gulp of air and that would get rid of my hiccups. But drinking water usually works too.

Too expensive. I'll stick to juice diluted with water or fruity herbal tea sweetened with stevia

I like to use a paste made out of baking soda and water for my face. I let it sit for about 10 minutes and then wash it off when it feels tight. I'll sometimes rub on some tea tree oil as well. As for shampoo, I was my hair with baking soda once or twice a week and rinse it daily with hot water.

Please see a doctor about your HBP. You'll probably need medication to get it down closer to 120/80. The doctor will tell you about diet & exercise. Listen to his advise. They call HBP "the silent killer" for good reason.

 

Good luck and keep us posted on your progress.

 

~Boomer~

Don't worry, I plan to see a doctor as soon as I get paid. I really can't afford it at the moment since I just paid rent and bills. I will keep you updated on the progress in the future!

I was kinda silly suggesting that, wasn't I? Believe me, you will NOT find many Hugh Jackmans in such places to worry about being compared to.

 

You can easily work on making your body less "rotound", although it may seem more "rotound" to you than to others who are "rotound-er" than you, but don't shave off your hair. Bears and Otters are in much demand due to the manscaping overkill of recent years. The late great Burt Reynolds would never think of doing such a thing!

I don't plan to shave off all of my hair. Once I get a nice savings, I would like to just get laser hair removal for my back, shoulders and upper arms. I intend to keep all the hair on the rest of my body.

@Moe all the best to you. Maybe a job at Wal-Mart is not the best in the world, but it can be a step up for you. Make the most of it. You sound like a diligent worker, and that should go far. Once you get settled there, keep a bit of an eye out for other opportunities if you want. Have a steady job with a recognized employer like Wal-Mart can help that.

 

As for your family, if you have one and want to help them, do. I would advise you to remember that as being a member of that family you should help support that family, it also means that family has a duty to help support you. If you're paying the rent and need your sleep, they need to support you and be quite. Family support is not a one-way street.

 

You have the best hopes and wishes of me and a lot of people here. Please take that to heart. A lot of people who have never met you, will never meet you, are behind you.

Thanks for the hopes and wishes! I actually see Walmart as a step up from my last job. I will probably make twice as much compared to what I have been making in the last 4-6 months with my last job. I believe I am a diligent worker, I am just worried about my ability to be on my feet for 8 hours a day stocking groceries. I have gotten too lethargic and very stiff sitting in a car all day. I was worried that I would fall apart once I got the job, but after the interview I am not as scared. The interviewer was very nice and honest about things. I will just have to get used to moving fast and make sure I get plenty of rest at home.

As for my family, I don't hate them. I kind of understand how my mother was miserable marrying a man she didn't want and I understand how I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. It doesn't excuse her or my father for the crap they put us through, but I don't hate them. I have noticed my mom has changed over the years. She had 3 more children after me and she was never violent with them. I am hoping she regrets what she did to me and my older siblings. I don't love them like children should love their parents but at least I don't hate them. I actually moved out from them 2 years ago. I got sick and tired of how they took me for granted and never helped out so I found a room for rent and am now living with roommates. Best decision I have ever made. It took some getting used to and I do miss not having to cook, but it's much more peaceful where I live. I still keep in touch and go visit my mom once a week. It's nice because she babysits for my sister and I see her children as if they were my own. The best thing is I don't have to take care of them 24/7. As for my father, he lives 5 hours away. I called him up a few times and we were able to patch things up. He just doesn't try to keep in touch and I got tired of making the attempt over and over. I may drive down there in a few months once I get my life on track (and try to get my body to become similar to the one in your pfp).

I enjoyed the read (but snipped it for re-posting). If it makes you feel any better, we have ALL been there. Maybe not the exact same circumstances, but so many of us had parental issues, many job changes, issues with our health and appearances. All I can say is Join The Club!

 

We can't promise it will get any better. Many of us are STILL changing jobs and lifestyles despite being decades older than you. Some of us still haven't figured out what we want in life.

 

These are not solutions, but merely suggestions to think about. Maybe help put things in perspective.

 

Humorously you were once concerned about a car accident and never driving again, but you succeeded maintaining the taxi job for many years despite the recession and low pay. That is great! You are not TOO stubborn to try, try again.

 

The family problem... yup, we have all suffered. Gradually you must learn the Bette Davis technique in Now Voyager of "meeting half way". It doesn't sound like you are in trouble with the law and you are pretty discreet in your wild and crazy sex life (that is, if you have one), so the prudes shouldn't be that embarrassed about you shaming the family. Most importantly, you will need to forgive your parents for all of their sins. They did not know any better when they thought you would be a "mini-ME" of themselves and you turned out differently. Reading between the lines, I sense that your mother is very proud of you but may not say that to your face.

 

Don't knock Wal-Mart or other mainstream places you work at. Maybe Uber and flex driving for Amazon, delivering packages, are other possibilities due to your taxi experience even if these are just part-time side jobs on the side. Yet working at one location, like a major store or warehouse, at least gives you a social work life with others who won't try to pry into your private life but are nonetheless people you learn names to and can relate to on a day to day basis. Nobody will force you to go bar hopping with them or try to set you up on a blind date, but be as friendly as possible with everybody.

 

Also there is more variety of races and religions in such locations (like Wal-Mart, Amazon, etc.) so you naturally will blend in. Make sure you brush up on some Spanish too, since there tends to be multiple languages as well. Do NOT work at a place where 1.) everybody resembles you in cultural background (you've been there, done that) or 2.) everybody is the same but different than you and, therefore, you are the outcast.

 

Maybe you need some kind of schedule just to maintain a certain consistency. Each day, spend XX amount of time walking around the neighborhood. Spend XX amount of time every day lifting those $14 weights that you bought at Wal-Mart... maybe 25 times in the morning before you brush your teeth in the morning and 25 times before going to bed. Only eat XX amount each day for meals. Start out in small XX amounts dedicated to exercise and other needs, then slowly expand. For example, once you have done enough exercise consistently in your own private home with nobody watching you, then take the next leap and join a gym. Half the folks exercising there will be flabbier than you. Don't believe online pictures. Only a select few at your local gym look like Mario Lopez.

 

By the way, have you ever been to a nudist place? Trust me, for every Adonis you see at a nude beach, there will be ten others you wish would keep their clothes ON. Yet that might be worth a trip to get over certain, um, inhibitions.

 

Since you are online with this messageboard, I am guessing you won't object to joining a Meetup group (https://www.meetup.com/ ) in your area as well, one that shares similar interests as you. You can just join a group but not socialize with anybody until you are more comfortable. Just keep tabs on any get-togethers with that group. There are many kinds, such as groups of fellow cyclists, detective movie fans, fans of comic book super heroes, victims of oppressive Middle Eastern families and... surprise!... even male nude massage exchange. These latter groups tend to be more "private" (only fellow members know you are a member, but not all other eyes online) so the prudes in your family won't be bothered. If nothing else, you might find a new buddy to share, um, interests with.

I mainly started this thread because I thought that some members may have been going through similar things and was hoping to hear some success stories so I could be more encouraged to do better with my future. The one good (and bad) thing about me is I am very stubborn. It becomes a benefit when I am working, though with my last job it was more of a hinderance. I just kept putting more hours in, thinking that I would earn more if I worked more. It wasn't the case with the terrible dispatchers and it just caused me more stress and pain. I was finally able to let go and quit and even though things look difficult ahead, I am much more relaxed.

I actually plan to work for Uber/Lyft on Friday and Saturday nights. I am in the process of purchasing a car and I am told by a few drivers I would be able to make anywhere from $150-$300 a night, depending on how busy and what events are going on. I know someone that did Amazon Flex and thought about joining, but he warned me against it. He switched to Uber full time because they work you like a donkey at Amazon and play favorites with their buddies. I will be fine with Walmart after the initial two weeks of pain and suffering my body will experience from the lack of moving for the last 10 years.

For exercise, I have decided that I will stick to Mall walking for now. It is flat, air conditioned and safe. I won't have to worry about getting hit by a car or eaten by mosquitos. I will start slow and work my way up. I will be skinny once again in my life and I don't care how long it will take.

I have never been to a nudist place and will probably never will. I am not good around lots of people, and being around lots of naked people, even if they all looked like a naked Hugh Jackman, would make me shy and nervous. Thanks for the meetup.com suggestion. I will bookmark that site. I probably won't join any groups at first, I want to focus on my health and build up endurance in order to be able to go cycling or rollerblading or whatever else I may fancy at the time. Though the male nude massage exchange sounds interesting, I will stick to my one or two yearly sensual massages for now. It took me a while to find a masseur that had no problem touching my hairy and rotund body.

like others have said, your writing quality is nearly professional-level and pleasant to read....efficient, to-the-point, organized.......

 

please keep up with the daily cardio exercise.....45-60 minutes of breathing fairly hard.....as said, start easy (steady brisk walking) and increase.....this will be for the rest of your life!.....in a few months, you should start a weight-training program at a gym.....for life, too!......

 

the new job will be great.....standing rather than sitting, not-unpleasant conditions, a sense of accomplishment.....smile and have fun (and do what the boss says!)......get some comfortable shoes and some insole padding (if you don't have already)......as much as WalMart has a bad rep for (supposedly??) poor employee treatment, I presume a big company like that has some benefits you can take advantage of (insurance, 401K, education expenses, etc.??)......some of the employees may be not the coolest, but that's not a big worry......don't injure yourself!!

 

pay down any debt you may have.....set up a savings plan.....cut your daily/monthly expenses......

 

keep us updated!!

Thanks for the advice! As for walking, I have heard conflicting things. Should I walk everyday even though my legs and ankles are sore, or should I walk every other day to give time to heal? And yes, I do plan to weight train after I drop some pounds. I am not comfortable going to the gym at the moment due to my current size. I'll feel like everyone wouldn't be able to look away from my jiggling rolls.

As far as Walmart. I have heard bad things about them as well. I know one of the employees there due to them working at a restaurant I used to frequent and she was complaining about management being incompetent. I don't think it can be as bad as working for a taxi company where I had to work for long hours, get stuck in traffic, have someone give me a heart attack 5 times a day by either pulling out in front of me at the last moment to make their exit, or just slamming their breaks because they dropped their phone. The Dispatchers were a whole different story and to keep things short, lets just say I hope they all get crabs and lose their eyebrows for the suffering they inflicted on me.

As I said before, I don't plan to get too close to anyone at Walmart. I plan to be pleasant with everyone, do my job to the best of my ability, and go home. If I feel I could make friends, I will, but it won't be my focus. Saving money, paying off debt and getting healthy will be the priority for the next year. Well, maybe one encounter with the masseur Alexi (from miami) if he comes to my town this year .

It definitely did. You could do well in a job that involves writing.

 

Looking forward, have you thought about teaching? Maybe ESL?

Actually, I did. Years ago, I read about how Saudi Arabia was short on ESL teachers and that they were paying up to 60k a year. Since I speak Arabic (though at 1st grade level), I thought it would be a good fit. I wasn't sure that my English skills were good enough. Sure, I speak it well enough, but I don't think my grammar is great. I guess that's what college is for! I will look into classes at my local community colleges, it is something I could see myself definitely do.

I don't think I'd go to Saudi Arabia though, but I'll worry about that later.

One thing you mentioned you felt was a hindrance to get a job in your life was your name.

 

I don’t know if you are an American citizen, but if you are, and if you feel it is still a problem, in many states, you can legally change your name, for any reason, even just “I don’t like it”.

 

If you don’t feel you have a strong identification with your father’s name, and the first name your parents gave you is not something you love, why not consider legally changing it?

 

You have really good writing skill, I think filling in a few forms should be easy for you.

 

That is only addressing 1 of your many points, but it could be a part of the changes you want.

 

It could be a new start, a new job, a new fitness, a new name. A new life.

Thanks for the compliment on my writing skills. I never thought much of it since I finished my schooling overseas and one thing they didn't focus on was proper English. Most of the teachers were Arabic speakers who did not have qualifications to teach in English even though their job required it. I guess my obsession with reading Harry Potter, The Chronicles of Narnia and Lord of the Rings over and over really paid off!

As for my name, I actually like it and don't want to change it due to bigots not accepting different people with different backgrounds. I don't want to deal with people that can't accept me because of my name. It just gets aggravating when trying to find employment and it should have to be. It's the same with anyone who identifies as gay, we shouldn't have to worry that it will affect our employment in any way, and yet, it sometimes does due to a prick with a superiority complex. I think I'll just plan to move from this city. I've never been happy since the day I got here, so there is no reason to die here.

Thanks for the responses everyone!

I am going to be focusing on my health first and foremost. I will no longer be sitting in a car for 12-17 hours a day, everyday, ever again. My priority is to lower my blood pressure and lose weight. At the moment I can't afford an emergency room trip, and can barely afford and Urgent Care visit so I will immediately focus on my diet and make sure I walk everyday and see if it has an effect. When I went to have a physical 3 months ago, the doctor told me that my blood pressure was around 150 (I forgot the diastolic level) and that I needed to lower it. Rather than facing a doctor again I went to a pharmacy and used one of their do it yourself blood pressure cuffs. Apparently they may not be accurate and may have read my pressure a little higher than it is. I do remember thinking it was a little tight to fit around my arm. I'll make sure I use my first paycheck to go to and get looked at.

The interview at Walmart went smoothly and I got hired. I know for most, Walmart isn't the best place to work, but I am excited. I am a little worried about the pains my body will go through at first, yet, I know that it will be for the better. They hired me for stocking dairy products, so I will not have to deal with customers much since I'll be in the background rather than out front. I am a bit nervous since this is my first job with a big company like this, hopefully that will go away soon.

I don't plan to get personal with anyone I may work with. I've had enough drama to last me several lifetimes and so like YoungAD has stated, I will get the job done while exuding happiness. Thanks for the good wishes and support.

Hello!

I am not one to talk about my life to people, but I am just a bit too nervous about my future and need advice. My life hasn't been great for much of my time on this planet. My parents were not fit to parent. My father was never around and my mother was very abusive. Both of my parents are immigrants from the Middle East where stupid cultural practices took place that led to my grandfather forcing my mother to marry my father at the age of 15.

My mother was never happy with her life since that moment and took it out on her children. Beatings happened often for me. Stupid things like laughing in bed at my siblings would result in getting smacked in the face. There have been times when she would start beating me with her hand and end up kicking me because I'd cower on the floor while curled up in a ball. She would usually end those events by spitting on me. I was probably around 5 or 6 when the beatings started.

Why am I sharing this with you? Well, I think due to my upbringing, I am not really the most social person at my current age of 34. I am always scared to interact with people. My mother has always threatened me to keep my mouth shut about happenings at home. To never talk too much to anyone and that I would be beaten if I let anything that happened at home slip to anyone. I've been beaten for telling a classmate that her older brother and his wife came over for a visit once. So now, when I am out with the public, I tend to keep away from people. I am nervous to ask for help at stores. I am scared to ask for directions if lost and I am terrified of police just because my mom would scare us by threatening us with jail. I need this to change. I don't want to live like this anymore.

I live in a conservative city that has managed to stay relatively segregated. I wasn't able to find a job when I first moved here in 2003. My first and last names are very common Middle Eastern names that would elicit people to avoid me and I assume that is why none would hire me. Having finished high school overseas that no one has ever heard about may have also contributed. I applied at fast food places, every place that was hiring at every mall, janitorial jobs, not one would contact me. I ended up working for other Middle Easterners where they would under pay me under the table. They knew that most companies wouldn't hire someone with my name so I was making $200 for about 60 hours a week.

That went on for about three years. In that time, by some miracle, I was accepted into University that had living accomodations. I was ecstatic because I was about to be on the streets due to my roommate getting married. So I went to school with no plan and took some general courses. Then shit hit the fan. Before moving to this city, I had lived overseas with my family for a while. My grandmother passed away so my father sent us to take care of his father. His father got sick a year later and came to the states for treatment. When he went back, my father was with him. He died shortly after. My father then wasted 2 years in that country not working and spending all of his savings. When he finally went back to the states, he ceased all communications with us and stopped supporting us financially. I bring this up because fast forward to college, my mother kept putting pressure on me to bring her and my siblings here. It nearly broke me. I was stressed out all of the time, I couldn't study, I was angry at work (the poor pay didn't help), and I was coming to terms with me being gay.

I always knew I was gay, ever since I was about 7. I found my moms porn magazines and was instantly attracted to the men. But growing up at the time that I did (like so many others) and with my parents cultural background, I had to keep quiet about it and just told myself that it was just a phase. I remember one time that I wore my moms makeup and my dad was about to beat me senseless for it. It was a rare moment that my mother showed mercy and stopped him. So, ever since then, I don't discuss it.

Anyhow, my mom manages to make it here without me funding the trip. We get an apartment together and I pay the bills while everyone else gets to live their lives. I even took out extra school loans so I can help support my mom and siblings. Worst mistake I have ever done. I had to drop out of school because I never had time to study while working as many hours as I did and because I couldn't afford to make the tuition payments. Luckily for me, I put most of the loans in my mother's name. I was also in a car accident and was scared to drive or go out for a long time.

I end up leaving my poor paying job to go to a better paying one due to the fact that they really needed someone honest who can work a cash register. The one good (and bad) thing about working for Middle Easterners is that they all keep in touch with each other and gossip about everyone. I had a good reputation since I never went clubbing, partying, and just stayed home. And my register was never short, I was fast with dealing with customers and always treated people kindly. That good job lasted a year. I ended up going to a worse job because my mother said the opportunity was better and that it was her friend that ran the place. I ended up getting fired due to constantly fighting with the owner and due to my anger issues. I wasn't always an angry person. I was more docile and kind of just accepted my fate in life, but as time passed, I just kept getting angrier and angrier at how I always got the short end of the stick while everyone else around me was treated one hundred times better.

One of my ex-coworkers from a previous job became a cab driver and bumped into me when I was going around looking for a new job. He assured me that the taxi business was good and that he could get me hired. I loved the job. It had its negatives, but I basically didn't have to answer to anyone and the more I worked, the more money I made. Then the economy tanked in 2008/09 and the job became miserable. It was still better than working for Middle Easterners in their grocery stores so I stuck with it for 10 years.

Finally, I quit my job today. I switched from company to company a couple of times, but this last year has been horrible. Cab companies do not care about their drivers. They only care about the money drivers make them.The way the system works is that the company would charge a rental fee that covers the use of their vehicle, maintenance, insurance and dispatch. Drivers had to cover fuel. It has gotten ridiculous the last few months where I had to spend from my savings to pay the cab rent. Dispatchers are very corrupt. They accept bribes from certain drivers and feed them good trips while they would send drivers like me across town 7-10 miles to run a 5 dollar trip. I don't want to bore you with more details with the taxi industries corruption, especially since I feel like I have been rambling in this thread already, so let just say that it sucks and I had to leave due to high stress levels and chest pains. Turns out my blood pressure is really high at 208/122.

The main reason for this thread is I have an interview at Walmart tomorrow. I am really nervous because I have never had a job at an American company where I had to interact with people. Driving a taxi was easy because most people would just say hi, tell me where they were going and go back to their cell phone. I have also gained a lot of weight in the last 6 months due to stress eating. It sucks because I lost 70 pounds last year doing the Keto Diet and put it all back on and now I am scared that I won't be fast enough with the stocking at Walmart if I do get the job. I also don't want Walmart to be my future. More like a stepping stone. I thought it would do me good to get a job that will make me stand on my feet rather than sit on my ass all day like I did in the cab business.

Are there any fitness sites for beginners that you might recommend a tub o'lard like me to go to? I went for a mile walk today just to gauge my fitness level and nearly died from asphyxiation when I got to the top of a minor hill. How long would it take me to get used to standing and walking around Walmart for 8 hours a day? Is there anything I can do to speed up the healing process of the muscles in my legs so I am not in pain every night?

Finally, has anyone ever done a career change in their 30's? I am tired of being poor and I know that not everyone can be rich, but I would like to be able to own my own condo when I am 40 and to be out of debt. What would you guys recommend an introvert like me to pursue? I am willing to consider a trade school or community college, but I don't want to go and get into debt. I want to be able to pay it all off while I am studying. Are there any employers that pay well and train on the job? Also, what cities are more welcome to people with non English names? I'd love to leave this city.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I know this forum is mainly for escorting/massage but I am not really a member of anything online. I tend to just lurk in the shadows. I also like how the community here is so helpful and kind to one another. I don't expect many replies, just typing this has made me feel a little better - like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.

When Adam and Eve came to the earth.

Sometimes, just not often. I prefer mushrooms, more mushrooms, even more mushrooms, bell peppers and red onions.

i have a new Audi Q7, and would like to get extra cash to pay it off. Anyone have any experience driving with Lyft or Uber’s?

I have acquaintances that drive for Uber and Lyft. The money making days are Friday and Saturday night where you will have to work the bar scenes to make decent money. You could make an extra 150-300 dollars a night depending on what city you live in and what is going on in town. I highly recommend you order some barf bags or buy buckets from the dollar tree. Get rubber floor mats as well. It's not worth it to work the weekdays unless there is an event (sports/concert). If you're willing to come out early before work, you might be able to pick up 1-2 trips that go to the airport which will net you anywhere from 15-40 bucks a day.

Pics are very familiar but my scammer radar is going haywire.

I walked out on Colin Farrell and Angelina Jolie’s movie Alexander. It was just so dreadfully boring.

Saw 2 was the second one I couldn’t make it through. What is up with people wanting to watch gore?

I'd die choking on my own vomit if I even attempted to eat one.

This is one of the reasons why (other than being poor ) I don't hire much. I'm a spiteful prick when I've been treated wrong, mostly because I always try my best to treat everyone good. And if this happened to me, I'd be tempted to hire them again, and give them a nice drink that will knock them out and when they come to, they'd be naked, tied to a tree, and covered in honey for the bugs to feast on. I fear prison so I'd never do it, but I'd really want to.

"Good guy, cute, friendly, hot, does a good massage on a table, at a reasonable price.

Interestingly, while all the parts were there, it felt like going through the motions.

He does your glutes but doesn't really go in there. He does a good massage but never really gets into it. I guess it's a job and it pays.

Not sure if I'd repeat."

That quote is from Capitano from the thread that Kman linked. It describes the experience perfectly. The guy was nice enough, but it just felt like he was going through the motions with very little erotic touch. I figure he will do more if hes attracted to you or maybe offer more money.

It annoys me that he posted such blurry pics.

I just got into a new show called The Outpost. It's not that great (not terrible either) but one of the main characters played by Jake Stormoen has caught my eye. He's adorable and I hope I never see him in person because I don't think I could stop myself from launching myself at him.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P1y2O2c9Hw

The only good feature I have is my hair and I found that it is very easy to take care of. I mix about 3 full tablespoons of baking soda into a tall cup of water and use it instead of shampoo. It's the "No Poo" method that you can easily google. I used to have horrible dandruff but this works better than head and shoulders, and I only need to use it twice a week at the most. I use straight apple cider vinegar as a conditioner and it is great.

As for the guy in the pic, he'd be sexy if he wasn't on drugs and worked out more.

https://rentmasseur.com/davidsmiths

Same Guy?

I would be so good to him

Steven says he's from Texas while David says Arizona.

I hope Steven is real, I could nibble on him for hours. Unfortunately I don't deal with people that have no reviews. If you take the plunge, beware of the scammers that try to get you to buy them iTunes prepaid cards.

I saw him last year, really nice guy. Massage was almost nonexistent and went straight to fun. It didn’t last an hour though, which was a let down but for the price it was okay.